Have you ever had one of those moments of clarity where you actually see things the way the are, or rather, the way they could have been? Well I had one of those moments tonight. This evening, I had to say goodbye to a good guy friend in the city who is moving out of stateContinue reading Missing Out On Love
Dealing with Discouragement
#HonestyHour It’s been a rough week for me. Why? One word: discouragement. As many of you know, this week, my *former* Instagram account, @anorexiarevealed was falsely-reported as a “pro-Ana” account, and shut down by Instagram. Yes, they can do that. But it breaks my heart because, as you know, my #1 goal is to shareContinue reading Dealing with Discouragement
Let’s Go Shopping
Shopping. Hearing that word may have ignited a sense of anxiety in you. Maybe you got excited. But I’m gonna gamble that the majority of you got a gut-wrenching wave of nausea at the thought of going clothes shopping. I know I used to. (And to a degree, still do, to this day, if I’mContinue reading Let’s Go Shopping
Surrender
You’ve cried out. Pleaded. Begged in desperation. Implored Jesus to rescue you. Jesus, I cannot do this anymore by myself. I need you to save me. I need you to free me. I am crying out to you because I have nowhere else to go. I have no one left to turn to. I’m cryingContinue reading Surrender
Cry Out
SOS It’s happening. You swore that this would never happen ever again. You promised yourself over and over and over that you would never go back to that place again. But here you are. It’s dark. Your mind is not your own. You don’t recognize who you’ve become. Giving into ED made you think youContinue reading Cry Out
Allowing Myself To Be Loved
I woke up this morning and it was different. I woke up completely bursting with joy. It was one of those experiences where I was taking a mental inventory of how I felt, because it was a feeling that I want to remember forever. It was a feeling that I want to have forever. So whatContinue reading Allowing Myself To Be Loved
Relationship #RealTalk: Broken Relationships
If you’ve lived though an eating disorder, it’s no secret that they take a toll on your relationships. We all know the damage it brings to the body and to the mind, but the havoc ED wreaks on relationships is often overlooked. Eating disorders are like a Category F5 tornado. They rip through and leaveContinue reading Relationship #RealTalk: Broken Relationships
For Parents
First things first: I want to give you a hug. What you’re going through, I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. Every day you put on armor to go into battle, and I know, it’s exhausting. It’s scary. It’s exasperating. It’s heartbreaking. For lack of a better word, it just sucks. I was recently talkingContinue reading For Parents
The Golden Road to Hell
The days at inpatient were long, regimented, and monitored. You ate three meals a day and two snacks between meals. You would have a therapy session every day, either one-on-one with your shrink, or in your “home” group of 4-6 girls. Free time was spent reading, playing cards, doing art, coloring – yes, adults coloringContinue reading The Golden Road to Hell
Guilty Until Proven Otherwise
I don’t know exactly how long I was in that back room that first day of inpatient, but it seemed like hours. I got weighed. Examined. Blood work done. Vitals taken. During my first 2 weeks, I had to have my vitals taken every 3 hours. And I wasn’t allowed to walk anywhere on theContinue reading Guilty Until Proven Otherwise
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