State of the Union

Well, here we are. One year later.

Last week was my one year anniversary of BBB. My “blogiversary.” (And please read the sarcasm there…I am literally cringing as I type that word.)

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I’ve gotta be honest, I didn’t think I was going to do one of “these posts.” You know the type — “Oh my gosh, one year later! Golly Gee Willakers, how time has flown! I’d like to thank the Academy…” Blah. Blah. Blah.

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No thank you.

But the more I was thinking about it, I really did want to just push the pause button for a hot sec and reflect on this past year.

When I started this blog, one snowy February night last year, I started writing about a dark time in my life that I was lugging around with me. I don’t think I realized it then, but I really was letting that guilt and shame from the anorexia in my past, taint every part of my life – from how I viewed myself, to my relationships with my family and friends, to my faith, to shopping, to opportunities, to you name it. – Everything was being seen through the filter of shame that I could not let go of.

So I started writing about it.

Hoping that, maaaaaybe one person who was struggling with anorexia or an eating disorder could find hope and healing here. But also, so that parents/loved ones could read a true, no-holds-bard account of what their loved one was going through. What she couldn’t tell them. Everything that I wished my parents would have known during my disease.

 


But what I didn’t realize, was that while I was getting all of that out and truly revisiting parts of my past that I had locked away – the hope and healing I aspired to give, I actually received.

I can honestly say that the girl writing this post today, is a very different girl than the one writing one year ago.

Over the course of the year, I have been able to take that shame from the fact that I suffered from anorexia, and see it for what it truly is: part of my past that does not define me, but rather, has made me strong, and has made me who I am today.


But I have to be honest: I was not the one who was behind the wheel of that change.

Jesus took the shame I had been carrying around, and He transformed it. He made beauty from ashes.

This past year, I learned what recovery really means. It isn’t some 12 step program, or dietary plan, or refraining from ED behaviors. I mean, it is. But…

Recovery is a relationship with Jesus. 

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Recovery is turning to Jesus instead of ED. Finding my worth in my Savior, rather than what the mirror dictates. Recovery is listening to the words of truth that He whispers to me, instead of the lies ED would have me believe.

Recovery is knowing that I do have worth. That I am loved. That I am worth love.

The girl 12 months ago, yes, she believed that…but she didn’t claim it — own it — like the girl before you today.


And I can’t even begin to express the gratitude in my heart to each one of you that has taken the journey with me. Who has offered kind words of encouragement and love.

Thank you for accepting all of me. For validating who I really am — the part that I didn’t show to people out of shame or disgrace. The part that, now, thanks to you and the Big Guy, I no longer have to lug around. I have let it go. Accepted it as my past, learned from it, and moved on.

I know that I am not alone in feeling that there’s something we cannot carry much longer. Everyone has something that they’re bogged down with – whether debt, toxic relationships, addictions in any and all varieties, loss, betrayal, bullying — whatever it is, I hope to be there for you as you have been for me. There is nothing more meaningful than having even one person see you at your most vulnerable, and love you just the same.

You did that for me. And I thank you with everything I have.

I am genuinely excited to see where this next year takes us, together.


Sending so much love.

BBB

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236 thoughts on “State of the Union

  1. Great blog and so on point. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and it’s a struggle and I have my tough days and I know that I’m not alone and realize there are so many out there worst off than I am. I am thankful for how God has Blessed me to not be in bad condition and I pray for those that are suffering so much more than I am. Like you I blog about my RA and it’s very therapeutic for me. I prayed to God for an outlet for myself and at the same time to be an inspiration for others and my blog is doing that and for that I thank him daily. Sorry to be so long winded but you are inspiring. Blessing.

    1. Thanks Corrie:) no worries at all! I love listening to your heartfelt insight and perspective. I’m so glad that you’ve embraced His loving arms. You’re so right- we CAN turn to Him in our struggles. What a comfort is that! Thanks again for your continued readership. I love seeing your bright face in my feed! Hugs and love xox

  2. May the coming year see the lives you touch multiply exponentially.

    Did I tell you that in my workforce development program for the Mission, there is a section in the curriculum that deals with learning from the struggles of others. One part of that section is titled, “Dealing with your own ‘Anorexia'” and guess whose blog will be used to demonstrate how we can turn to God for help in overcoming those things that keep us chained up and unable to move forward?

