The Devil Works Harder…

There are some things in life that are uncomfortable to talk about.

Politics, Religion and Money…those are the classic “dinner party no-no’s…”

But if you know anything about me, you know I don’t shy away from those…

But there is a topic that even I will greatly hesitate before bringing up, and that is the topic of spiritual warfare.

Spiritual warfare: an uncomfortable topic, but very real and very rampant in today’s world. An unexpected spiritual attack on one of the most beautiful NYC days, proves that even in a strong recovery, we can never lose diligence or focus. #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #catholic #faith #christianity #jesus #healing #god

I mean, in today’s secular society, it’s one thing to openly admit you believe in God…it’s quite another…even in most Christian circles…to admit you believe the enemy is real.

Which, frankly for the number of people who believe in crystals and psychics and other “moon-sign-adjacent” mumbo jumbo, you’d think that saying you believe in Satan is par for the course. But it’s not…

It’s uncomfortable because it’s truly scary, and frankly is something I don’t like to dwell on and invite into my psyche.

So I treat it like I treat the reptile house at the zoo…I know it’s there, but I will not go anywhere NEAR it.

That’s because during my anorexia, I had too close of a relationship with that evil, that — I will hold firm to my statement that I believe anorexia and other destructive eating disorders is actually spiritual warfare. And I would invite you to listen to my testimony where I explain how -at inpatient – the darkness that had control of me was expelled from my body in an incredible out-of-body experience. (I will link that here.) OR – the time after I was praying outside of Planned Parenthood in NYC, and as I was walking home, I was literally attacked by a bird. (I will link THAT here…)

SO – if you’re still reading after that, and I haven’t scared you away…welcome 🙂 My name is Caralyn, and you’re safe here. hahah

But seriously…I had another experience over the weekend, that I can only describe as a spiritual attack.

I have mentioned before that on my running route in the city, there are 3-4 clearly anorexic women that I pass along the way. And again, I know it’s terrible to “judge” someone as anorexic, but this is one area where – as someone who nearly died from anorexia – I have some authority on the matter, and can absolutely tell the difference between a “very/borderline unhealthily skinny” woman, and a woman who is suffering from anorexia/another eating disorder.

There are “tell tale signs” that, only unless you’ve had it, can you spot a mile away. (I.E., sinewy muscles, being able to see someone’s backbone vertebrate all the way down to their buttocks, having elbow/knee bones that are larger than their emaciated arms/legs, fine peach fuzz on their face, gray/dull skin, a void/vacant look to the eyes etc.) I could go on…

Well, anyway…I’m running along at a moderate pace…I’m not trying to break any records here. After my disordered relationship with exercise, I now run for enjoyment and to move my body. I don’t keep “pace,” I don’t push myself until I break. I just listen to my latin music and enjoy a break in my day.

Well anyway, somehow, one of these women gets synched up with me. Except she is doing intervals, consisting of an all out sprint to the brink for one minute, and then walk for the next minute. Repeated.

And guess who is right in the middle of that circuit: me.

Spiritual warfare: an uncomfortable topic, but very real and very rampant in today’s world. An unexpected spiritual attack on one of the most beautiful NYC days, proves that even in a strong recovery, we can never lose diligence or focus. #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #catholic #faith #christianity #jesus #healing #god

So, literally every other minute, I’ve got this mayyyybe 80 pound woman passing me, sprinting by in a bra and short shorts. The sight of her made me absolutely lose my breath: she is so skin and bones I was worried that this woman’s heart was about to literally give out. I could see every rib on her back, every bone in her shoulder blade, ever tendon in the back of her kneecap. Clearly, the image was so disturbing it has been seared into my mind.

And every single minute, it’s zoom, she’s sprint by me, and then walk, and I’d unfortunately have to run past her, knowing that seconds later, she’s going to sprint past me again, and round and round this terrible cycle went for, probably close to ten minutes. Ten or eleven times, we had a pass/pass back and forth…

And all the while, I’m just feeling absolutely sick to my stomach. I was no longer having an enjoyable mental break, grooving to my music, enjoying my run — I was transported right back to my own anorexia, back in 2007 when I was — in that same frantic, desperation I was picking up from this woman — just killing myself with starvation and outrageous exercise, when I got myself down to 78 pounds.

I found myself thinking — “I wonder how I would have looked next to her at my worst.” I was reminded of the destructive thoughts that would go through my own mind, back during my disease, and I found myself actively fighting off thoughts of, “Well, look at you running now, you phony.” “Everyone can see through your little, ‘enjoyment’ of running.” Look at her body.” “Look at her body.” “Look at her body.”

I was being spiritually attacked.

