*What I Learned From Losing My Hair

I had a haircut today.

And sitting in that chair, as my hair dresser exclaims, “You’ve got so much hair!” I remember the long journey that has brought me here.

You see, during my anorexia, my hair fell out. I mean, literally all of it. Not just like, “Oh my hair’s thinning!” No. We’re talking…I lost about 90% of my hair, and was left with about two inches of peach fuzz.

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It’s no secret that anorexia ravages the body, mind, and spirit. Muscles deteriorate, the reproductive system shuts down, digestion and metabolism slows to a halt as the body enters starvation mode, the circulatory system limps along – making the body as cold as ice. But when you’re so dangerously malnourished and depleted, everything that’s non-essential gets left behind as your body literally does everything it can to keep your heart beating. Everything it can to keep you alive.

So, I lost my hair.

  
Now you’ve got to understand, my hair has always been my trademark. I’m just going to be honest here — a little #RealTalk: — I’ve always had a great head of hair. It’s always been thick, long, and really curly — big flowing ringlets. Not to sound like I’m bragging — but it’s distinctive — memorable. And it’s kind of a parallel of who I am: it matches my goofy, crazy, spontaneous personality. 🙂

  

 So needless to say, it was devastating to lose my hair.

There’s nothing more feminine or more attractive than female hair. It shows grace and gentleness. It’s touchable, making a woman inviting and alluring. In a word: it is beautiful.

So in losing my hair, ED made me believe that I deserved to be hideous. I felt that my outside finally matched my insides. That it was fitting that I look so ghastly and without hair, because my insides were black with ugliness of soul and spirit.

To be completely honest, I had never felt so low in my life. And it took a long time to grow out. Probably about 5-6 months when it was all said and done.

So what did I learn from it? What did I learn from that incredibly humbling and devastating experience?

I learned where my beauty came from.

  

You see, my hair fell out during my relapse. It had thinned dramatically during the onset of my anorexia, but managed to “hang on” for dear life.  It was when I relapsed that it truly all fell out.

So during the “peach fuzz” — or, growing out phase — I was at home, where I would truly recover once and for all. So during the emotionally painful time where I was mourning the loss of what I thought was my most feminine, beautiful possession, I was surrounded by a tremendous support system: my family.

And it was during this time that I really truly clung to Jesus, and chose life.

You see, losing my hair was really the nail in the coffin. I had already thought I lost everything: my friends, my college plans, the trust of my loved ones, my relationship with God, my body, my health, my confidence, my personality. But my hair was the final straw. Standing in front of the mirror — gaunt, lifeless, without passion, and without hair — I truly had nothing left. I had actually found the bottom of rock bottom.

And so I had nowhere to turn but to Jesus.

  

And so I clung to Him. I clung to His word. I clung to the Truth, and that’s what began to heal my heart and my spirit – which led to the healing of my body. It was nothing that did or didn’t do. It was Jesus doing the work for me. I just had to let Him. I just had to allow Him to love me and accept it.

But back to the hair.

I’m not going to lie: believing what I’m about to tell you didn’t happen overnight. I’m not going to tell you that 3 days after losing my hair and having to chop it off at the ears, I was gung ho in believing these things. No. It took time. And persistence. And finally, surrendering.

So without further ado:

I learned that my beauty comes from Jesus.

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My beauty comes from the fact that Jesus is living inside of my heart and shines out through me.

Now, that could sound incredibly conceited, if it wasn’t for the fact that I don’t deserve for Him to live inside of me. Seriously. I mean, I have F’d up so many times in my life, that Jesus should be running the other way in sheer horror. 

  
But He doesn’t. He’s not afraid of what I’ve done. He still loves me. And He still loves you.

And the fact that you and I are so incredibly loved and are so incredibly precious to Him, is what makes us beautiful. It’s not the clothes that we wear. It’s not the way we wear our make up or paint our nails. It’s not dependent upon the numbers on the scale, our BMI or a thigh gap. It’s not even dependent upon our hair. Our beauty comes from Christ.

When I allowed Jesus into my heart, He began to change things. He began to change me. I forgave myself of all the horrible things I did and said and lied about during my disease. He began to help me adopt full recovery. He began to feed the spirit that was dead inside of me. And in doing so, His light began to shine through me.