    You remain my favorite unknown person and are always an inspiration, JD! May God bless you mightily in the year to come.

    1. Oh my gosh Tony, thank you so much! That brings my heart so much joy that you passed this silly little blog along to others:) God is good! So grateful for your friendship, Tony…but then, you know this ☺️ sending so much love and hugs! Keep being an amazing warrior for Christ! Xox

  3. Happy blogaversairy! This is AWESOME! We don’t give Jesus enough credit sometimes. I could be mad at him for giving me anorexia, but I am thankful because it has made me such a stronger person, as it has for you too. It also brings you so much closer to the Lord, which I love to hear you also did! God is good!

    1. Thank you so much! You’re right- God IS good and He will see us through the storm. Thank you for sharing this and opening your heart. Keep fighting the good fight! Sending you so much love and hugs:) xox

    1. Thank you so much! That really means a lot:) you’re right- this year has been full of blessings which I am eternally grateful for. Thanks for stopping by friend. Hugs to you! Xoxoxo

    1. Thank you Rick:) gosh, that means so much. God is good! I’ve got to give credit where credit is due…and I owe Him my life! Thanks for stopping by and for your encouragement. Hugs xox

  4. Heartfelt as always BBB. Came across a quote recently that stuck with me, “don’t read books, read yourself”. We’re more use to others if we just read ourselves honestly. You are really good at that. Not many people have this ability, because it can be so terrifying. That’s one reason I think this blog is great.

    1. Oh my gosh, wow. Thank you☺️ you just made my heart feel so warm ❤️super cheesy but so true. Thank you. I’m so glad you enjoy my blog. Sending you so much love and hugs xox

  5. You are bold, brave, and a beloved. Peace and blessings to you for another year ahead filled with growth & love of yourself.

  6. I praise God for you, dear sister! That you KNOW Jesus Christ as you do, that you submit to Him as you do, that you testify of Him as you do, and that you honor Him and give Him the glory for your recovery as you do! Big, big hug and kisses, dear one!

    1. Aw thank you D:) your encouragement and friendship means so so much:) yes, God IS good and I owe my life and my recovery completely to Him! Thanks for your continued readership. Big big hugs to you as well Xoxoxox 🙂

  7. Glory to God, beloved!

    This post of yours is an expression of true humbleness and humility because it points to JESUS (you love Him because He first love you, and you are able to love yourself with His love) and that YOUR success is in the LORD — He is our EVERYTHING (healing, wholeness, completeness, identity, loveliness…)!

    Mondo love, fair one 🙂

      1. Praise God!!! AMEN!!! Thank you 🙂

        Reading this, my heart was so full of thanks and praises be to God — Truth is flowing out of you like rivers of living waters! What you are doing here, what you are sharing (the Good News) — there will be many crowns cast at your feet on that day, beloved 🙂

        Support and encouragement you’ve got from me all our days here on earth, blessed friend.

  8. Congrats on your milestones BBB! I so agree that the beauty in sharing produces healing for not only yourself but others. You have done that and Jesus used you as a very willing and available vessel. I expecting nothing but continued greatness in your writing and beyond in 2016. The right track you are on and I am sure will remain. Blessing my dear beautiful one:-)

  9. You are an inspiration and I feel blessed to have connected with you. Congratulations on one year blogging and more importantly becoming the woman you are today, having grown and learned during the past 12 months. I wish you continued strength, love and joy as you journey onwards.

    1. Wow, thank you so much Miriam. Likewise! I am so grateful to have connected with you and look forward to getting to know you more! Have a wonderful weekend☺️ hugs and love to you xox

  10. Congratulations! I have spent a large part of the past two days (taking today off work) with a young lady who is just beginning to realize that she is loved for the human being she is – and there are some who have her back. ♥ I really enjoy your blog. I would not be alive if it were not for the Grace of God. He is good to us.

