I was listening to a talk the other day by Fr. Glenn Sudano, and it spoke to me so profoundly that I took on the task of writing this book. Allow me to recount what I took away from it.

We are all wounded. Each and every one of us have scars that remind us of our sufferings and shortcomings. They are part of who we are. And try as we may to cover them up, we shouldn’t – because they are beautiful.

Jesus endured the greatest suffering of all: the Cross. And when He rose again after the third day, He greeted His loved ones and showed them the scars on His hands where He had been pierced. Thomas even put his hands in the holes. His wounds weren’t infected, but glorious and glowing. They were a victory.

That’s how we need to treat our wounds. Are they infected or are they glowing? Our wounds are the signs of the suffering and trials in our life, and they need to be washed in His divine grace. We must allow His Light to shine out of them. For in our weakness, we are actually strong, through Christ. He suffered first, and won, thus allowing us to do the same.

Therefore, I am writing this deeply personal and oftentimes disturbingly honest account, revealing my wounds from the anorexia that ravaged my body eight years ago. I hope it offers insight into the insidious nature of the disease, so as to shed light on what your loved one is going through.

Through these words, I hope to expose the inner thinking of someone struggling with the disease. It’s what I wish I could have told my parents and loved ones at the time, but couldn’t. It’s what I wish they would have known. What I wish they would have understood.

I preface this, that this account is from when I was fully engulfed in my disease. My thoughts were not clean, nor pure. They were dark. Very dark. But it is in exposing that darkness that I hope to allow His Light to shine through these wounds so as to bring hope and help to others.

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  4. Thank you for this. As someone who still struggles with body image, and struggles still to be at peace with the me I see in the mirror, I greatly appreciate your honesty. I pray that God continue to guide you in a full recovery in Christ. Thank you once again. God Bless.

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  7. What a powerful revelation about scars….They should be a testimony, a victory of what Christ did for us! may God amplify your voice as you share your testimony! He is doing something great through you friend! God bless you for your honesty and transparency!

    Rolain

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  8. Thank you for have the bravery and the courage to share your journey with us, as a woman who survives an eating disorder and has an preteen daughter with one as well, I truly appreciate the courage and determination it takes to overcome such a challenge. You are added to my prayers and may you never fail to find the strength you need to meet the days head on! You are a beautiful soul with an indomitable spirit!

    Your message about scars truly makes me look at myself in a new light, both from the inside and out. I would love to carry that message on to others I know who need to hear it as well! Would you mind if I posted a link to this blog regarding it on my page? I will do nothing without your permission of course. 🙂

    You are inspiring and wise, even for your youth. Thank you again so much for sharing your journey and life with us!

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    1. Thank you so much, Tricia, for sharing this sentiment with me. I appreciate your encouragement, prayers and kindness so so much. I would be absolutely honored if you shared this. 🙂 Sending love and prayers to you and your daughter. Thankfully we have Someone who will see us through every storm. xx

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  11. God bless you for sharing these things. I have a daughter who suffered from anorexia (thankfully now totally healed and an avid anti anorexic advocate). This is much needed. Thanks!

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  12. What a beautiful work you’re doing here. I believe it is helping and will help many people.

    I too was, many years ago, delivered from a decade of dealing with eating disorders by our gracious God. Your blog is testimony to others that there is always HOPE and that healing, transformation and freedom are possible.

    Whoever is still struggling, don’t give up. Ed is a liar. You are beautiful and loved as you are.

    Many blessings on this blog.

    Monique

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  13. Woman of God,

    You are fearfully and wonderfully made! I appreciate that you use this space and platform to show that we overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony (Revelation 12:11). May God continue to use you to speak life and truth to that which lies dormant within and without us. Encouraged by you.

    Stay beautiful as you are!

    With love,

    Juah Seyonia

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      1. Hi, thanks for liking my posts. God bless you and am happy to follow your blog. May the good God bless you.

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  15. Loved your post here and had to thank you for liking HEAVENSREEF! Bless your heart too. GOD loves us all just the way we are, whether we are broken or not. Keep spreading the WORD.

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  16. Hi! Thanks for liking my latest blog post, Free from Flaunting. I’ve been reading over your blog and really love it. My blog is still so small, and only has 21 posts so far. I wondered if I could ask you a few questions via email? I’m wondering what tips would you give a novice blogger trying to grow her following?
 Second, what do you think is the secret to the success of your blog?
    All the best to you, and love your blog! – Sylvia sylvialaurenceblog.wordpress.com

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  17. Thank You for ‘Liking’ my blog. It’s amazing and a privilege to be able to share our wounds. God is loving and kind. He will make you a blessing to many!

