Well here we are. April.
We’ve officially made it through the doldrums of winter and are on the brink of spring.
April in NYC is the rainy season.
I mean, it is nothing glamorous.
Gray, overcast and drizzly skies; murky puddles of sludge, and temperatures that can range from 70 degrees one day, to 35 the next. And did I mention that you’re walking in all of this.
The cute little, “April showers bring May flowers…”
More like, “April showers bring disgruntled and frizzy New Yorkers.”
I’m actually one of the rare breed of people who likes rain.
From my apartment, I can hear the street below. And there’s a certain sound that cars make when they’re driving on a wet road. There’s a little *hisss* that comes when tires drive on wet pavement. And when I wake up in the morning and hear that *hiss* out my window, I always get excited: it’s a rainy day.
I think that excitement goes back to when I was younger. Growing up, my very first bible was called, “Living Water for those who Thirst.” And there are inserts throughout of bible passages about rain and water. And they have beautiful pictures and a glossy sheen. And I just remember always opening up to those pages and running my fingers over the images, and really falling in love with water, and everything it symbolizes.
This beloved bible, with all of its underlines and color coded-highlights, and doodles, was one of the few books I was allowed to bring with me to inpatient for my anorexia. Literally every book and magazine — even a Disney Channel magazine I tried bringing — was confiscated at check-in for being “contraband.” They didn’t want any triggering images or messages.
The only book we were allowed was, yep – you guessed it! The Bible.
But there was this one image in the bible of a person in a sun shower — you know, the super heavy rain when the sun is brilliantly shining? Well this person was in this downpour, smiling, and the verse was, “I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean, and I will put a new spirit in you.” Ezekiel 36: 25-26
During my time at inpatient, I absolutely clung to that verse and everything it promised and communicated: That He is changing me. Making me new. Washing away all the unclean things in my past.
I wrestled for such a long time, (and honestly sometimes still do) with all the things in my past that were “dirty.” All the lies I told surrounding my anorexia. All the ways I manipulated my family and loved ones. All the hurt I had caused them and the trust I shattered. All the ways I purposely tried to destroy the body that had been entrusted to me by God: I had done my best to demolish it. And even though I didn’t come right out and say it, my actions communicated that I had turned my back on God.
All of those things made me feel like I was completely caked in mud. In proverbial “shit.” Literally. Like the scene from Slumdog Millionaire.
I was the kid that fell into the latrine.
So reading about God washing away all of that disgusting crap I was covered in — it brought me so much peace. So much hope. So much comfort.
God does not want me to walk around wearing the dirt from my past.
He wants me to be clean. Washed anew. Because I am His. And that’s why He went to the cross.
But here’s the biggie: He promises to give me a new spirit.
He’s not going to just give me a shower and send me on my way. No. He promised to put a new spirit in me.
One of power, right judgement, a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7) One that could stand up to ED and all of his lies and false promises.
With a “heavenly shower” and a new spirit, there was nothing that I couldn’t do.
So that’s why I like the rain.
It is a reminder of that promise. That I’m not in this alone. And that God has promised to wash me clean of all the baggage from my past that can eat away at me and bring me down.
Maybe you’re not struggling with an eating disorder, but I’m sure there are things that you can think of that keep you up at night. Eat away at your spirit. Discourage you. And riddle you with regret. Maybe a word spoken in anger to a loved one. Maybe an addiction or bad habit you’ve struggled with for years – surrounding food, or online shopping or porn, or gossip, or a critical spirit, or excessive eating or drinking. Whatever it is that’s making you feel caked with mud — you don’t have to walk around with it anymore.
We can claim the promises of His cleansing rain and a new spirit.
That’s what I see in the rain.
So bring on those April Showers. Because just like in nature, they really do bring flowers in the spring. Rain is life giving. And so too for you and me.
With His rain, we will bloom.
255 responses to “April Showers”
This was a beautiful blog! Thank you for sharing this inspiration!
Aw thank you so much Shelby! I’m glad you enjoyed it! Hugs and love to you xox
Excellently written and profound story… “I can relate this is why i created thewritershealingroom” healing is a process moment by moment,day by day. thank you.
Thank you so much. You’re so right-moment by moment. Day by day. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Awesome! Let’s pay it forward with our blogs shall me?
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Thanks, I will go the old fashion way by payin it forward and enjoying others blogs.
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You’re right. That’s so true. There are a lot of people out there that could use the encouragement ❤️
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Great post, really spot on and encouraging
Hi Tim! Oh thanks:) thank YOU for the encouragement. Hugs and love xox
I love your blog. So colorful and full of life and wonderful graphics with beautiful fonts! I love your message too. My icky mud was myself and being ashamed of me. I am still learning to receive God’s love and to love myself and accept me. And not compare myself to the beautiful people in hollywood or even “perfect” wives and mothers at church or online! Even at church we can compare ourselves. I see what my problem is now. Me. I am my problem and the way I think is. I have been standing in the way of my own life and God can’t work through me when I am standing in the way!
Thank you so much:) that really means a lot. Accepting Gods love can be so hard. But you’re right-god just wants to love you and work through you right where you are! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Your words touched my heart 💜, thank you for writing!
Aw thank you Amie. I’m so glad:) hugs and love to you friend xox ❤️❤️❤️
You do have a new spirit. It’s what I’ve seen in your writing from the first. You have a voice that transmits that spirit. I don’t perceive so much as a whisper of self-destruction. You are alive, vibrant, and full of love…His love.
