So I’ve been watching rewatching The OC recently.
That’s right. No shame here. I love it. All of it. Even the fourth season that literally limped along for 16ish pathetic episodes until the writers, in essence, gave up on the show. (Hello, Ryan’s dad?? WTFuudge mate?)
ANYWHO. I digress.
The episode I watched last night was the one where Summer and Seth (heart eyes) are battling it out, fighting over the spot to Brown. Brown only accepts one student from their high school, and so Seth and Summer duke it out to be deemed the “perfect candidate” for the prestigious university.
In essence, they reinvent themselves for the application.
Summer adopts the marching band, and Seth tries his hand (as a pirate) at the drama club. They do community service, join clubs, practice their interview skills — all to appear like they’re the exemplary student, worthy of admission to Brown.
Smooth plan. That is until Seth buckles under the pressure and ends up getting stoned before the interview and misses it altogether.
Don’t do drugs, kids. 😉
But I was watching that episode, and it just struck me how relatable that is. How, their little “song and dance” to get into college is really how we all play the game of life, isn’t it? At least to some degree?
We always feel we have to change in order to be accepted, make the grade, earn respect. We try to look our best for high school reunions – maybe change our hair. Why do you think that Extreme Weight Loss show, or Extreme Make Over was and is so popular? It’s because it’s feeding that default mechanism inside all of us that says that in order to be good, we have to be as damn near perfect as possible. Makeover our lives, our homes, our bodies, in order to be deemed worthy of the vacation prize or the admission letter, or the friend group.
This thinking really played into my anorexia.
My “Capital L” Lie, that played over and over in my head was that in order to be worthy of love, I had to be perfect. And we all have different tapes that play in our minds that influence our decisions. They might not drive you to an eating disorder, but perhaps they produce other destructive behaviors.
Anyways.
There was a moment in my recovery where things became entirely clear. It was like someone turned the lights on in a pitch black room, and I could suddenly see everything with absolute clarity.
I don’t talk about my time at inpatient very much, mainly because I don’t think it really got to the heart of my anorexia. It did save my life: it got most of the weight on, anyway. But in terms of healing my spirit, no ma’am. That was Jesus.
But there was one episode at inpatient that will forever be in my memory, as it changed my life.
And it happened at chapel on the 6th or 7th day. During the song, “Here I am to Worship.”
This beautifully simple song brought me to my knees, literally.
I realized that I didn’t have to change to receive God’s love. I didn’t have to be like Seth and Summer, striving tirelessly to be some ideal and perfect overachiever. I didn’t have to put on a marching band uniform or become a extracurricular hoarder to be deemed worthy of His love and acceptance.
It is rather repetitive: “Here I am to worship. Here I am to bow down. Here I am to say that You’re my God.”
In that moment, it finally clicked: here I am…Here I am, right here, right now. I don’t have to change – I can be me, just as I am – in my broken and vulnerable state, I will be embraced with open arms and loved and forgiven.
And then the kicker: “I’ll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.”
Allow me to rephrase: I’ll never know how much it cost to see my eating disorder upon that cross.
I’ll never be able to fully comprehend the fact that You chose to die on a cross so that I could be forgiven and saved of my eating disorder. So that I could be loved in my broken and imperfect state. So that I don’t have to change. So that I can come to You like a little child, and say “Here I am,” this is who I really am.
In that moment, singing that song, my knees buckled and I just felt it. I felt the embrace of Jesus. Wrapping His loving and strong arms around my emaciated, cold, and lifeless body, and me allowing that embrace.
It broke through the walls I had built around my heart. And it was that precise moment that I truly adopted recovery.
I had no idea that simple song would have such a profound impact. But, it quite literally hit me like a sack of bricks.
And so, I’ve decided to share it with you. Me. Singing it.
And as frightening as that notion is, me sharing my voice is saying, Here I am.
So I invite you to just listen. It’s only 3 minutes long, and I pray that it will open a part of your heart that perhaps needs love. Reassurance. Hope.
