Battling Insecurity

Do you ever just feel….embarrassingly out of place?

Do you ever walk into a room and feel as though you’ve got, like, your skirt tucked into your underwear, or like you have a big, unsightly growth on your chin?

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I had one of those experiences last week. I had an audition for this big beauty commercial.

So I walked into the waiting room, and I felt a hot wave of self-consciousness wash over me — starting in my stomach and running up through the backs of my ears.

Every young woman in the room was a tall, blonde bombshell, model-esq, and looking like they could literally kill someone with their piercing “simize” gaze.

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What did my agent send me to?

I felt like the riff raf that somebody accidentally let in.

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Anywho, looking around, and harshly sizing myself up, I realized something in that very minute.

I had two options.

A) I could let my insecurities get the best of me. I could succumb to the lies of inadequacy  and self doubt that were swirling around my head. I could beat myself up with comparisons and fall into thinking that was detrimental to my recovery and wellbeing.

Orrr…

B) I could listen to the voice of God’s Truth in my head that has taken me ten years in recovery to be able to hear and actually believe.

And I’m going to be honest, looking around that room, Option A was looking pretty inescapable.

But, I did something that turned things around.

I prayed.

I just closed my eyes, right there in that waiting room, and said, “God, please let Your light shine through me when I go into that audition room.”

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And all of a sudden, this peace came over me…I kid you not. I looked around the room, and I saw all those formerly frighteningly beautiful ladies with new eyes – In my head I literally heard, “They are all children of God.” 

I mean, that’s not how I typically talk. That was not from my own thinking. I mean, heck, just thirty seconds ago I was half-wishing that one of their stiletto’s would snap and cause a domino effect, downing half a dozen wanna-be Barbies. Thinking about children of God was not really on my radar at the moment.

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Anywho…after the audition, I just kinda forgot about it. It was a great audition – His peace carried me through – but realistically, it was a long shot. I mean, they clearly had a vision of what they were looking for, and well…it wasn’t me.

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But.

Later the next day, I got a call from my agent.

I didn’t book that beauty spot, but the casting director wanted me for a different international commercial campaign they were working on.

And this new gig, was a much better opportunity than the one little beauty spot.

And in fact, I’m actually on set, as you’re reading this, shooting the campaign all week.

But thinking about it, I realized, this would not have happened had I given into the lies in my head in that waiting room.

How many times in my life have I let fear and insecurity — especially about looks — get the best of me?

The answer: a lot. Too many times than I’d like to admit.

But I handed that audition over to God. And you know what? It turns out that God’s plans for us are so much greater than any we could drum up for ourselves.

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And today at church, I literally chuckled out loud at the gospel, because it was about the hairs on our heads being numbered. And to be not afraid, because we have great worth. (Matt 10: 26-33)

God proved that in that waiting room. He gave me His peace to shine, and in return provided for me in a way I could not have imagined.

So that’s all for tonight. Sometimes we just have to turn over control to the One who knows the hairs on our heads, and loves us, and really does work all things together for good.

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412 thoughts on “Battling Insecurity

  1. I have learned to accept that the cliche when one door closes another one opens is not a cliche. It is true more often than not. When He says, “I know the plans I have for you,” He should have followed it up with “and they are WAY better than yours!”

  2. I can answer almost all of the questions you asked at the beginning with a resounding “Yes!”. I feel a lot of insecurities, almost constantly. In fact, almost my entire blog is descriptive of all the insecurities I feel on a regular basis.

    Unfortunately, I struggle with the two choices you gave for various reasons, as well, but I won’t go into any of them, because this is your blog, of course. 🙂

    Like I have said before, here, I find your posts a bit of an inspiration, even if I fall extremely short. I’m glad to see someone as positive as you overcome some of these things and excel in doing your absolute best.

  3. So proud of you, will we seeing said advert in the UK? 😍 I’m feeling very insecure at the moment and I hate it, I celebrated 1 year since being baptised but I feel like nothing’s changed 😩 this year has been so hard with sinful moments creeping back in so yeah not the year I have been hoping for! But I know I still have hope I guess x

    1. Thanks so much Benjamin! I don’t know if in the UK, but definitely Latin America! Congratulations on your anniversary. that’s so wonderful. Things take time. Just because you can’t necessarily “feel” the changes doesn’t mean that God isn’t working on your heart right this very minute. praying for ya, friend. hugs xo

  4. I love when the readings really strike a chord in a very specific way. Great stuff. I may be saying too much, but I never fully understood why beautiful women don’t think they are beautiful as so and so. Or beautiful at all because someone else is the epitome of beauty. Is it vanity? Insecurity–well yes as you mentioned. (I don’t know what I’m saying). Hope the week is going well.

