Plans

I’m going to be really honest with y’all.

Growing up, I thought my life was going to have played out a lot differently by now.

I thought I was going to be married at 22, first kid at 23, and…I wanted ten…so…you do the math.

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I know. I know. I had high ambitions for my womb at a tender young age.

But it’s true.

Sitting here as a twenty-something, single, watching The Bachelorette while drinking in my sweatpants and catching myself literally smiling to myself and touching my cheek when my boy Jordan Rodgers comes on the screen…

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…I have to step back and simply shake my head.

My life thus far, has taken some pretty major detours, to put it mildly.

Battling anorexia through high school. And then having an Ulcerative Colitis flare for an entire year, resulting in having to move home and be on bed rest for 11 months…let’s just say my adulthood thus far hasn’t been the walk in the park I had envisioned.

And I promise, this is no “Woah is me” post…But the fact is, my life has had a couple of false starts. Hiccups if you will.


But I had a night this week where I just got really down, thinking about the “could have beens” and the “would have/should have beens.” 

Which, let me just say, is a very dangerous game to play.

Don’t go there, guuurlfriend!

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But seriously. My chest tightened, and I got almost short of breath, thinking about those things. I was getting panicky. And frankly, angry.

Why hasn’t this happened yet? When am I going to meet someone? What if I never meet someone? Will my life be a failure? Am I a failure?

Like I said….it is a dangerous game. Gets dark real quick.

So what did I do to get out of this funk?

Well, naturally……………….I turned to Twitter.

I was scrolling through tweets about Donald Trump, Donald Trump, Donald Trump, Gorilla Kid, Donald Trump, Beyonce, Donald Trump, Kim Kardashian

…and then –BAM — I came across this retweeted gem:

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Y’all. The Pope has a freaking Twitter.

I know.

I don’t care how you feel about the Pope. That is baller.

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But seriously, how is it that God always finds a way to encourage His children?

There is no technological interface that He can’t infiltrate. 🙂

But all kidding aside, this was exactly what I needed to hear:

Jesus, I trust in You.

Everything I’ve gone through, all the detours and restarts and … periods of stupidity growth opportunities – God is using all of that for good.

He has a plan. A good plan. A plan that most likely looks nothing like my plan.

Clearly not the plan my fourth grade self had for twenty-something me.

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Yikes.

But that is what I need to cling to. To keep my hope in. To focus my eyes on.

So, maybe I won’t be gettin’ hitched and poppin’ out kids just yet.

That’s okay.

I need to be patient and trust in His divine timing. His will for my life. His plan.

Now is the time for me to take a deep breath and say, “Jesus, I trust in You.”


Psalm 138:8 The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me. 

There it is, plain as day.

The could’a-would’a-should’a’s — I have no reason to worry or be afraid or get all verklempt.

Everything is playing out just as it should.


Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.

I’ll hang my hat on that.

Jesus, I trust in You.



 

 

 

 

 

 

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351 thoughts on “Plans

  1. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for this post (and all of your posts really). It really is amazing how God can use anything-even Twitter-to be bring us hope and peace when we need it most. And now I know that Pope Francis has a twitter so that makes me insanely happy, ha ha:)

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  2. Thank you for posting this! I can relate in so many ways (though at 18, I still want ten kids! 🙂 The crazy life has always been mine…might as well keep it that way.) yet in others, it would be grossly underestimating the things that you have endured to say that I understand. Trusting Jesus is a struggle that I never expected when I became a Christian. In a way, once you do trust him, it’s a new kind of freedom.

    Actually, your post has sparked memories of my own experiences…I would like to write a similar post, if you don’t mind. 🙂 God showed me a lot this year – the biggest lesson being that His plays are ALWAYS the best plans.

    Your honesty and sweet way of sharing lessons is a huge blessing to those who read your blog. 🙂

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  3. Hey I just wanted to give you credit, I really enjoy how you put these together, so I augmented my little baby blog in the same way. Thank you for your inspiration keep up the good work

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  4. I look forward to reading your posts!! Always so insightful, and fun. Loved today’s post…..thought about one of my daughters while I was reading it, and interestingly, I was telling her about your blogs the other day. Is that God or what??!!. So will have her read this blog…may be just what she needs to hear from someone besides her mother! Hugs!!

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  5. Hi I’m glad you find peace in this. I’m not a religious person but live by what will be will be which i guess is similar. Xx

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      1. Your welcome. Gotta think of life like a journey. Were not driving but we can give a few directions x

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  6. girl, i so relate to this. a few years ago, this was me. 26 single and in a dead end job. i was a good christian girl, and so waited till marriage. it was hard, waiting for my hubby, but God has made the wait worth it. i just had to keep trusting God, and whether or not i got married, i had to keep following Him. my faith doesnt depend on my marital status. keep following God girl, and He will provide. and thanks for liking my blog!

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  7. I got married at age 34 and frankly enjoyed my life very much before that time so was totally ready and never felt like it would not happen. Enjoy the things you like to do right now in your life and you will meet someone when you are content and not seeking. You are a completely different person in your twenties than you are in early thirties so just relax, don’t put such pressure on yourself and you will find someone when you are least expecting! You have to be happy with yourself before you can be truly happy with someone. You sound like a very special person! I wish you success with your health. My 19 year old niece struggles with anorexia and it is one of the most difficult illnesses to cure! Stay strong! xxo

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      1. I’ve prayed to meet someone whose mind I could pick about writing/blogging. I don’t know if you’re the answer or not, but i’d like to PM you if that’s ok.