I owe my life to this song. Because it opened my heart to Him, who then truly did come in and save my life.
Lyrics: Here I am to Worship
Light of the world, you stepped down into darkness.
Opened my eyes, let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore You.
Hope of a life spent with you.
Here I am to worship. Here I am to bow down.
Here I am to say that you’re my God.
You’re altogether lovely. Altogether worthy.
Altogether wonderful to me.
King of all days, Oh so highly exalted.
Glorious in Heaven above.
Humbly You came to the earth You created,
All for love’s sake became poor.
So Here I am to worship…
And I’ll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
I’ll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
So Here I am to worship…
133 responses to “Here I Am”
And a merry, merry Christmas to you, too, my friend! May we all celebrate the birth of the One who died so we can ALL sing that song (granted, not all will sound as pleasant as you!).
Haha thank you, Tony:) I appreciate that so much. Have a wonderful and peace filled Christmas! God bless!
The song that does it for me is called “It Is Well”. I especially love the part that goes
“That Christ hath regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul”
I cry EVERY TIME I hear this song. It gives me such a peace. That I am surrounded by Christ’s love and everything will be alright. Thanks for this post <3
Hi Ellie! Oh my gosh I love that song too! It is so powerful. And so true. We were brought at a price. And we are loved beyond measure. Thanks for stopping by, beautiful. Have a merry merry Christmas xx
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Oh I love love love that song. Such a powerful message. Thanks for stopping by!❤️
How beautiful – the post, the photos, and then YOU singing THE song of worship where Jesus met you (or shall we say where you were enabled to receive Him). Hallelujah! Praying with you that everyone receives the same grace we have through God’s Son to be restored to their destiny as a new creation, a child of the living God, Love Himself…
Thank you so much Deanna. My goodness I am so touched by your words. Thank you for the bottom of my heart. Yes, I was enabled to accept and receive the love that he was pouring out to me. Thanks for stopping by! Blessings and love to you this Christmas!! ❤️❤️❤️
You are such a blessing and a joy! You KNOW Him and He lives in and through you! This will be such a wonderful Christmas for you and your family! Love you too! ❤️
😍thanks. Yes it will be. My mom and we’re just talking about that yesterday. Hugs to you!!
We sing that song at church Good for you for embracing your uniqueness.
Thank you so much. It is such a beautiful song! Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read! Have a wonderful Christmas! Blessings and love to you ❤️
Mine is “Here I Am Lord”, which I find rather ironic since the title of your post is Here I Am. You have a beautiful voice..and this is such a wonderful post! Always be you for you and no one else!! God didn’t create you to be them, he created you to be you! 🙂
Hi Deb! Ooh that’s another good one! Gosh, thank you so much for such kind words. And you’re right-He created me to be me! Thanks for stopping by and have a marvelous Christmas! 😎
It was my pleasure, I’ll be back! Wishing you a very Merry Christmas too!! xo
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Dear BBB, Thanks for sharing your story for it reminded me of how God touched me in a life changing way through a song that I was singing along with in a small group of Christians in about 1992 after going through twelve years of spiritual wilderness in my life in which I thought that God had left me. All of a sudden as we were singing it I heard Jesus singing it to ME! As it was with you in your lovely song, when He got to the last stanza my knees buckled and I was in a heap on the floor. His love for me finally broke through my captivity and told me it was over. Here are the words,
I Will Change Your Name
by D. J. Butler
I will change your name
You shall no longer be called
Wounded, outcast, lonely or afraid
I will change your name
Your new name shall be
Confidence, joyfulness, overcoming one
Faithfulness, friend of God
(Here I asked, “Oh God! Who am I that you would call me your friend? and He answered, “Because you are…)
One who seeks My face”
Bless you, my dear sister and Merry Christmas!
Hi Michael! Thanks for sharing this! I haven’t heard this one but I will definitely look it up! The lyrics are amazing and so comforting and hopeful. How awesome that Jesus was able to break through to you in this song! God is so good. Thanks for stopping by! Merry Christmas!
