I think I’m going to call this season of my life, The Season of Awareness.
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The Season of Awareness.
I had a really incredible experience this past weekend when I was home in Ohio.
It was one of those beautiful fall afternoons in the scenic Ohio River Valley where the leaves are so vibrant that the trees look like they’re on fire.
And my mom invited me outside to sit at the pool bar and just have a little mother daughter time.
Ever since my mom’s stroke, she has become so perceptive at reading people. It’s like she has a sixth sense or something. But anyway, she could tell that I had a heavy heart, and just invited me to unplug and go enjoy the crisp fall afternoon outside.
And while we were out there, she invited me to pray.
Now, I’m going to be honest, I haven’t really prayed in front of someone in a long time, and I was pretty self conscious…even though it was my mom. I just felt…really vulnerable. Almost…phony. And maybe that is a glaring red flag that my prayer life needs work, but whatever, I digress.
She went first.
And I’m tellin’ ya…it was one of the most moving experiences of my life.
My mom has always had a special connection with the Lord, but ever since her stroke, it’s like she literally has God’s ear. All the time. It’s like she has a direct connection with Heaven.
But she started praying, and I kid you not, at that moment, the wind started picking up, and I felt this beautiful breeze on my cheeks. It was honestly as those God Himself was giving me a little kiss on the cheek. And while she was praying, the wind chimes started gently playing a little melody in the breeze. And that smell of fall just filled my nostrils. I was having a total sensory experience.
And all I could think about in that moment was the closeness of God.
How, He is all around us. And how, I need to be more aware of His presence. I can be so wrapped up in worries or technology or fears or the little stresses of the day, that I literally can miss the nudges of love from God – be it in the form of wind chimes, a gentle breeze, the smile of a child, a song lyric, etc.
We had a beautiful prayer time that afternoon. My mom is so in tune with her loved ones, always praying for exactly what they need. We both ended that afternoon in tears of gratitude and love.
Coming back to New York City yesterday, I was really trying to hold onto that awareness of God’s closeness.
I’m only here for 48 hours, and then I have to go back to Ohio for a photoshoot. But yesterday evening, I decided to take a little walk.
And that night, I was blessed with literally the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen in my life. And I have seen some pretty incredible ones in my lifetime: Wisconsin, Iceland, Utah. But this one took the cake.
And I stood there watching the sky absolutely ablaze in all different shades of coral and pink, and I just smiled, knowing that God was again revealing His love for me in that moment.
For the last couple years now, I’ve been on the quest for love, and one of the things my mom prayed for that afternoon was for me to allow someone to love me.
And perhaps this is the first step.
Recognizing all the ways in which God loves me. Learning to see and be aware of all the little love notes He leaves.
Like I said, The Season of Awareness.
What are some of the ways that you recognize God’s love for you?
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