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  8. What more can I say, this is a great blog with great followers and great sense of humor to go with, like an escaping star, you run through the mind of many, leaving a touch light on each heart saying, God is good. This is very very very interesting…!

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  9. You are a woman of beauty. I value your writing style and applaud you for sharing your vulnerability. I’m also a fan of Pope Francis, Papa Frank. We’re supposed to call God “Abba”, “Daddy”, Pope Francis’ tender heart shows us the way.

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  10. Be still and know…God has something so abundantly, and exceedingly more than you could ever hope for or even dare imagine!! How awesome is that??
    It’s when we can surrender ever aspect of our lives- He does the un imaginable.

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  11. JMJ
    And to assist you in trusting in Jesus, you can get some extra help from our Most Blessed Mother. Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary… this helps you to give yourself over entrusting your very life, your prayers to Mary and distributing the prayers and leading your life on a true path of holiness. Read more about it to see if it is for you Fr. Michael Gaitley has written an updated version of St. Louis deMontfort’s Consecration to Mary, his version is called “33 Days to Morning Glory.” http://www.thedivinemercy.org/videos/A-New-Day-Dawns-for-Marian-Consecration-4742

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  12. Beebs, you’re a tremendous story-teller. You have a gift for that. Oh, nice collar on that last pic. Very beautiful. Very colorful. Mexican? The Peruvians do some pretty nice haniwork like that, too.

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    1. Hi Dan! Thank you so much! I’m glad you like the storytelling! Haha — it’s just urban outfitters! Haha I wish it was authentic! Hope you’re having a great week. Hugs and love xox

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  13. God is amazing!!!! before i read this post, i was feeling really down thinking about my future, how my life is going to be like, insecurities and fear setting in…. but your post just made me feel better. thank you soooo much

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  14. Awesome post! Hilarious and what not. I feel exactly the same way and absolutely forbid myself (& everyone else) to go into the whats if mode. You’re righr, just don’t go there! It’s a black hole. Funny how we plan…Funny that we plan. 😂🙈

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    1. Hello again friend! Aw, thanks! So glad you found it funny 🙂 hehe Oh yes, the “what if” mode is the deepest and darkest of black holes! Gotta steer clear! I know, isn’t it funny, the plans we make!? hehe thanks again for stopping by and for all your thoughtful comments tonight. hugs and love xox

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  15. I loved this post! I’m going through a similar situation, so this post was great to read! I just have to remember God has it all under control!

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  16. Hey it is normal to feel like that. I was the same until a friend of mine told me to pray for “him”. Do not ask what you want in a man but pray for a man who will make you a better person, a man who have a faith in God so you two can understand each other and yes do pray everyday and it will eventually happen without you noticing it. You are still young… enjoy being single and being free! 🙂

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  17. Sweetie, we all have plans for our lives that don’t seem to go, as we planned. Don’t beat yourself up about things so much. You worry too much. You will meet the right person at the right time. Enjoy your youth and your independence.

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    1. Thanks Cheryl. Yeah, I think you’re right – it’s that seed of perfectionism that likes to nag me. I have to just let it go. Enjoy this time, like you said:) Thanks for the encouragement. hugs xox

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  18. I have to say, your blog has really caught my attention. Hearing the testimonies of fellow followers of Christ is always something that is encouraging as well as humbling. I hope you don’t mind me stopping by haha, but this post certainly caught my eye. God certainly has a way of taking a hammer to our lives, and then rebuilding them into something even better and more amazing. Scripture tells us that we can plan all we want, but it is God’s will that prevails. Just remember that in your waiting for your hopes and dreams, glorify God in all you do.

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      1. You are more than welcome 🙂 I look forward to seeing your future posts! God has certainly gifted you with wisdom beyond your years!

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      1. I followed you so I am looking forward to reading more of your content. =) It is very entertaining and I love the humor. From the looks of it I think life is headed in the right direction for you. Have a lovely day as well =)

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  19. I am so glad whenever I see people who don’t allow life challenges to get in between God and them… Jesus is always the answer. Thank you for putting this up.

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  20. Awww honey, I know I have actually read your last several posts backwards…lol.. but sometimes I just wanna hug you up.. I wish you were here in Texas so I could smother.. I mean mother you…lol.. not that you need a mother… because seeing you now, I know you have a family that loves and adores you.. and I do too.. peace.. and HUGS!!!!

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    1. Awww thank you so much:) I can feel the love from here! Truly! You’re sending me big virtual hugs through your kind words. I’m serious. Thank you:) sending them back at’cha! And again, I can’t tell you how much it means that you’ve gone through and read my words. You are a blessing:) Hugs and love xox

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  21. Yes again you talk real. I admire the effort you put into your posts.
    Well life’s a…… (Fill in the dots)

    We just got to learn how to play it.

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  22. Hey! I just sent you an email.
    Those pics/memes, with the words about trust..Do I need to credit someone if I was going to use them? Apart from you, obviously.

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  23. As a 29 year old single teacher without kids, I too had very specific plans of how my life should have turned out. I love knowing that I am not the only one. The one thing I cling to, is now that I look back on my life, I cannot be happier that my life didn’t turn out the way I originally planned. I wouldn’t be the person that I am today, and honestly, I love this person. Good for you!!

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    1. Thanks for this reflection! Yeah, I definitely had a spelled out plan for my life when I was 15. Heck, I had a plan for my life 3 weeks ago, and I have just had to learn to trust that everything will happen when it’s supposed to 🙂 Just enjoy the ride. 15 was one of my favorite years ever 🙂 Big big hugs to you! xox

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