I have never heard this song, but thank you for sharing it, because it is exactly what I needed to hear right now!
Hi Lauren! Oh good! That makes me so happy:) glad it struck a chord (😉😉) with you:) hugs and love! Merry Christmas!
Great post. Learning to be secure in the Love of God is a marvelous, comforting thing!!!! I meditate on that truth often! His Mercy for Sinners is His Glory. What a marvelous thing that The Holy God and Creator of the Universe sees His children pure and holy through the Saving Work of His Son!
Hi Mary! Thank you for your kind response! You’re so right- it brings me to my knees to think what Jesus did for us. We are so loved. Thanks for stopping by and have a wonderful Christmas!
Love this. I can’t relate to eating disorders but I can relate to feeling like nothing and no one and trying to be someone, desperately hoping to be loved if I just look the part. God does show us how ugly our sins are but it’s always so we can know how much it cost him and how deep he loves us. I am still learning that. Abusive relationships made me a very fearful person and I have to fight most days to really believe God loves me. This past week suicidal thoughts have crept back into my thoughts and I just close my eyes and ask God to be so real to me. I literally have nothing left but him to cling to. He loves me crazy thoughts and all. Thanks for the post. It encouraged me in my pain.
Hi friend❤️ thank you so much for sharing your heart. I think you really got to the heart of everything when you said that we are loved at a great price. It is baffling how much He loves us. No matter what, just like you said. Enough for Him to lay down his life. I pray that Jesus’s love will just wash over you. Know how precious you are. Hollow words, I know, but it is so true. Your life is important enough for Him to endure the Cross. Remember that. Sending you so much love and will keep you in my prayers.
Thank you!!! That means a lot to me! Merry Christmas 😊
Merry Christmas to you too!❤️❤️❤️
Dear sister:
Please remember that among the angels in his heart are those waiting to be received by YOU. I know that pain is real and that it keeps on coming, but holy moments are a doorway through time. When your heart fills with his acceptance, remember all the beautiful things that you have lost, and send those angels out to gather them up again.
Hoping that in this Christmas season you are returned the gift of yourself.
Brian
Hi Brian, thank you for this beautiful comment. Yes, He is good and his mercy washes over me. I have made it my mission in life to spread that love that I have so graciously been given, to everyone in my life. Thanks for stopping by and for making me smile:) Merry Christmas ☺️
that’s beautiful
Isn’t it! Brian has a way with words ❤️
Nice…the post, the song…very nice. I’ve always loved that song and you sang it well. ❤️ Thank you for sharing. The songs that have resonated so deeply in my spirit this season of my life are “First”, “The Motions” and “Good, Good Father”. Another one is “Flawless”. So many good Christian songs! I hope you have a wonderfully joyous Christmas.
Thank you so much Jackie! I appreciate your affirming words:) I love those songs! Especially First. I get so excited when it comes on pandora☺️ same to you! Merry merry christmas! Thanks for stopping by!
I love that song so much! Merry Christmas
It has such comforting lyrics, doesn’t it? Thanks for stopping by! Merry Christmas! Xoxo
Yea! It does. I listened to it again and it’s such an amazing one! Much love.
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Merry Christmas back to you, dear. Yes, “Here I Am…” is a powerful song when sung by one who has insight into the cost that He paid when he left his throne in glory to be a baby to become a man to die on that cross. For us!
Thank you so much!! Now THAT is the true meaning of Christmas! Thanks for stopping by! Have a joyous Christmas!
Praise God that He came into your life and saved you. Praise God for His glorious Son Jesus Christ Who alone is worthy of all praise and worship. Thank you for sharing that Jesus Christ set you free from sin, death and hell, Amen!
Thank you for visiting and reading my latest post on holdingforthhisword. May Christ draw us deeper into His love and closer to Him. Amen!
Thank you so much Eliza. Yes amen to that! God is so good. I owe Him my life and am forever grateful for his mercy and forgiveness. Thanks so much for stopping by! Merry Christmas!
