When Love Hurts 

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There is a weariness of spirit, that I’m going to be honest, I wasn’t expecting to encounter.

My mom always taught me, growing up, that if I ever wanted to get myself out of a funk, or feel better, that all I needed to do was to help or do something nice for another person. And she was always right.

Up until this time, let’s see – 8 weeks now since my mom had her stroke – pouring myself out in service to my mom and dad has been everything I thought it would be. The joyful giver comes to mind. And if I’m honest, the giving felt good. My spirit was full of the joy that comes from helping and loving another person.

That’s been my mission and what I’ve felt called to do right now: simply to love.

To love in every way, shape, and form that brings. Whether that’s listening or comforting my mom when she’s feeling overwhelmed or discouraged. Whether it’s doing a humiliating dance or silly accent spontaneously to lighten the mood when people are down. Whether that’s emptying the dishwasher at 6:30 in the morning before the house wakes up or making sure there are groceries in the fridge. Or whether it’s just spending time with my father to let him know he’s not alone in this.

Love takes many forms. Forms that I was anticipating. Forms that I welcomed. And embraced.

But what about another form of love that is often not talked about.

What about when love hurts?

This is an oft overlooked aspect of love, because honestly, it’s not fun to discuss. It’s not pleasant to remember and usually painful to relive.

And well, I’m beginning to understand why.

I’ve been pretty emotionally blindsided here these last several days.

One of the things that I really didn’t appreciate about strokes was how much it can change a person, at least during the initial recovery period. Sure, there are the obvious changes: for many (thankfully not my mom): there are physical changes – challenges that require physical/occupational therapy to manage. But then there are the mental and personality changes, which are not so obvious, at least on the surface, but that can be, perhaps, even more devastating than the physical.

But my spirit has been redlining, getting beaten down by discouragement, and dwelling on the things I cannot change. Allowing myself to feel defeated or hurt by her moments of tension or acute frustration.

Things as simple as the air space in a room, that was once filled with overwhelming love and compassion from my mom, is now stagnant and often tense, perhaps even slightly charged.

And that hurts.

As I type this, my eyes are just waterfalls, spilling over all the fear and confusion and pain that I’ve been bottling up, being strong on the outside for my dad and for my family, but I honestly don’t know what to do.

I know that this behavior and display is not really my mom. Mood swings are par for the course and this is just a result of the trauma in her brain and an aftermath of the stroke. And it’s not all the time. But I am just beside myself and truly lost for what to say or what to do or anything.

And after an especially difficult episode, I had to just go upstairs and cry.

What, Lord, are you trying to teach me through this? How, Lord, can I love this woman in the way she needs right now? Help me, Lord, to speak the words she wants to and needs to hear. 

This sluggishness of soul is new for me. I don’t feel myself. And I feel incapable of being the light and bringing the joy that my family so needs right now.

But I think what I need to remember is that, this “not myself” feeling I’m experiencing…my mom is experiencing this 100 times worse. Only she can’t express how she’s feeling and she doesn’t know how/if she’ll ever be fully back to herself. So the least I can do is offer compassion.

Going forward, I know things are going to probably get harder, not easier. But my presence at home has never been more needed. Not only for my mom, but also for my dad, as he’s feeling the pain of this new phase of recovery.

I need to remember that love can hurt.  I just glanced up and saw the crucifix. And if that doesn’t exemplify the degree to which love can hurt, then I don’t know what else to say.

Love is not always a walk in the park. Love is a choice. And I am realizing that now more than ever. Even if that means enduring some tough moments that leave me feeling raw or with a trampled spirit.

We are called to love. Even when it hurts.

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486 thoughts on “When Love Hurts ”

  1. Can I just confess that I failed at this?? My parents, in their mid 80s, in Assisted living for a couple of years now, plus having declined in their cognitive abilities before that, and I just wanted them to be as they always had been for my adult life. But that’s not how it works. I ask God to help me honor my father & mother. Not be selfish to want things to stay the same.