Right there. On one of the most beautiful days of the fall — a crisp 70 degrees, not a cloud in the sky, a gentle breeze — A day I had been so excited to go out and enjoy the perfect weather on a run….during a time when I have never been stronger in my recovery: Airtight – for years, and the enemy zeroed in on an attack.

So I called my dad.

Right there on my run: “Hey Siri, Call dad.”

And sure enough, like my wonderful father always is, he was right there for me, picking up after one ring.

And his advice to me was so great, I just had to share it.

I told him the story — he had also known about these “notorious” women, because I had expressed my concern for them to him, and how I wish I could somehow reach out to them, or give them a link to my blog so they can get help or know they’re not alone.

Well anyway…He just calmly said, “Caralyn, pray for her, and go run a different route home.”

I mean, leave it to my dad to just give me the one-two punch of best advice/fatherly wisdom ever.

Spiritual warfare: an uncomfortable topic, but very real and very rampant in today’s world. An unexpected spiritual attack on one of the most beautiful NYC days, proves that even in a strong recovery, we can never lose diligence or focus. #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #catholic #faith #christianity #jesus #healing #god

And that’s exactly what I did. And afterwards, all was okay.

But isn’t that wild…that I put up with that attack for ten minutes, when the answer was so obvious: just change routes.

Spiritual warfare: an uncomfortable topic, but very real and very rampant in today’s world. An unexpected spiritual attack on one of the most beautiful NYC days, proves that even in a strong recovery, we can never lose diligence or focus. #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #catholic #faith #christianity #jesus #healing #god

I mean, I live in NYC. It is a literal grid system. I could just hop over one street and take that way home. But I was clouded in my thinking. I was letting the enemy weasel his way into my mind and start shooting fiery arrows to shake my foundation and get me off course in thought.

But the first thing my dad said was the real solution: pray for her.

In all my other interactions with this woman, my heart has gone out to her, I’ve wanted to figure out how to help her, concerned about her wellbeing, about her home life….and just like that, those feelings were forgotten, and I was instead, focused on darkness.

Pray for her.

Yes, there is evil in the world, but there is no darkness that can withstand the power of Jesus when we call upon Him in prayer.

He is our shield. He is our defender. He is our protector.

Spiritual warfare: an uncomfortable topic, but very real and very rampant in today’s world. An unexpected spiritual attack on one of the most beautiful NYC days, proves that even in a strong recovery, we can never lose diligence or focus. #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #catholic #faith #christianity #jesus #healing #god

“At the name of Jesus every knee will bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth.” Philippians 2:10

Pray, and then change route.

Let God do what He can, and then I’ll do what I can…which is change my path, away from anything that is making me stumble.

Spiritual warfare: an uncomfortable topic, but very real and very rampant in today’s world. An unexpected spiritual attack on one of the most beautiful NYC days, proves that even in a strong recovery, we can never lose diligence or focus. #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #catholic #faith #christianity #jesus #healing #god

I’m not proud of my glaring weakness that afternoon. It’s humbling to see that, even when I think my recovery is rock solid, the enemy can still find a crack to try and penetrate.

How grateful am I that God’s strength and power is not only shown best, but made perfect in my weakness. For because of Christ, when I am weak, He is strong. 2 Cor 12:9-10

Spiritual warfare: an uncomfortable topic, but very real and very rampant in today’s world. An unexpected spiritual attack on one of the most beautiful NYC days, proves that even in a strong recovery, we can never lose diligence or focus. #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #catholic #faith #christianity #jesus #healing #god

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98 thoughts on “The Devil Works Harder…

  1. Excellent advice; give it to God. We can work as advocates for others and there will be times for our direct interaction; however, asking for Devine interaction is always a simple and seamless action. I’m proud that you did not give up on this young lady. Hugs and Love 🤗 & ❤️!

    1. thank you so much HJ! you’re so right about that – asking for help from Papa is always the best course of action. Sending lots of hugs and love!! 🙂 🤗 & ❤️

  2. Great post – I sometimes feel a little strange bringing up this topic in casual conversation. I’ve been reading The Screwtape Letters recently and if I needed any other proof, it’s there, plain as day. It’s really easy for the enemy to win if nobody believes he is real…

    I’ve also found that that bringing those attacks into the light, often by sharing them with someone I trust, makes them seem quite ridiculous in the first place!

    1. thank you so much Sean. Me too – i’ve been wanting to read that book. Do you think I should? I’ve always been a little afraid to be honest. And I agree – there’s a saying that says, the devil’s greatest victory was getting people to believe he doesn’t exist. yikes. thanks for stopping by! big hugs to you! xox

      1. I would highly recommend it. Most of the chapters highlight small but very key ways that the enemy can trick us or take us off course, which also informs how we can respond. It is a little weird to read about God as ‘the Enemy’ in the book, but I would definitely recommend it. Take care!