We all have a Pandora’s box of nightmares that occasionally pops open, those past episodes pinging around our brains for awhile. You remember another person, another time. You remember her, but you aren’t her. Your Evil Twin, Skippy 🙂 has been buried in baptism and the better, truer you has again surfaced.
There’s no other reason for me or anyone else to keep reading your messages. So, when Skippy tries to surface, don’t even fight her. Just let her romp and don’t give her the satisfaction of protesting. Watch her drift away, and bask in the knowledge that so many people find the true you worth knowing!
Your dad in Christ, Jeff
Hey Jeffrey! Wow thank you so much:) God is good and I literally cannot claim any of that without his work in my life. He is good and merciful! Haha buh-bye skippy! Hehe seriously though. So true. Yes I will bask in the new spirit Jesus has given me. So grateful for you “dad” 🙂 hope you have. A great night! Hugs xox
Excellent! Thanks for that. A new perspective on this rainy day in Tennessee.
Thank you! Yes let the rain wash us clean! Hugs and love! Xox
April showers, your comments are beautiful and positive. The power within you is greater than the power that is in the world (1 John 4:4 ). Have a great day:)))
Oh my gosh thank you! Same to you! Hugs and love xox
Love this !!! You are so inspiring !
Aw thank you so much! Thanks for taking the time to read! Hugs and love xox
He’s restoring me piece by piece, it this is good, it reminds me of that song.
Or that song I am clean
Thank you so much. Amen to that. He is bring you to life one day at a time! Hugs and love xox
I’m glad I read this. In fact I feel like it came at the right time. Not just because it’s raining here in Michigan too, but because it’s uplifting to read your perspective on something I’ve been thinking a lot about recently. I keep meditating on Psalm 50:
“Thou shalt sprinkle me with hyssop, and I shall be cleansed: thou shalt wash me, and I shall be made whiter than snow.”
Last thing: hopefully you don’t take this the wrong way but the picture of you – you look so young! (better word = youthful?)
Hi friend! Oh gosh what a beautiful verse. Whiter than snow. What beautiful imagery. Haha oh yes, that’s the bane of my existence! — I look like a 12 year old boy! Haha but seriously thank you for be encouragement. Have a beautiful night! Hugs and love xox
Haha. For the record, I wouldn’t say a boy at all. And definitely not 12. More like 22-23?
And yes I agree. The whiter than snow gets me every time. The crazier thing I just learned is that hyssop is what God told Moses to use to spread the bread of the lamb over the doors of the Israelites during Passover. So it’s even deeper. It’s like: sprinkle me with hyssop — sprinkle me with your blood, Lord — and I will be made whiter than snow.
Hahahaha oh my gosh this just made my day. Thanks. ☺️😎😎😎every time I read the bible and learn of the significance of certain words and phrases, I am always just blown away by how completely planned out Jesus’ life was. He was truly the fulfillment of everything the Old Testament said to look for. It is incredible.
Entirely agree. When I found that out I was speechless. Then — not to belabor this point but it’s too cool to pass up — at the passion, when Our Lord says He thirsts, the soldiers lift vinegar to His lips on a stock of … That’s right … hyssop.
And above I obviously meant blood of the lamb not bread of the lamb haha. Whoops
It is so incredibly amazing. Everything He did-up to and even after He died–it was all part of The Plan. All prescribed. All divinely ordered. You’re so right-it leaves me speechless. God is amazing.
But anyway I’ll let you continue replying to each of your hundreds of comments individually. Have a good evening 😀
Haha oh gosh I don’t know about that! I so enjoy chatting with you friend:) have a great night xox
I’ll find something to hopefully top this for a comment on one of your next posts
☺️❤️❤️❤️❤️I look forward to it! xox
I remember the first time I went to treatment. (Drug and alcohol treatment) It felt like they had stripped me of my identity…and for good reason but at the time I was so resentful. They too let us have a bible. It was the first time I’d say down to read it since I was a very little girl. It saved my life. This is a great post…and I’m with you on the rain. Originally from the Seattle area where rain is a 12 month mischief maker! The sounds that come with it are so soothing…unless there is a tornado, which has happened where we live now. Any who…well done!💜
Thank you so much. Oh gosh yes rain is a way of life in Seattle! Thanks for this beautiful reflection. Hallelujah for recovery! Hugs and love xox
It is vitally important to be washed clean of your past however you choose to do it. My past was literally controlling my everday life, forcing me to do crazy OCD checking rituals 10 hours a day. I used to pray every day which helped me with the OCD but the thing that really lifted it was when I had trauma therapy EMDR for the childhood issues that were causing it. Now I am almost totally free of my past and I am happier and more peaceful than I have ever been.
Hi Caroline! Oh I am so glad you are free of those things in your past and experiencing peace! That makes me so happy:) you’re right-being washed clean is so important. Thanks for stopping by! Have a great weekend! Hugs and love xox
I, too, am a water person. When I drive around here, I have to cross the lake two or three times to get anywhere and, to me, it’s heaven. But, when it rains…well, I have a metal roof. If I knew how to attach it here, I would send you a recording I made when Tubbs and I were sitting on my little front porch listening to the rain on the roof.
But, I have never before thought about rain washing away my memories and regrets. That’s lovely. When I was doing spiritual healing exercises at church, I would write letters or essays or bring in boxes of love letters and the ritual involved burning these things and then the ashes were buried in the garden.
