Tag: inpatient
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Remember Why
Do you remember 9/11? Many of you reading this may be too young to remember. Which, side note: is freaking insane and makes me feel ancient (which I’m not). 🙂 But 9/11 happened when I was a kid. So I do remember. I don’t need to go into a history lesson about that fateful day. But after 9/11 happened, our…
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For the Girls Whose Lives aren’t Rainbows and Butterflies
Recovering from an eating disorder is tough stuff. It’s scary. Mentally, emotionally and physically painful. You have extreme mood swings. Crippling self-doubt and hatred. You have to resist urges to exercise, purge, self-harm, what-have-you. There’s a constant inner battle of whether or not you should really surrender your eating disorder. Not to mention all the food and planning and calorie counting and meal…
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Overcoming Insomnia
It’s 4:21am. You’ve been literally tossing and turning for five hours. Willing yourself to sleep. Begging your brain to just shut down for the day. Pleading your mind to just let you fall asleep. You’ve tried praying. Counting sheep. Listening to music. Counting backwards. But to no avail. You have insomnia. It was the bane…
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Gold, Refined by Fire
I went to the doctor today for the first time in three years. A new doctor. And it sucked. ***Now before you give up on this post, keep reading — my “Negative Nancy” talk will turn around here soon. I promise — I’m just setting the stage 🙂 But going to the doctor legitimately sucked.…
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My Thoughts on Minnie Maud
Minnie Maud. OK. I’d like to first, get this out of the way, right now. I’m sorry, but when I hear “Minnie Maud,” all I can think about is this:  🙂 But seriously, Minnie Maud is a new treatment “trend?” for restrictive eating disorders. The name comes from the sources of its evidence-based approach:…
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Relationship #RealTalk: Broken Relationships
If you’ve lived though an eating disorder, it’s no secret that they take a toll on your relationships. We all know the damage it brings to the body and to the mind, but the havoc ED wreaks on relationships is often overlooked. Eating disorders are like a Category F5 tornado. They rip through and leave…
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GET ANGRY
Recovery is hard. Things can be going fine – swell even — and then all of a sudden – BAM! – something triggers an emotional break down, or – BAM! — you all of a sudden will internally freak out about the number of calories you’re consuming. Or you’ll be having a great day, determined…
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Daily Thoughts for Strength
In my post yesterday, I shared that the way I deal with bad body image and how I truly learned to love myself was through God’s grace, and by just accepting the love that Jesus is pouring out on me. (And on you, too) And I wanted to just pause for a minute here. Maybe you’re…
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Coming Clean
Eating disorders are all about deception. They thrive on isolation. Prey on insecurities. And really “get ya” with shame and guilt. One of the biggest contributing factors to my shame, guilt, and self-hatred, (aside from my “Capital L” Lie) were all the lies I was telling my loved ones. I detailed in full all of…
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Living in a Triggering World
There is a universal truth that all women know to be true: Our culture is obsessed with thinness. Ask literally any woman, eating disorder history or not, and she will tell you the pressures that society places on her to be “pretty enough,” “thin enough,” “sexy enough.” Watch any television program, and the female lead…