In the last seven days, I will have been on four different airplanes. Yep. Two trips between Ohio and NYC. Three shoots. One important audition. And all in the same week.
Back about, ten months ago, when my mom had her stroke, I became quite the prayer aficionado. My prayer life was on fire. Admittedly, not so ablaze now, but back then, I had drawn so close to God. Because really, that was the only place I had to turn. I was scared, angry, anxious, exhausted, emotionally depleted, and boy did I let Him have it.
At the top of my prayer list was obviously, my mom’s stroke recovery, and my family. But there was also something else, that selfishly, I was praying for.
An oddly specific request.
I prayed that I would be able to find a way to build a life that would allow me to live in both NYC and Ohio.
And sitting on that fourth plane this week, I realized that God, had listened. To the “T.” He had answered my specific prayer.
Now, whether or not I’m supposed to live in limbo like this forever is another story, but at least for now, it’s coming to fruition. And I trust that God is going to direct my path going forward.
But the point is, I got specific.
I mean, honestly, I felt a little high maintenance and demanding praying for such a specific personal thing, but I figured, God could handle it. And He could do with it what He wanted.
Ever since I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, and have had to adopt a strict gluten/grain free diet to stay in remission, I’ve definitely had to learn how to ask for what I want. Going to restaurants with a laundry list of dietary restrictions has caused me to really master the art of specificity.
Hold the rice and extra avocado. No tortilla, sub fresh tomatoes.
You don’t get what you don’t ask for.
And coming on my sixth anniversary of my therapeutic way of eating, I guess my knack for giving specific direction has seeped into my prayer life.
I’m realizing now, that God loves to give us what we want. Sure, not always, but like any good father, He likes to delight us. He like to give His children good gifts.
So I guess this is me saying, thank you, and also challenging myself and you to really get specific. No more of the general intercessions that I am so guilty of uttering without even much hutzpah behind it…God bless mama, and papa and brother and blah blah blah. How do I want Him to bless these people? Specifically? God’s creative, but every good director likes to also hear the ideas of his actors, and take their vision into consideration.
So speak up.
And one last thing. That’s kind of exciting.
I’ve really been praying about what to do about this blog. This safe little space that’s become my cozy little corner of the internet. And I’ve realized that it’s gotten a little. too. comfortable.
So it’s time to shake things up.
So consider this a truth bomb:
I think I have mentioned before, but during my Ulcerative Colitis flare, I was on bedrest for an entire year.
After my body rejected every medication, I adopted a therapeutic way of eating that healed my body of the disease. During which, I started a recipe blog, documenting my 250 original therapeutic recipes, which ended up becoming a cookbook. And during its heyday, that blog was getting around 30,000 hits a month. But I’ve never shared it on here because, well, who I am is all over that thing.
I’ve honestly wanted to for a long time, because that year, cooking for myself, and learning how to eat was so pivotal in my recovery -not just from my ulcerative colitis – but perhaps most importantly, from the lingering traces of my anorexia. In the couple years after inpatient, my relationship with food was never normal. I was either restricting and bingeing, or only eating one meal a day, or killing my body with olympic-caliber workouts. It was not good.
But all that changed when I had to give up exercise cold turkey on bedrest, and truly began eating three meals a day.
And so why wouldn’t I share specifically what helped me kick my eating disorder out of my life once and for all?
So starting next week, I’m going be adding a third publishing day to the schedule. Right now it’s Monday/Thursday nights. Which will stay exactly as is.
But now, Wednesday will become “Whip It Up Wednesday” or perhaps “What I Ate Wednesday” (I’m still working on the name, and am open to suggestions!) where I will share one of my recipes that you see me post on Instagram all the time.
Alright people. Here’s to a specific week!
AND one other thing. As I mentioned, my prayer life has taken a hit lately. I don’t know if it’s the busyness, or the unsettled feeling in my heart, but I’ve decided that it’s time I make a change. So also starting next week, I’m going to begin a new segment on Patreon where every day, I’m going to highlight a bible verse and share a reflection on it. So if your prayer life could use a little fire under its keister, then I invite you to join me over there too. 🙂
OK folks. That’s it from me. Time to go unpack!
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