What did the moon bring to the beach on August 21?
So who saw the eclipse??
In true Caralyn fashion, I….didn’t.
I waited until two hours before to realize that I had to have special glasses to safely look at it, and the low key hypochondriac in me freaked out that I for sure was going to go blind if I glanced at the sun without them.
So, I just experienced the darkness shift from my jogging route in lower Manhattan.
I’m not going to lie, the whole hubbub over the eclipse was kind of fascinating.
I mean, you’d think the sky was going to open up and start raining iPhone 8’s from the hype this solar event was getting.
But what really intrigued me though, was how it seemed like, overnight, everyone became an armchair astrologer. And no, that was not a rookie word slip. I meant astrologer…as in the zodiac signs or whatever they are. Leo…Gemini…Cancer…blah blah blah.
And forgive me if you’re “into” horoscopes, but to be blunt…I just don’t buy into that crap. And frankly, I stay away from it with a 10 foot pole. My mother always warned me never to flirt with stuff that wasn’t “from God.”
But I mean, people are really getting into the repercussions of this solar eclipse. How, like, it could mean the rise or fall of a dictator. How, it can bring about certain aggressive or dominant traits in certain astrological signs. Heck, some people are speculating that there even could be more babies conceived today, as the eclipse causes a stirring in one’s
Ugh…give me a frickin’ break.
But basically, the overall theme among these said, “expert” astrologists, was that the act of the moon blocking out the sun — blocking out the light — thus allowing darkness to cover the earth, brought about a lot of “doom and gloom” theories.
As I was reading about what the eclipse actually was – with the moon coming between us and the sun, I couldn’t help but think about the other “sun” in my life. The “Son” with an “o” and a “Capital ‘S.'”
But I started thinking about what in my life was coming between me and the Son. What was blocking my view of Him.
And people, if you’ve never sat down and had that conversation with yourself, well…let’s just say it’s not a very fun thing to think about.
I thought about a lot of different “blockers” — everything from busyness, to anger, to social media — but there was one thing that stood out above the rest.
Pride is the biggest thing in my life that gets in-between me and the Son.
I mean, everything in my life can be boiled down to my struggle with pride. Right down to the anorexia in my past.
Proverbs 16:18 “Pride comes before destruction.”
Yeah…that pretty much sums it up.
But the more I thought about it, literally everything in life that I struggle with is an offspring of pride.
Not accepting forgiveness from Jesus — that’s pride that my sin is greater than the Cross.
Being judgmental or harshly critical of others — even just in my thoughts. — sneaky pride.
Refusing advice or guidance from others — pride.
Being overly concerned about looks or clothing or hair or outward appearance, or friend groups or other “status-y” things — pride.
Literally every bad thing in my life comes from pride.
So what’s a slightly-neurotic-when-it-comes-to-sun-safety girl to do? How does one eradicate pride?
That’s the million dollar question.
Well, humility is the opposite of pride, but adopting a spirit of humility is not something that you can just non-chalantly incorporate into your life…like bangs. Or a new Instagram aesthetic.
Turns out humility takes practice. It takes work.
And our greatest example of humility is Jesus on the cross.
So that’s where it has to begin: Contemplating the Cross. The gift. And what brought Him there.
Because when I realize that all the crap I’ve done — All the sassy things I’ve thought in my head. All the self-centered decisions or preoccupations. My eating disorder. — When I realize that all of those things — that I’m personally responsible for — were the nails on that Cross, it kind of puts me in my place.
So that’s the answer I have for now.
The answer is always Jesus.
Hope you didn’t burn your retinas today.
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