Internet Trolls

So I got called a “fatty” by someone on Instagram today.

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And now, before I go any further, this is not some lame attempt to fish for complements or whatever. It was a bogus remark by a troll on the internet. I deleted it. But not before I went to the guy’s page, andddd it was all shirtless bathroom mirror selfies with his face scribbled out. So there’s that…

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I wasn’t really hurt. I was just sorta miffed. Frankly, I was disappointed in humanity that people would seriously be so cruel. Calling a former “anorexic” fat? Who does that?

And I was going to just Shake it Off, a la, Taylor Swift, but I actually thought it was a great opportunity for reflection. That, and when the comment came in, I was writing another piece on what recovery has taught me, so I decided to practice what I was literally preaching. I needed to #AllowMyselfToFeel

Because back in the early stages of my recovery, a comment like this would have derailed me. Sent me into a tail spin. Gone all Britney Spears, circa 2007.

But not this time.

Sure, maybe I was a little stung by it. I mean, come on…no person wants to hear that they’re a “fatty,” but I rationally knew that, no…that’s not true. I’m not remotely close to being overweight.

But I felt my mind going to a place I didn’t want it to go. A place where I was concerned with how I look and my body image and being harshly critical of myself. A place that, though I am strong in my recovery, is still my one area of vulnerability to ED and his dirty tricks.

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I needed to reground myself. So I turned to the Word.

And opened up to today’s readings. And wouldn’t you know…it was exactly what I needed to hear.

Ephesians 6: 10-20. AKA, putting on the armor of God.

“In all circumstances, hold faith as a shield, to quench all the flaming arrows of the Evil One.” (aka ED)

When I read that this was today’s reading, I literally laughed out loud at just how amazing God is and how He gives us just what we need, when exactly we need it.

I mean, come on, God. You’ve outdone yourself here 🙂

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But it’s true. Everyday, whether it is in the form of a cruel comment from a cowardly troll on the internet, or a flat tire at an inopportune time, or a detour in our life plan we hadn’t anticipated…there are flaming arrows literally hurling towards us. All the time.

These things make us take our eyes off of the Truth, or worse…doubt in God’s goodness or perhaps even existence. It is a battle out there.

One that I am grateful I don’t have to face alone.

I was reminded tonight of the importance of “suiting up.”

I don’t have to tell you the climate of our culture and our political system right now. After this election, we’re all going to have to truly put on the Armor of God and stand firm in our faith and trust that God’s goodness will prevail, even if it is not reflected in the fabric of the society around us.

This comment tonight, it was a little gnat. A pesky fly that, perhaps was the canary in the the mineshaft of things to come. A little preparatory nudge from God that I can’t be lackadaisical in my faith. In my readiness. In trusting in the Truth.

This isn’t some Braveheart battle cry, I promise. War paint and kilts don’t do nothin for this figure 😉

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God can use everything for good. Even hurtful Instagram comments. He can use anything as an opportunity for growth. For teaching. For communicating His love. We just have to seek His word. Show Him where it hurts so that He can heal and help us grow.

Because I promise, He’ll answer loud and clear. We’ve just gotta seek to listen.

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367 thoughts on “Internet Trolls

  1. I love it when bible verses appear at the right moment they are need, maybe even a blog post by a particular person ;-). what upsets me is the fact that people are blind to the most obvious thing in the universe! God is all around us he is in every blade of grass and every corner of the world! but they still deny him, I must admit it frustrates me sometimes. and talk about people being blind, obviously you are no way near fat, you are possibly the most beautiful person in my life and I dont just mean those beautiful eyes and that gorgeous smile but inside you have such a heart of gold. you have such a compassionate and loving heart, such a caring human being, I mean I grin like the Cheshire cat (which funnily enough I am from Cheshire hehe 😉 ) when I know you are online and I get to talk to you. you mean so much to me far beyond the words I can say ❤ x. sending you lots of love, hugs and of course butternut squash Ice Cream ❤ x

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    1. Hey Benjamin. Me too. It’s like God is giving us a little note of encouragement through the words. Aw that’s incredibly kind of you to say. Thank you my friend. Haha I will always look at the Cheshire Cat with a soft spot in my heart now:) hehe Hugs and love xox

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      1. soft spot why? hehe, that made my heart go all mushy then thanks Caralyn haha you just gave me that cheshire cat grin again. I sent you a tweet about something personal I hope you like it xx

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  2. Beautifully said! You are an amazing voice for God. He has obviously purposed in your heart to be open with others about your recovery and journey. You are a beacon of light and hope to help other young women to heal themselves or with great prayer prevent them from even going down that road…all because you are so brave to be a voice! So thank you for answering Gods call!