    1. Thanks Court! yeah me too! aw, what a kind thing to say, thank you — yeah insecurity i think is something that a lot of people deal with. thanks for stopping by! big hugs xo

  5. I get where your mind was l but it was great you conquered your fear. Not that you should have worried. Blondes! Pah! Lol

  6. I get it all the time – at my church. I’ve never told any of them this, but I feel like the idiot. The nerd. “Oh look, there’s the guy whose family didn’t make it.” It’s a pretty extraordinary church, to be fair – mature, Scripturally grounded, lots of community leaders – but still. Satan comes after me with a club labeled You Don’t Belong Here.

    And I’ve noticed the same two things you have if I actually stop and pay attention to God.

    One, he says, “”They all need me just as much as you.”

    And two, awesome opportunities and fun things happen when I stay engaged and don’t shrink back.

    Took the words right out of my mouth with this one, Caralyn. Satan is trying to deflect us from opportunities to glorify God, and insecurity is one of his tools. Fight back.

    1. Thanks so much Brandon. You’re right ! insecurity is definitely one of his tools. Gotta just keep our focus on God! thanks for sharing this, Brandon. Big hugs xo

  7. Win for prayer. And for the record, I always feel like my skirt is tucked into my underwear. X

  8. You my dear, continue to be an inspiration. Many people talk about faith, but you “put clothes on it and walk it down the street!” Congrats on your gig and your joy.

  9. Congrats my friend!! Isn’t it amazing how God works? All along, He had something even better in mind. Thanks for sharing this. I think we all have these same insecurities from time to time. But no one ever has the courage to talk about it. Thanks for breaching the subject. I am sure many dams have broke because of it that will lead others to be honest, and then to choose God and trust Him. We all too easily fight or flight with faced with such. I know I have. Thanks for leaning in instead and for us, being an inspiration to us all. Be well! G

  10. I think you have it right. The purpose of the human race is to simply be channels through which God’s blessings flow. Sometimes those blessings flow through an answer to prayer such as you’ve illustrated to us here. Sometimes bad things happen to us and they are permitted to both test us and to reveal to others God helping us through trials. It develops character is us and models it to others to their benefit. All of our experiences, the successes and failures have a purpose in leading us, and hopefully others we meet as travellers through life into an attitude which will eventually fit us in with the way heaven operates. There will be no failures or insecurities there. 🙂

  11. congratulations on pushing through! Your faith rewarded you with inner peace. ..(Hebrews 11:6) The gig was just icing on the cake!

  12. I love the “hairs on your head” verse! Our sermon on Sunday was about worth, and reading your words about worth the very next day makes me feel like God is trying to tell me something. Thanks

  13. Brava Caralyn, good for you! Well done on getting through the audition and landing an even better part. 🙂

    Tremendous courage and very inspiring to see this. If the new ad campaign you’re practicing for airs online, I’d love to see it sometime. 😉

    All the best going forward 🙂 Ciao bella! Hugs <3

  14. whoot whoot. That is a great story, and great reminder to take the time to pray when those negative bombarding lies attack. I have tasted both the lies and the truth of who I am in Gods eyes. I have had 20 years to renew my mind…80% of the time I succeed but 20% of the time…well, sounds like you know what that feels like too. 🙂 Thanks for keeping it real. Really appreciate it. DM

  15. I just want to say this is wild because my most recent post is literally about insecurity as well. Also, I’m so proud of you for rising to the occasion and congrats! I think I’ve had an experience similar to you where I felt like God was speaking through me. Like the thought was not mine but it was so soothing.

  16. Such a great post!! I’m very happy for your victory in that waiting room and for even better gig!! ❤️✝️

  17. It’s hard for me to relate to getting a skirt caught in my shorts. With that said, I am proud of you for carrying through and achieving something even better 🙂 God has definitely renewed your faith 🙂 Hugs to you my friend 🙂 <3

  18. Congratulations on turning around your thoughts and turning to something comforting and true – God. What a great answer you got! And congratulations on the campaign!!! I bet your inner peace and new confidence really helped you stand out.

  19. So good! Insecurity sucks! Thanks for sharing this, appreciate the realness but also how God spoke to you. 🔥🙌🏽❤️ praying that your campaign goes well my friend!

