If you’re reading this, I’d like to welcome you and give you a hug.

Maybe you’re the parent or loved one of someone suffering with an eating disorder. Perhaps you’re in the throes of anorexia yourself. Maybe you think you may have the beginning stages of disordered eating. Or perhaps you’re on the journey to recovery.

Whatever has brought you here, I hope that through the story of my brokenness, and redemption through the Lord, you are able to find hope, encouragement, advice, healing, support, and comfort.

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This blog chronicles my journey from severe anorexia to recovery, and every twist and turn along the way. The blog posts are meant to be read from beginning to end, as a book. (( Glorious Wounds is the Introduction.)) So I would suggest reading “up” — starting from my oldest post, and working backwards to the most recent. This is my first post.

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I must warn you that the beginning is very dark — intense, raw, and despairing. It is an uncensored view into my mind when I was deep in my anorexia. However, I chose to be vulnerable and share that utter brokenness — that wreckage — in order for you to truly grasp the gravity of the disease, and how sincerely meaningful freedom through Christ has been in my life.

I also hope that you’ll find the resources section of my blog helpful. If you or a loved one is suffering with disordered eating habits, please seek professional help.

With that being said, I am not a doctor. I’m not a therapist, dietician, counselor, psychiatrist, etc. I’m just a girl. Who had a severe case of anorexia. And who is journeying through recovery, one day at a time. I’m just sharing my story with the hopes that it will help even one person.

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***To get a copy of my book, Bloom: A Journal by BeautyBeyondBones, click here! 

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    3. Thank you, reading my post for ‘lastdayzrhere’ And, having read, but a small portion of your story and struggles with a serious eating disorder. I am completely struck and blown away by your candor, frankness and honesty. You are one of a kind and surely one of Father’s true warriors. A vessel of honor, Jesus is using in these end times to be to stand being courageous to tell your story and of how be is still get delivering you. He promised in Joel 2 that he would indeed pour out his Spirit upon all flesh. May the Lord continue to be praised through your life and testimony. And may he strengthen you and continue to bless and lift you up as you lift up the wonderful and glorious name JESUS the one who died and did it all for us. Let your lifestyle song of Him!

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  5. This is so so beautiful. I have had a slight case of anorexia (skipping meals a couple times a day, only eating 2/3 granola bars a day) a few years back. This is so amazing, because you are so brave. Proverbs 31:25 She is clothed with strength and dignity, and laughs without fear if the feature.

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    1. Thank you so much. I love that verse. So much truth. So glad you’ve found freedom from that. Eating disorders steal ones joy. Praise God we’ve both found new life❤️ thanks for stopping by ☺️

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  7. Oh I’m glad I saw your blog. I myself is suffering from negative comments from people about my skinny body. I would love to read your journey but I stumbled upon your page late at night so I’ll start tomorrow. Just reading this post itself already gave me an idea of how strong of a woman you are.

    –Walking with Favor–
    walkingwithfavor.wordpress.com

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  8. Your beginnings and end have all been orchestrated through our Lord. Your journey has resulted in your blog that God will now use to help others. May His blessings and wisdom be with you always.

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  9. I am exploring your writings because you ‘liked’ my essay titled “With the help of God and Gladys,” posted on TheViewfrom5022.wordpress.com. My personal struggle has historically been with bipolar disorder. Alas, it seems with age, bipolar disorder can burn itself out (or be healed by Jesus.) I invite you to read the About post of my former site AWARD OF JESUS. The spiritual healing exercise I went through was truly amazing.

    I look forward to reading your pieces.

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  10. Thank you for liking my blog. Your comments about your life are very sensitive and caring and responsive. You seem like an angel whose wings were once broken and God has enfolded you in his larger enveloping love to heal and nurture you. If you read my blog you will see that I feel God because of the depth of my sin has had to turn his back on me because I turned my back on him when I had full knowledge of the kingdom of God and the way of salvation. I can tell just by the way you write that you are on your way to heaven I hope you won’t follow my terrible example. But I definitely do draw encouragement from your blog and wish you the best.

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    1. Oh my gosh thank you for such affirming and kind words! We all have things in our pasts that are cause for remorse, but how comforting to know that we have a loving and forgiving father who is rich is mercy and loves to forgive 🙂 thanks for reading ☺️

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  11. Thank you for your honesty and courage. You will help many people coming forward like you have. I don’t have an eating disorder, but I know that Jesus is the Way, Truth & Life and the answer to all questions. By His stripes we are healed. I praise Jesus for your healing & for sharing your story with others.

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  12. I hope you get over anorexia and I am happy that you rely on the Lord emotionally. I do respect Christ though I am an existential nihilist.

