Author: beautybeyondbones
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Remember Why
Do you remember 9/11? Many of you reading this may be too young to remember. Which, side note: is freaking insane and makes me feel ancient (which I’m not). 🙂 But 9/11 happened when I was a kid. So I do remember. I don’t need to go into a history lesson about that fateful day. But after 9/11 happened, our…
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Burn the Labels
Who are you? Ask anyone that question, and most likely, you’ll get one of a handful of answers: Most people will list their profession, or what they do. I’m a doctor, lawyer, teacher, actor, student, etc. Others will list something they’re known for: I’m a volleyball player. I’m violinist. They’ll spit you their label. As…
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The Truth About Exercise in Recovery
Alright, beautiful Warriors. Time for a little bit of Wednesday night #RealTalk. And I’m gonna be straight up – Just like I like my tequila. 🙂 Exercise. What comes to mind when you hear that word? Do you feel anxious, maybe because you wish you could be doing it right now? Do you feel guilty, maybe…
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For the Girls Whose Lives aren’t Rainbows and Butterflies
Recovering from an eating disorder is tough stuff. It’s scary. Mentally, emotionally and physically painful. You have extreme mood swings. Crippling self-doubt and hatred. You have to resist urges to exercise, purge, self-harm, what-have-you. There’s a constant inner battle of whether or not you should really surrender your eating disorder. Not to mention all the food and planning and calorie counting and meal…
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Overcoming Insomnia
It’s 4:21am. You’ve been literally tossing and turning for five hours. Willing yourself to sleep. Begging your brain to just shut down for the day. Pleading your mind to just let you fall asleep. You’ve tried praying. Counting sheep. Listening to music. Counting backwards. But to no avail. You have insomnia. It was the bane…
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When Looking Back Hurts
Looking back at painful times can be…well…painful. Reflecting on times where you were put through trials and suffering can make you feel numb or depressed, and it can open up wounds that you thought had healed. Being in recovery, looking back on the harrowing time when I was in my disease could be very desolate.…
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What I Learned from Losing My Hair
I had a haircut today. And sitting in that chair, as my hair dresser exclaims, “You’ve got so much hair!” I remember the long journey that has brought me here. You see, during my anorexia, my hair fell out. I mean, literally all of it. Not just like, “Oh my hair’s thinning!” No. We’re talking…I lost about 90%…
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Missing Out On Love
Have you ever had one of those moments of clarity where you actually see things the way the are, or rather, the way they could have been? Well I had one of those moments tonight. This evening, I had to say goodbye to a good guy friend in the city who is moving out of state…
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Dealing with Discouragement
#HonestyHour It’s been a rough week for me. Why? One word: discouragement. As many of you know, this week, my *former* Instagram account, @anorexiarevealed was falsely-reported as a “pro-Ana” account, and shut down by Instagram. Yes, they can do that. But it breaks my heart because, as you know, my #1 goal is to share…
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Let’s Go Shopping
Shopping. Hearing that word may have ignited a sense of anxiety in you. Maybe you got excited. But I’m gonna gamble that the majority of you got a gut-wrenching wave of nausea at the thought of going clothes shopping. I know I used to. (And to a degree, still do, to this day, if I’m…