      2. Awesome. I’m ordering it on Amazon right now!! Thank you!! (You can expect to see a blog post about it when I’m finished…..which, knowing me…will be in like, February 2022 hahahhah)

  3. Wow. I really needed this today, Caralyn. I most certainly will take this wise counsel to heart and act on it. In a funny way, Im thankful you had that experience. In a not so funny way, but a more awe-inspiring way, The Lord knows exactly how to reach His children. Amen.

    1. Hi Eden, thank you so much for taking the time to read it! i’m glad it resonated with you. You’re right – it was a huge learning opportunity. God always knows how to reach us indeed! big hugs to you xox

  4. Wow Caralyn, such a powerful post. While reading, my thought was to change your route as your dad suggested. But I didn’t consider the spiritual attack that was going on. Stay strong in Him! 🙏🏻❤️

    1. thank you so much John. Yes – change the route and give my worries to God. That was the solution. I can’t believe I didn’t see that – my judgement was clouded :/ Grateful to have my dad to set me straight! 🙂 so glad you stopped by! hope you’re having a great day so far! Hugs and love xox

    1. Hey Jeff! the means of first resort indeed. I can’t believe I didn’t see that solution from the jump. My thoughts and judgment were clouded by what was, what i have to believe is the enemy trying to worm his ugly way in. And you’re right – I am very blessed to have such a great dad (and of course mom, too) who is a strong man of faith and available to help at the drop of a hat. Yes – things are great! Home was absolutely wonderful – had some really meaningful conversations while I was there – ones that brought everyone a lot of peace. And we’re taking family photos in just a few weeks in October, and guess what – Steven will be joining me in coming home! 🙂 i am so so excited. And so is my family to get to spend time with him. My brother goes, “He raises our collective ‘cool factor’ by a factor of 10!” hahah Yes, and you too! I hope you and your girls are having a wonderful close to the summer and welcome to fall! 🙂 big hugs to you all xo!

      1. Didn’t see it coming? Have you heard the old saying, “When you’re up to your ass in alligators, it’s hard to remember that your initial objective was to drain the swamp.” Welll, you were up to your ass in a demonic attack! Hard to think clearly under such an assault! Here’s an image for you; ju jitsu. It’s a martial art with no blows. It’s all about using your enemy’s energy against him by redirecting it back at him….flips and the like. So…you mentally always have a red cape over your shoulder. Whenever the devil gives you a “bull’s rush” just hold that red cape in front like a bullfighter and Ole’! You redirect him to God. You can imagine him trying to hit the brakes!

        Or whatever works for you!

        I’m so glad that the healing with family continues! Great to hear. Maybe I’ll someday meet Steven and can also be cool by association! Already am with you! 😊

        Hillary finished her medical assistant externship and has been hired by the urgent care she externed at, so praise God for her success!!! We’re all so very excited! And Olivia will be coming here late October for several days. She recently was promoted at Nationwide Insurance Corp HQ in Columbus. We’ll all be in the same place for the first time in 3 years!! I’m planning a celebratory dinner at a high-end Scottish restaurant on the Collierville old town square.

        Stay well. You are in my prayers and hugs! Till next time!

      2. oh wow – what a great thought – redirect to God! and fun fact — I never knew that’s what the red cape was for in bull fighting! But dang, that’s so obvious now – it’s there to redirect the bull! (duh caralyn! hah) But that’s such a great visual that I’m going to keep with me. haha Jeff, you already ARE cool!! And wow!!!! CONGRATS HILLARY! Gosh, what a blessing, and holy cow that’s some hard work that paid off!! And Congrats to Olivia too! your girls are crushing it!! Oh, gosh that makes my heart so happy to hear you’ll all be together! Know that I’ll be praying for your reunion, what a beautiful thing. And yumm – I’ve never had Scottish food, but the location sounds fabulous. Nothing beats a night out on the town!! Thank you Jeff! Have a wonderful night! xox

  5. Hi Caralyn…you AND your dad responded well to this attack: you sought reinforcement, and he provided the ammo for your battle. Here’s more confirmation about Satan’s schemes as well as God’s plan for us–“Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.” (Ephesians 6:10-13) Stand firm, Caralyn! You are standing in the strength of Jesus Christ!