    Sorry bout that…I don’t know all about your situation, but I pray for your Mom, your Dad, you as caregiver. We need to encourage each other.

    Blessings, dear soul!

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    1. Thank you so much for your prayers, and for sharing this about your parents. That definitely sounds like a tough situation, and I will definitely keep them and your whole family in my thoughts and prayers. I definitely can relate to your feelings, of wanting things to be the same as growing up. The whole aging process is hard to navigate for sure. Thanks for stopping by and for your kind encouragement. Big hugs to you oxox

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  2. Steady My Heart by Kari Jobe has been sooo soothing to me in times like these. Remember you’re not alone in times like these. We all have times when we feel alone, but the reality is, He has gone the way before us and prepared the way. He’s already done the prep work for you. Just accept the grace that He’s already provided in every moment.

    Hind’s Feet In High Places is a really good book! I recommend it too! It helped me through some really trying times as a teenager and messages from the book keep coming back through the years. You’ll love it!

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    1. Thank you so much for passing along these book recess. I will definitely look into them! What a comforting truth — that He has paved the way for us. We are never alone. And i do feel that He has showered my family and I with grace and mercy in all of this. Thanks for your kindness and encouragement. hugs xox

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      1. You are so welcome! Steady my heart is a song not a book, but that would sure make a great book title! You can find the song on youtube. I absolutely love a lot of the songs that Kari Jobe sings. Their real, genuine and fit the raw places that we often hit that nobody likes talk about. If’n you know what I mean. I hope things get easier for you!

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  3. Goodness, I just want to be your friend!!! I love your writing. Your hurt is conveyed very gracefully. You can tell the therapy it provides your soul. I hope this storm passes soon, and your mother is well. I pray for you and your father to have patience during such a trying time.

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  4. I am very sorry that you are going through a tough time. I nursed my father and it was an unsettling experience for me. It’s like family dynamics which I was used to had changed, and it made me feel very vulnerable. However, you will come out of it as a stronger and more compassionate person, I promise. My father taught me a lot about myself without him uttering a word about it while I was at his bedside. Be strong for your mom and your family. You are a wonderful person.X

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    1. Thank you so much for such kind words, I really appreciate the encouragement. And thank you for sharing your story. What a gift you’ve given your father. He sounds like a great man. I’m sorry that you can relate in such a personal way. But I’m glad it has given you such wisdom and a powerful life lesson. Thanks again for the encouragement. big hugs xox

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  5. I read this and my heart goes out to you and your family. I really admire your strength and attitude in the face of adversity. Stay strong xx

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  7. > Going forward, I know things are going to probably get harder, not easier.

    You don’t know this. Don’t assume this. I’ve spent tons of time in neuro-wards due to a car accident that me and my dad were involved in and for him it resulted in severe traumatic brain injury at the time. This was one of the worst things that happened in my life. An absolute nightmare. Additionally all that time I spend in the hospital and eventually meeting numerous other patients (stroke patients included) was quite a learning experience. Anyway,.. I wont go into details but my dad actually eventually made a comeback. I won’t say he is 100% but its still remarkable and all in all he is well.

    Ok. Take care and God Bless! I will be praying for you and your family.
    ~ Raj

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    1. Thanks Raj, I really appreciate that perspective. Oh wow, I’m so sorry to hear that you and your dad had to go through that. It sounds like that was a real life changing experience. I’m so glad that you are both okay and that he is doing so well! God is good! Thanks for the prayers. Big hugs xox

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  8. Wonderful read and an emotion we can all relate to. Love is Giving of ourself into service to God and the well being of others. Sometimes love does hurt because it’s tough love made for growth and strength. Theirs always a lesson in all forms of love and we can be assured we shall suffer for our Lords sake. I will keep your dad and mother in my earnest prayers. Thanks for sharing my friend.

