Tag: insomnia
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You’re Worth It
It took me a long time to press “publish” on this post. Why? I was afraid. Not afraid, in that, I was revealing a particularly personal topic, or afraid to show my heart. Lord knows I’ve done enough of that already on here. But afraid for a different reason. I was afraid to make you uncomfortable. […]
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Battling the Mirror
One of the biggest misconceptions about anorexia and eating disorders, is that the girls (or boys) are incredibly vain. That they’re stuck on themselves, obsessed with their looks, and fatally preoccupied with beauty. That could not be farther from the truth. Sure, maybe the onset of the disease started with a desire to be pretty but by […]
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Right Where We Are
It’s four am, and you look in the mirror, sick and tired of doing the thing you swore you absolutely would no longer do. You woke up with the best intentions, but by the end of the day, you’ve fallen flat on your face…again. Why?!! Sound familiar? I know this all too well. It may […]
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Why It’s So Damn Hard to Recover from an Eating Disorder
Anorexia recovery is a conundrum. It’s kind of an oxymoron — like jumbo shrimp, or tiny elephant. How do you recover from a disease where the only way out is to love yourself, but the disease itself dictates that you hate yourself? This post isn’t depressing. I promise. I’m just setting the stage 🙂 But […]
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Recovery Is…
When I was deep in my anorexia, it was hard to imagine what a life without ED would look like. It was such a foreign concept. An abstract notion. I was trapped in a box that kept getting smaller and smaller, and I couldn’t picture what a life free from that “ED box” would be. So I […]
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An Open Self-#RealTalk Sesh
Sometimes life is less than optimum. For one reason or another, we just feel crummy. Maybe ED’s lies are particularly loud. Perhaps we’re feeling anxiety over an intake increase. Maybe we’re feeling down about our body image. Or we had a squabble with a loved one. Whatever the reason, we’re just feeling crappy, for lack of a better word. […]
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Remember Why
Do you remember 9/11? Many of you reading this may be too young to remember. Which, side note: is freaking insane and makes me feel ancient (which I’m not). 🙂 But 9/11 happened when I was a kid. So I do remember. I don’t need to go into a history lesson about that fateful day. But after 9/11 happened, our […]
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Overcoming Insomnia
It’s 4:21am. You’ve been literally tossing and turning for five hours. Willing yourself to sleep. Begging your brain to just shut down for the day. Pleading your mind to just let you fall asleep. You’ve tried praying. Counting sheep. Listening to music. Counting backwards. But to no avail. You have insomnia. It was the bane […]