    1. Thank you so much friend for this. You’re right – my dad is such an awesome man, and he really set me straight that day. I’m blessed to have him in my life! And yes! I love that verse – we must put on the armor of god. What a powerful visual, huh!? so glad you stopped by! Hugs and love xox

  6. Wow, C. You put multiple layers in this one. 🙂 Had several thoughts as I went through.

    “it’s one thing to openly admit you believe in God…it’s quite another…even in most Christian circles…to admit you believe the enemy is real.” Yeah. I think that’s one of the biggest problems in Christian circles, they’re not really Christian. Something I’ve noticed since the Covid mess started, I honestly and sincerely think that God is testing His people. Seeing who will stand and who will not. You’ve done well to not only see the spiritual aspect of all this, but to stand and speak about it. Don’t be afraid to continue. I’m afraid it’s not going to be long before many have a rude awakening regarding truly spiritual things.

    “Well, look at you running now, you phony.” “Everyone can see through your little, ‘enjoyment’ of running.” “Look at her body.” “Look at her body.” “Look at her body.” Leave it to the enemy to always hit you on the weak side, and with a lie at that. That’s what you have to look at. It doesn’t matter that you have a weakness in that area, the point is he is LYING. God has freed you from the bad part of eating and exercising, so all the enemy can do is lie to you about it. When I’m hit with a similar type of attack, I pray something like this: “Father, I’m being hit with stuff. It feels real, but I know it’s a lie and that’s where I’m taking my stand, in Your truth. Please tell the enemy to go do whatever with himself.” The enemy will always try to create a false reality with feelings and lies. Combat that by stating the truth, out loud and over and over if need be.

    “I’m not proud of my glaring weakness that afternoon.” Hey. You have no cause to be embarrassed about what happened. Let me give you my take on this: a woman, who is obviously in the enemy’s grasp, is running right next to someone who, with the power of Jesus, can provide her with truth to set her free. The enemy couldn’t let that happen! He had to stop you at all costs. He knew you cared for the woman and that you wanted to help. He was afraid if he didn’t ambush you, you were going to attack him (his hold on her). So, given the nature of this surprise attack, praying for her and choosing another route was the way to go. Strategic retreat. It’s not running away, it’s dodging the enemy until you have a better advantage. We’ll just pray that God gives you a heads up next time so you’ll be prayed up and ready to help when God provides an open door. By the way, still praying for that young lady in your building and that God gives you an opportunity there.

    The times of the signs are here, and the shadows of what is to come are falling on us. Troubling and scary, yes, but we can be at peace knowing He’s told us about it ahead of time and that He’s always in control. Like your meme said, He has not given us a spirit of fear, but one of power. (2 Timothy 1:7) Keep standing and trusting! Praying for you! Have a great week! 🤗💛

    1. Kenneth, I love your response!! Yes, I believe the same as you, they are not under Christ’s control. And everything else you said!!
      Caralyn, I fight anxiety all the time. What helps me most is singing a Scripture song, or hymn. Because at those times of attack, I can’t even read the Bible, but God mercifully lets it flow out of my heart.
      Definitely it’s not always easy to talk about, but I’m so glad you did! WE Christians need to be bold! Thank you for proclaiming Truth!!
      <3

      1. Hi friend! Yes, I agree – Kenneth’s response really hit home! And thank you so much for sharing that awesome advice – yes! I find song to be such a powerful prayer language too. It hits at a different part of the soul, and I believe the Holy Spirit is able to move through music in a way we cannot fully understand. I think today I’ll listen to my Christian spotify instead of my normal latin hits. 🙂 So glad you stopped by. Hugs and love xox

    2. Gosh, Kenneth – this was such an amazing letter of encouragement. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, it meant so much and was exactly what I needed to read this morning. You really hit me with some truth bombs haha – I definitely agree that Covid has put God’s people to the test in a very real, very tangible way. I mean, isolating his people from gathering for nearly a year? That definitely is quite the exercise of faith. And amen – LIES. Looking back at what was going through my head, it’s like looking back at what was going through my head during the disease…sitting here now, I can glaringly obviously see how they were lies. But in the moment, it’s like your judgement is clouded. Gotta get prayed up for sure! And you’re absolutely right – these several women that are in my little day-to-day circle that I can see are suffering, I believe that God will make a way for some sort of conversation door to be opened. I mean, heck – I’ve got to do my laundry TODAY, so perhaps we’ll have a run in just yet! haha thanks again for always being such a great friend Kenneth. You’re a blessing to me! Hugs and love xox

    3. Perhaps you could have some business cards printed with the name of your website, your book and one or two appropriate quotes from the Bible, something you could hand out to these women when you cross paths. It may be the nudge in the right direction, or a small light in a dark tunnel that they need.