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  3. The other day at Mass the priest, quite an educated guy who teaches theology, said that Paul used the realities of his time to convey spiritual exhortations that would resonate with the times. The “armor” originally being that of the occupying Romans. Breastplate, Shield… etc. All warfare images that he turns into spiritual images. Pretty clever. I couldn’t help but think it would be like using a TV show or something today to teach a spiritual lesson… symbolically, that is.

    http://lifehopeandtruth.com/change/christian-conversion/armor-of-god/breastplate-of-righteousness/

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  4. You’re looking good, and don’t worry about trolls. It’s easy to write a few words like that. He was probably either doing it for a ‘laugh’ or he dislikes you because you talk about it; maybe he thinks you are looking for attention.
    The first rule of my comedy-serious AAW-WOW (Adult Angelic Waifs – Women Of World) is that if your size 8 is getting baggy, you should think about eating more.
    It’s meant to provide real advice in a humorous way. I think Size 8 is my ideal, but much thinner starts to look unhealthy and worrying.
    Good luck, and thanks for sharing your lovely photos and nice words.

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  5. Love your posts BBB. Love the way you turned what would once have been a ‘trigger’ for you to go into a dark place, instead into an opportunity to delve deeper into your faith and see a different perspective. There will always be trolls and from my experience it takes (a long) time and reflection to intrinsically think philosophically instead of being reactionary. Big ups to you girl ! Boom! 👍🏾🌟

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  6. Amen! Wonderful words to point us to the word and to the Word. Just recently I realized that was just the passage I needed to meditate on. It seemed like that day was especially evil (“the evil day”). Yes, we need to stand firm in and through the gospel. And remain in scripture. And the thought on focus is so apt for me. I can easily get sidetracked and lose focus. Thanks.

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  7. I hate trolls and I think you’re far from being a fatty. In fact, I think you look amazing!! Continue doing what you’re doing because you are gorgeous.

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      1. You’re welcome. I mean it. Trolls are the worst! I wish we could all just get along but unfortunately, there are folks out there that get off on bringing us down. Thanks, you too! Weekends are wayyyy too short though… much love!

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      2. Can’t forget that there’s always a catch to such things especially when it comes to those candidates haha

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  8. You are beautiful! And most importantly, you are beautiful inside AND out. That person was being cruel. First of all, you are not even close to being overweight or fat… But even if you were overweight (which you’re not), how dare anyone call you a fatty?!? Curvasiously beautiful? Maybe! But ‘fatty’? How dare he?!?
    I hate that people (men in particular) think they have the right to comment on our bodies in a negative light. We are all different sizes and shapes… To say that one size is better or more beautiful over another is unjust.
    Ugh, that just frustrates me!
    I’m SO glad that you have come so far that you could let it sting… but then move on and know that you ARE beautiful and NOT a fatty at all. xoxo

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  9. So glad the troll didn’t steal that wonderful smile 😁. Of course you’re not overweight, but I’ve heard you enough to know it wouldn’t change a thing about your beauty even if you were.

    I started working out to get healthy (or convinced myself at least), but I’d lie if I said vanity has no role. I try to remind myself often that being “fat” is far from the worst thing one could be.

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    1. Aw thank you Doug. That’s kind of you to say:) yeah gotta just remember what really matters. I don’t think you’re alone there and honestly i don’t think there’s anything wrong with that, so long as you keep it in perspective:) you’re a good guy! Hugs and love xox

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  10. This is one of the best pieces you’ve written yet…Keep the Faith! You are making a difference in people lives & helping those who read this in some way. May God Bless you and continue to strengthen you. Oh, & internet trolls suck (We’ve all had to deal with their evil attacks at some point). 😉

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  11. I am so sorry someone said this to you …so happy you stayed strong through this and did not let that comment upset you. Sadly not surprised of the comment this world as gone so astray from everything that is good and positive , people are so full of hate and morals have gone astray as well . I am so sorry I have missed a lot of your articles, have just got back on here it was a busy and and a lot of reflection of a summer for myself, a lot of growth through life’s many trials. so please read my blog and I will keep up on yours. Hugs!