But, like you say, there’s always residual stuff that comes up unexpectedly. I think I will use your shower idea, maybe not in the rain but I love hot showers…it helps my sore muscles and joints. The thought of residual shit washing down the drain with the soap and dirt is truly cathartic.
This afternoon, I wrote a very lengthy response to someone’s comment about my essay “Device Protection.” In it I recalled events during a very difficult and confusing time in my life, as well as in the lives of my children. I welcome you to go back and read it. It brought up lots of painful memories and struggles with mental illness, abuse, and feeling powerless to make things right. I did the best I could but my writing this afternoon barely touched on the hell we were going through as a family…just my children and myself.
By the way, in case I haven’t mentioned it before, my addiction has been to spending money…not shopping, but the spending of money…having control over my ability to get what I feel I need.its an insatiable need to take care of that hungry, poorly dressed, neglected child…me, when I was young.
I think I’ll go take a hot shower and wash away some tears while I’m at it.
Oh gosh yeah I bet it’s loud loud loud! I will definitely check out your piece. Thank you for sharing that. Yes, I hope you feel Jesus’ healing love washing over you. Hugs and love xox
Thank you so much! Glad you enjoyed it! Hugs and love xox
This was fantastic! Beautiful, heartfelt and honest! Make God make all things new!
Thanks so much! Glad you enjoyed it! Yes, God is good! Hugs and love xox
Truly amazing! You have brought the washing, strenghtening, and encouraging so many of us need.
Aw thank you:) that really means a lot. Yes, we all need encouragement. We all need hope. God is good! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
One of the things I tell myself on rainy days is: “Rain makes it grow!”
So true! Rain DOES make beautiful and lovely things grow. Thanks for reading! Hugs and love to you friend! Xox
I do enjoy spring and the parallels with the “new thing” the Lord is doing in me…On another note, take it from this Bronx girl – you are looking VERY NYC in that hat and oversized shades. Cute!
Haha thanks Vanessa! ☺️☺️☺️😎 and amen to that. The Lord is always at work and how exciting to see what He has in store for you and I! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
I love the rain! And the start of a new season :)https://advicefromblog.wordpress.com
Hey Soph! So true! It IS the start of a new season! So glad you stopped by! Have a great night! Xox
Outstanding! Thanks so much for sharing from your heart!
Aw thank you so much! I appreciate you taking the time to read! Hugs and love xox
The funny thing about it is that plants and animals have no choice but to be rained on; but we have free will. We can hide under an umbrella, go inside to escape the rain on our beings. It’s no different with God. We have to choose to allow him to wash and refresh us rather than finding a means of escape. I’m so glad you allowed him to do so!
Again, thanks for sharing.
That is such a great point! We have the choice whether or not we “feel the rain.” What a great thing to think about. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
I always loved rains, but mainly because I just love having an excuse to nap without feeling like a slacker. Your reasoning is much, much better.
Haha I totally agree! Any excuse to curl up under a blanket with a hot mug a soup and a good book/Netflix is reason enough for me! ☺️☺️☺️
Reblogged this on wwwpalfitness.
Thanks for the reblog! Hope you’re having a great week! Hugs! Xox
You’re welcome and I wish I was but it is getting nad
❤️❤️❤️❤️oh dear. Well hopefully tomorrow is better ☺️
I sure hope so. I have a high deck of various things against me and no support for it.
Well know that I’m in your corner rooting you on:)
Thank you dear. I basically a loan shark to avoid being on the streets after being into submission and lost most clients and very little happening. On a bike with injuries as well. It is tough.
Oh gosh, I hope those injuries heal quickly!
Another great post! I too love the rain, the sounds, the smells, the coziness of being inside, wrapped in a blanket with a good book (smell the pages) and a hot cup of coffee. Everything is fresh, new. The colors seem richer once the sun comes back out and then there is the rainbows…ahhhh. Here in CA, we don’t get as much rain, but I lived in VA & I loved all the seasons there! The newness of life comes with the rain & with Christ. So glad to have read your post.
Aw thank you so much! Oh my gosh I love the smell of rain! It’s so clean and earthy. Amen to that. There is newness is Christ! Thanks for stopping by and for your beautiful reflection! Hugs and love xox
Another beautiful entry from a beautiful blogger! Reminds me of when Jesus told his disciples that they’re washed by the words he spoke to them. This post was a great reminder. Thanks for being real about your imperfections and transparent about His perfection. You’re awesome BBB!
Aw thank you so much! That really means a lot:) ☺️ how comforting to know that Jesus wants to wash us clean and give us a new spirit. Hallelujah! Thanks for stopping by! Hope you have a great weekend! Hugs and love xo
Have a fabulous weekend! ❤❤✌
Great post 🙂 When ever any of us (and we all have had it) remember a moment in our pasts that haunted us, one feels like they need something of a spiritual shower as you imply. One interesting thing I have been told over the years is that when one overcomes an upsetting memory (it can involve a past habit or anything) or confesses a sin that is troubling oneself, they suddenly feel clean as a whistle as If they had just been given a shower. Anyway, keep up the great work as always 🙂
Hey john! Clean as a whistle. 🙂 I like that. You’re right. There is such freedom when we let go of the past as release ourselves for its grip of shame and regret and embrace forgiveness. Thanks for reading and for sharing your wide perspective:) I always look forward to your insight! Happy Friday! Xox
deeply amazing and beautiful!