      1. Hi Lisa! Yes! You know what, I actually DO have business cards with just that on them! But I have never brought them with me…truthfully because I’m afraid they’ll disintegrate from sweat if I put them in my pocket! haha (sorry, waaaaay too much TMI!) But no more excuses!! I think the real reason I had never brought them is because I was scared!! But not anymore! That is such a great idea with the bible verses — I’m definitely going to do that!! Thank you so much for stopping by and for this awesome tip! Hugs and love xox

  7. Caralyn, a great post. I’m still pondering your recent post What about God. I’m trying to imagine hundreds of billions of galaxies (in a universe that has no end). What an awesome thought.

    1. Thank you so much Cethru! Right? It really is astounding to ponder what an incredibly complex and nuanced existence we’re blessed with – and how it must come from Someone who loves us immensely! Hugs and love xox

  8. “Pray for her.” This is what stuck out to me. I’m glad you were able to seek out your dad for help. Satan is so sneaky….he knows how to get to us, how to confuse us. In other words, Satan sucks.

    1. Hi Leigh! Yes! That is always what I think when I see this woman out — or when she’s with her husband, I always include him in my prayer too. But that day, my thoughts were clouded by the enemy. And you’re aboslutely right – I’m so blessed to have such an incredible father who is a strong warrior for Christ indeed. He really is so sneaky. Gotta put on that armor of God. hahha true! He royally sucks!! hahah thanks for stopping by, my friend! Hugs and love xox

    1. thank you friend! oh yes – unseen, and yet dreadfully powerful. Thankfully God has already won!! 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  9. Hi Caralyn, I read your post and it was extremely coincidental that this morning I was listening to Pastor Greg Laurie preach on Revelation 12, about how Satan is now working hard because he knows his time is short. Revelation 12:12. (no coincidences in God’s time).

    Thanks for sharing your struggles and testimony. The devil loves to throw our failures in our face. He is the accuser of the brethren and has more lies than a shark has teeth. However, there is a truth I learned and I can’t take credit: When the devil reminds you of your past, remind him of his future.

    1. Hi friend, thank you so much for sharing your heart on this. oh wow~ yes – what a powerful and terrifying thought. The enemy is trying desperately to put up one final stand. Thankfully, God has already won. You’re right – he is the accuser and the liar of all liars. Oh wow – i love that thought – remind him of his future. POW POW POW!!!! So glad you stopped by. hope your Tuesday is off to a great start. Hugs and love xox

      1. xoxoxo to you too. My Tuesday is off to a busy start. I am starting a new job next week and this is my last week of the old schedule where I have Tuesdays and Wednesdays off. Let’s see what the next chapter holds. Hope yours is going well too. 😊

        Be ye steadfast in the Lord too. (I Cor. 15:58)

  10. I am praying for her, too. I don’t have to be there or see her with my physical eyes. God knows. He answers. And He knows how the enemy pursues us and tries to ensnare us even when we’ve already been made free.

    1. Hi HJ, thank you so much for this – I’m joining you in that important prayer! And you’re right – God answers. He always does. And has patience with us when we need it, like I did that day. So glad you stopped by. Hugs and love xox

  11. I feel that from the women’s proud way of running she was sending out a message from Jesus too you. And perhaps that message was one of power itself. Her protruding bones reflecting the very nature of I will not give up in her very soul. I will drive my body to achieve greatness # Will you challenge me! #winky face.. Anyhoo, we all interpret based on our personal experience and so on. But God has many different messages for different people / different minds.

    1. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this! What an interesting perspective. I’ve never thought of that! I totally agree: God has many different messages for us, and is always trying to communicate with us. It’s up to us to be open to listening, and recognize His voice. glad you stopped by. Hugs and love xox

  12. This tale is my first #HolySpiritMoment of the week — those episodes in life I recognize as arranged by The Holy Spirit (others may refer to them as “coincidences.” Not I.)

    The reason is because I was engaged in a conversation last night with an adorable young person I mentor. Or, ATTEMPT to mentor depending on mood and perception. What should have been a mellow give-and-take advisory planning counsel became an emotional, defensive meltdown. No screaming, yelling, etc.; more scab-ripping revelation. Not so bad as isolated conversation, but I recognized this is a pattern between us. The time together ended okay, more upbeat…sort of the place I expected to begin…

    But my overnight was a mess. Woke an hour before my usual early morning awakening, replaying the night before.

    I spent time in prayer, musical meditation, and audio scriptures. And revelation came.

    My mentee is a target of spiritual warfare, and I am a trigger and a weapon. This is not new, but the clarity with which the recognition applies in this case is astounding. I’ve chosen another course of action for future conversations.

    The #HolySpirirMoment came when I opened my mailbox and your blog was the first item to read.