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    1. Thank you so much for this kind encouragement. Yeah, it’s sad … anonymity can allow for hatred to breed. I’m so glad you’ve had a summer of growth! That’s so awesome! Can’t wait to read:) Hugs and love xox

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  12. Amen. God has been teaching me something similar through my struggle with anxiety. There are days when something just wants to shake you up and then you realize, it’s time to turn to the Word again and be more firmly planted. Glad I came across this post, it was timely for me. 🙂

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  13. I’ve been trying to get to reading this post word for word and am so busy it took me a while. I am sooooo glad I took the time though. I’ve been struggling with hearing God and you reminded me that we can expect miracles, but that miracles don’t always look like a sea parting, sometimes they look like a knucklehead typing an insensitive comment followed by the exactly, perfectly timed revelation of the perfectly worded Bible verse. Who else could provide the timing and the words in such a way, only Our Father! Great post as always!

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    1. Hey friend, wow thanks for this. I’m so glad you were able to find the time to read this too and that it struck a chord with you! You’re right…Miracles come in all shapes and sizes. Thanks for stopping by:) Hugs and love xox

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  14. You know people that are hurting always try to hurt others. Misery truly does love company. I have learned to not get offended when someone makes a senseless attack like you have described. If you think of it for a moment, in order to be offended it is due to action on our part. How does one become offended? It is by “TAKING OFFENSE”. If a hurting person tries to condemn me for not fitting their disillusioned image that they THINK I should aspire to I always remember Romans 8:1 which says, “Therefore, there is NOW no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” As long as I know who I am, in Christ, I refuse to “TAKE OFFENSE”. God is love and whatever comes at you from a spirit of hate and condemnation came from the evil one. Always remember God’s desires the best for you and your life. God longs for your love. By all means when the enemy attacks gird on the whole armor of God and don’t fight the person that attacked you, love him or her. Instead, fight the devil.

    May God keep you in the palm of His love, grace, & mercy.
    P.S. This is a moment by moment promise. What time is it? NOW. What time will it be an hour from this instant? NOW.

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  15. I must share – it’s a safe place, correct? I was just asked to resign the church I pastor Sunday night. It was certainly a shock, for there was no warning given and the whole process was kept secret until the meeting in which I was told. However, I maintained my composure, thanked the men present for showing enough courage to actually speak to me (veiled sarcasm), and then prayed for them all (in a good way) before I got up to walk out. I was angry, stunned, and nervous…and then I moved on.

    For so long I’ve felt like a failure. I’ve blamed myself for so much. But once I was actually released from the position, a near-immediate sense of relief followed the initial shock. Then, it didn’t take long before waves of encouraging calls, texts, messages, emails, and even visits came flooding in from all over. To make a long story short, I was overwhelming affirmed by those looking from the outside in. They could see in me what I’d been having a hard time seeing myself. I was NOT a failure! I had been believing a lie! Now, instead of being fearful about the future, I’m hopeful and excited! God has got this, and He’s holding my family and me in His hands. So, when I start to “go there” in my mind, I’m going to remind myself of scores of others who’ve encouraged me to press on.

    I’ve been rambling, I know. I’m writing this on my phone. Sorry. It’s just I get it. I understand your post. And it was encouraging, too. 🙂

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    1. Hi Anthony, thank you for sharing this. I’m so sorry that you had to experience that. But that’s definitely a silver lining to receive which affirmation and love. And amen to that! You’re not a failure at all! God has something important in store for you that you couldn’t have done had you been holding that position. Praying for you:) massive hugs to you friend xx

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  16. I have a dad with bulimia and it was never talked about. Food addictions and eating disorders are the hardest to recover from, give yourself a moment to be proud of yourself. Keep your voice and don’t give the negative comments a second thought.

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  17. These trolls only embarrass themselves with their trite and juvenile jabs. I saw a rerun of The Cotton Club (1984) a few days ago and you remind me of a younger Diane Lane. Thus, its good that your are becoming confident, as your beauty really is self evident.

    Take care!

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  18. Hello,

    Yep, the reality of being in the End Times is that our fears, troubles, and trials amp up. You got Jesus first and that’s how you can hold it together. Have a great week,

    Gary

    On Thursday, October 27, 2016, BeautyBeyondBones wrote:

    > beautybeyondbones posted: “So I got called a “fatty” by someone on > Instagram today. And now, before I go any further, this is not some lame > attempt to fish for complements or whatever. It was a bogus remark by a > troll on the internet. I deleted it. But not before I went to the g” >

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  19. It’s awful that you were the target of someone else’s ego. That person’s comment speaks more about his values (or lack thereof) than it does about anything concerning you. I wonder if he is suffering from his own body dysmorphia and insecurity, but maybe that is just me viewing everyone else in the world through the lenses of my ED. Funny how I tend to do that.