  11. You are so right; recovery is a relationship with Jesus. One must accept His free gift of salvation, mercy and grace. But in the process one must give all their stuff to Him just as freely and unconditionally as He gave us His love.

    It is wonderful that you have made such progress over one year’s time! Having a strong and lasting faith in Christ is paramount to that progress. I am blessed to have been able to read many of your encouraging posts. I am glad you made that climb to recovery!

    Love & blessings!

    1. Thanks Lizzy:) wow, what affirming words. I appreciate it. ❤️ I owe everything, including my life to Christ, so how can I not share His love 🙂 thanks for stopping by and for your continued support. Hugs and love xox

  12. A truly beautiful and insightful post 🙂 Your brief reference to the Academy Awards was perfect since it is this weekend 🙂 I love how delve deeply into the process of recovery and as one progresses, it becomes less like a 12 step program as you explained that it does as a discovery and that discovery is none other than Jesus as you so accurately and articulately describe. I hope this new year is great for you and so far (at least based on my knowledge) things are going fine and let us all hope it stays that way for you 🙂 Anyway, keep up the great work as always 🙂

    1. Thank you so much John:) yeah I’m looking forward to watching the oscars. You’re right- recovery has been a walk with Jesus. Getting to know shim and letting Him into my heart. A beautiful thing. I really appreciate your consistent encouragement and support. It means more than you know. Grateful for you, friend. Have a wonderful weekend, and God bless!

  13. Loved everything I just read. This is the first I have been on your site, but it won’t be the last. The “real” truths that set you free and your passion about being honest and seeing how much God loves you, simply wow! Very refreshing to read what others write when it comes to living our daily lives and knowing we can’t do it without Jesus. Many Blessings to you!

  14. Thank you for never giving up on yourself. God Bless all that you are now, and all that you conquered and put behind you. You are a wonderful writer, and a wonderful person. Your gift is not only one to yourself, but a gift to all readers who are able to be touched, and lifted up by your projecting light. Keep being you and doing what you do. Hugs!!

    1. Thank you so much Migueltio:) wow, what a kind thing to say. That really means a lot ☺️☺️ It’s all God. I owe Him everything. Eeeeeeeverything. Thanks for your continued readership. I’m so enjoying getting to know you! Have a great weekend! Hugs to you xox

  15. Congratulations on your blogiversary. 🙂 – I’ve learned much from you, and your journey. You’ve taught me about acceptance, and about receiving acceptance.

    And you might not even have known that you were teaching while you were doing it.

    So – thank you for your stories, for your encouragement, for your willingness to share your journey..

    But most importantly, thank you for taking us along on that journey with you.

    Take care & God bless,

    Tom

  16. I am very new to your blog. I started following it because my family struggles with generational ED. I want to help equip my daughter’s with the tools to overcome and hopefully never have to face it themselves. What I have received from your blog reaches far deeper than I was looking.

    Your words, your insight, your brokenness… With these you have spoken truths and brought insight to many struggles that this mama needed to deal with herself.

    I am thankful for your blog, your truth, and leading us right back to Christ. The only answer.

    ((Big Hugs)) and so glad your here!

    1. Thank you so much 🙂 wow, what a powerful reflection. Thank you for sharing that. It sounds like you’re a great mom. What you’re doing is so smart. God is good and I will definitely keep you and your family in my prayers hugs and love to you xox

    1. Thanks Vanessa:) I really appreciate your kind and affirming words. You’re right- we all have things we’re working on. And Jesus is the answer for all of them 🙂 God is good! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love to you xox

  17. 110% what I needed to read tonight. Thank you for so bravely sharing. I want to find that relationship with Christ again instead of carrying my own stuff. Truly, thank you.