Aw thank you so much! I’m so glad you enjoyed it! Hugs and love xox
Thank you for these words – what an encouragement!!
Hi Jane:) aw thank YOU for the encouragement! So glad you liked it! Hugs and love xox
Thanks for sharing so willingly and courageously these very personal words of truth that so many in our brokenness need to hear. You’re a world-changer, my darlin’. <3
Aw thank you Maureen! Wow what a kind thing to say! 😍 I really appreciate your encouragement. Sending so much love and hugs xox
I love this beautiful and powerful reflection! I feel like I say the same thing about all of your posts, but it’s true! This one reminds me of the feast of Divine Mercy that we just celebrated. Did you listen to Fr. Schmitz’s homily? It made me cry when he talked about people being more afraid of God’s justice than His love and mercy, because I am one of those people! I have been meditating on the image of divine mercy and it is bringing me some comfort during times of uncertainty and distress, but I have a lot of healing still left to do. Thank you for yet another reminder of just how deep and transformative the love of our God truly is.
Hey hey Lulu! Yes! I did! His homily was so incredibly moving. The Divine Mercy actually hold a really special spot in my family. My mom prayed that novena during my anorexia. She was told by our priest to pray it -“Jesus I trust in you.” And when my mom went to the little Christian shop to pick up a book on it, as she was walking in the store, they were unloading a truck and on it was this huge, practically life size work of art with the divine mercy image of Jesus on it. My mom was like, that’s too much of a coincidence and so she bought it! And it’s hanging in our house. And we always loan it out to people when they’re praying for a miracle to put in their house. So yes, Divine Mercy Sunday is a very special time in our home:) thanks for reading friend! I hope you have a beautiful weekend! Hugs and love xox
Thank you so much for sharing this story!!! It gives me so much hope! My priest told me the same thing just the other day. My ED recovery is still ok, but I’m really with *life* right now. He told me to keep meditating on the image of divine mercy and repeating the words. It really works! Thank you, thank you for all your writing and for being your honest self! Sending thoughts and prayers your way today. ❤️❤️❤️
Hey there friend! Oh my gosh I know! It really does. Prayer is the biggest thing I have to work on. Sometimes, I don’t really know “how” to pray, so I just say “Jesus” over and over and think about His goodness and His love. Jesus I trust in you. There’s power in The Name! ☺️ have a beautiful Sunday my friend! Thanks for the prayers! Sending up some to The Big JC for you as well☺️
Oh thank you so much! As for “how” to pray, is there a wrong way if we are turning our heart and mind to God? Perhaps prayer is a bit different for each person. Yours sounds very meditative and grounding. Sometimes I think of the words of St Paul when I am having trouble getting started in prayer, “In the same way, the Spirit too comes to the aid of our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit itself intercedes with inexpressible groanings. And the one who searches hearts knows what is the intention of the Spirit, because it intercedes for the holy ones according to God’s will.” (Rom 8:26-27). Just keep it up and it will come, because God knows our hearts better than we know them, and He wants to talk to us even more than we want to talk to Him, so if we come to Him even a little bit, and we tell Him that we want help coming the rest of the way, He will help us! Have a beautiful week, my friend! Thank you for letting your spirit be such a light!
Hey Lulu! Wow thank you so much for this nudge of encouragement this morning. Your words are always so uplifting and full of love. Thank you. You’re right-we do have an Interpreter. That verse is so comforting about the HS. So true. He intercedes for us when we don’t have the words. Thanks for this bright note! Have a lovely Monday! Hugs xox
Once again, you hit home! The connection of water to the cleansing of our being and that God loves us despite our destruction. Spot on! Great way to start the day. Blessings
Hey Loretta! Aw thank you:) amen to that! He loves us despite our destruction. So so true. Thanks for stopping by! Hope you have a beautiful day! Hugs xox
Loving your blog/post style – so busy and frentic!
Thanks Roly! I appreciate it! 🙂
I love rain. I have always equated it with God’s blessing [as long as the torrential rains we get here around the Equator don’t do harm!]
Hi Karen! That’s so true-a reminder of gods blessing. And yes! Yikes! I hope so too! 😬😬😬thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
There are so many methods in the world of attempting to overcome negativity. However, you nailed it by focusing on the fact that ultimately, in spite of the reasons for it, at the end of the day you (and I) have a choice to either embrace God or to turn our backs on Him. Many people don’t want to hear it, but our sin is dirty. We need to make the conscious choice to receive grace, and then the continual choice to receive His instruction. Praise God He has, indeed, put a new spirit in us, a spirit which cries out “Father!” with outstretched arms that trust. This is at war with our lower selves, that part which wants its own way continually and considers God unjust for letting us suffer for a season. It is the battle within between Jacob and Esau. Your story, and the way you express it, is inspiring. Keep writing!
You’re so right. That’s it. We have the choice. And a continual one at that, just like you said. Thank you so much for your encouraging words. Sending hugs and love xox
I love your captions…so creative!
Thanks Annie! I’m so glad you like my quote art! I make them myself! 🙂 thanks for stopping by! Xox
This such a beautiful, uplifting commentary. Thank you so much. I love the rain. too. And now, that bible verse will be with me.