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  14. I’m excited to read about your journey. My best friend has been suffering with anorexia for over 10 years. I’m hoping your posts will help me understand her side of the story better. Thank you for being vulnerable and willing to share the brokenness in your life. You will truly help others. God is so good!!

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    1. Thank you so much for this note of encouragement. I’m sorry to hear that your friend is suffering. I will definitely keep her in my prayers. She’s lucky to have you as a friend. Sending so much love and hugs xox

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  18. This is a wonderful thing that you are doing. So many people silently suffer in the darkness. I pray that you grow stronger and stronger in the Lord and continue to walk in victory over this. God bless.

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  20. I had a friend who was anorexic that I spent years trying to convince that what she saw in the mirror was nothing more than the container for the beauty within and in itself is worthless. The real beauty is inside and is the soul of the person. There are too many that fail to understand that appearance goes with the years.

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  21. I suffered with bulimia in the 1980s. After counseling, and placing my trust back into God and Jesus, I finally recovered. More than 30 years later, I can say that my beauty comes from being a Christ follower. Thank you for your courage and speaking up about eating disorders. God bless you.

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing this, Lori. I’m so glad you were able to find the freedom of recovery and the freedom in Christ. His embrace is the best place to be. 🙂 Sending so much love to you, beautiful warrior! hugs xox

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  28. You recently liked a post of mine at chaosandclarity.com. Glad you found me as it gave me a chance to explore your site. I love your beautiful images and your message. Was looking for a way to contact you with a question…..

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  29. Thanks for liking my “Crossroads.” Some hope for all those with EDs: I’ve had 30 years of recovery! That’s through three successful pregnancies as well. Recovery is possible. I’m still working on body image, but I have been the same healthy size (when not pregnant) all these years. My beginning of recovery was “acting as if” I loved myself. Hugs.

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    1. Wow 30 years! And children!! Oh my gosh how incredible. What an inspiration! That’s for this encouraging perspective. Sending so much love to you. Stay strong, beautiful warrior xoxoxoxooxoxkx😘😘😘

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  36. I like the way you express yourself. That is what I’m searching for, too….to say what I need in as few words as possible. But, to get my message across, without being poetic or flowery. No what I mean? I used to write that way, but it no longer suits my style….or me. I’ve become very direct. And that is who I am now. Much like John Lydon. Speak your mind, say your piece, them move on. Take care, will talk soon.:-)

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  42. Hi! Thanks for liking my blog post 🙂 I’d like you to know that I took it as an encouragement. I need a little push like that esp because I’m still a beginner. I love what Stay brave and confident in and for Christ. Your mission is definitely blessing a lot of people! God bless you in all you do for His glory!

    xo, Christine

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  43. Thank you for reading my post on HospitaliTEA! 🙂 I love what you are doing and how uplifting your blog is to others. I pray that The LORD continues to bless you in this ministry! 🙂

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      1. I met with my friend today who suffered from bulemia in her 20’s & told her to check out your beautiful blog and journey. She has recovered only due to the power of Jesus in her life. I pray that you will continue to reach others with this message.

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  44. Bold and brave only just touch at the most scant edges of your strength. There is a certain fortitude that comes from vulnerability, and it is clear you are on that path. Remain vulnerable and be stronger still.

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  45. Hi,
    I see that you have been a regular visitor to my blog, so just wanted to thank you for taking the time to read and like some of the postings. Sometimes I think ‘outside of the box’ that modern day society would have us believe contains the truth concerning the mysteries of the human race.

    Note that you have had (have) personal challenges to overcome. Just remember that the past does not have to be a part of the coming future. Keep your mind tuned to the right frequency (easier said than done sometimes!) and other less positive frequencies will be blocked – they will find more receptive ‘receivers’.

    Warmest regards
    John Graham

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  47. hey, thanks for the nod. I just finished up a story on eating disorder orthorexia. I hope it’s not just crappy work, I hope they post it.

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  48. Hi Beautybeyondbones, I’ve read some of your posts and your story is really touching, kudos to you for sharing. May the Lord continue to strengthen you to victory!

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  50. Thank you for visiting me at Trigger’s Horse. Many years ago my husband starved himself into heart failure in his quest to “get healthy”. Anorexia is so dangerous on many levels; I wish you well in your return to health. Thank you for sharing your story. – Fawn

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    1. Oh my gosh Fawn, I am so sorry about your husband. That absolutely breaks my heart. I wish I could give you a big hug hug right now. You’re right- anorexia is so very dangerous. Thank you
      For reading. So much love and hugs to you friend xoxoxoxoxo

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