  20. Pastor, you have just written the outline for another sermon you will give at your church and many, many will hear you. God is revealing your walk of faith in such a beautiful and astounding way! Say hi to your Mom..I pray for you both. I can hear her saying ” my daughter, the Pastor!” You are abundantly blessed and I know you will bless so many others with your testimony! So proud of you!

    1. Oh my gosh Rick thank you 🙂 you are seriously so kind. God is so good – lots to be grateful for. And my mom is doing great! Like I said … lots to be grateful for 🙂 hehe thanks for your continued prayers. You’re awesome! Hugs and love xox

  21. wow… that’s very inspiring! I really recognize how God turns things around when we actually allow Him in our biggest insecurities, which also means we are at this point we actually recognize the insecurity and don’t behind it anymore. I had a same experience this weekend, failed here and there… but still He came through. I really enjoy reading your blog for a while now. It has been very encouraging and recognizing at surprising and important moments… to me. Thanks for your sincerity. If you ever would have time to read and have advise on my blog please don’t hesitate to share your most honest opinion, i would really appreciate that. Buttt… most of all just thanks for sharing and just being you, nothing more and nothing less, and its good!

    1. Thanks so much Kitu! You’re so right- He turns ALL things around. Lots to be grateful for 🙂 and gosh, what a kind thing to say. Thanks for reading:) Hugs and love xox

  22. Congrats on the gig. Yes, I feel out of place in most places. Feel like I get in the way. I am an extrovert with a big heart and not everyone understands that.

  23. Congratulations, beautiful lady (inside and out!). I’m so proud of you for fighting the fear, praying, and finding the open door God placed in your path. Hope it all goes swimmingly. Hugs & smooches!

  24. “Do you ever walk into a room and feel as though you’ve got, like, your skirt tucked into your underwear…” No

    “…or like you have a big, unsightly growth on your chin?” Hence the beard

    WELL DONE! A few added thoughts at Patreon

  25. It’s funny that a pretty girl like you would feel intimidated by some other girls. You did the right thing though. When all else fails, try prayer.

  26. Yes, I often feel out of place. Yes, I often let insecurity get the best of me. Yes, I KNOW that my worth is found in God and not in the eyes of others. But I still struggle, especially living with a physical disorder. But God proves how much He loves me and how valuable I am over and over again. It’s a good thing, too, because I usually need a daily reminder!

  27. great visual image – stiletto breaks, barbies falling like dominoes!
    Always pray blessings for your competition – a hard truth I am still learning.

  28. Falling back into the comparison trap is still a problem for me. Thank you for reminding me that all moments are in Christ’s hands and his word does not go out and come back void!

  29. Not that I know anything about self doubt or recriminations or thinking of imperfections over the things God has given me… but..
    you know.. they say … When God closes one door it’s usually to open another or yet another… I think I pretty much believe it… 😉 Congratulations on the better deal!

  30. Thanks for posting this, Beauty. I gathered from your posts that your real name is Caralyn, but to me – ever since you discovered my blog and I thus discovered yours – you are pure Beauty. So I’ll call you just that. I know only too well how other people can see the talents in us and we don’t seem to. Living in the head is the problem – prayer is the focusing of energy from head to heart and opening up your spirit to meet the Holy One. Well done with the audition! Have a bright future in God, child! Much love from Canada.

    1. Thanks so much!!! oh wow, Canada! that’s so awesome. Yes, my name is Caralyn 🙂 haha but I’ll take Beauty any day!! 🙂 amen – there is power in prayer. thanks for stopping by. big hugs xo

  31. Yay! Congratulations. I’m so thrilled for you. 😀 Sooo glad you could squash the devil’s lies and reach deep into God’s truths about you. Yay, victory!

    ~Laurie

  32. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart! I needed to hear (read) this today. I’m going through a time if insecurity and uncertainty that frightens me like nothing else ever did. And I know what you mean about praying and feeling that peace. I have experienced that before. It’s not easy to describe and only those who experienced it can relate and truly understand. So I know what you mean. Nonetheless, I so needed something like this today. My insecurities, many of them implanted in me by narcissistic abuse in the hands of my husband can get the best of me during these hard times. Knowing that others know what’s like makes you feel better and that you’re not alone.

    I’m so happy it worked for you. And thank you for sharing. It helps us understand and reminds us as well that God has not forsaken us and might have much better plans for us in the long run.