    Have long enjoyed your writing and transparency. THIS one I had to tell you, “Thanks.”

    I work with many young people…believers and not-yet-believers… who struggle with, well, life. I’ve known for long-time the bottom line is spiritual warfare. The events of the last 2 years have emboldened me to be more available and proactive for such conversations Know what? People I’ve been meeting with are more open to listening.

    So, thank you for starting my day upbeat, and for your constant beauty beyond bones and state lines.

    Must go put on my armor now.

  13. I just read 2 Corinthians 12 yesterday morning in my daily reading. It helped me immensely because I was dealing with my own weakness. Your dad is so right, too. When you don’t know how to help someone who’s in serious trouble, prayer is the best thing we can do for them. Pray that God will open their eyes and ears to His truth – and then praise His name.

    1. Hey Rollie! Wow, what a divine conicidence. I’m sorry this hit so close to home. Know that you’re in my prayers, with whatever you’re going through. And you’re right – prayer is absolutely the best thing to do. Calling on the name of Jesus, we have nothing to fear! Sending big hugs and love! xoxo

    1. Thank you Amy – you’re right, prayer is ALWAYS the answer. So grateful that my dad was able to remind me of that 🙂 Gosh, I am thankful for that!! sending so much love and hugs! xox

  14. I never understood why it was so hard for certain people to believe in Satan and spiritual warfare.

    As soon as people speak about these things some think or believe that they are crazy or delusional.

    Even some so called Christians are very ignorant and judgmental about what they do not actual know.

    I had spiritual insight ever since I was a child and the devil came after my mother and I both very early in life because we were always believers and had a relationship with God.

    Spiritual warfare is something that I am very familiar with in life. People came after my mother and I with witchcraft when I was just seven years of age.

    We experienced a lot but always overcame as we had the Lord’s protection over us.

    I coincidently am going to be writing a blog post soon about spiritual warfare. It is a subject I have touched on for years as I have firsthand experience.

    I have blogged for fourteen years and have never been afraid to speak about demonic spiritual battle. It is a obvious reality.

    I have indeed had many supernatural experiences and learned from every one of my encounters. God has done some incredible things for me and certain family members.

    Spiritual warfare comes within many forms not just in the fashion of witchcraft, of course.

    1. Hi friend, thank you so much for sharing your story. Gosh, I’m sorry to hear you’ve had to deal with that. It sounds like it has only made your faith and relationship with God even strong. You’re right – His protection is impenetrable! Looking forward to reading your blog post!! Thanks again for stopping by. Hugs and love xox

  15. Hi, Caralyn.
    Along with your dad’s sage advice, I would add what C.S. Lewis pointed out in his intro to The Screwtape Letters, mentioned by Sean above (in the comments, not in Heaven 😂):
    “There are two equal and opposite errors into which our race can fall about the devils. One is to disbelieve in their existence. The other is to believe, and to feel an excessive and unhealthy interest in them. They themselves are equally pleased by both errors and hail a materialist or a magician with the same delight”
    I would also ask you if it is ever appropriate to open a conversation with a fellow-runner? Not even to mention your history or suspicions, but maybe to suggest a coffee conversation just to make a new friend? Only you would know whether this would be appropriate, but just suggesting.
    ❤️&🙏, c.a.

    1. Thanks for sharing. Both Caralyn and you, capost2k. I lean towards Caralyn’s ability to minister, and I am not taking away any fatherly advice to her (he knows you better that I do), and be the person, as Galatians 6:1 alludes to a person who is spiritual (and I would contend your Faith as such and how you have a mastering of this issue) should be sensitive when and how to start a conversation that could start real ministry for one who needs the help. God will guide you. -Jeff

      1. Thank you Jeff! You’re so right — I should start every run with: “OK, God — if you present me with an opportunity to connect with this woman, please give me the words to say, and the courage to say them!” BAM!! So glad you stopped by! Hugs and love xox

    2. Hi CA! Gosh, I have GOT to read the Screwtape Letters. (I never had, frankly because of that exact quote you sited! I didn’t want to let my mind get “too interested” in them….and it’s downright terrifying.) But wow.- what a powerful quote. That’s so true – the fascination with them is right on. That’s why I mentioned the “reptile house” at the zoo – I know it’s there but will not tread near it! That’s a great question about the runners — it’s funny, because actually, JUST TODAY ***I*** was stopped by a fellow runner, who told me that I inspired him to get back into running! That he had seen me out there every day, and seeing that encouraged him to take it back up again. hahah so just goes to show — one day on my run, the devil will try to attack me, and the next, I’ll get some lovely encouragement from above! hahah But to that point, the comment wasn’t strange at all, in fact, it kinda made my day! So maybe that’s just God encouraging me that it IS possible to strike up a conversation with a fellow runner without it being uncomfortable or awkward! so glad you stopped by! big hugs and love xox

  16. It might sound a bit silly, but it really feels like I needed permission to disengage from a toxic situation–to “change routes”–and your story helped me see it. I can’t change it or fix it (at least not right now), but I can pray; that’s something I *can* do, and then I can leave it in His hands without feeling guilty like I merely ran away. Thank you, and thank Jesus for you.