Hi Lori, aw thank you so much:) I really appreciate your kind words. I’m so glad:) have a beautiful day! Hugs and love xox
Great post. Absolutely love the first pic so precious! 😍😍😍
Thank you so much! Haha yeah that little guys a cutie😍😍😍thanks for reading! Hugs and love xox
I haven’t been blogging long and I think you are the first person I chose to follow. I have followed others since and then regretted it about half of them. But I am so happy I chose to follow you. Your messages are strong and inspirational and often evoke soul-searching on the part the reader. In my case, no, I’ve never suffered anorexia but I have suffered other problems that also had me lying and covering up for myself. It led me first to remorse and self hate.
It is like what Paul said in Romans 6: “For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.”
On a lighter side, you have an awesome way to describe Chicago weather as you tell us about New York.
Thank you for all your good posts, Rich
Hi Rich, thank you so much! Yeah, I can definitely relate to Romans 6 too. Thankfully we have Someone to be our strength:) thanks for stopping by and for following my blog! Have a wonderful weekend, friend! Hugs and love xoxo
Hugs and love back at you!
Enjoyed your blog today, thankful the Lord has been so good to you. Keep on enjoying the showers of Spring and the love and goodness that our heavenly Father rains down on you. Blessings, Shirley
Thanks Shirley! Me too. God is so good! Thanks for stopping by and for your kind words! Have a beautiful weekend! Hugs and love xox
Love this post. I love the rain too:)
Here in Iowa, the rain comes in intermittent showers and downpours broken up with bright rays of sunshine. It quite literally is sunny one moment, and storming the next.
The weather here now very much reflects God’s current work in my soul. Being made clean, and showered with His Truth. Then reveling in the Light that Truth brings with it.
Blessings to you today, and always:)
Hi friend! Oh gosh, sounds like Midwest weather! Thanks so much for this beautiful reflection. So glad He’s working in you 🙂 Have a wonderful day! Hugs xox
Hi! I love love love reading your blog! I’m from Ohio where it’s rainy and gray probably 50% of the year so this was really wonderful to read! Also, while i was reading this I was listening to 10th Ave North on spotify and a song by them called hallelujah came on and I had this conviction that I needed to tell you to listen to that song…
Aw thank you so much! OH-IO! 😉😉oh my gosh I absolutely love that song! Thanks for reminding me of it. I’m gonna go listen to it right now! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Yea its indeed inspirational,I hopefully you will not lack inspiring stuff.
Thank you so much:)
I have no idea where to begin with this post my beautiful friend and sister (as we are all children of God and I’m sure you’d be an amazing sibling) <3 I might end up waffling on again 😉 but seriously like you said "I wrestled for such a long time, (and honestly sometimes still do) with all the things in my past that were “dirty.” All the lies I told surrounding my anorexia. All the ways I manipulated my family and loved ones. All the hurt I had caused them and the trust I shattered. All the ways I purposely tried to destroy the body that had been entrusted to me by God: I had done my best to demolish it. And even though I didn’t come right out and say it, my actions communicated that I had turned my back on God." that is basically me, minus the anorexia part, although I had issues with losing waiting because of the depression and anxiety. I verbally turned my back, I cursed his name because I lost brother, for half my life I did that, and all he did was literally turn the other cheek to me, and when i finally saw his light and his love, i came to him, and all he did was forgive me, and washed me clean and started to work in my heart, even though i was so unworthy and so dirty. and even now when i fall he picks me up he forgives me again. im actually crying now thinking about it! he loves me that much.
anyway, RAIN LETS TALK RAIN! <3. I'm sure you know what I am going to say. I'M BRITISH haha. would you love the rain if you lived here, or came on holiday here haha <3
Aw thank you so much:) gosh that’s so kind. And amen to that- we are all His children! Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend! Xox
I actually enjoyed the fact that it rained today, it made me think of you <3, although i think if you alot, kind of weird i know but i do wonder about you and wonder what you are like in real life ans how you manage your day to day especially your recovery, its so inspiring, we may only have one good thing in common, but it is an amazing thing <3 Our God, we might talk a small amount but it means so much to me x. you are always in my thoughts and prayer. love you friend x
Is that your bible? Love the picture that illustrates the verse 😀
Thanks Nathanael! Yep! That’s my bible! Isn’t the picture cool? Thanks for stopping by! Xox
I struggle with religion and my relationship to it, but your blog is inspiring and helping me find a balance. Thank you!
Hi Etain! Aw thank you. That really means a lot. I’m glad it resonates with you. Sending you love and hugs xox
I am one of those “weirdos” who loves the rain also! I also love thunderstorms! It feels like a cleansing and it’s beautiful to me. Where I live we get sunshine and the rain pretty much everyweek. So the best of both worlds all year! Beautiful blog post.
Hi Marie! Oh awesome! Glad you like thunderstorms too:) I wanted To be a weather girl for a hot second when I was a kid:) Oh yes, that is the best of both worlds! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Such a beautiful perspective filled with merciful wisdom. Thank you!
Aw thanks Mike. So glad you enjoyed it! Have a great night! Hugs and love xox
You have a beautiful way with words and with making what the Bible says relevant to everyday life and struggles. Have you ever considered going into the ministry?