    1. oh my gosh Maria, thank YOU! i’m sorry that you’re walking a challenging road right now. know that you’re in my prayers. sending you so much love and hugs xox

      1. Thank you for your kindness. Yes, me too. I’m sorry it didn’t work out. I never imagined in a million years when I walked down that aisle with zero doubts in my mind that I would end up where I am today, in family court and trying to find myself again after years of mental, emotional, and spiritual abuse. I keep forcing myself to think that God has a plan for me. Maybe it was a bit twisted and odd with such a bad marriage. But my incredible daughter came out of that marriage and I hope that a much better plan awaits me that I might have never faced had not been for my failed marriage. I don’t know what that plan is. All I can do is pray and hope for the best. I just want my daughter to be protected and safe. I don’t want to hijack your thread / post. So I’m going to leave it here. But thank you. You keep amazing me and inspiring me beyond words. 🙂

  33. Wow Caralyn, what an amazing testimony to God’s work! Your words greatly encourage me tonight. Thank you so much for sharing, and CONGRATULATIONS! 🥂🍾

  34. That first sentence? Yep, me many times. Still awkward, after all these years. Though, thankfully I don’t care or beat myself up about it as much. I will never meet my standard, but have always met the Lord’s. It remains hard, but God is ever patient with me. Ever full of grace.

    Always enjoy your writing…continued prayers for you and yours. God bless.

  35. I love your honesty! Thank you for such no holds barred in sharing what you are experiencing

  36. That post brought stinging tears to my eyes. I admire your courage and your faith. I think though I’m a believer and try to follow Him, I lack in the whole trust department. I never would’ve made it into the room let alone choice A or B.
    Congrats on the awesome new campaign. Jer 29:11

  37. Congrats, you should really check out the group Models for Christ. My daughter works with this group and it encompasses more than just models, but all the entertainment world. It helps women in this world to find and work on their relationship with Christ in a World that often times works against it. My daughter works behind the scenes at the New York Beauty Week. Just a thought, because your story would be so inspirational to so many. Oh Congrats again….

  38. God is such a wonder. I’m so glad he gave you the inspiration and the courage to overcome your fear Caralyn. PTSD often leads me into the same trap. We have a lot of public transport buses here in the UK and I walk everywhere (to keep my old 43 year old frame in shape lol). Often one will pull up alongside when I’m on the sidewalk and I convince myself that everyone on board is looking at me. One day I thought ‘Get over yourself Rich!’ They probably don’t even notice you! Now if I get scared when this happens, I imagine that they are thinking about what to have to eat that night, or what to watch on TV, or just looking in the store window. You posts really help, I can relate to them in so many ways, I guess it’s because PTSD and Anorexia are anxiety disorders and similar in many ways. One final thing, a strange thing happened to me last week, a guy stopped me in the street (which is weird, because in England that’s a cultural no no), he said, ‘you know, Jesus loves you, but you won’t find him in a church, or by looking up to the sky. He is right here. Just listen for him in your quiet moments’. When he said ‘he’s right here’ he pointed to my chest where my heart is. The experience of a kind stranger doing that really inspired me, just as you do. God bless you, and have a great day 🙂

    1. Yes He is, Rich! thanks so much 🙂 And thanks for sharing you experiences. I’m so glad you can relate 🙂 and wow, what a cool little run in with that guy!! how awesome! big hugs xo

  39. Ah, dear Caralyn! I write all this theology and philosophy and here you are again – the living proof. You are relatable because you allow love to flow through you. And isn’t that why women aspire to beauty – to secure love? They see it there in you, and can imagine themselves as you precisely because your beauty isn’t intimidating.

    So here’s the trial: what is it that they want you to promote?

    1. oh gosh, Brian. thank you so much. you’re so right – to secure love. And wow — I am seriously so touched by your incredibly generous words. You’ve spoken to my spirit…thank you friend. Hah, you know, i am contractually not allow to answer that question!! eek! but when it’s out i’ll let you know 🙂 thanks for stopping yb! hugs xo

      1. I understand about the specifics. My concerns are more along these lines: women are “fertile”, by which I mean that things take root in them. You are in a part of the commercial world that often exploits that quality. My advice as regards managing this is: let God’s light shine from you. If there’s anything dark in the intentions of the project managers, it will be dispelled, and they will discover that it’s up to them to learn how to adapt themselves to your energy.

  40. Fabulous.
    Absolutely.

    Take a moment to just – pray.

    Hilarious writing too….free and honest. I’m on set too… I’m a Director trying to bring the notion of Thanksgiving to a commercial for Car Batteries.

    Maybe say a little prayer for me!
    Onward.