A merry Christmas to you.
Thank you for singing to us all what is a very important hymn to you.
God bless you.
Thanks Harry. I appreciate your affirming words. Pushing “publish” on this one was particularly nerve wracking! Haha so your kindness is so appreciated:) Merry Christmas!! Thanks again for reading!
I definitely didn’t feel like I fit in ANYWHERE when I was growing up and all through college (even now) I feel like sometimes I can’t relate to most ppl. However, I don’t know why I hid behind my ED for so long — it didn’t help bring me closer to ANYONE.
Also — I LOVEEEE the OC! Where are you re-watching it? I love re-watching my favorite series 😀 And I also lived in the OC for 4 years for school so there’s that 😛
Hey Floey! Ah yes, the goodness OC. Ryan Atwood and the gang can be rewatched on the cwseed.com. They have an app or you can watch through your browser. Beware though, once you start watching, you won’t be able to stop! Haha honestly, I owe the fact that I had to do such kast minute Christmas shopping to the OC! Haha I spent all the time I SHOULD HAVE been shopping “in” Cali! Haha. And yes, ED is a dirty theif like that. Thank goodness for freedom from him! Thanks again for stopping by! Enjoy watching 😉
Ahhh thanks for the link girl! There goes the rest of my xmas break! jk jk. What show are you going to start watching next? 😛
Haha 😎 great question. Debating between Seinfeld and house of cards. Any suggestions?
I love gilmore girls, have you seen that series?
Every. Single. Episode. LOVE that show. Rory and Dean forever! ❤️❤️❤️
Omg. SAME
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Wow.
Thank you so much 🙂 I appreciate you taking the time to grad! Merry Merry Christmas!!
What an inspirational blog! You have truly received the greatest gift of all and that’s the recognition that God does not create Junk! Nothing occurs by accident and the trials you have endured and overcome have created someone so strong they influence others with that strength. As a nutritional counselor, I praise God for you! Blessings and how I pray that I will get to know you even better through your posts, Merry Christmas to you and yours my new friend,
Hi Ellie! Oh thank you so much! Your comment put a smile on my face this morning ☺️ yes God is so good! And I’m forever grateful to him! Merry Christmas to you as well! I look forward to getting to know you☺️
That is so awesome! He does love us just as we are..you’re right! I love that song too! And Merry Christmas!
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Thanks so much Andi! I really appreciate it. Yes He does! What a comfort to rest in that knowledge:) Merry Christmas! Thanks for stopping by!
This is one of my favorite worship songs too, and you did a beautiful arrangement of it, thank you :). Thank you for the post, it’s something I’ve struggled with, knowing I can come to God exactly as I am, that I don’t have to fake myself. I really needed this reminder today. Have a blessed and very Merry Christmas!
Thank you so much! I appreciate you reading and listening! In our world today where we always have to be the “best” version of ourselves for acceptance etc, it is so freeing to realize that God loves us. Just as we are. In our imperfect state. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love to you and yours this Christmas!
I love those moments during worship when the band has gotten everybody singing in the comfort of the professional voices, and then drops the music way down and you can hear the congregation singing a capella. They tend to just keep singing and have this wonderful realization of just how beautiful they all are to God. Yes, it hurt to bear sin, but remember that what he sees is an eternity of you when you have learned to refashion yourself in the love of the Almighty. There is a joyful purpose there, and your sharing of your honest, human journey is a balm.
Hi Brian! Oh thank you so much. I love that too. There’s nothing more beautiful to God than hearing all his children lift their voices to him. Thanks for being such a great supporter and encourager! Have a blessed and joyful Christmas!