Hi Samantha! Aw thank you so much:) that really means a lot. I do feel like this blog is a bit of an outreach, but no, nothing serious. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love to you xox
I really enjoyed this post. Even though, sometimes, I do get sick of the rain. I live in a state were some seasons it rains a lot. In the last week we actually have had three of the four seasons in one day! We have a tin roof, and I really do enjoy the sound of the rain on the tin roof and the peepers calling for rain outside our windows! Spring time is my favorite season….everything is beautiful and green. Our trees are just starting to bud, though the pear tree is starting to bloom. We are having a nice overcast 40 degree day today…I will be ready for a bit warmer and drier weather, though as I need to look at my bees soon and see how they wintered. I love all the imagery you put in your posts. I was thinking today that there are some people who seem to know the Lord, but just don’t seem to have the joy that accompanies that knowledge. All I can figure is that these folks are accepting God’s forgiveness, but won’t forgive themselves for whatever they perceive their sins to be. I am so happy that when I read your posts I find that this doesn’t seem to be the case. The joy you have in the Lord bubbles right through (you like that water analogy there, don’t you…see how I worked that one right in there in! lol!)
Hey Charlene! Thank you so much:) oh my gosh – 3 seasons in one day!? What a day! I love spring too. Aw thank you so much much for such kind words. That really means so much. And yes! I love the water analogy! Touché! 😎 have a beautiful day! Thanks for reading xox
Good stuff: and don’t forget, anyone who has been abused – and that doesn’t just mean sex abuse, the abuse we hear a lot about at present, it means other less high-profile things – emotional abuse, being mocked, bullied, etc perhaps by school teachers … or by an abusive partner … has the shame stuck on them which is not shame at all, but as a kid or a partner they thought they were shit because of the mockery and bullying – that is something that needs cleansing away as well … itis not easy, since how can we do it? We don’t need forgiveness for having it stuck to us, yet we need it to go … complex world … prayers for the abused as well as about the bad stuff we know we have done ourselves …
Thanks Mari, you’re so right. there’s so much out there that needs that healing and cleansing rain. you bring up so much wisdom here. thanks for this powerful insight. hugs and love friend xox
Once again you have wowed me. Great analogy with the kid from Slumdog. But even better line saying God doesn’t give you a shower then send you on your way. You have reminded me of my own journey toward light years ago. And you have reminded me that I need to head in that direction again.
Hi Peter, oh gosh thank you so much. I’m so glad it resonated with you. You’re right, going back to the rain is always so good and healing. Thanks for stopping by. Hugs and love! Xox
This could not have come at a better time for me.
Thanks for the like
Hey David! Oh I’m so glad it resonated with you:) sending hugs and love xox
AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!!!
Thanks JT! So glad you liked it! Hope your Friday is going well! Have a fab weekend! Hugs and love xox
I L-O-V-E-D it, my lovely sister in Christ! Friday is going well and I hope you enjoy a fabulously blessed weekend, beloved! Mondo love and hugs via the Holy Spirit 😊
😍aw thanks again. Same to you! Enjoy this beautiful weekend! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
This was such a beautiful read. So inspiring 🙂 xxx
Aw thank you so much! I’m really glad you enjoyed it! Have a great weekend! Hugs xox
God makes all things new. What a well written reminder. I think we forget how powerful God’s Word is sometimes. I know I do.
Thank you! That’s so true. Gods word IS powerful. It’s pretty awesome. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
deeply beautiful, classy and precisely true!
Wow thank you so much! I appreciate your encouraging and kind words! Hugs and love xox
I also love the rain, sitting on my tin roofed porch listening to the patter, walking in the woods just after the rain. I am amazed every day that God has washed me clean of yesterday’s filth and grime. I love God’s rain.
Hi Larry! That sounds so lovely. I love the smell after it rains too. So clean and earthy.) yes God’s rain is great! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Wonderful post, what a powerful reminder of God’s power to transform. I have been going through some changes in my life and can see God’s hand shaking things up to lay a new foundation – on Him. I love the metaphor of the rain as a reminder of his gentle cleansing and healing. Thank you, and God Bless!
Thank you April! Amen to that-God DOES transform. What a comforting thought! So glad that He’s at work in your spirit. Hugs and love xox
Beautifully written post. Sometimes I feel like the past does cling to me like a lingering stench and I worry others will realize it’s coming from me. Great reminder that grace washes it all away. Off now to listen to Todd Agnew’s “Grace Like Rain”…
Thank you JJS. Amen to that. Grace washes all of that away. What a comforting thought. And oh my gosh I LOVE that song. So much. Enjoy! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs xox
I commend you. This post sends a really strong message. With every great thing there is always growth through the darkness. I named my newest kiddo a name that atbolizes that saying. She is the light at the end of the dark tunnel for me. I may shot struggle with an eating disorder, but I have experience trauma which has thrown me for a loop. Your post serves to reassure that all that pain and agony we go through is meant to make us who we need to become. Thanks for this. ☺😊
Thank you so much:) you’re right, there is always growth through darkness. That is so beautiful. Thank you for your encouraging words. Sending hugs and love xox
Symbolize* not sure where atbolize came from
Haha I gotcha ☺️☺️☺️
There are some great references and illustrations in here! From one who loves rain to another, that’s one thing I miss since moving to Arizona. But the sunshine makes up for it. : )
Thank you so much! Oh yes, Arizona is dry dry dry. But it’s a “dry heat.” 😉😉😉and I’m so glad you like my illustrations! I enjoy making them:) it’s a bit of a labor of love, so I appreciate your feedback! Hugs and love xox
Lovely post!!! I’m actually one of the rare breed of people who likes rain, except when I really want to speed. i not only loooooove the sound that cars make when they’re driving on a wet road. There’s a little *swish* that comes from the wipers as the rain floods the windshield that thrills my soul…
Just like you said the rain brings this deep, exhilarating clean and this clean further establishes in my mind that our God who has made this HUGE blessing called rain can do exceeding abundantly above anything we can ask or imagine. Thanks so much for sharing.
