Don’t Tell Me I’m Beautiful

The mind can be a dark, desolate place. When I was in the thick of my anorexia, the last thing that I wanted to hear from anyone was, “You’re so beautiful.” I didn’t want to hear, “You were fearfully and wonderfully made.” Or, “You’re a masterpiece in the making.” “You’re a work of art.” “You’re beautiful.”Continue reading Don’t Tell Me I’m Beautiful

Taking Off the Mask (Part 2): Broken & Free

Continuing our discussion on masks, for me, the reason I would wear the mask of “I’m fine” was because I was afraid to show my brokenness. I was afraid to show anyone my insecurities, my fears, my doubts. I was afraid to show anyone that I wasn’t perfect. So I wore a mask. ED is a master manipulator. His numberContinue reading Taking Off the Mask (Part 2): Broken & Free

Taking Off the Mask (Part 1)

“I’m fine.” Those two little words are the biggest lie in all of history. When I was entrenched in my anorexia, that was my motto. End of story. Everything was always, “I’m fine.” Maybe you can relate. But with those two little words, I was able to keep everyone at arm’s distance. I wasn’t lettingContinue reading Taking Off the Mask (Part 1)

The Truth about Slip-Ups in Recovery

The thing about eating disorder recovery, is that it’s not just a one time thing. It’s not like you just flip a switch, and from then on, forever and ever, you’re “cured.” As much as I wish that were the case, it’s not. It’s a constant test of will and endurance. Have you seen thoseContinue reading The Truth about Slip-Ups in Recovery

Weight Restoration Without an Appetite

Weight Restoration. The crux of recovery. Where the rubber meets the road. Where the physical healing takes place. Where the mental healing is tested. Weight restoration in eating disorder recovery takes many forms, methods, strategies, and sizes. Typically, once the body starts receiving consistent nutrition and adequate calories, your metabolism kicks in and you begin to feelContinue reading Weight Restoration Without an Appetite

My Thoughts on Minnie Maud

Minnie Maud. OK. I’d like to first, get this out of the way, right now. I’m sorry, but when I hear “Minnie Maud,” all I can think about is this:   🙂 But seriously, Minnie Maud is a new treatment “trend?” for restrictive eating disorders. The name comes from the sources of its evidence-based approach:Continue reading My Thoughts on Minnie Maud

The Truth about Bloating in Recovery

Alright, truth time. There’s an elephant in the room, and it has to do with refeeding in recovery. And that, my friends, is bloating. This is an uncomfortable topic to talk about, because it has to do with body image. During recovery, we’re working on accepting our new body and learning to love it. We’reContinue reading The Truth about Bloating in Recovery

Relationship #RealTalk: Toxic Relationships

The dictionary defines “toxic” as “harmful or deadly.” Other synonyms include poisonous, lethal, and virulent. Yikes. There will come a time in your recovery, where you have to take a cold, hard, look at your past, and ask the question, “Do I have toxic relationships in my life?” Spoiler alert: This is not a funContinue reading Relationship #RealTalk: Toxic Relationships

Relationship #RealTalk: Broken Relationships

If you’ve lived though an eating disorder, it’s no secret that they take a toll on your relationships. We all know the damage it brings to the body and to the mind, but the havoc ED wreaks on relationships is often overlooked. Eating disorders are like a Category F5 tornado. They rip through and leaveContinue reading Relationship #RealTalk: Broken Relationships