  18. I love your shot out to Jesus! He must be smiling down on you 🙂 I alway love to stop in and read your inspiring posts. I just love how you speak to the hearts of so many people. It is Christ speaking through you. Thank you for being transparent so that others can be moved and healed through you. Sometimes we may not understand why we go through trials, but when you experience PURE JOY at the end of the journey, God has used you for good. He makes beautiful and good things even from the sad and hurtful parts of our lives. Praise God for your healing, your journey, and for allowing God to use you. Blessings.

    1. Thank you so much JM 🙂 amen to that! God uses all things for good. Even that painful past. And now it is my job to sing His praises. I owe everything to him. Thanks for stopping by and for your incredibly encouraging words. It means a lot. Hugs and love to you xox

  19. What a testimony of God’s goodness! He surely is great and mighty and His hand is very evident on your life. There is so much more in store for you. Exciting times ahead I believe……!
    God bless
    Rolain

  20. I think it’s really brave of you to be talking about your struggles, it’s not easy so for that you should be proud. Awareness can only ever be a positive thing and writing has obviously helped you immensely. Really enjoyed this post! Oh, and happy one year! 🙂

  21. Congratulations on your 100th blog, and on the progress you have made in your recovery. I am a recovering alcoholic (20 years +), and appreciate the way you share your self and your process openly.

  22. “Recovery is a relationship with Jesus.” What a profound thought. I love your blog, and look forward to hearing more from you in the next year.

    Oh, and happy blogiversary 😉

  23. I’ve just known your blog for awhile, but i’ve been very blessed with the words that you put inside of it. Full of genuine and honesty. I rarely sees something like this until now. Keep it going my friend!

  24. Reblogged this on Church Set Free and commented:
    I have seen a number of these WordPress anniversaries. And I see a lot of reflective “acceptance speeches” in post format.

    And then there is this format …

    “I know that I am not alone in feeling that there’s something we cannot carry much longer. Everyone has something that they’re bogged down with – whether debt, toxic relationships, addictions in any and all varieties, loss, betrayal, bullying — whatever it is, I hope to be there for you as you have been for me. There is nothing more meaningful than having even one person see you at your most vulnerable, and love you just the same.”

    Thank you bbb, the Lord has filled you with as much special stuff as all of us – and to you He has added the gift of making “the special stuff” so very special to share with you! Thank you!

  25. Amen! Recovery is something everyone needs. It’s about recovering our relationship with Jesus and letting Him heal our hurts. Well done for letting Him help you on your journey to health and freedom.
    B.D.

  26. Such a great thing to be able to look back and see where you were a year ago and how much you’ve grown since. Keep growing, keep praying, & listening to your praise music, but most of all keep listening to God. Ask Him where he wants to take you next. What areas you can grow in. His answers might not be easy to sallow but hang in there. There is great treasure at the end of the road—as narrow as it may be—but it’s totally worth it! And keep sharing—it’s a real blessing.

  27. Your picture shows some considerable amounts of peace and serenity. Good. Happy anniversary!!
    And as for writing about it…think of it as your Bethel monument 🙂

  28. Thank you for liking my post so I could see this! I also started writing in a dark time, but about two years ago. I have struggled in and off since Jr high with anorexia and Jesus is the only redeemer for the terrible companion it has been for me. Keep fighting for holiness!

    1. Thank you for sharing this, friend. You’re right, Jesus is THE number one source of strength. What a comfort in that truth. Thanks so much for stopping by. Keep fighting the good fight, warrior. Hugs and lots of love to you xox

  29. saw a like and dropped by, thanks! i read, and continued on a few more posts of yours, good reads, thinking positively will definitely help in ur path too! everything has a bright side to it, really… 🙂 Grats and best wishes on the recovery!

  30. I am so thankful that the Lord provided opportunity for us to connect in this genre. He has been doing a great work in you and through you! The lives and hearts you have impacted due to the bare bones authenticity has a ripple effect for generations.

    What is also beautiful is the freedom from the bondage of shame and beginning to have the clear filter through which to view yourself and the life you have been given. Without you in it would have been costly to more than you will ever know. I think that is what gets lost often in the fleece of lies the enemy blankets over out eyes… “you… your person… your life doesn’t matter. Save everyone the burden and just disappear” is a flat out LIE!!! Your health, your heart, your mind, your actual presence matters and is intentional with purpose you will not know in this life.