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  10. I am so sorry of what happened to your mother. I pray that she has a good recovery in Jesus name and she is healed from the top of her head to the bottom of her feet in the name of Jesus Christ! Romans 12:9 “Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good”. Love is good, family is good, laughter is good, prayer is good, hope is good but above all GOD is good.
    I can’t understand all things but God knows all things. Just know that God loves you and everyone around you. That Jesus is looking out for you and you (His child) will not be moved (Psalm 112:6; Proverbs 12:3). John 10:10 “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly”. That is God’s promise to us and God never fails or falls short on his promises. I hope this is encouraging to you. God bless YOU!

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    1. I am going to cling to that promise! Thank you so much for this beautiful response. I am so touched by your encouragement. What comforting scripture – God is good and gives us life! Thanks for that reminder. And thanks for your prayers. It really means a lot. Big hugs to you xox

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  11. Thinking of you and offering prayers. Your ability to empathize with your mother and to try to see from her perspective even when you are overwhelmed and emotionally exhausted is really remarkable. Do you think it could be a miracle? It must certainly be the influence of the Holy Spirit, don’t you think? That you can be so open to love, to serving God’s purpose and doing his will, whatever that will may be, even when you are in a spiritual “desert,” so to speak, is a sign of your deep faith and trust. I am reflecting on that in hopes that it will bring you some encouragement, but also, because there is a lesson in your example for me. Thank you. And if you ever need a friend in Dayton, I’m an email away. Remember to take care of yourself while you are taking care of others. We are called to love ourselves as we love our neighbors. ❤️

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    1. Thank you so much Lulu. I really appreciate your prayers and friendship during this trying season 🙂 you know, I do think God’s grace is miraculous – and I really feel like He has been holding my family and I during this difficult season. You are so wonderful, thank you for the encouragement, Lulu. That’s kind of you to say. And that’s right- we are allowed to-and need-to love ourselves and include ourselves in the care plan too:) thanks again Lulu. You are a blessing to me. Big hugs xox

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  13. I could feel your pain. I read a book years ago in which one of the characters was called “Acceptance With Joy”. At the times of pain like you are walking through, when you cannot change the circumstances nor help the person to understand so they can make adjustment, then the best way to handle it is to accept it with joy and let love cover it all. I believe that is what Jesus would do.

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    1. Accept it with joy and let love cover all. Wow, what a powerful thought. I believe that’s what Jesus would do too. Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful reflection, Joy. I really appreciate it. Big hugs xox

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  14. Hey Girl! I know what you are going through and I appreciate you sharing so honestly and pouring out your heart! It is tough and you need to lean on God and you need others to stand with you! I took care of my mom for 5 1/2 years! It is an incredible journey of love and pain and so many more emotions!
    Talk to God, talk to others, especially those going through the same–check with your mom’s doc or the hospital for support groups in your area!
    Love and prayers for you and your family!

    Thank you for visiting my blog https://thelittleredwagonblog.wordpress.com/ and liking my post “Keep Moving Forward”

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  15. Amazing entry. I hadn’t thought about the personality changes that come along with a stroke, but it makes sense. I would almost think that that’s the hardest part. I hope you have some kind of support system. With the challenges my partner and I have had with our son, we’ve always been able to tag team when necessary. If you don’t have one close at hand, I’m glad to have met you through your blog.

    I love the phrase “Love is a choice.” Man, that’s just brilliant! Very well put! Love certainly is a choice, and a daily one…sometimes moment to moment.

    I’m so sorry to read of your situation and how draining it can be. I wish there was something brilliant I could say. I just don’t know.

    I’m glad you wrote this entry. I suppose all I can say is that while you were writing, the I, we, were there with you.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words. It really means a lot. You’re right- moment to moment. And right now you’re catching me in one of those moments…I can’t tell you how much this little nudge of affirmation means. Thank you with all my heart. Hugs and love xox

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      1. I’m glad I could be there for you. Send me a message if you ever need to vent. It’s not a bad thing, sometimes it’s necessary.

