I don’t know about you, but sometimes, I wish I could “un-know” things. You know what I mean? Like, I wish I didn’t know some of the things I do. I wish I could un-learn them. Un-see them. Like Justin Timberlake with cornrows. Or the girl from the movie, The Ring. That disturbing image will foreverContinue reading Un-Know
Find Me in the Garden
Guys. I’ll admit: I’m pretty “basic.” Granted, I don’t drink Starbucks, and Uggs are not my footwear of choice, but I definitely can relate to the stereotype, probably more than I’d like to admit. Like my affinity for Audrey Hepburn. Now, to be fair, I never saw Breakfast at Tiffany’s, but hey — I likeContinue reading Find Me in the Garden
I Am Not Invincible
I’m angry tonight. I am angry because I have been brutally reminded that I am not invincible. I received a comment (which has since been deleted) that taunted me to revisit and reexamine my disordered thoughts when I was deep in my anorexia. The commenter prodded me to describe exactly the allure of anorexia –Continue reading I Am Not Invincible
Lessons of the Phoenix
Seriously, if there is one thing I want to do in this life, it is go to Harry Potter World in Florida and drink a Butterbeer. Bet you didn’t see that one coming? *puts on sunglasses and smirks* But seriously, I love Harry Potter. Growing up, I feel like my childhood kind of revolved around the bookContinue reading Lessons of the Phoenix
To My Father
Growing up, I had a weird fear. And actually, looking back it actually reveals a lot about me and my people pleasing tendencies. But I was always afraid that my dad would think I loved my mom more than him, and vice versa. I just remember always trying to make sure that things were even.Continue reading To My Father
V Card
OK. It’s time we talk about virginity. *Takes a shot of whisky.* Scratch that. It’s time we talk about my virginity. *Takes another shot. Slams down the glass.* Ok. Now I feel prepared to take on this topic. Allow me to set the stage: Saturday night. 4 am. The sun is just starting to rise and theContinue reading V Card
Plans
I’m going to be really honest with y’all. Growing up, I thought my life was going to have played out a lot differently by now. I thought I was going to be married at 22, first kid at 23, and…I wanted ten…so…you do the math. I know. I know. I had high ambitions for my wombContinue reading Plans
Perfume
So. This weekend was kind of a…break through of sorts for me. A new experience. A freeing feeling. Drumroll please……… I wore perfume. For me. Womp. Womp. I know, I know. If you were expecting something earth shattering, I apologize for the gross letdown. But just hear me out. I wear Ralph by Ralph Lauren.Continue reading Perfume
The Self Help Sham
One of my favorite things to do in NYC is just wander around. Especially now that it’s warm out, I like to just put on my sun hat and get lost for a few hours on a Saturday. There’s never a lack of things to do or explore. Like just the other day, I happened upon aContinue reading The Self Help Sham
Sweet Angel
My heart is heavy today*. I woke up this morning to learn that a dear friend, and radiant member of the BBB community, passed away suddenly. She had been battling against the repugnant monster that is anorexia, and it stole her life, way way too soon. She was radiant in every sense of the word: encouraging, loving,Continue reading Sweet Angel