  41. What a beautiful and inspiring post, Caralyn. I’m so happy for you. Congratulations! Do share the link to the campaign when it’s out. 🙂
    I’ve not been so great and although I decided not to disappear, I’m keeping a low profile. Lol! Your post has just given me a much needed boost. That inadequacy and insecurity, coupled with uncertainty, can be dangerous. Much love and hugs. xxx

  42. Based on your reaction, you listen often after prayer, though now that you have tasted freedom I wonder if you now thirst. Encountering God by listening in silence is key, however His voice can also pierce through the noise of the world and He brings with it His peace, which is why you recognized it amidst the noise. That offering right then and there that you made, which was accepted as the obvious answer to your prayer, is what allowed Jesus to work through your life in that moment. So beautiful to witness, even more beautiful to read you testify.

  43. Caralyn: This story inspires faith and stands among the best of your articles. God answers prayer, frequently without delay.
    I blog about an unsuccessful audition for music school in 1972 (https://wp.me/p8RkfV-1vK) and write about many white-knuckle events in my life, but yours provides more light. Thank you.
    Stephen

  44. Thanks so much for sharing, friend – insecurity is a monster for sure – great job throwing that monster some truth and excellent news about the job

  45. Hey Caralyn: that director is one smart person. He got beauty and smarts in one super lady.
    Our God says to give all things to Him, and He will give us the best. You are living proof.
    Luv ya ⚘😁❤

    George

  46. Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)

    6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
    7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

    Not trying to be deep, but that’s what immediately came to my mind when I read this, sis. You pretty much put those 2 verses on full display with this experience…good stuff 🙌🙌!!

  47. Very thoughtfully expressed my sweet sister! Comparison is the enemy of contentment. What God has for you is for you! He knows the plans He has for you and you were right – that initial spot was just a catalyst to something greater. I’m overjoyed that your prayed in the midst of uncertainty, stepped forward in faith and God richly rewarded your obedience. There’s is nothing like God winking at you, saying “I’ve got you!” Thanks for sharing and praise God for the doors He’s opening in your career!

    1. Hi Rhonda! Thank you so much!! Yeah, I should just give my career to Him and let Him guide it! That would be the best thing to do! Thanks for your kind words!! Hugs and love xox

  48. Congratulations! The most striking part of your story for me, was the way you heard and accepted God’s word to you that your rivals were also His children. So many people would have learned the lesson as far as ‘God will provide’, and forgotten the lesson about His other children. I think that was probably a very important thing for you to have mentioned in your blogpost.

  49. I am smiling from ear to ear. You did what God asks you to do, when you are fearful, call to Him, and He will give you peace. Love His children as you love Him, and He will reward you. You were scared you prayed, you got peace, saw love for His others children that were there AND you booked a BETTER job!!!! All for simply doing what God asked you to do in the first place, rest in Him. God didn’t just give you what you needed, He gave you MORE. He gave to you in abundance!! Good for you, God’s most beloved little child. God bless you, and congratulations on your gift(s) from God and seeing all the gifts He gave you when you were in need :):):)

  50. Testimonies are a source of faith for believers.

    I was at my job and the network terminals were slow for me to log in and get to work; I lifted up my eyes to heaven, and said: Lord, what am I doing here?
    I had no answer at that moment. After more than a year, hurrying to work, on the street and in the sunlight, in my mind I heard, clearly and in good sound: “You serve me and I solve your problems!”
    At another time, also in the same company, hovering in the air the possibility of a promotion, I heard: “Your business is with me.” And I no longer work in that company.
    It may be just a word, but it is enough to set the subject and guide.

    Truth be told, and so it has been.

    1. Note:
      I no longer work in that company because the contract of employment has ended.
      The Lord Jesus spoke with me in Portuguese because I do not know English.

  51. Oh that is so super! (Supernatural, that is!–to get my quota of cheesy quips out of the way for the, oh I don’t know, CENTURY, haha)

    It reminds me of The Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns,
    “But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story / The Voice of Truth says ‘Do not be afraid’ / The Voice of Truth says ‘This is for My glory’ / Out of all the voices calling out to me / I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth”

    So cool when Father uses moments like this one to become more present to us–and of course it’s just frosting on the cake that He lined you up something even better. I can relate so well to that moment, too of, ‘They are all children of God,’ and you start to see people like Father sees them and the love-tsunami washing into amd obliterating bitterness harbour (see what I just did there?! ;D) is just downright inescapeable. If only I lived every day freshly out of that revelation…

    Anyway, enough feels blibber blubber xD it feels like it’s been a long time since I dropped by long enough to leave a comment; How’ve you been??