        It’s good to see that your getting so much support. That’s a good thing.

        Sending “positive vibes” your way!
        Theseus

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  16. My mom lays in a hospital bed dying as I type this. She had a right brain stroke yesterday. I’ve been her caregiver for over a year. The road a head will get harder. It will bring you moments of turmoil and moments of utter thankfulness that you are a part of your mom’s healing. I’m about to lose the one person in my life that would do anything for me. I’m about to lose someone who is my best friend.. she’s my mom. God bless you that your mom’s stroke wasn’t as severe as my mom’s was. Hold your mother close, always cherish her. God bless.

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    1. Oh my goodness, I am so sorry to hear that. Gosh, my heart just goes out to you right now and I am sending all my love and prayers to you and your mother. It sounds like your mother is an incredibly amazing woman and that the two of you have a really special bond. Lord, lay your blanket of peace over snowangel and her mother in this challenging moment. Hang in there. Sending so many hugs and love xox

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      1. I dealt with a ED for my whole life. My Mommy was there for me and suffered right along with me. I still am. I’m fighting for my life not to eat food to find comfort. Thank you for your prayers.

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      2. You’re so welcome, I will definitely continue to pray. ED is insidious, and the fight is long and difficult. I believe in you 🙂 And I can totally relate – my mom suffered right along there with me too during that time. That’s something I don’t think people really appreciate about ED, is how it doesn’t just impact the girl (or boy), but also her family, and parents especially. Everyone lives through it and suffers together. Thanks again for sharing that. sending so so much love and hugs xox

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      4. Oh my goodness, I’m sending up a prayer for her and your family right now. I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is just breaking right now for you. Sending all my love. May she Rest In Peace.

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  17. I know how some of this can feel and I know it is heartbreaking. When I was 21, my mum went to work one day just as normal, then at some point during the work day something happened in her mind and she ended up getting taken away in handcuffs and being sectioned as she had become a risk to others. From this day on (15 years) she has never been the person that went to work that day, she is in and out of hospital and on heavy medication – and sometimes it feels that I have never had a Mum since. I don’t share your spiritual faith but I do hope that your families struggles take an upturn soon

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  18. Kid I will say this. What you are doing for your mom is amazing! She has a wonderful daughter. But make sure to take time for you. You need to recharge as well. Do something you love. Go out and find the parts of life that have NOT changed.

    This will rejuvenate you and mom will benefit from a recharged and loving little girl!

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    1. Oh tony, thank you so much. That’s so kind of you to say. The Truth is, I really have a wonderful mom and this I the least I can do. She’s been my rock my entire life and I’m so grateful to be able to do this. That’s such great advice – I will definitely do that. It’s good to recharge:) thanks again. Hugs and love xox

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  22. I’ll be praying for you and your mom. By the way, our pastor defines love in this way: giving a person what he (or she) needs the most, when he (or she) deserve it the least, at great personal cost.

    You’re right – Love is action, and not necessarily an emotion. We choose to love and to behave accordingly, even when we don’t feel like it. Real love – the love talked about in the Bible and exemplified by Jesus – is hard, but it is very deep.

    It sounds like you love your mom in this way. You are experiencing a tremendous personal cost now, but you’re choosing to love your mom with your actions, even when you could do something different. I believe that God will honor you for the choices that you are making, but I know that doesn’t make anything easier for you now.

    Psalm 34:19 comes to mind now – I may have share this verse with you in the past – but hang in there. God is faithful, even (especially?) when things are hard.