This is a very beautiful post, but then again all of them are 🙂 Interesting that you watch the O.C. I love to watch Hallmark at this time of year due to all the Christmas movies 🙂 They may be highly sentimental, but it is Hallmark it is supposed to do that and at least they really believe in those values as opposed to faking it. One christmas film you should watch is “Signed Sealed and Delivered for Christmas” they have played it a few times on Hallmark this year and past month, but If you do not have time to watch it, it is available on Amazon and Wal-Mart (hey the place I work) 🙂 the website IMDB provides a sypnosis. Last, but not least, your singing voice is wonderful and the song is just well beautiful and in case you do not write another post before Christmas, may I wish you a Merry Christmas and may all your dreams and wishes come true 🙂 Keep up the great work as always 🙂
Hi John, gosh thank you so much for your kind words! Your comments always brighten my day! It’s funny that you mention Hallmark movies! My family and I are sitting here watching one right now! We LOVE the sentimental (albeit sometimes cheesy) family friendly goodness on the Hallmark channel this time of year. And you too! Have a beautiful and blessed Christmas, John!
indeed we don’t have to strive tirelessly to receive God’s amazing grace and love for us. In fact, Jesus came so that we, sinners, are made righteous. And at the cross, He has borne all sicknesses and diseases so that we can be made well, healthy and live the abundant life that He has prepared for us. 🙂 It is when we rest, that God will RESTore 🙂
Hi Cheryl! Oh my gosh I love that: when we rest, God will restore. ❤️ I e never heard that before! But wow it is so true. What a comforting and hopeful thought:) thanks for stopping by! Have a wonderful Christmas! Hugs!
aww thanks for being so sweet! I too, am amazed at what you’ve written! there’re so many revelations and truths that i’ve encountered, and am sure will encounter more as i read on! you’re such a blessing <3 Have a blessed Christmas too!! <3
And oh btw, is there any way i can reach you personally?:)
❤️❤️❤️your words humble me Cheryl. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. To Him be the Glory! Hugs xoxo
aww you inspire me so much and i feel that we’ve so much in common! it’s just amazing <3 and i believe it's by divine intervention that our paths crossed:)
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Thanks for this! What a great article. I love that: how his glory touches every part of our lives. What a beautiful thought that is. And so true! Hugs to you, Cheryl! xx
definitely. and we need to always rmbr that it’s because of what Jesus has done on the cross that has enabled us to appear righteous before God’s eyes. and it’s simply cuz we’re the righteousness of God in Christ, that we’re no longer condemned <3 thanks for being such a lovely sister <3
btw, is there any way i am able to reach u personally? 🙂
You speak such truth, Cheryl! I love your wisdom and your heart:) hugs!
awww you flatter me! nah i believe we’re all God’s vessels, spreading His love and the truth <3
I so agree! We’re all called to spread his love ❤️❤️❤️ Merry Christmas friend!
Merry Christmas too! <3 have a blessed one!!
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btw i just sent you a mail on your yahoo! do check it 🙂
Awesome! Thnx. I’ll check it out!
Got me all misty-eyed reading your post. so beautiful, raw and real – love your style of writing. It’s genuine and inspiring.
Thank you so much for such kind words! You absolutely made my day:) have a beautiful Christmas! Thanks for reading xoxo
I love that song as well! Your voice is beautiful and I love your post. You have such a beautiful spirit. Thank you for sharing your testimony. It is amazing just like our God.
Another song that really touches me is Worth by Anthony Brown and Group Therapy. Here are the lyrics:
You thought I was worth saving
So you came and changed my life
You thought I was worth keeping
So you cleaned me up inside
You thought I was to die for
So you sacrificed your life
So I could be free
So I could be whole
So I could tell everyone I know
You thought I was worth saving
So you came and changed my life
You thought I was worth keeping
So you cleaned me up inside
You thought I was to die for
So you sacrificed your life
So I could be free
So I could be whole
So I could tell everyone I know
You thought I was worth saving
So you came and changed my life
You thought I was worth keeping
So you cleaned me up inside
You thought I was to die for
So you sacrificed your life
So I could be free
So I could be whole
So I could tell everyone I know
Hallelujah
Glory to God who changed my life
And I will praise you
I’ll worship you
I’ll give you glory
Because I am
Because I am
And you can tell everyone I know
Hallelujah
Glory to the God who changed my life
And I will praise you
I’ll worship you
I’ll give you glory
All give you all it
Because you deserve it Lord
You deserve it Lord
I’ll praise you, forever
Because I am free
Because I am whole
And I will tell everyone I know
You thought I was worth saving
So you came and changed my life
You thought I worth keeping
So you cleaned me up inside
You thought I was to die for
You thought I was to die for
You thought I was to die for
You sacrificed your life
So I can be free
Be blessed!
