Blackmail Material :)

Merry Christmas friends!!

I hope you all had a beautiful Christmas. I had waaaay too much fun with my family, and the day got away from me!

So to make up for not posting yesterday, please enjoy this glimpse into last evening’s antics.

Yes, it’s the Spice Girls.

But no, for real, I decided to share this because ten years ago, when I was deep in the throes of my anorexia, I never thought that I would find my “spark” again. I had always been a spontaneous, fun-loving goofball with a big laugh and a big heart, and in my disease, I lost that, becoming a shell of who I was. Dead behind the eyes and even more empty in spirit.

And Christmas time was one of the hardest times.

So I wanted to share this for perhaps any girls who are going through that dark valley right now, or any loved ones who may be standing by, feeling helpless:ย I got myย goofiness back.

You will too.

This is your life to reclaim. Your fears and pain to surrender to Jesus. What a perfect time: on His birthday.

There is hope friends. And this video, in all it’s embarrassing glory, offers just that.

I love you all with all my Spice Girls-loving heart, and I’ll see you tomorrow for a recipe, and Thursday for programming as usual. ๐Ÿ™‚


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87 thoughts on “Blackmail Material :)

  1. I’ll tell you what I want, what I really, really want! Sorry, you said Spice Girls so I couldn’t resist. ๐Ÿ˜€ Anyway! I’m glad you had a Merry Christmas and that you have your spark back! It definitely shows in the video, which was very funny. Again, I am so happy for you. Have a great night!

  2. The title of your post had me fooled! But I should have known a girl as lovely as you would never let us down.

    Wow. And wow. And wow again. And thank you for being you.

  3. Well, question #1 – What happened to the rest of the clip?? This is all your loyal followers get for Christmas, a few measly seconds of you in an eggnog delirium?? This is me leading all 34K of us: WE. WANT. MORE!!! WE. WANT. MORE!!!

    #2 – Just kidding. Glad to see you spark-le! So happy you are back from hade’s gate and giving hope to so many who are still fighting for their own spark to return. Glad to say – Merry Christmas, my good friend!!

    1. hahaha, that’s all there was! it was a snapchat video…only 8 seconds ๐Ÿ™‚ eggnog delirium…you’re too funny Jeff. thanks ๐Ÿ™‚ seriously, though, thank you. I am so grateful to be back too. hope you and your family had a wonderful wonderful Christmas. sending big hugs to you all!!! xoxox

      1. We did. Low key and quiet. BTW, you might get a kick out of a little family history; I related the story of Hillary’s birth (Dec 21) in my 12/23 post. From my viewpoint anyway. Merry Christmas to you and yours!

    1. Thank you so much Jessica!! Iโ€™m so glad you stopped by tonight! Same to you ๐Ÿ™‚ hope it was lovely! Hugs and love xox

      1. It was a great Christmas. Thank you. I have been taking Spiritual classes for months, so I haven’t been blogging very much. Pretty hit and miss. Can’t wait to get caught up on your posts. ๐Ÿ™‚

      2. Thatโ€™s so great to hear! Yeah sometimes life gets in the way! Itโ€™s a good thing ๐Ÿ™‚ hehe Hugs and love xox

  4. Hey Sis’. ๐Ÿ™‚ I still love the Spice Girls as well, even after so many years later. Awesome video by the way! It made me smile because it showed me how I need to be more happy and have more fun despite whatever storm I may be in and going through. I needed to hear your message because it helped to uplift me and keep me motivated. Thank you! ๐Ÿ™‚

    1. They there friend! Oh they are so good arenโ€™t they?! Thanks ๐Ÿ™‚ glad it made ya smile. Yes – these storms are only temporary. Hang in there beautiful friend ๐Ÿ™‚ sending so much love and hugs xx

  5. Loved the video clip. Took me back to my rock and roll days so you can see that does date me. lol That was a positive glimpse of hope you shared for those who experience what you went through. You are a treasure. Happy New Year.

    1. Haha thanks Ian! Iโ€™m so glad you though so. And gosh what a kind thing to say. Same to you! Happy almost 2018! Hugs and love xox

      1. That is such a beautiful thing to say. Thank you Brian. Youโ€™ve made my morning!! Hugs and love xox

  6. Hahahahaha love the dance moves! I am assuming the eggnog was in control and at that point?๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ or one of your family secretly spiked the eggnog jut to see you jam out to spice girls? Just saying ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ Merry Christmas!
    ๐ŸŽ„ โค๏ธ

    1. Hahha thanks Izzy!! Closeโ€”tequila haha my own doing. Haha but i wouldnโ€™t put it past my fam! Haha hope you had a great Christmas! Hugs and love xox

  7. Thanks for your upbeat posts as you share your journey. I also enjoy seeing your growth and love for the Lord in the Catholic Church. Iโ€™ve been learning from some of the Catholic mystics and itโ€™s been helpful in my own journey. My wife and I went to Rome this September, and we found it to be a profoundly spiritual experience. The Vatican was amazing, but the artwork and fountains in the city also pointed us heavenward. If you havenโ€™t been there I hope you can go some day soon. I pray that you have an amazing 2018, and that the Lord fulfills the desires of your heart, Psalm 37:4,5.

    1. Thanks so much friend ๐Ÿ™‚ yes! God has been so good to me and my family. I hav e a lot to be grateful for. Wow – sounds like an amazing experience! Thanks for your prayers. Hugs and love xox

  8. Haha you goofball!! we would get on so well in real life you have no idea! you heard of Spice Girls, have you heard of bands like S Club 7 & B*witched? they were basically my childhood haha. I absolutely love the photo of you with the tree, look so happy & beautiful. hope you come to the UK soon would be so amazing if you did, sending lots of love and blessings xxxxxxxxxxx

    1. hahah thanks Benny ๐Ÿ™‚ S Cluuuuub! ๐Ÿ™‚ nice. hope you had a wonderful christmas! Hugs and love xox

  9. It seems to me that God knew exactly what you really really wanted and gave it to you it in full measure,
    The best Christmas present for all your readers, seeing you in such vibrant health and full of the joy of life
    You are a real Beauty beyond bones, the Joy God has given you Shines out I Praise God for allowing me to meet and get to know you and your story

    1. I think youโ€™re right about that! Aww thanks Graham. What a kind thing to say. I praise God for allowing our paths to cross! Very grateful for our friendship!!

  10. Haha!!! I so had loved Spice Girls when I was yea little lol!!! Great post and Merry Late Christmas lol…sorry just reading this post girlfriend lol ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’• God bless much love and hugs haha! Xx

    1. awww thanks Tammy! yoooooo I’ll tell you what I want, what I really really want! hahah God bless and have a great night! xox

      1. Haha!!! Ah wanna, ah wanna, ah wanna, ah wanna!!! Lollolol good times man lol…you’re welcome much and thanks same to you too!!!! Xxoo โœจ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

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