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    1. Oh gosh, thank you so much for this kind response. Giving a person what they need the most when they deserve it the least at great personal cost — wow what a powerful way to put it. Thanks for sharing that. Oh yes, I love that verse too. So comforting and full of hope. Yes, God is faithful. I am clinging to that truth. I really appreciate this wonderful encouragement. hugs xox

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  23. Oh dear, this sounds so hard but let me reassure you that you ARE being the light and bringing the joy that your family so needs right now; even if you don’t feel it. God bless you and all that you are ~ Annebella. Keep on keep’n on, take it one day at a time and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  24. “Love is not a because , it is a no matter what”
    This is so true and we actually love because God loved us first.
    He is able to put His love in our heart and that is able to stand the test of life.
    I pray for more grace in this situation you find yourself that His love may abound and push you where your strength leaves you.
    Blessings…

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  25. So sorry for what you are going through. I do know, though that this is a critical (if painful) lesson. Some days it will be easier to handle, and others it will be less easy. Hang in there and keep your eyes on Jesus. I’m in a similar place right now for different reasons, and I keep meditating on Hebrews 12:2-4 to remind me of what He did for me… May the Lord be your refuge and strength in a weary season!

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    1. Thanks so much, HM. You’re right, this is definitely an important lesson that I’m going to learn. Not quite sure what it is yet, but I do know the Lord is at work and that He will work this all together for good…eventually. Thanks for passing that verse along..I hope everything is okay. I will definitely keep you and yours in my prayers. Hang in there friend 🙂 massive hugs to you xox

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  26. We had a storm here today. “Storm Doris” (gotta love how English our names are for our storms!). I sat in my favourite spot by the sea and watch the 63mph winds blowing the sand into swirling, stinging clouds, and watched how – with the wind at 90 degrees to the incoming tide – the wind made the waves in the shallows go in a different direction to the one they intended to.

    I thought about the storms of life.

    We often say to someone “going through it” things like “hey, this too shall pass!” and I realised that whilst that can seem an irritating platitude that doesn’t help, it is of course true. Otherwise, why call it a storm?

    Storms pass. Even Hurricane Alley has days with no hurricanes… 😉

    Today the winds here blow the sand and move the water. But the tide still came in. The waves might have changed direction for a bit, but the tide still came in. It will go out again. And in again. Regardless of whether the winds are still strong or have dropped.

    The beach will still be there after the winds drop. Sure, there will be drifts in new places and rocks freshly exposed in others. But the beach, the sand, will still be there. Today, tomorrow, as it was yesterday.

    Storms affect the things we see but they don’t need to alter who we are. As a born again child of God you have Holy Spirit inside you. Unchanging. He who is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.

    For your Mum too, the landscape on the surface may look different and that may make HER look different, but inside she is still the same woman she has always been.

    This storm will pass, and you will both (and Dad!) be as beautiful and as precious after as before.

    Much love to you xxx

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    1. Wow, Mary, what an incredible response. Thank you so much for sharing this. What an evening you had with the storm Doris. It sounds equally scary and yet surprisingly peaceful. How true is that – what you wrote really resonated with my spirit. He is unchanging. The beach may look a little different but He is the same and my family and I will get through this. Thank you for this wonderful encouragement. It’s just what I needed to hear. Big hugs to you and stay safe:) Hugs and love xox

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  27. Hey Beauty, I just wanted to add in my two cents and tell you that you don’t have to do anything. Just be you. You don’t have to find any magical words to say in order to make it all better. Right now you need to be a dartboard. Let those arrows of frustration pierce your chest and melt into warm water. Like you said, the crucifix is the ultimate showing of giving it all up for others. Times will be rough and you will cry again – and again and again – but they know you love them. They will always know how much you love them. Even if on the surface they can’t see it. The important thing is that GOD CAN SEE IT and He will make you whole.