    What IS remarkable is your faith. In my experience of ED, my symptoms manifest as an attempt to control the uncontrollable. Even now, though I am not using behaviors, my mind goes back to those automatic thoughts when I am suddenly in a position in which I feel powerless. It is a lack of faith and trust in God, and a turning to myself. I am trying to rely entirely on my own power and abilities to sustain me, protect me, create the future outcomes that *I* want and that *I* think are best… it is the same sin that led Adam and Eve to eat the fruit in the Garden. It is a clinging to my will and a resistance to surrender to God’s will for my life. My ED is really a surrogate for this deeper battle. For other people, it may be money, or career success, or material things. What really struck me in this post was that you immediately turned to prayer. What a blessing to be inspired to prayer (and to just the right prayer) in just the right moment. The Holy Spirit is truly with you! And God is working through you to share his message, too. Thank you for this reminder today! ❤️

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    1. Hi Lulu, wow thank you so much for this powerful reflection. This is so insightful. And boy can i relate. I think you’re right-we all have those things we use to get out that need to control … be it food money shopping boys whatever. But you’re so right-it is in surrendering that we find the freedom. I needed to read that tonight. Thanks you my beautiful friend. Hugs and love xox

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      1. I need to remind myself over and over. Just when I think that maybe I’ve managed to surrender up something, I find myself stuck back in fear and doubt again. I think that is just life! And God understands and is constantly helping us. Hugs back to you, my friend!

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  20. What a beautiful article that you have written! So inspirational! How wonderful that you have your faith to rely on when these arrows are coming at you! Last night I was watching a YouTube video that was so powerful and addresses all that you have been talking about. Yes, we have a fantastic God who loves us and protects us. I, too, have had so many times when He has come to my aid and sent people to my aid when I have need spiritual comfort or physical assistance. The experiences are numerous! And, they are memories to go back to when I am assaulted by the enemies that are in this world. Here is the link to the program that I watched last night. You may appreicate it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=obbbYlSQe2A

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    1. Thank you so much Delores. I really appreciate your encouraging words. God is so good in how He comforts His children. I’m so glad you know that love and comfort too. And thanks for passing that link along. I look forward to checking it out. Hugs and love xox

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  21. I think that I’ve had only one internet troll try to insult me with a rude blog comment. As you did, I investigated his website on which he claimed that he goal was insult everyone once. Delete.

    I find more folks drop by not because they are interested in what I am writing but because they hope that I will populate their site with traffic. I’ll read a few posts, leave some comments, then see if they come back. Of the couple hundred “followers” of my blog, only a hand-full, maybe 20 come by regularly. I would rather than 20 quality interactions with my regular readers than the popularity of having to answer 200 all-about-me inquiries. (Hint, you are one of those 20, see you around).
    Oscar.

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  22. Well put. Without Jesus humans don’t have a chance in a sick and twisted world. So many worldly forces are rising up because their time is coming to and end. Isn’t good to know our eternity doesn’t?

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    1. I once weighed close to 400lb then I decided to do something about it, I now weight 200lb and off diabetics and cholesterol medication. It took work, but I did it. Anyone can if just try. I am 70 years old but feel like I am 40, I started loosing at 65.

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      1. It is a powerful post that took courage, and faith to write and the armor was something I will hold on to and use during my therapy and I appreciate that more than you can imagine. Thank you.

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  23. Amen….Internet trolls are such peons. You look great girl! Glad you didn’t let what some loser thought get you down.

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  24. There will always be haters, but he was just projecting his own ugliness and trying to bring someone down with shock value. The cheapest and worst kind of attention. You handled it well. *Hugs*

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  25. “no person wants to hear that they’re a fatty,” I & my family connected with this. My brother had bulimia, years, need help from everyone, including a doctor. Right now he’s healthy for doing exercise regularly. People can be so trashy when they judge without think. Personal I think whether you are fatty, skinny or lean figure, tall, short, it’s all good. As long as you are happy, have warm kind heart and positive mind, the rest, well you can do harmonization 🙂

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