    Thank you for boldly stepping in faith to share your journey and give sight to others of what is happening inside those who can’t find the strength to speak out what is happening inside themselves. Thank you!

    May you be encourage today and the days to come as you continue on this adventure we call life.

    1. Wow, Jeanette. This is. Just. My goodness, I am speechless at how kind and encouraging and beautiful your words are. Thank you. I am incredibly humbled and touched. It has definitely been scary at times to open up but He has given me strength. It is all Him. I tell my mom all the time-she asks how I come up with things to write about, and all I do is sit down at the laptop and say, “ok God, I’m listening. Tell me what to write.” These are not my words. I’m just the broken (but healing) vessel. I’m so glad my blog resonates with you. Sending you so much love and hugs. Have a wonderful weekend xoxox

      1. Keep Listening
        Keep resting
        KEEP LOSING YOURSELF in Him because that is where you truly find who He designed and intentionally purposed you to be. ♡

        He is absolutely captivated by and longingly waits for us and our desperately broken hearts. ♡ He loves us with complete abandon!

  31. Thank you for sharing so much with us . Some of us may not have it but we have learned so much from your journey for our personal things. You have give us strength to know that yes we can and will achieve greatness. God blessed your beautiful soul. I’m proud of you for overcoming it and to be proud of where you’ve been until now. Xoxo , Lady Sergine ❤️👆🏾

    1. Thank you so much friend:) God is good and I owe Him everything. So I can’t help but sing His praises:) thanks for your beautiful and affirming words. Have a wonderful weekend. Hugs xox

  32. Congratulations on your blogiversary! I can’t believe you’ve only been writing for a year–I’ve read most of your blog and it is really profound. I actually have the opposite problem with food than you did (I overeat) but wouldn’t you know it, I realized ED talks to me, too–he just suggests different things! So your blog has helped me heal, too.

    I have a question, if you don’t mind. This occurred to me today and I thought you would be a good person to ask. What do you think distinguishes ED from a legitimate spirit of discipline? I’m trying to develop the latter.

    1. Oh my gosh thank you for this, Rose:) that really means a lot. Oh yes, ED takes many forms. I think the thing about ED is that he tries to tear you down in whatever “tape or message” that speaks to where we each are individually wounded. So it looks different for everybody. But that’s just me, I can’t really say for sure. I hope that helps. Sending so much love and hugs! Xoxox

  33. Thank you for sharing! I pray your story reaches those in need of knowing they are worth so much more than what they view in the mirror. God is real and He uses our weaknesses to exude His strength! Our broken lives are His evidence. Continue to inspire.

  34. Congratulations, my friend! I’m so happy for you and so thankful that the Lord has been faithful to you! He never fails! Here’s to another year….blah blah blah 😉

      1. Your welcome …and thanks yourself ….am going to tell the kids that one …..that I rock ….then watch their faces:D:D:D ….hugs back to you:) x

  35. God has truly answered your prayers. He has given you the strength to take command and win your war with Anorexia. I truly believe that you always had the power to do this, God just helped you discover that through prayer and faith. You are a very strong person and you did not give up. I am dealing with PTSD and I continue to pray for the strength to go on every day and someday defeat the demons within. I a new to this blogging thing but I am so thankful for finding your blog a few week ago and reading it. Now I follow you and your words of wisdom. Once again keep up what you are doing.

    1. Thank you doc Bill. Yes He has! Wow, thank you for these encouraging words of affirmation. It means a lot. Thanks for reading. And yes, God is our strength and can get us through our darkest hour. Hugs and love to you xox

  36. Such an inspiring post, congrats on the journey and looking forward to seeing you happier and happier 🙂 Many blessings from the Philippines

  37. Very beautiful post loved it! God is awesome and it’s so great to hear stories like yours, it’s so reassuring knowing that you are not alone through your darkest hours and your most brightest ones too, keep is real girl xx

  38. “But what I didn’t realize, was that while I was getting all of that out and truly revisiting parts of my past that I had locked away – the hope and healing I aspired to give, I actually received.”