    1. Hi Tenny! Oh gosh, I am so glad this resonated with you in such a personal way! YES!! Change that route!! And pray through it! God is always there for us, as our strength and our protection and our guide! Thank you so much for such kind words. Praying for you, my friend! 🙂 big hugs and love xox

  17. Yes God was always at work in your life and he started His work through your parents who successfully modelled the love of God so you had an underpinning in them for your own connection with God and His healing power displayed in your experience. He now commissions you to model this love to others.

    1. Thank you so much Ian! You’re so right about that – God is always working, and I have been so blessed to have such wonderful parents who know and love God, and who passed that along to their children. Yes! That is the Christian calling, right? To put our light on a lampstand, and to share the love of God with whomever will listen!!! God is so good!!! so glad you stopped by! have a wonderful evening! Hugs and love xox

  18. Wow Caralyn, your words really ministered since I’m under spiritual warfare as well. He-the devil knows our weaknesses and our struggles, and he loves to bring back memories of areas where we’ve gained victory. I myself am going through the most magical time in my life connecting again after a decade with my soul mate Joel. He and I are giving the Holy Spirit access to guide us this time and unite forever. But I can say that our reunion is very emotional for both of us, but for me the enemy has brought the past mistakes I made that sabotaged our relationship before. Also, the spiritual warfare has been in my thought life making me remember when I was bound by fear; I literally felt oppressed a couple times this week as we begin our second chance in Love. I’ll be praying for you and you pray for me as we slip through these attacks stronger than ever. In Jesus’ name!!

    1. Hi Giselle, oh gosh, I’m so sorry to hear that this hit so close to home for you . Know that I’m praying for you and Joel! You’re right – the enemy is the accuser and the liar of all liars, and lovessssss to dig up those parts of our history. But know that, by Jesus’ blood and love you have been set free of those things!! The enemy can try to accuse you of those things, but Jesus says, “No way, buddy. I’ve redeemed her fully from that! Go take a hike!” I know, that is hard to embrace — I struggle with that all the time, but I am going to pray for you (and me) that we give ourselves permission to a) believe that and b) live it out! Giselle, I am so happy to hear that you and Joel are reconnecting. That makes my heart so happy. God is love, and His love casts out all fear!! 🙂 Hang in there my beautiful friend!!! yes! praying hard!!! Hugs and love xox

  19. I just got out of bed because I couldn’t stop the talking in my head. I couldn’t stop imagining what I will say to that woman to put her in her place.

    I have started a 12-step program called Re:Generation. It’s all scripturally based. One of the issues I’m struggling to overcome is judgement; I judge others. Another is fantasy; I fantasize about what I’ll say or do to show them I’m write. Both things are sin.

    Anyway, I was in bed thinking of how this woman in the group who is wrong in so many ways. And I was fantasizing about how I’ll put her in her place.

    After an hour I got up and decided to read through a few encouraging blogs. I read yours. And here is my answer: PRAY FOR HER!

    So I stopped reading and prayed. I repented first then prayed God’s blessings on this woman and her family.

    Thank you. And good night.

    1. Hi Kathleen, thank you so much for sharing your heart! YES! Pray for her!!! That is what Jesus instructed us to do: pray!!! Thank you!! Hugs and love xox

  20. Beautiful post in so many ways. Prayer is our first line of offense, not the last resort – BUT how hard is it to remember that when we’re being attacked? Precisely what the enemy plans it to be – get us off into the musings of our past pain so the focus goes there and everywhere but Jesus. I’m so with you this week. We’re having one of those seasons of intense growth (ie. challenges), and I’ve had my share of distraction by the enemy into fear, pride, anger, bitterness – nothing pretty. In the middle of the night last night, I opened my Bible to Hebrews 11 and the irony is not lost on me. I am a woman of faith struggling to have faith that in this “Red Sea” situation, God will indeed show up. I’m so encouraged by your honesty and simplicity as well as your heart for those who are experiencing the pain you recognize. I get that. Thank you for sharing.

