I think it’s pretty evident by now, but let’s just say, I’m a sucker for a good inspirational quote.
Case in point: Just check the early days of my IG profile. I made those quote art images like they were going out of style.
The kids I nanny for got their school planners the other week, and me, being the school supply junkie that I am, of course wanted to flip through them. Fondle the crisp pages. Smell the freshly printed ink. I geeked out a little.
But let’s be real: the best part of the planners is hands down…the cheesy inspirational quotes.
You know what I’m talking about – the images of a hang glider with something about “soaring;” or a weathered mountain climber boasting about perseverance.
And just for the record, I always tried to be as minimally cliched as possible with my images.
But I digress.
I flipped open his planner and the first quote I came across was this one:
“Perfection is not attainable, but if we chase perfection we can catch excellence.” – Vince Lombardi.
And when I read this, I actually inadvertently let out an audible groan of disgust. The little boy was like….”Are you okay?”
But this quote absolutely made my skin crawl. Chase perfection?! Come on, Vince, you’re better than that!
Trust me, I am all for doing the best you can and working hard and striving for excellence. But chasing perfection? That is a one-way ticket to destruction. Just ask 78 lb high school me. Because that’s what I was doing: chasing perfection.
So you can imagine how my gag reflex was triggered when I read this in an elementary school planner – right there for these impressionable little minds to soak up and internalize.
If there is one thing I’m going to teach my future kids (God willing), it is not to chase perfection.
Here’s the thing about perfection – aside from the fact that only Jesus was perfect – Perfection communicates that everything less than that unattainable standard is “not good enough.” A failure. A let down. By encouraging our kids to chase perfection, we are literally setting them up for failure.
During my anorexia, I had in my mind’s eye the notion of what I considered perfect: the body, hair, appearance, clothing, friend group, weight, BMI, etc. Couple that with crippling “people pleasing” tendencies, and there was literally no way I was going to settle for anything less.
And I nearly died trying to achieve it. #notanexaggeration
So, what should we chase?
Let’s chase God.
I know, I can hear the eye rolls.
Let’s seek after His heart. His will. His face. Let’s chase after that. Because when we do – all those other things will fall into place – all those things we exhaust ourselves with when we’re striving for perfection – the self control, the integrity, the discipline, the excellence – those things will come naturally when we put our focus on chasing after Him.
I know, it’s a weird concept to think about: chasing after God. I mean, heck…shouldn’t He be chasing after me? Well, yes, and He does. But God also wants to be pursued.
God is a jealous God. He tells us so in Exodus 34:14. “Do not worship any other god, for the Lord…is a jealous God.” And that verse always confused me: Jealousy is so negative. I didn’t get it.
That is, until I went to inpatient. When I, for the first time, really sought after God.
I feel like my whole life was just kind of going through the motions of Christianity, taking for granted His love and presence in my life.
It wasn’t until I was at rock bottom, desperate for His help and grace, that I realized that God isn’t going to force Himself into my life. He doesn’t want to compete. And He won’t. He will allow me to pursue — to chase — whatever my heart desires. And during that dark time, I was chasing perfection. Chasing it all the way to death’s doorstep.
But during my pursuit – or chase – of perfection, God was always there, He was just waiting for me to chase Him. Because the second I took my eyes off of perfection and shifted my gaze to Him, that’s when the healing took place. And He swooped in and healed my brokenness. He had been waiting all along.
But I had to pursue Him.
There is nothing good that comes from chasing perfection. And I will take that all the way to the bank.
Chasing perfection leads to bondage. Chasing God leads to freedom.
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MY PUMPKIN ICE CREAM RECIPE!
I shared this (my fav food) with you in Monday’s video and I received so. many. requests. for the recipe.
SO – I made a Facebook/Tasty/Buzzfeed-style video (read: < 1 minute) of the recipe!
Hope you enjoy!
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