If you’re reading this, I’d like to welcome you and give you a hug.

Maybe you’re the parent or loved one of someone suffering with an eating disorder. Perhaps you’re in the throes of anorexia yourself. Maybe you think you may have the beginning stages of disordered eating. Or perhaps you’re on the journey to recovery.

Whatever has brought you here, I hope that through the story of my brokenness, and redemption through the Lord, you are able to find hope, encouragement, advice, healing, support, and comfort.

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This blog chronicles my journey from severe anorexia to recovery, and every twist and turn along the way. The blog posts are meant to be read from beginning to end, as a book. (( Glorious Wounds is the Introduction.)) So I would suggest reading “up” — starting from my oldest post, and working backwards to the most recent. This is my first post.

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I must warn you that the beginning is very dark — intense, raw, and despairing. It is an uncensored view into my mind when I was deep in my anorexia. However, I chose to be vulnerable and share that utter brokenness — that wreckage — in order for you to truly grasp the gravity of the disease, and how sincerely meaningful freedom through Christ has been in my life.

I also hope that you’ll find the resources section of my blog helpful. If you or a loved one is suffering with disordered eating habits, please seek professional help.

With that being said, I am not a doctor. I’m not a therapist, dietician, counselor, psychiatrist, etc. I’m just a girl. Who had a severe case of anorexia. And who is journeying through recovery, one day at a time. I’m just sharing my story with the hopes that it will help even one person.

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***To get a copy of my book, Bloom: A Journal by BeautyBeyondBones, click here! 

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2,012 thoughts on “Read This First”

  1. Hi! Thank you for visiting and liking my recent post. I did not experience what you have experienced but I think we all have different stories in life that made us a better a person. I’m glad you find your way to recovery through God’s grace and mercy. Because whatever bad experiences and problems we encounter, we will get through it if we only have Christ in our side and if we only entrust everything to Him. I have not yet read all your posts but I know every person who will read it will learn things from you and I know you will be able to help others through it. God bless you on your journey!

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  7. Hi BBB, I could not find a ‘contact’ button so I am posting here instead. Hope you don’t mind. I have been ‘following’ you for sometime from my blog – hope in the storm. I have merged that blog site with this one – http://youaregodsblessing.blogspot.co.uk.I hope you will follow it as you did my previous one.

    I love your honesty and have watched you grow over time. Thank you for your inspirational blog.

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    Thanking you for your support – Margaret x

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  8. Thanks so much for liking my blog. Your blog is amazing – what a beautiful site about overcoming such a scary and dangerous disorder! Keep up the great work and keep sharing your hopeful and powerful testimony.

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  11. My wife and I sat in our car today and I read your “Read This First” blog entry. She exclaimed, “That’s beautiful” and asked me to send it to her. Thank you for your work.

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  16. I tried to leave a comment last night, but the combination of tired and newbie defeated me. Giving it an other try!
    Back in the late seventies or early eighties at work one night someone yelled across the warehouse to a friend that the singer Karen Carpenter had just died from some disease that caused her to starve herself to death. That was how I learned my cousin had died and learned about anorexia. Many years later a family member told my mom that I must be anorexic after I lost about 30 pounds in a few months and Mom freaked out, No, I had struggled with my own addictions, but that wasn’t one of them. It was working 2 jobs and still too poor to eat more than twice a day! If I was lucky, I might add.
    Thank you so much for sharing your pain and journey back to Wholeness with us and I look forward to reading more. Brightest Blessings to you and your loved ones.

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    1. Hi there friend, thank you so much for sharing this. I am so sorry that you had to go through that. That breaks my heart, but I am glad that you have overcome those hardships and used it to grow. You are an inspiration. So glad that you stopped by and I’m sorry that there were issues with the comments section!! sending big hugs xox

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  21. I’m on board … My intent is catch up, and stay up todate with your posts. Based on your wriitng in this post, your heart is good. I appreciate your faith, and I want to read more, learn more. Redemption, in our brokeness, and redemption comes out of our brokeness.

