Oh my gosh, here we are, one month before my wedding!
Consider me officially STRESSED!
Holy cow, this morning I had a total and complete break down on my morning jog. I was full on sobbing, sunscreen running down my face, that girl who was a hot mess while running in public. But it’s okay. Sixty percent of our guests still haven’t received their invitation that we mailed three weeks ago and the wedding is less than five weeks away. IT’S OKAY!
Anyway. I thought it might be fun tonight to share with you some of the dresses that were my runner ups!
I went wedding dress shopping in NYC with my mom — we went to Kleinfeld, Lovely Bride, Wedding Atelier, Bridal Reflections, Grace Loves Lace, and let me tell you it was an adventure! I tried on 18 dresses!
First of all, THIS is the dress I THOUGHT I was going to choose when I was just dreaming on Pinterest right after my engagement. I thought I wouldn’t even have to try any on: I envisioned myself in this sleek, sophisticated number, and I actually scheduled to try this exact dress on, and I did…and it was just nothing special. So much so I didn’t even take a picture!
This is so my style that it felt like something I already had in my closet, or like something I would wear to someone else’s wedding in another color.
So keep that in mind as you see the vastly different style of dresses I ended up loving! (Hello ROMANCE!)
I’m going to save the dress that caused me the most heartache — AKA the dress that I was *THISCLOSE* to “saying yes” to…even though it was the FIRST dress I tried on. So we’ll table that for later…
I started out at Kleinfeld…and if you recognize that name, it’s because it’s the store where they film Say Yes to the Dress.
And yes, the owner of the store hung out in my try-on bay the entire time, because he wanted me to try on all these new dresses they just got off the runway from Paris.
Like this first one here…all the way from Milan, and yes…you’re seeing that correctly: it is GOLD. (And those are tissues that they put in my bust because it was waaaaayyyy too revealing, and we would have had this altered to be more conservative up top.)
Anyway. It was fun to try on something so “out there” — especially since it had been on the runway the week before during Fashion Week and they had just got it in that morning.
But it was a…NO! (Oh, and this dress was incredibly HEAVY! Holy cow…all of that intricate beading weighed probably 15 to 20 pounds, I’m not even kidding.)
After such a voluminous ballgown, I decided to try on a mermaid dress…and this one was just…meh.
So that was all…because like I said, I thought I had found “The One” at this point, so I didn’t try any else on at Kleinfeld!
ON TO…Lovely Bride.
Honestly, I didn’t like anything from here seriously. This was where I went to try on “The Pinterest Dress” that I thought was going to be it, and just like that dress…the other ones from here just didn’t give me that “IT” factor. They are GORGEOUS, don’t get me wrong, but when it came right down to it…they just left a bit to be desired. (I mean, it’s hard to follow the Pnina Tornai dress I almost said yes to at Kleinfeld the day prior, which you will see at the end…)
I did love this one with the pockets…but again…it was just not “it” for me.
And this one was super chic…but felt too casual. Like something a person would wear for their second wedding… (sorry, being super brutal here!)
This next dress, is from Wedding Atelier. It was an interesting dress because it came with a cape!
This is the dress without it…
and this is the gorgeous train that trails behind, which…as I am getting married in a Cathedral, would have been fitting. 🙂
But I ultimately ended up not going with it because the dress itself without the cape felt a little…matronly.
Then there was this one….sweet and cute…but not it.
There was also this dress…which was their attempt to replicate the Pnina dress I almost went with that you will see next….
And now, ladies and gentlemen, I bring you the dress. Not THE Dress, but the dress that dang near was The Dress…until I found THE DRESS…which was the last dress I tried on at the last store! (Bridal Reflections)
This dress I thought was the one. And I went back and forth, and back and forth, over and over. I even went back in and tried it on again after they had closed. I shed tears, I consulted my best three girl friends, I made to-scale, side-by-side comparisons of the two dresses both front and back, but it ultimately lost to THE Dress — which I am beyond obsessed with and cannot wait to share with you.
This dress is a Pnina Tornai from Kleinfeld. She is their premiere designer, and as you can see…she creates true works of art.
I cried when I tried on this gown. I felt like a true princess.
I was thinking about all those years during my anorexia that I was so hopeless that that was it for my life. That I would never be able to come out of that pit of darkness, never be able to love, never be able to let a man into my life — into my past. And looking at myself in the mirror in that gorgeous wedding gown, I just thanked God for delivering me, and giving me such an incredible partner in Steven. And it was just the perfect full circle moment.
And it had a gorgeous train to boot, that also would have gone stunningly in the Cathedral. But alas, I did not choose this beauty. During my back-and-forth deliberation, I showed my father, and he took one look and said…decision made: you’re not walking down the Cathedral in a sheer corset.
And he was absolutely right.
Though this dress was absolutely beautiful, it was too revealing for church. After all, marriage is a covenant between Steven and I in front of God. And my attire should reflect that reverence…and this one did not. And come that day, I would have felt really…exposed…walking front and center down the aisle in front of my parents’ friends and Steven’s family.
I am so glad I went with the choice I made. THE Dress that I am wearing next month is truly ethereal! I put it on, and it was the most “Caralyn” dress I have ever seen in my life. It felt as though someone had designed it with me in mind. Not the sleek, chic, satin slip dress I thought was a “Caralyn” dress…but one that actually reflects my soul. One that reflects who I am, what I have overcome, and dare I say is “me, in dress form?”
Okay..okay…we’re getting a little lofty here…it’s juuuuust a wedding dress.
OOOHHHH I am so tempted to put a photo on here!
By the way, I told Steven he was not allowed to look at tonight’s blog post lol So no worries about him getting a “sneak peek” of his lady in white!
Alright, that’s it for now!
Thank you for checking out my wedding dresses! This was really fun! I can’t believe we’re getting so close!
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