Hi Sherry! Wow thank you for sharing this powerful song! I absolutely love the lyrics. I think I’ve found a new favorite! Have a blessed Christmas! Thanks for reading and listening and for such affirming words! Hugs!
That is one of the best writings I have ever read on healing and recovery. I was anorexic before there was a name. I know the feelings of wanting to be perfect. And I too attained recovery through surrender to Jesus Christ. Thank you so much for opening your heart and sharing this beautiful story. And I to can sing with you, “Here I am to worship…….”
Shalom, Betty
Hi Betty, wow thank you so much for such affirming words. I appreciate it. I’m so glad that you found comfort and healing in Jesus. Praise God! Yes, here we are indeed. Merry Christmas friend! Thanks for stopping by ❤️
Thank you for visiting my blog and liking! I just started reading your first post, and already I think your writing very beautiful. You’re very brave to share with such honesty.
I hope you have a lovely weekend, and Merry Christmas. 🙂
Hi Sohini! Thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate the encouragement. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and Merry Christmas!
Beautiful message and song! 🙂 ♥ <3
Thank you so much! That really means a lot! Hugs and blessings to you! Thanks for listening ☺️
Hugs & “pins” to your continued blessings of wisdom! 🙂 ♥ <3
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“Here I Am To Worship” is so simple, yet so profound!
Thanks Jake! I agree. Such a simple little song but oh so powerful🙌 thanks for stopping by!
Altogether lovely. Thank you for sharing this, in love for your neighbor and as love offering to God!
Hi C! Oh thank you so much:) that means a lot:) yep, just trying to share the love❤️ thanks for stopping by! Happy new year!
Love, life and spiritual libation.
☺️thank you so much! Glad you stopped by! Happy new year!
“In that moment, it finally clicked: here I am…Here I am, right here, right now. I don’t have to change – I can be me, just as I am – in my broken and vulnerable state, I will be embraced with open arms and loved and forgiven.” I can relate to this so much!
I love that song!!!
Thank you so much Colleen! It’s such a beautiful yet simple song 🙂 thanks for stopping by! Happy happy new year!
You have such a beautiful voice. Continue to sing to the Lord. Happy New Year to you too.
Oh my gosh thank you 😍❤️☺️ that’s so kind of you to say! Yes, an audience of One! Hugs❤️
I absolutely loved your blog! It is so fun! 🙂
Just found it through PalFitness and am addicted.
Oh my gosh thank you so much Saloni! Oh yes @palfitness is a great friend! 🙂 thanks for stopping by! Happy 2016!
Absolutely. Happy New Year to you too.
I was just about to comment on another post that you have the most appropriate photos in every article too. They’re just so slightly clever and hugely funny 😉
Haha thank you so much:) the pictures are such a joy to make and find! Glad you like them! ☺️☺️☺️
Love, love, love your post and your song. Thank you for being so brave and sharing your struggle. I love the way you speak truth. My song is Flawless. Happy New Year!
Hi Pam! Oh thank you so much! I will definitely check that song out! I’m always on the lookout for good tunes:) have a lovely day! Thanks for reading!
Thank you for sharing and opening up about your struggles. It encourages others more than you probably know!
Thank you so much Randi:) that really means a lot. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs!
I just heard that song a little while ago at a Catholic Youth Festival….goosebumps. Imagine 3500 young people around you and a bunch of singers on stage, the words projected and everyone being encouraged to sing….
I sang with my heart in my throat. It was the final plenary and goodness. Wow.
Thanks for sharing.