Thank you so much! I’m glad I’ve found a kindred spirit that also likes the rain:) amen to that. God is good! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Girl, you have such a way with words. Absolutely beautiful 💕
Aw thank you so much Gini. That really means a lot. Thanks for the encouragement. Hugs and Love xox
Wow you really are one of the only people I know who likes rain. As a New Yorker myself I HATE IT!!!! Give me snow over rain. http://www.runningtomilan.wordpress.com
Haha yeah. Don’t get me wrong I love snow. And going out tonight I’m gonna be wishing this rain was snow. But I love everything rain symbolizes. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love 💛💛💛
Beautiful piece. His promises are good and true. I enjoyed reading 🙂
Aw thank you so much! Amen to that. God is good! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
You are so awesome. I am so glad I found your blog, though I’ve never suffered even slightly from any kind of eating disorder. This is an incredible post, and the line about “I’m sure there are things that you can think of that keep you up at night. Eat away at your spirit. Discourage you. And riddle you with regret.” – yeah, that’s me. All over the place. And I also love rainy days. Just not EVERY day, or when we need to do something outdoors.
Hey Bernard! Aw thank you so much. I’m so glad you stopped by! Your encouraging words really mean a lot. I agree-I like rain every once and awhile:) hehe have a great weekend! Hugs and love xox
Thank you for bringing Ezekiel 36:25-26, I’ll pray on this.
May Father, the Almighty, creator of heaven and earth grant you peace.
Thank you so much for this 🙂 I really appreciate it 🙂 hugs and love xox
Thank you for bringing out Ezekiel 36:25-26 to my attention. I’ll pray on this.
May Father, the Almighty, creator of Heaven and Earth grant you peace and release from your eating disorder, Amen.
Thank you so much Elias! Yeah that’s one of my favorite verses. Thanks for the prayers. Praise God He has released me from the grips of ED! have a beautiful weekend! Hugs and love my friend! Xox
The sense of renewal that comes with rain is such a beautiful experience 🙂
Hi Tanya! You’re so right. It really is such a beautiful reminder of that. Now if only it wouldn’t make my hair frizzy 😂😋😋😋 thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
I appreciate your telling a concise coherent story interlaced with scripture to fully show the metaphor and significance of the rain in your life. Great post. I love metaphors and imagery used to remind us of God’s blessings. 🙂
Thank you so much! That really means a lot. So glad you enjoyed it. Hugs and love xox
Beautiful and nourishing to the heart, mind, and soul. Rain is beautiful and feels good. For THIS April, I wish the SNOW would go away though. Its too cold still, at least here, even when it rains. Hugs!!
Hi Migueltio! Oh gosh snow in April! Yikes! That’s crazy! I hope for warmer weather for you as well! Hugs and love xox
Thanks. xox and <3 backatcha!! Supposed to FINALLY be ushering in warmer temps (to stay) by midweek and onward. 🙂
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Truly inspirational! Best wishes to you. 😀
Aw thank you so much! That really means a lot:) thanks for stopping by. Hugs and love xox
How I love this post. Having washed me clean, Satan can’t rain past guilt into my heart again. I’m free from past dirt. Let the promised showers of blessing pour in torrents!
Aw thank you! Amen to that! We are free from our past! God is good! Thanks for stopping by. Hugs and love xox
There’s a little rain at my window tonight. Or there was, until I read your blog. I’m certain that I’m meant to read it and take the message. It does make perfect sense to me. Thank you.
Hey Harry:) sounds like it’s right on time:) thanks for sharing this. Hope you enjoy the rain! Hugs and love xox
It’s good to see you posting photos of your whole face nowadays. Nice shades 😀
Enjoyed reading your posts. Thank you…
Aw thank you so much! So glad you enjoyed it! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs xox
That’s powerful! Thank you for trusting your audience enough to write something like that. So many times we forget that we DO have His Spirit inside of us that raised Him from the grave. A good reminder! Thank you!
Thanks Peter! Amen to that. It is so comforting to know that He promised is an advocate to be with us always. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Dear you although I have not read all of your April Showers blog I do intend to read all of it at a much better time that’s more convenient than 1:30 in the morning. I need to stay awake for this one because you always take me on an emotional rollercoaster and did I mention I love it your blog that is. he may be a thespian at heart because your descriptive nature of the rain and the beauty of it can only be described as cinematic Beauty that can be captured only by the most detailed of film directors. Have a blessed day although it’s raining in New York City on your end the snow is still falling in the country which was made famous by the musical number known as This Land is Our Land. Much love and blessings I give you and peace I leave you in as you rest your head upon your pillow tonight. I want you to know that your blog certainly makes a difference keep it up I’m proud of you and I’m even more proud to call you my friend I shall call you Hannah
Ow wow 1:30 am that’s late! Cinematic indeed. Thank you so much! I appreciate it:) one thing though — my name isn’t Hannah! 😬🙈 one day I’ll share, but for now, BBB ☺️
As you wish
You just a fantastic writer it doesn’t matter what your name is. I don’t care it won’t change the fact that you’re awesome and I’m here for you when you need it… have a blessed day
Seeing as how you’re quick on the reply I’m going to throw on a Canadian Italian stereotype.Eh! Forget About It talking with hands waving in the air.
lol that’s funny
Dear friend and relative cool person. I wanted you to be the first one to know amongst my blog followers then and there is a new devotional all about Mickey Mouse.