  

I mean, we’ve heard it 1000 times: “This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine…” I mean, that song is up there with Rebecca Black’s “Friday” in level of annoyingness.

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But it’s been repeated because it is the truth.

I learned that my beauty and my value does not come from my hair. When it’s gone, folks, it’s gone. And I had to figure out a way to go on. So Jesus helped me. Everyday. He would whisper the Truth to me: That I am Loved. That I am precious because I am His daughter. That He died for me because He is so crazy in love with me. And I am beautiful because I am His. And guess what: that truth that Jesus was telling me was the exact contradiction to all the lies and bullshit that ED tried to feed me. And so by listening to Jesus’ Truth, there was no room in my head for ED’s lies. And that’s when the true healing — the real recovery — took place.

Jesus said in John 15:4, “Remain in me and I will remain in you.”

Every day – every moment – I have to stay focused on Jesus and His truth. I have to remain in Him. And in doing so, He remains in me. He dwells in my heart. And that’s where my beauty and my worth comes from. 

  
So I guess, at the end of the day, I’m kinda glad my hair fell out. Because it was only when I had actually lost everything — hair included — that I finally said to myself, “OK, I guess there really is only one place to go from here.” And that was into Jesus’ arms.

So now, as my hair dresser complains about how cutting my hair takes twice as long as her other clients due to the volume and sheer amount of hair I have, I just smile and think about how it has come full circle.

My hair is a sign of victory. A sign of victory over the bodily devastation from anorexia, yes. But even more so than that, it’s a victory in learning where my beauty comes from. Where my worth comes from. A victory in knowing who I am in Christ.

My hair is not my most prized possession: my heart is. 

  

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224 thoughts on “*What I Learned From Losing My Hair

  1. I really like reading your blogs. You are an amazing writer. I have recently started getting help after battling from a mental illness for a long time. Reading your blogs really helps me. They give me hope that I will be able to overcome my battle and get better. Thank you for sharing your story. It must have taken much courage and strength 🙂 -Olivia

    1. Thank you Olivia. Wow that is so kind of you to say. I’m so glad that you’re on the road to recovery and that my words resonate with you. Sending so much love and hugs xox

  2. That was absolutely honest and beautiful. It takes some times like that to realize what really matters, and like you, I found out that Jesus is my anchor, my heart, my everything. Thank you for sharing your real beauty with us.

  3. Just a “thank you” for continuing to visit my blog. On days when I think I’m the only one who ever reads it, it’s nice to see you there 🙂 Appreciate your presence and enjoy reading your work.

  4. My hair is currently falling out, by the handful every day. It is certainly a combination of eating poorly (often a lack thereof), iron deficiency and seasonal changes. But whereas it never use to bother me as such in the past, it does now. I have curly, untamed hair. The type where you wake up in the morning and your bed hair is your best commodity. I am now MUCH older than when I suffered from anorexia and I feel like I don’t have many years of beauty left. I know it sounds vain, because I am a firm believer in other women’s natural beauty but I truly struggle to see beyond this physical change. So your words “My hair is not my most prized possession: my heart is” is encouraging. Thank you!

    1. Hi friend, thank you so much for sharing this. I’m sorry you’re going through this. It does not sound vain at all. I’m sending you a big hug. I’m glad you found this encouraging. Sending so much love. You are a gift. Xox

      1. I was making fun of myself with the Greek thing. So happy for you that with the Lord’s help you were able to recover and be such an encouragement to others. Our culture is sick and treats women with no dignity. Your approach is very refreshing and great to see

  5. Beauty! This article took me back to the pain of your earliest posts; back to that fatherly thing, wanting to comfort you. Of course, you have Jesus’ comfort! That’s the best, most important comfort! Remember the analogy from awhile back; your are a gorgeous Tiffany lamp, but we only see that artistry when the Light inside is on. How great that you can show that light and be such a blessing to so many!