    Remember to take time out for YOU as well. You can’t charge a battery for others when your own charge is low. Take time MAKE TIME to go out and surround yourself with the people and places that give you a boost. You only live once. Take care of yourself and you will be better able to take care of your mom and dad. Love ya kid. 🙂

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    1. Aw, Eric, thank you so much for this. You’re right, it’s important to take time…even MAKE time for myself so that I can continue to take care of them. That’s such great advice. I really appreciate your encouragement. big hugs to you xox

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  28. You are an amazing daughter – trying to do all you can for mom, and being strong for dad too. Take care of yourself also – the reason I am saying this is that you can be everyone’s sunshine but your light needs to be replenished too. Prayer helps – occasionally don’t feel guilty to take that break and go for a walk, or meet a friend for an hour. Your mom is not being herself – just let any hurtful words roll off. If anyone offers help, take it. Don’t be hesitant to ask for help too. Love to you and prayers for your family!

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    1. Oh gosh thank you so much. That’s so kind of you to say 🙂 that’s so true – I need to replenish my spirit to. I’m actually taking a walk right now 🙂 thanks for the encouragement and prayers. It means the world. Hugs and love xox

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  29. Love is what we have to offer the world and ourselves even as the skies are shaking. Sounds like you’ve got plenty of it in store and plenty of honesty too. Good combination.

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      1. And the same back at you. Best thing about love is it’s free and doesn’t wear out if you use it a lot. Xx

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  30. Hello BBB,

    Thanks for sharing. Love has many sides and God allies His children to experience it all to mature. He is making you an artist who can paint with real depth. Pray you keep turning this into gold. Not to be crude but here is a daring you can make an infograph with: “When life gives you crap, make manure.” Isn’t it true that God’s children use everything for His glory? Have a great week.

    Gary On Mon, Feb 20, 2017 at 4:00 PM BeautyBeyondBones wrote:

    > beautybeyondbones posted: “There is a weariness of spirit, that I’m going > to be honest, I wasn’t expecting to encounter. My mom always taught me, > growing up, that if I ever wanted to get myself out of a funk, or feel > better, that all I needed to do was to help or do something nic” >

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  31. What an amazing thoughtful post. You’re right– this has been such a long haul, being faithful and caring for your mother as you have, has got to be so waring. Your are worn. And so is she. So thankful for your openness about your journey and God’s faithfulness. You encourage us all to love well. Blessings as you continue on…

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  32. That was beautiful! And, so well expressed, too. It brought tears to my eyes. I identify, but in a different way, i.e. my circumstances are different from yours, but still love hurts. And, as I was thinking about this today, even before I read what you wrote, the Lord reminded me of 2 Corinthians 1 and some of the reasons for our trials, plus he brought this song to mind which he gave me to write in 2013 during one of those times when love was hurting.

    I think that when things are going well in our lives that it is easy to sing praises to God and to thank him for all his many blessings to us. Yet, when life kicks us and knocks us down; when severe trials come our way; when we are faced with great persecution and rejection from those we love, including from the family of God; when illness or heartache come our way; and/or when it seems there is no end in sight to these trials, it is then harder to give praise to God, though it is most necessary and healing at those times that we do. In fact, He gives us songs of praise and joy during these times to heal our wounded hearts and to soothe our troubled minds so that we get our focus off the temporal and onto Christ Jesus, our Lord, and to what is eternal – the salvation of human lives, and our worship of God.

    We Will Sing! / An Original Work / December 4, 2013

    Based off The Psalms

    I will praise You, Lord, among all peoples.
    I will praise You for all that You have done.
    I called to the Lord, and He heard my cry.
    He turned weeping into a song of joy!

    I will sing praise to my Lord all my life;
    I will sing praise to my God evermore.

    I will praise You, Lord, for Your mighty works,
    For Your love is great, reaching to the heav’ns.
    O my Strength, I sing my praise unto You,
    For Your faithfulness reaches to the skies.

    I will sing praise to my Lord all my life;
    I will sing praise to my God evermore.

    Shout with joy to God all who’re on the earth.
    Say to God, “O how awesome are Your deeds.”
    The redeemed sing praise to their Savior, King,
    For He saved them all in His righteousness.

    We will sing praise to our Lord all our lives;
    We will sing praise to our God evermore.