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  18. thanks for being a living testimony of God’s amazing grace and mercy. ❤ really thank God for soldiers like you. keep inspiring xx i look forward to getting to know u better 🙂 you could check out my instagram, where i use it as a recovery platform too 🙂 @eatlivelove_pumpkin

    xx, cheryl

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  20. The part about our scars being part of our story really touched me personally. You see my marriage of 27 years ended suddenly and unexpectedly when my husband walked out. Within a few months of that happening, I was diagnosed with cancer and had to have major surgery which left me with an 11″ scar snaking across my belly. I was certain that no man would find me, a scarred, middle-aged woman attractive. God in His great grace and mercy has given me a wonderful new husband, who when he saw my scars, didn’t flinch, but rather kissed them. He told me that the scars were part of my life’s story and represented the battles that I had fought and won. He said that knowing what I went through makes me even more precious to him.

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    1. Wow, thank you for sharing this. What an incredible journey you have been on. I’m so sorry that you had to battle cancer. praise God that you’ve found a new husband that sees you in God’s eyes and is a great support. thank you for blessing us with this comment. Your words really spoke to me 🙂

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  21. I never thought about the scars in this way before. Now you got me thinking. Glad you have survived what sounds like a horrible experience. (((Hugs))) my scars are more internal than external. How does a light shine there? Deep thoughts…

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  22. Well done for your honesty. I have recently recovered (well hopefully in final stages of recovery anyway) from sever depression, and I salute all those going through mental pain, and those they love who stay around them in the darkness.
    We are all wounded healers – can there be any other sort? I have found the thoughts of John of the Cross, put into music by John Michael Talbot, helpful over this. they are so beautiful. E.g. One Dark Night https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkQQ5Q3B8wY

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    1. Hi Julie! What a beautiful song! I appreciate you passing it along 🙂 And thank you for sharing about your recovery. I’m so glad to hear that your journey is going well! You hit the nail on the head: we’re all wounded healers. Luckily, we have a Comforter who is with us every step of the way. Thanks for stopping by this morning, Julie!! Have a beautiful day ☺️

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  23. May Jesus truly envelop your heart, soul, mind, and body, as you remain steadfast in His amazing love, day by day. Thank you for liking my recent post, Joy in Death? Each struggle is intended to draw us closer to Jesus. I am thankful you are sharing your struggle(s) with others, so they may know the healing power of Christ. Have a blessed Christmas.

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  24. Thank you for visiting my blog today. I’ve had a quick first look at yours.What you are doing is very courageous and brave, baring your wounds to the world. thank you 🙂

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  25. Thank you for your interest in my blog: reformedandbeingconformed. Jesus IS the Comforter for both body and soul. Mary

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  26. Such a refreshing change in this sometimes cynical world, to find a person who so freely writes about accepting Jesus, and your passion and bravery comes shining through your writing
    May the Lord continue to Bless you and heal you
    Also thank you for visiting & reading my story “The Last Christmas”

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  28. Thank you for sharing! I’ve been reading through your story and I want to applaud your courage for sharing it — it must have been very difficult to bare your soul like this. Stay strong!! 🙂

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  32. Truly profound post in sharing the realization that we are not alone. Never will be. In all the suffering we experience, it is so that in overcoming, we help others do the same. Truly what Christ did. God will never leave us nor forsake us.

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  33. Your “Like” brought me to your blog. I praise Christ for it. 🙂

    “Then he said to Thomas, ‘Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side. Do not disbelieve, but believe.'” (John 20:27)
    It could have been SO hard for Christ to show His wounds like that to Thomas– after all He had been through, to look at them could have been so very, very difficult. Yet, He very willingly showed them to Thomas, just as willingly as He bore them, so that Thomas would believe that He was the Risen Christ, the Blessed Messiah, the Jesus they loved. I praise Jesus, that He has put it upon your heart to do the same– not so that this disease or even yourself would be glorified, but Him, and the amazing, saving work He does in us when we accept Him as Lord and Savior. Blessings on you, dear sister. You are being prayed for!
    Love in Christ,
    Annalee from Isaiah 62 Prayer Ministry

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    1. Hi Annalee, wow thank you so much for such kind and encouraging words. I love that verse so much. I find so much comfort and hope in Thomas’s story. Thanks for reminding me:) so glad you stopped by. Hugs!

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  34. I look forward to reading your book, as it sounds interesting to understand how people suffering from anorexia think. I wish you well and peace.