    I think that is a really important message, well made and well worth dwelling on! Thanks for this post and I’m glad you’ve experienced such a positive transformation 🙂

    1. Thank you so much Matt. That means a. Lot:) you’re right- I have received a tremendous blessing through this blog. Very grateful indeed. Thanks for stopping by. Have a great week!

  39. Beautifully written! I admire your courage for sharing such side of you. It’d definitely serve as an inspiration for others who felt the same way. It’s sad that some society tend to shy away from topics like anorexia or depression because they do not know how to react to it. So, such topics usually got swept under the carpet. But, you didn’t! Congratulation to the 1st year of BBB, may you continue to write as eloquently and reach out even more to other people. =)
    oh, and thank you for liking post at http://www.snipoftriv.wordpress.com! ^-^

    1. Thank you so much! That really means a lot 🙂 you’re right, this is definitely an area that needs to be understood, and to lose the “stigma” surrounding it. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs to you my friend xox

  40. Thank you so much for this post; I definitely feel the same way about how much of a blessing the blog Christ has given me to steward has been to me. He is such a good, good father! Working in and through us, and others, through the ministries that our lives are. ♡
    Jesus led me to share this verse with you: “For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.” (Isaiah 43:19, NLT). I pray that, even as you explore your past, you would keep your eyes on Jesus both in the present, and for the future… that, as one sister on here has already said, you would “keep listening to God,” and would “Ask Him where he wants to take you next.” May you continue going deeper with Him as He leads you through every step of faith He calls you to, and may this beautiful story of Jesus’ redemption in your ED be only a chapter in the book of Jesus’ power that is your life!!
    Be encouraged, friend!! I can’t wait to see what Christ does in and through you, next 🙂
    With Love, in Christ,
    Annalee

    1. Hi Annalee, wow, thank you for this absolutely beautiful reflection. What kind and affirming words! thank you! and i absolutely love that Isaiah verse. my goodness. the imagery is powerful there. thanks for stopping by and for your lovely encouragement! hugs and love to you xoxo

      1. Yes, if course 🙂 As you have said yourself, it truly is all Jesus! 🙂
        It may sound random, but I want to pray for you, here:
        “Dear Lord Jesus, I thank You and I praise You for how You are using my sister, beautybeyondbones. Lord Jesus, I praise You for how You have continually used her in my life, and in the lives of so many others. Lord Jesus, I pray that You would, in this time, show my dear sister what You would have her to do, next, and how You would want to stretch her faith in You; help her in this, Lord Jesus, and cause her to rely on, and delight in, You like she never has before. Thank You, King Jesus! In Your Name I pray, Amen. :)”

        Love to you, sister! Have a blessed day in Jesus ♡

      2. Wow, Annalee, thank you. I am so touched by this beautiful and heartfelt prayer. What a special friend I have in you☺️ Praise God for His healing power and comforting presence in our lives. You are a blessing to me! Hugs xoxox

  41. First off, congrats on the blogaversary…love that word 🙂 Can’t wait to have mine! I love how you said recovery is a relationship with Jesus. Amen and amen and amen again! Having been through recovery programs, I totally get this. Jesus can be in the recovery program with us and use others to be His hands and feet, shoulders to lean on, etc, but it is ALL Him, at the core of all healing. What a lovely account of what He has done and what you decided to DO with what He’s done in you. Precious stuff indeed!

    1. Hello again friend! Oh thank you so much:) I know- super fun word right?! Haha but you’re so right- Jesus definitely used His instruments on earth, but HE really is the source-the core- of that healing. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs!

  42. OK, I finally found the words I wanted to articulate to you the other day. You are the perfect Kintsugi piece. Broken pottery formed back together with gold. That is what I saw when I read this, shard by shard placed back in the perfect spot held together with gold; turning our brokenness into a thing of surpassing beauty. Have a great day sunshine.