    1. Hey Carson! Aw thanks for sharing in the excitement with me 🙂 haha good – I’m glad you appreciate the cheese factor:) hehe I love that song so much. Thanks for your generous words! You’re a great friend! Hugs and love xox

  52. The power of prayer goes a long way. Always believe in yourself because what is meant for you no one can take! I am very proud that you did not leave. Congratulations on grabbing the other gig. That ones meant for you! God got you, just remain faithful in his path.

  53. That is SO awesome that another job came from that audition!! Whoo-hoo! So happy for you, but most pleased that you shut down the enemy and prayed. Spiritual and natural victory! Plus an encouraging story with entertaining gifs LOL. A great day all around.

  54. I’m SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Proud of you!!!! So glad you listened to the Lord and let him change your sight on what your mind was causing you to see. I believe he only had you there just so you could be placed on the opportunity train you are riding right now. Congrats! on your Gig and keep believing in YOU!!! because you really are Enough!

    Love Ya Gurly!

  55. What a great reminder of how God is so wanting to lead us if we would just stop, ask and listen.

    I find myself feeling that I don’t belong in a lot of scenarios, and while that used to bug me, I am starting to embrace it. I don’t have a “group” and because of that, I seem to be able to walk into any group and do what God does best through me…..Encourage! It is kind of fun….but that first feeling of insecurity feels so overwhelming. Glad He is stronger than the insecurity!!

  56. Proverbs 3: 5-6 have pretty much been my lifetime verses. And as I keep saying today’s society has to take a step back and redefine the meaning of beauty.

  57. When the devil comes knocking…or attacking…just remind the devil he has no power over you…that you are a child of the King of kings and Lord of lords. 1 John 4:4 (NKJV) 4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. James 4:7 (NKJV) 7 Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.

  58. Love all your blogs. This one too. Truly love the way you talk to God just as I do… from asking for that miraculous parking space, to money in my wallet, to reaching a place which is too far when I’m short on time…. for… this and that and the other. Yes, sublime to the rediculous. Then I ask Him, “So who else am I to go to other than You?” Yes. He certaunly miraculously answers…. 😊😍😉😊so happy you got even a better assignment. Kudos to you for asking the right One for help!

  59. “Inhale courage exhale fear.” I love that. Could you post some clips in you’re you tube channel of any film you’re in either it be commercial or movie. Thanks.

    1. Thanks so much! I’ve been thinking about that…it would involve revealing my whole name which I hesitate to do. But I’ll let you know if I do 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  60. Caralyn – your uplift in that audition is uplifting us (your blogging groupies) with God’s grace in & thru you, beautiful you! (Because you ARE beautiful inside & out!) Congratulations on the new campaign. 💜🤗💜 Virginia

  61. Yeeeeessss! Loved reading every minute of this. I battle my own thinking, even wrote a post about it just a moment ago, and I struggle with these same demons. But I also am a thinker that the Devil only goes after the ones who has what he wants and obviously your light is brighter than he could have ever dared to have! Kudos to your triumphant moment, both with overcoming your thoughts as well as with the CAMPAIGN that you were hired to work on. But God… Amen!

  62. Isn’t it AMAZING how just one thought can change everything? Prayers heal and the mind is so funny how it wants to instantly revert back to “save me save me i’m not good enough, run little girl”! I am so glad you had this experience!!! What a gem to come from it! I wish you the best! I love your posts, they are very inspiring. as are you my dear! Good luck for what’s to come!

  63. Wonderful. God is good, and I can’t think of anyone who deserves it more. You battled insecurity, and you kicked its butt. “They are all children of God.” That is something I hope I carry with me for the rest of my life. What a different world it would be if we all thought that with everyone we encounter.

  64. A beautiful story of redemption and overcoming the lies that paralyze us — well done for being brave and remaining in that room and choosing to fight! I have often found that all such victories begins with a simple choice (to believe the truth, to face the fear, to pray) and yet how hard it is to make that choice?
    Well done!
    Keep fighting!
    G

    1. thank you so much G! you’re so right – it’s incredibly hard to make that choice. and to be fair – i don’t always make the choice i made that day, this was just one example when i did. thanks for your beautiful encouragement. big hugs xo

  65. I’m so happy you booked the campaign! 🤗I feel like I read your post at just the right time.Today, I realized that I haven’t been praying as much as I used to, so I sent a quick one up. You don’t realize how much you miss that peace/feeling that comes with it, until you have it again. Here’s to your new campaign and to many more days of prayer and for God calming us down when we need him the most. 🥂

  66. That’s absolutely brilliant! God has a plan and a purpose for us all… if only we could remember that all the time!! Enjoy your week x

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  68. My children sometimes tell me they feel sacred about something or the feel lonely at times and I tell them they are never alone, God is always by our side. We cannot see Him, but if we pay enough attention we can feel Him, which is the better because He brings peace to our hearts. How I wish everyone could see how much God loves us!
    Everyone has felt like you did. How wonderful you felt God’s love in that waiting room. We are never alone.