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    1. Thank you so much for this beautiful response. I’m glad it resonated with you. You’re so right, during those difficult time, that’s when we need to give the most praise to God and depend on His strength and saving hand. Which is a lot easier said than done. haha and thanks for passing along that powerful song! Music really has a way of touching my spirit. big hugs to you xox

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      1. I agree, easier said than done, but necessary, all the same. This is an area of my life that still needs work. But, we are all a work in progress. Keep singing! 🙂

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  34. My dad was in a horrible head-on car wreck almost 3 years ago. It completely blindsided him when it happened and us while going through his recovery with him. I stayed at home and helped my parents in any way I could. I empathize with you and your family and will pray for you. A song that really spoke to me during my dad’s time in the hospital was Stronger by Mandisa–the acoustic version is the best.

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    1. Hi Kirsten, thank you so much for sharing this part of your journey. I am so sorry to hear about your father’s accident. How scary. I’m glad that he’s okay. And what a gift you were able to give your family. Thanks for passing along that song — I’ll definitely take a listen! i love how music really speaks to my spirit. Hugs xox

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  35. I didn’t know I would read this when I felt led to stop by and tell you I was praying for you today. But now that I’ve read your post, especially the part where you admit you don’t know what to do, I couldn’t help but be reminded of my go-to passage when I’m at the end of my rope: Psalm 57:1-2. I will pray for you, now. God bless as you continue to love.

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  37. I feel for you. I have experienced something similar with my mom’s current illnesses. She’s in her 90s so along with her cancer and her recent heart attack there’s been marked cognitive decline. She gets upset when I won’t medicate her for things she can’t be medicated for. And getting her to explain what it is she’s feeling when she asks for “something” to make her feel better is a constant game of charades.

    So, I understand. The best any of us can do is to live one day at a time, to be in the moment with them and to let the negative times slide away when we’re able to. Also, take some time for yourself to recharge and renew. G_d bless you for being there for her. She’s blessed with a loving daughter. 🙂

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  38. be well sweet girl and remember to also very kind and gentle with yourself xxx and may your mother recover through your love and care x

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  41. You are a wonderful person. I believe situation like this helps you draw closer to God and experiencing his love embracing around you.

    You have my prayers, for fortitude and trust that He is sovereign and His will is over this matter. Also praying for your mum’s recovery and your dad to be strong in faith as well.

    He never fails.

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    1. Oh my gosh, thank you so much for this kind reflection. Yes, I do feel that God is closer than ever before. He is really pouring out His grace on my family and I. Thank you so much for your prayers. it means the world. big hugs xox

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  43. Hang in there. You sound like a lovely daughter and I’m sure your parents appreciate everything your doing even tho they may not be able to express it right now. Just take things One Day at a Time. 🙋👍❣️

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  44. It is hard to lose a love and some of us manage to get through it quickly and some of us don’t. We always seem to blame ourselves but it is not us we blame you are unique and there is someone out there someone who will love you for you no matter how long it takes. Wait for that one in a billion. Yes that many not just your lost love. Have a good cry listen to music and live.

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  45. My heart breaks for you. When my Mother was battling lung cancer a friend gave me a book, “Hope for a Woman’s Soul – Meditations to Energize Your Spirit.” I came across it this morning when I was cleaning out some cabinets. I think this is a definite sign that God wanted me to share it with you. Although my Mother lost her battle with cancer, I continued to read the inspirational stories and Bible verses. I hope you are able to find it and it brings comfort to you during this time. “Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.” Psalm 62:5-6

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    1. Aw, thank you so much for this thoughtful response, Frankie. I’m so sorry that you had to walk that difficult road with your mom. It gives me comfort to know that our loved ones that are no longer here, are with Jesus right now, in peace. Thank you for sharing that with me. That is truly a comforting scripture. sending big hugs xox

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  48. This is a beautiful post. My parents are in their 80s and live several states away, so I’ve had to learn news ways of caring, giving, loving. God bless.

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