You’re right on the money there sister. Your intellect is far beyond your youth which in layman’s terms means you’re a very smart woman. God has taught you well. I read your Coachella post and I liked it. You’re a wonderful writer but then again I always try to head to fight you because you’re my favorite blogger and you’re a the follower of Jesus. I wanted to bring something to your attention you’re right people flock to concerts like Coachella and/or they go to massive football games or the hockey playoffs but they can’t take the time to go to church some of them can’t even be bothered. I want you to understand something I really respect you and I respect your beliefs. I want you to understand the power you hold in your hands. What I mean by that is your blog is your way to minister Grace and to the Gentiles. It’s your ministry so to speak that God has given you those experiences give you the compassion so that you can reach out to people from all walks of life and from all corners of the globe which is why this Canadian boy has come across your page I see the talent in you and I see the deep-rooted passion you have for God and I’m happy to call you my friend if ever you need help on any subject I’m here for youwhat else is a pastor for student like myself supposed to do but help others
Thank you so much! Wow that is so kind of you to say. Hope you’re having a great night! Hugs xox
Anytime BBB. As for you you can just call me mr. Canada. Hahaha
Hey buddy I just thought I’d let you know that tonight is Project Bible 365 Day 26 smile and adversity it’s coming to you tonight be watching for it and have a fantastic day don’t forget to smile Lots
I also wanted to let you know that I’ll be working on another devotional called disconnecting from the world allows you to connect with God. Again I say you’re one of my favorite people and favorite bloggers. Your impact is heard your words do make a difference. I want you to feel encouraged for the work you do because it’s a good work and now I’m sure the Lord will be pleased with his servant such as you. But you’re more than just quotes they’re more than just pictures you’re more than just words he was a person exemplifies compassion. It’s that compassion that makes all the difference in the world. It’s that compassion to reach people in the most broken of places or hours so that God may give them peace among the storm. I don’t know who you are exactly but that doesn’t really matter even though I read your identity blog and it didn’t really tell me much you’re kind of keeping the journalists in the dark here. I’m not used to that sort of thing. Anyways like I said it doesn’t matter you are you are fantastic.
Thanks! Looking forward to checking it out!
I came from rainy England to semi-desert central Wa, so I miss the rain a lot, particularly in July. Your analogy will stick with me.
Thank you so much. I’m glad this resonated with you! Yeah July can be pretty brutal without rain! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
A very uplifting and inspiring message.
Thank you Junior! I appreciate it:) hugs and love! Happy Monday! Xox
I have related so much to your post. My problem being different, but the dirtiness you discussed resonates with me. So much i regret from the past that it’s hard to ignore or forgive myself for. I try so hard to keep God in my life, but I’ve gotten so far away from the old days of praying every night. Even thinking about him everyday. I hate myself for it as i know deep down this is not me.
Lately i feel I am talking to him when I need something or if I’m going through a bad time. My daughter has stated lately that there is no proof of God, therefore she doesn’t think she believes. This hit me hard as we raised her with God in our lives. I know God answers prayers at His convenience, not ours. I feel that’s how I got to my position in my career. It took years to get here. But i still need God and just don’t feel that former connection. Sorry, I know your not my therapist…..lol. Just had to share:)
Hi friend. Thank you for sharing this. I’ve definitely gone through seasons like that: when I feel distant from god. But it always helped me to remember that though I may be feeling that, God is never distant. His love is unwavering. Unconditional. That he’s always staying there with open arms, just waiting for me to run to His embrace. Sending hugs and love my friend. Xox
Thank you for that
need I say more? simply so beautiful and inspiring. wow. xx
thank you for continuing to follow my blog and like my posts, even though you’re like, mega-famous. 😀
oh, and have you shared your name on here, or am I just highly ignorant? XD
Haha no I haven’t shared it:) not yet…someday I’ll work up the courage to share my name, but until then, just BBB ☺️
Hi Amanda! Aw thank you so much:) that really means a lot. Haha oh gosh I don’t know about thaaaat! 😂🙈🙈🙈 But thank YOU for taking the time to read! Hugs and love xox
9,510 followers? I think yes. 😜 congrats!
Haha 🙈🙈🙈 thank you ☺️
Thank you for popping over to read my blog. Good luck with the book and thank you for sharing your heart so honestly and openly. I look forward to reading your posts sometime soon xx
Thank you Sharon! I appreciate it:) thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox
Great post, Beauty. “Ever flower was once a seed covered with dirt” – fantastic. I love your praising Jesus for your winning spirit. Blessings to you.
Aw thank you:) I’m glad you liked it Oneta! God is good! And you’re right-I owe Him everything! Thanks for stopping by xox
Amen ! God will save us
Yes He will! Thanks for reading! Hugs xox
Thanks for sharing your story. Your courage for dealing with an eating disorder and then blogging about this raises awareness… you never know who may read your story and draw their own courage from you… you just could save someone’s life. Thanks for liking my blog. Btw, I thought you might enjoy this video… save it for a “sunny” day! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8myYyMg1fFE
Thank you so much for this encouragement. It really means a lot. I look forward to checking it out! Hugs and love xox
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