  69. Insecurities are something we all feel, but not everyone likes to talk about them. When I find myself thinking I am in over my head, I stop and talk to God and tell him I trust his plan. I try to just go with it.
    I definitely appreciate this post. Thanks for sharing.

  70. I just paused and prayed that God will give you strength the next time that happens to look for and take opportunities that He will give you to share the truth of security in Him through Jesus with one of those blondies or a producer or the cashier at the store on the way home.

  71. How absolutely inspiring! Women especially deal with this and Gods word truly makes the difference. I have thoroughly enjoyed reading you blog posts! Sharing His work and having is light and love shine through you will help so many! Exactly what our world needs. Thank you!!

  72. Well done you! I love hearing and reading about people who have such confidence in God’s love for us all. I love hearing about how it makes them shine! I wish I believed deeply like that. I’m working towards it :o)

  73. Great word. Yes, so true. I need to remember that myself. Let God’s word drown out my own word and impulses, fears and what-not. Thanks, and glad you got a good opportunity out of it.

  74. This is a beautiful post. I think all of us experienced that same exact moment in one way or another – I definitely have!! Thank you sooo much for being authentic and sharing with us <3

  75. Congratulations. You did the right thing and in turn God did the right thing for you. It is true, if you put God first everything else will fall into place. Wishing you the best which I’m sure you will do. God Bless.

  76. Man it’s an ongoing process to keep insecurities from ruining our lives, but the results and benefits of being secure in our innate goodness is well worth it! He has a plan for you girl!! 😊

  77. Congratulations Caralyn! Thanks for sharing this; I think a lot of us go through this in some shape or form in different circumstances. In the end, the inner confidence that we get from God is always more than enough to get us through that insecure moment and look at life from a whole new and positive experience. Much success to you!

  78. To begin, let me say “Congrats” to you on your ‘new’ position. That is the greatest testimony and truth about God: Whenever you pray to Him and give Him your troubles, He will take care of you and keep you calm. I remember, one year, when a former landlord hadn’t kept up with our home bills and we were going to be evicted. No extra relatives had any open rooms within their homes. That same day, I just turned to God and prayed to Him to help us get through that tough challenge… and He did. The following morning, we were given a new home to relocate to and to live in, and we still currently stay here right now years later. 🙂 Nobody but God could make miracles happen.

    I’ve had stage fright for so long to where I, too, was one to keep backing out of a stage talent show or a classroom project show. But one day, I took a deep breath, prayed, and I finally overcame my fear by volunteering to read poetry for my high school’s honor class assembly on stage. After I read it, I had no idea I would receive applause at the end. I was happy and proud. I couldn’t thank God enough.

    The enemy intends for us to keep giving up, but God has bigger plans and doesn’t want us to quit and never intends for us to. That is why, out of EVERY BATTLE, God will always come out being the victorious ONE. 🙂 Congrats again.

  79. Congrats on landing a different opportunity and from what it sounds better too. Well done for facing your insecurity fears. Takes a brave woman .😉

  80. Love it! I also get stuck in my head, dwelling, ruminating, etc….only to see that the weird, winding path was leading me on a great adventure – one much more exciting that the dull paved trail we expect. thanks for sharing!!

  81. A M A Z I N G!! Look at how God works!! When you put your trust in him AND reflected love even in your thoughts, you were blessed. No, it was not easy but it was possible!! So happy for you! Do your thang with that commercial gig! Continue to shine your light in those environments!!

    Remember us 😉

    -JV

  82. Brilliant article!! I face insecurities alot. I often feel less than other men and that I am not like them etc. When I walk in a room of other people I feel like they will all look at me and judge me on my appearance. Insecurities and shyness can plague a persons life

  83. Reminds me of a time when I was taking my exam and had to perform my pieces in front of the Director of the Royal Shakespeare company! Yikes. The exact same thing happened to me. I said something along the lines of “God please help me, be with me” and in an INSTANT all traces of nervousness left me and I felt his presence so strongly in the room. I received a standing ovation and a distinction after! God is amazing mann..