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  36. How beautiful. To realize that in our weakness we are strong because of Christ. And what a true testament to that you are! His strength shines through your words.

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  38. I appreciated you sharing a very personal experience, with a passion and love of Christ, thank you for being a blessing to us all who read your words.
    Not only in the depths of disease that our thoughts can be unclean and un-pure becoming very dark, our thoughts can become engulfed in darkness due to our self-indulgences which is something I intend to write about

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    1. Thank you so much for this reflection, Graham. Your affirming words mean a lot. You’re right, we all can struggle with darkness. But how comforting to know that Jesus is stronger than all that and can be our light. Thanks for reading!

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  39. I like your blog and this post as well. There was a girl a few friends were close with and she died from anorexia shortly after she pulled away from people. I don’t think she did it on purpose but I see how people would stare or treat her like the plague because of what she was going through. It’s sad really, she was only 21. I’m glad God is with you. =)

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    1. Oh my gosh, how tragic. That is so sad, oh my gosh. I think a lot of time people forget that anorexia kills. I think it’s been stigmatized to be a “vain” “superficial” cry for attention, by that couldn’t be farther from the truth. Thanks for sharing this. Yes, God is good. I pray that that dear soul is at peace in the arms of her Heavenly Father. Thanks for stopping by. Hugs xx

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  40. I’m so glad to connect with you too. Your blog is invaluable to so many women and the pressures we have. Thank God we have strength in him. My favourite verse that kept me going in adversity: “I can do all things through Jesus Christ”. Supernatural power!

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  41. I have now read several of your blog posts and your heart is genuine and touching the very heart of everyone who stops by here…which brings me to this note. How very kind of you to stop by and read my blog post “When One Door Closes…”
    Thank you for “liking’ it which is an encouragement. I loved loved your Ash Wednesday post. Truly we need to stop and look …that is why God gave us eyes. that we might see the beauty of others who are made in His image.

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  43. Your post made me think. “Our wounds are a part of who we are.” I am thinking that my wounds also remind me of who I am. I think this reminder is a good thing, at this stage of my particular journey recovering from the trauma of childhood abuse. I can use my wounds to empower my recovery, to motivate me on my pathway of healing, to motivate me to fight for myself, rather than feeling only discouraged each time I notice my wounds.
    Your words about being in the dark also resonated with me. I now believe that darkness resides right next to the light. (And also that some things that seem “dark” aren’t dark at all, only real and true.)
    Thank you for writing. And thank you, also, so much, for reading some of my blog posts. I really appreciate your presence.
    Best wishes.
    A.

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    1. Hey A:) thank you so much for sharing this part of your heart. I’m so glad that you’re finding the freedom of recovery. It’s true, living in the light is such a amazing feeling. I’m so sorry that you had to endure that as a child. You did not deserve it and I want to give you a huge hug. You are precious and deserved to be treated as such. You have a lot of wisdom-our wounds are a part of who we are-but they do not make us any less or disqualify us from love. In fact, just the opposite. They make us beautiful and show our strength and endurance. Thanks for stopping by, friend. Hugs and love to you xox

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      1. What a lovely response. “Freedom of recovery….” so true. “You did not deserve it….” I seem to still need to hear those words and I appreciate them!

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  45. Although our faiths may be different our source of strength and reflection remain core to both of us. Our troubles are never in vain, they are indeed a glowing reminder of the great souls we are today in spite of them (however you choose to views things)
    thanks for sharing 🙂

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  47. Thank you for sharing so honestly, and openly. I know it’s hard to reveal brokeness and hurts, but I am so grateful for the way you are so honest. I do try to cover my scars from past hurts, and I love how you shared about seeing Christ through them. I’m sure you will bless many with your honesty and willingness to share. Blessings to you in your continued recovery.

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  48. Wow. What a tremendous assignment and isn’t it cool that God put it on your heart NOW? He has allowed you to heal in His love and now He wants to help others heal through your love and your transparency – which ultimately leads them to Him. He is never too late or too early – always right on time. 🙂 Much grace to you, dear sister as you continue on your journey. Keep allowing Him to shine His beautiful light on you, in you and then through you.

    Many blessings,
    Kim

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    1. Hi Kim, thank you so much for this kind note of encouragement. It means so much. Truly. I know, God is amazing and His plans for us are good and timed according to his perfect will☺️ sending you so much love and hugs xoxoxox

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  49. Thank you for following my blog. I am all new to this so its great that I can connect with others somehow. I hope to be as bold as you are in expressing my journey. Louise

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