Oh my gosh, wow that sounds amazing! It wasn’t the Steubenville Youth Conference was it? 🙂 🙂 🙂 I’m so glad that song touched your spirit during the conference. Keep singing it! thanks for stopping by! xox
Nope – it was the ACYF: the (2nd bi-annual) Australian Catholic Youth Festival. 🙂 I have a video of that moment and you can hear how raw my voice is, as I spin the camera around to show how everyone (as instructed) as turned on the light on their phones and the lights are down… Magical.
Oh my gosh that’s amazing. I know how powerful those conferences can be — I was actually at one just the other weekend. It’s such a great “recharge.” It sounds like that am an incredible moment. 🙂
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“Just as I Am” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxA0TFe3-Uo It’s a great, voices-only arrangement! I hope you enjoy it.
Thanks Jeffrey! Can’t wait to check it out:) hope you’re having a great night! hugs xx
Enjoying a rare week at home with Julie. “There’s no place like home.” Hope you are having a great evening also. Hugs to you!
That’s so great☺️☺️☺️enjoy!
Very interesting to read this. Someone in my immediate family had anorexia a few years ago and at the time I set about learning as much as I could about it. It was a real eye opener to me. People dismiss it as “dieting gone wrong” and that is rather far from the truth. Like you my person came to believe she was ‘good enough’ and her recovery commenced from then. The connection with a higher power is always, I think, a core part of recovery, whatever it is you are recovering from. All the best to you!
So, I know this is an old post, but I checked out your YouTube videos and hit the hyperlink. I’m glad I did. I’ve always loved this song, and it has brought tears to my eyes at times in the past, and today, listening to you, was one of those times. You have a very beautiful voice. Much like when Johnny Cash sang Amazing Grace, your rendition of “Here I Am To Worship” is done by someone who really “gets” the message of the song and knows full well the cost of the gift we’ve been given.
I’d love to hear you sing more!
oh my gosh, thank you 🙂 I am seriously so touched that you would take time out of your day to listen to my songs 🙂 i am so grateful for that. thank you. big hugs
You’re welcome, Caralyn. But, seriously, think nothing of it. I’m a free lance writer and I love listening to music while I work, and yours was no exception. If anything, I’m the one who should be thanking you for that gift of music you shared.
😊❤😊❤😊❤😊❤thanks again
ANd to thank ou further for your song, I’d like to share with you the lyrics to a song I’ve come to love that has spoken to me in times when I’ve been struggling. It’s called “Better Than I”, and it’s from the animated movie “Josephi: King of Dreams” which was a prequel to The Prince of Egypt.
Any rate:
“I thought I did what’s right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here
So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear
Chorus 1:
You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For You know better than I
If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing
I don’t know is part of getting through
I tried to do what’s best
But faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is to put my trust in You.
Chorus 2
For, You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For You know better than I
Coda:
I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught that bird to fly
If I let You reach me
Will You teach me?
(Repeat Chorus )
For, You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
I’ll take what answers you supply
You know better than I “
Oh my gosh that just gave me chills. So powerful. Thanks for sharing.
Mmm, probabl not like the chills I got when I noticed you had said songs, plural, and that was when I saw on your soundcloud your cover of “Shall Not Want”. I’ve never heard that song before today. That was even more beautiful and haunting then your rendition of “Here I am to Worship”, if that is even possible. Like I said before, please, post more to soundcloud of your singing!
oh my gosh! you seriously just made my day!! thank you Jonathon!! 🙂 yeah, that is one of my absolute favorite songs. I recorded it for my parents for christmas last year. thanks again for saying such nice things. who knows, I may just have to sing another song here 🙂 haha hugs xox
You’re welcome! It made my day to listen to them.
🙂 thanks again xoxoxo
You have a beautiful voice. You sing very well. I could listen to you sing all day, Caralyn.
Aw that’s so kind of you to say. Thanks Neal. Hugs and love xox
Just being honest. I’ve taught many students how to sing. You, I wouldn’t have to teach much. 😁❤️
Oh gosh thank you x