    1. Patticakes. Wow. I am so humbled by your wonderful words of affirmation. Thank you. This is an absolutely beautiful reflection and wow-what powerful imagery! I did not know that such pieces existed! I’m definitely about to go look up Kintsugi pottery on the internet now! Thank you again, my friend. You’ve made my day! Hugs and love to you!

      1. I posted a new blog just now, it alludes to you, well, it alludes to the feelings I had while I was reading your post. have a great day. hugs

  43. Great post. It’s so important to share our continued journey to wholeness. So much of Christianity thinks there’s a perfection point we’re aiming for when really we’re just walking a long and beautiful path. Love your writing!

    1. Thank you so much Chris! You’re right- it is a long a beautiful path. One that we’re not alone on:) thanks for stopping by and for this lovely reflection! Hugs and love xox

  44. This is truth! I have been so afraid to share my struggle with OCD until the past month. I have been carrying around its shame as well. I have found so much freedom and healing via writing. And I have connected with so many amazing people. It is amazing how He is working. 🙂

    1. Thank you so much for this reflection. You’re right, there is so much freedom in writing. I’m glad you’ve been able to write about your pet and be released from it. God is good! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love to you friend xox

  45. You’ve certainly generated plenty of positive momentum over the last year. A credit to your open and honest writing. Nice! Follow me back at wklifebalance.wordpress.com much love!

  46. Happy blog birthday, Beauty. One day, I’ll get to meet the Beauty behind the blog. You now understand who you are: the daughter of a King. And that is good.

  47. So many comments, so much encouragement; it’s awesome to see 🙂

    I don’t have any experience or knowledge concerning anorexia (until your blog 🙂 ) but I’ve found the overall sense of Christ-like identity and love He has for us to rush from your writing. It’s awesome! 🙂

    I also wanted to pass on a tidbit close go my heart, as a friend shared this with me when I was/am going through my own time breaking away from recurring shame sourced from recurring slippage, and I find it too beautiful to not pass on:

    Kintsugi: the art of taking broken pottery and infusing it with gold, making it whole again. To avoid stretching this comment even further:
    http://www.thisiscolossal.com/2014/05/kintsugi-the-art-of-broken-pieces/

    Love your words 🙂

    1. Hi there Adinade! Oh my gosh thank you for such kind and affirming words! It means a so much. You’re right-I am so humbled and grateful for the support I’ve received on here. God is good:) and how cool! I will definitely check it that post. Sounds right up my alley. Thanks for stopping by! Have a beautiful weekend xox

  48. “Recovery is a relationship with Jesus.” … wow. I hope that one day, I can speak of my love and longing for Christ and God with the same eloquence and passion that you demonstrate here again and again. I’m so grateful that I found your blog. You draw me deeper into my relationship with Jesus through your writing and through your sharing of your story and your wisdom.

  49. Thanks for following my blog and liking stuff. It is such an encouragement for a beginning blogger like me, with my 24 (ha ha ha, can’t type it without laughing) followers. Anyway, here is a verse a missionary friend gave me, which I thought was really helpful when the going is difficult, Ps 23:3: “He gives me new strength. He leads me on paths that are right for the good of His name.” I read that as “He doesn’t necessarily lead me on paths that are easy for me or pleasant, but on paths that are for the good of HIS REPUTATION.” That shook my focus off of me and onto Him, where it belongs. Perhaps that can be an encouragement to you (or maybe someone else who reads this) today. Best wishes from me to you.

  50. Right on. No matter what your concept of Higher Power is, it must be loving and supportive of you as you are. No one of us can recover alone. We must have support to replace the hole inside that is so hungry. Whether we binge or restrict, it is all an attempt to bring order and manage pain. That is why 12 step programs are so inspired: they offer an understanding that focuses on the solution and not the quick fixes.

    1. Hi friend! Thank you for this! You’re right – having a supportive community is so so important for a strong and long-lasting recovery. And very true-there’s no quick fix. It is a life change. hugs and love xox

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