    1. Hi Laura, thank you so much for your kind words! You’re so right – our first thing to do!! And then keep our eyes glued to Jesus! I’m sorry to hear this has been a challenging week. Know that I’ll be keeping you in my prayers! And yes! God WILL show up!! He always does!! And He will be your strength, courage and guide!! Hang in there, my dear friend. God’s got you!! Hugs and love xox

  21. Our complex relationship with food is often mysterious. This spring I registered fo run a local marathon and dropped more than twenty pounds in training because I was able to adjust my relationship with food. My running performance became more important than whatever snack was calling my name.

    But what if my self-image is tattered, tied up in my appearance, and my only leverage on earning respect arises in abstinence? Now, we enter the realm of addiction. It’s like the alcoholic that views alcohol as the solution (self-medication), not the problem. You know you are an addict when you experience withdrawal symptoms when you try to give it up. Now, the only solution is not to enter the cyclic–don’t pay the game. The alcoholic can never be a social drinker. There is no cure because addictions are for life

    Here, prayer because important. In the face of temptation–Lord, why have you brought me to this time and place? in the face of rumination, repeat the Jesus prayer–Jesus, forgive me, a sinner. In intercessory situations, authoritative prayer (https://wp.me/p8RkfV-1LA). The most popular posting on my blog (T2Pneuma.net) is a prayer–Prayer Against Dark Shadows–which suggests that the pandemic has taken a toll on many of us.

    1. Hi Stephen, thank you so much for sharing that! Wow! A marathon! that is quite the accomplishment — as is readjusting your relationship with food! That is awesome! Wow – you bring up so many powerful points here. You’re right – prayer — it is the be all, end all. I look forward to reading your blog post! you’re right, this pandemic has been a playground for the enemy: isolation, fear, lonliness, and free time. Hugs and love xox

    1. thank you so much! You’re absolutely right: Father DOES know best! I appreciate you stopping by!Hugs and love xox

  22. Having faced my own demons the constant reminder is difficult.

    Is it a spiritual attack? Maybe so. Because your faith which gave you strength to pull through is attacked when confronted with the harsh reminder of your own dark time.

    My battle with booze, now in my past is a constant reminder, particularly when I see others drinking to excess. And yes, even recently I have succumbed. Falling off the wagon is hard because getting back on it becomes more difficult every time.

    Also my battle with mental health. I’ve seen constant reminders of my dark times, particularly since my significant other is going through tough times at moment. I am blessed because I get the chance to help her. In a way nobody did for me.

    But the strength I have, given by faith and sustained by it gets me through. It allows me to help her through as well. I asked myself after surviving my suicide attempt what purpose god had for me. Now in her time of difficulty I know what it is. To give her the best help I can.

    That battle will never end, that reminder of my darkest days is a constant but I know deep down I’m not dealing with it alone. Even though at times it may feel like it.

    God is with me. So the spiritual attack is something I feel I am shielded from.

    1. Hi friend. I appreciate you sharing your story. I’m sorry that this hit so close to home. Though I do not know the immense strength it must take for sobriety from alcohol, recovery from anorexia has many similar themes, and I so feel you there, when it comes to a stumble. Getting back on the horse is hard, because the allure is so familiar. But you’re absolutely right – God is always there to give you strength. He is ALWAYS that life boat, and His presence is always with us, protecting us, shielding us, and there to be our source of courage and fortitude. That’s awesome that you’re able to be there for your SO. She is very blessed to have you by her side. Know that you both are in my prayers. I am inspired by your strength. Sending big hugs and love xoxo

      1. Thanks 😊

        Like you said, sometimes you gotta just change your route. Other times though you gotta keep on the same path and face your demons head on ( regardless of whether we are talking literal or figuratively).

        I’m honoured that you find my story inspiring.

  23. When satan attacks you spiritually, it means he fears you. If you were just an everyday average person then he wouldn’t bother you so much because you’re not a threat to him. Keep moving forward and trusting God.

    1. Thank you Michael for this encouragement. Yes – move forward and trust God -great advice! Hugs and love xox

  24. I just came across this post. So timely. There is a 15 year old in the hospital with anorexia that we have been praying for in our Life Group. I’m gonna forward this to some people who know her family. Thanks for sharing your story.

    1. Oh gosh, I’m so sorry to hear that. I will absolutely be praying for her and her family. I was 15 when I developed anorexia. The earlier you can “catch it,” the better the ability to root it out totally and completely. Thank you for passing it along. Big hugs to you, Tina. Xox

    1. thank you so much! I’m so glad this resonated with you! glad you stopped by! Hugs and love xox

    1. Thank you Jan! Yes! He really is the liar of all liars and loves to accuse us. Thank you for your prayers, joining you!! Hugs and love xox

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