    1. Hi Jeffrey, thank you so much. You always have such kind things to say ☺️ I absolutely love that analogy. So true. The light within is what brings out the artistry. I’m going to be reflecting on that for the rest of the evening. Hope you have a great night! Hugs xox

  6. Often when we are starving ourselves it is because we are starving of Spirit. Our hair is our covering, a form of glory. I guess there is a point where we are so starved of Spirit our glory is lost as well.
    This is truly an inspiring piece. I hope more read it that can be truly helped by it, and led in the direction you were taken. There is only one true Way.

  7. Another wonderful post. Your words resonate with so many people – a far reach. I shared your story and your writing in my message this Sunday – it was a perfect illustration for the lectionary text! It will be a day or so before the message is posted, but check it out if you get the chance. Blessings!

  8. I really like this particular blog. I know Jesus to some degree but as I struggle with something that I try and “fix” myself it makes me feel that I am unfit for acceptance to some degree. I know in my knower that I am welcome and loved but my heart draws me away until the problem is dealt with. Your story reminded me that He is the one who frees us from issues and that our stuff needs to be laid at His feet. Great story. If He was that good to you then He will be that good to me and anyone else who comes to Him. Your statement “that I finally said to myself, “OK, I guess there really is only one place to go from here.” And that was into Jesus’ arms.” Oh, this statement of truth stabbed me. I feel like I am quicksand but I was sure I could get myself out. So good to be on your side of the trouble than having the process staring right in front of me. Bless you and your ability to express yourself.

    1. Thank you so much for this reflection. It is definitely scary to face those thing head on. And your description of quicksand is so spot on. That’s exactly how it was. And honestly, I tried and tried to fix it myself but the truth is I couldn’t. Do it myself. There really was only one place to turn. I am so grateful to Him for saving me from myself. I want to encourage you, friend. I believe in you. You ARE worthy of freedom and love. Sending a big big hug. Thanks for reading xoxox

  9. many parallels here with what I went through. except the long hair. mine has always been short. but i do relate to having lost everything before crying out to Jesus…

    1. Hi Lizzy. Thank you for sharing this. What a comfort to know that Jesus is always listening and wanting to comfort us. The hardest thing for me was simply letting him. God is good. Thanks for reading❤️ hugs and love xox

  10. I must admit that at times your posts hit so close to home I choose to read all the comments before I share here. Unlike my own blog, yours is about the things I still can’t let go of for my readers.
    I still have patches where my hair hasn’t grown back, though it’s long and I love it. I still have issues with my heart and liver, because I was so ravaged by anorexia prior to my blessing of an unexpected pregnancy. I never told my ob/gyn about my eating disorder. Instead I ate until I was sick, four times a day at least, and in the middle of the night I would sit on my kitchen floor afraid of what I was doing to my child. I still gained weight, a lot, but my baby was only a few weeks early. I was however, not okay. My heart had stopped beating properly and was soon readmitted. I never told a soul why, not even the dr who cared for me. They said it was undiagnosed hellp syndrome.
    Fast forward to just one year after my son was born I still get winded on the stairs, my liver hurts at times, and I struggle with those spots in the front of my head where hair prefers not to grow…but I’m alive and God absolutely knew I couldn’t do it for me, so he sent an angel-my son Logan.
    I just want you to know that God led me here, to find you and your words of honesty, of love and of Jesus. Just knowing I’m not alone, and that my struggles are not in my head has been a blessing to me and my family that I cannot quantify. For the last two weeks I have stopped counting my bites, my rest time, my wrist size. I have eaten three times a day. Though it is so painful at times, I imagine the crown of thorns Jesus wore and remind myself of the suffering he chose so that I might be free of this monster we call ED. Three times a day. I sit with my baby and I watch him eat with joy and with laughter.
    You may never meet those who’s lives you’ve changed my love, but on your hardest days know God used you to help me. To Help my children have a mother for however long I’m blessed to be here.
    I love you. Thank you. XOX💜

    1. Hi friend. Wow. I’m reading this as I’m turning in for the night and just wow. I am falling asleep with such a warm heart tonight. Because of you. And your kind and affirming words. Thank you. You have no idea how much it means that this little blog has resonated with you. I am cheering for you. God is so so good. And you’re right-Logan is an absolute blessing. An angel sent to you. I am so happy for you that you were able to have children. Sadly that is uncertain for me. But God will provide. I trust that. Anywho, thank you again friend. I love you too! Sending so much love and hugs to you and your family. Keep fighting warrior. Your courage is inspiring. Xooxox