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  23. What a great mission you have now found yourself on. That you have found strength in what was once a big challenge and now using that power to help others is a true testament to your character. Bless.

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  24. Because you were so kind as to “like” one of my blog posts, we have now met. I’ve read little of your material, but tell you now I admire you greatly. Our histories are nothing alike, but all of us face challenges in life; strength and bravery are two of the attributes we must grasp in order to effectively live our lives. A common bond we do share is our faith in Jesus Christ, the righteous. My love and blessings.

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  25. thank you for dropping by my blog and liking my recent post. I haven’t read beyond your introduction due to time limitation but I really would like to come back for more reading. For now though, I’m leaving you my prayers that you’ll continue to stand firm with the Lord as He had stood firm and will continue to stand firm by your side, especially when you are down. God bless!

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  26. Thanks for stopping by and for being so open and brave as to share your experiences with others. Bravo. Best wishes. E x

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  29. Thank you for visiting and liking my own blog, 10forJesus.com . It is amazing the multitude of ways God can weave himself into different life stories. I want to add that, though it is obviously geared toward alcoholism, many people struggling with eating disorders find the book 12 Steps and 12 Traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous helpful, and there is an offshoot called Overeaters Anonymous, too, which provides free help.

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  34. I am glad I came across you. My story is, that I was broken for 15 long years being depressed. And now my story is, since over two years I have, “Completely recovered from it, being said I have come back to Normal. A word I never thought I would hear” The biploar/mood disorder is also completely under control now and I am working, studying and leading a fully normal life 🙂
    Thanks very much for writing your story to inspire and guide others. If there is anyone who like to know about mental wellness please do have a look in my site too. Its Not to add likes but My intention is to spread the message of mental wellness as much as possible as I am living proof of having recovered completely from depression. Thanks for all your information. I wish you The Very Best of Luck in your journey. Love Light and Healing energies from me 🙂 ❤

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  36. Hi!
    First, thank you for finding my blog and liking my posts! You were the first one, and I am forever grateful to you!

    I want to honor you for your work on this blog, to be so open and honest in all aspects. It takes great courage. I am very proud of you!
    Throughout my life, I have known several wonderful people with eating disorder, and I have seen close up how it affects them.
    Thank you soo much for sharing your story with the world. I am certain that your blog do a difference in many lives.
    My very best wishes for your journey in life. I will share your blog forwards.
    I see you here on your blog too.

    Have a wonderful day!

    Love,
    Elen

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  38. Thank you very much for liking my post, “Big brother I”; it was quiet a surprise. Just read, “Read this first” and I anticipate enjoying and learning from every other post I read here from now on…

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  42. Yeah, I have that disorder where I just “forget to eat” when I have other pressing matters to attend to. I generally don’t eat until my body is shaky and cannot function. I’m not recommending anyone do that by any means, and it is probably what is contributing to my “pooch belly”, but I sort of know what you mean.

    Keep on keeping on, dear friend.

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  43. Hi! Thank you for visiting and liking my recent post. I did not experience what you have experienced. I’m glad you find your way to recovery. I used to lack confidence due to heavy bullying. Now I’m the happiest I have been doing journalism at Glasgow Clyde College in Scotland. Hugs to you.
    Regards
    Sean McAngus

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  46. I’m new to recovery (120 days! (four months!!!) today) and new to blogging about it, but not new to writing. It’s been interesting and really cool to experiment with the candid nature of telling my story unfiltered.

    You were one of the first people to stumble upon my stuff and like it. You’re also someone who’s religious and political perspective, it seems, completely don’t align with mine; but it’s teaching me so much about loving people even if they don’t meet you where you think you need them to.

    We are in recovery together, and we are in the world at the same time with the same mission–get better and live through it. I’m feeling so much love and sending it your way.

    Do you have any advice for helping me grow a base of readers? Thank you for your support so far 🙂 ❤

    Cait

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  48. I think it’s great that you are sharing your experiences. I believe many will find what you have to share very helpful.

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