  84. That is exactly how I feel all of the time. Constantly, hearing the negative talk in my head. Facing the options and most of the time I will choose option A. Run like…..
    Just about every day I pray for strength, hope, confidence, faith.. I have the faith and all for everyone else but me.
    I just wanted to end this by saying thank you for being so brave and for sharing your story with all of us.
    T

    1. Hey T! Thanks so much for sharing this. Yes, keep praying for that strength. God loves to give His children what they ask for. You deserve to be free of that negative self talk. you’re a blessing to me — know that 🙂 big hugs to you xox

  85. Thanks for the love on my blog post! Will be following you and your account as it looks great! Would love for a follow for insight and constructive critiques as I enter the blogging world!

      1. Aw thanks! And same to you. Hope you have an awesome Fourth of July! I’m in Wisconsin with my family so life is good!! ❤️🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

  86. Hi BBB,

    Great reminder to not look at the circumstances, but just go where the Lord sends us. That often means we go with nothing or feel equipt within ourselves. Like Toby Mac says, ” I have never been more aware of my need( for the Lord). Keep trusting Him. I have a writing situation that I need prayer for.

    Thanks,

    Gary

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  87. I really enjoyed this post, I think that every person has had this feeling before, that tight feeling in your stomach, the nervousness starts to takeover. I am glad you found a way to get rid of those negative emotions. Congratulations on the other work!

  88. F.R.O.G. – Forever Rely On God. I am so excited for your success, and the fact that you give it over to God. Right now I am struggling with issues at my work, where I really do not mesh with my supervisor. He has been there 1+ year, and I have been there 20. I keep struggling to turn it over to God, but keep getting pulled back by my humanness. Trade you prayers! Congrats on your well deserved assignment!

    1. Fully rely on God! Yes!! Thanks Michael for this great reflection. I’m sorry you’re going through a rough season. I’ll definitely keep you in my prayers! Hugs and love xox

  89. Doesn’t it feel good when we reach a place of maturity that we don’t yield to the lies of the enemy but draw on and believe the truth that our heavenly Father has given us and believe who we are in Him. Blessings to you, that is a milestone for every true child of God to reach.

  90. There are some who are born “out of place” where doors, whether open or closed, do not exist. They learn all too well the meaning of insecurity. But when they think about their Savior who was born, who lived, and then who died out of place, they find peace in knowing that His path is the narrowest way to the pearly gates — through which those who come to know and rely on God enter into their rightful place. I congratulate you for discovering the one hope upon which we could all faithfully stand above insecurity. Thank you for being vulnerable and for sharing your meaningful testimony that surely is speaking to someone’s heart today. Blessings!

  91. This was a great read. Even the most confident person compares themselves to someone at times. I’m so glad we serve a just God who can do for me and millions of others at the same time and never miss a beat!

  92. I often felt insecure over other girls. I agree about praying. Thank you for sharing your experience! xx
    You’re so pretty! <3

  93. I loved how you mentioned to let your light shine in that audition…and his peace came upon you! So happy to hear God opens another door that was even better. Keep shining!!

  94. Oh my gosh! Thank you so much for sharing this. Your post reminds of every day in my life. I attend a very upper class school where everyone looks like they stepped off the runway. It’s a struggle every day to work up the courage to go into school and have self-confidence. So again, THANK YOU!

  95. Just amazing, girlfriend!! Love your writing style, and being vulnerable. God is so amazing, and my FAVE verse is Eph. 3:20 “He is able to do EXCEEDINGLY ABUNDANTLY above all that we ask or think.”

  96. I have always been insecure all my life. Lately im trying to practice where i would pray and ask for strength and guide me to not let all these emotions cover me. Congrats on your gig!! You are so beautiful!!

  97. So much truth in this! You are learning and applying at such a young age…keep on keeping on! Your life will be so much deeper…have so much more meaning and purpose as you continue to lean into His ways! 🙂

  98. I remember those types of auditions..intimidating. Certain those other girls were feeling just as insecure. Praying…wish I’d thought of that.

  99. Wow. I had the same thought process for my first commercial audition; did the same thing: Prayed and summoned up my courage! Fears can stop us from a great opportunity that you may regret and wonder “What if”

  100. I would love for you to consider doing a guest spot on this very topic! And we can link it to this posting if you like or to your blog in general! Lovin’ up your thoughts! Keep em rollin’

  101. Great Blog about insecurity!
    Trusting that God can do for us what we cannot do for oursleves gives us the power to walk though just about anything. Keep glowing with inspiration!

  102. That ‘peace’ that suddenly comes over you? Yeah, been there. It’s unexplainable and feels like God simply putting his hand on our shoulder saying, “There’s nothing to be anxious about. I’m here with you.” Great post!

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