      1. Do trust God! Always! I have seen him work miracles…both you and I are just a few of his many wonders. I believe in the power of prayer, but also know the impatience and pain that comes with with being human. It is always in His timing, perfect timing. Be strong and know Gods plan is only to prosper you. He wants all things for you.
        I was told when I was a teenager after I was sexually assaulted that I may not be able to have children. I now have 5 of my own, and two from my husband’s previous marriage. Though they are very spread out in years, it happened and with each child I knew that I knew that I knew it was by Gods grace. He knows your beautiful hearts desires, and as you say ‘cling’ to that hope.💜💜💜

  11. You have truly hit on the key to it all: trust in Jesus. When my father was dying of cancer, his hair fell out. He had a regal, silvery mane. “You think my hair will ever grow back?” he asked one day. I assured him that it would. God called him home before that could happen. Dad clung to his Catholic faith and it carried him into eternity. He gave it all to Christ, and our Blessed Lord gave him the crown of righteousness. I picture him now in Heaven with his trademark head of hair radiant with light.

    For someone so young, you have amassed great wisdom. That comes from suffering. Look at what Christ is drawing out from your suffering! You are helping many people here and now, but also for eternity. Keep writing, my dear, keep writing!

    1. Hi Joe! Thank you so much for this reflection. Your father sounds like an incredible human being. thank you for your kind and encouraging words. It means the world. Sending hugs and love xox

  12. This post is amazing: your honesty and simplicity while writing it make it so. It has definitely be inspiring to read this and there are many points which make me think that I should reconsider some of my priorities. Thank you for sharing, you really made my day.

  13. Thank you for writing this beautiful post. It is so encouraging that from your pain you are pointing many people to Jesus. Thank you for reminding us that when we hit rock bottom, Jesus is there. Love Jane xxx

    1. Hi Jane! Thank you for such kind words. God is good. He saved my life so I can’t help but sing his praise! Amen to that. He IS there. Thanks for stopping by hugs and love xox

  14. What a beautiful post. It’s so wonderful to know that after going through so much, by placing your faith in Jesus you were healed and then blessed so abundantly! You inspire us to be inspired by Christ. Thank you!

  15. Thanks for your reflection. What you say is so important. Like the colored glass in a stain glass window, each of us has a beauty created by God to let God’s light and love shine through. And together we make a beautiful image for all to see.

  16. Into Jesus’ arms, what a great place to have gone to when you felt like this. I might not understand your pain fully but Jesus knows. The enemy will feed you lies and if you start believing them they will start to affect you and manifest in all sorts of horrible ways physically and emotionally. B
    ut the enemy has no power over you because Jesus has paid the price for your life. Bless your hair and yourself everyday because God gave them to you. God bless.

  17. Really good. We all really need to know these truths deep in our hearts. It’s not just head knowledge that God loves me – it is truly transforming.

    1. Thank you so much! You’re right. It took a long time for that “head knowledge” that God loves me to actually really sink in. But when it did–you’re right — transformative. Thanks for stopping by! hugs and love xox

  18. What a struggle. You are courageous to share your life and victory. I have a friend who lost all her hair in an accident and also learned that her beauty and identity is in Jesus. Keep sharing. By the amount of comments you are getting I would say you are touching the hearts if many people!

  19. Hi BeautyBeyondBones, a very touching, honest, and heartfelt blog. Staying focused on Jesus is most important, and has obviously helped you regain your beauty outwardly and within yourself. When Jesus was walking on the sea to meet up with his disciples and Peter asked to join him, Peter started walking on the waters as well. Peter began to sink because of losing faith due to the storm. The thing is, that storm was going on the whole time, even before Peter got out of the boat. The reason Peter began to lose faith and sink was because he removed his eyes off of Jesus and started looking at the storm. Matthew 14:23-31. Keep doing what is right Beauty, stay focused on Jesus, and please keep your blogs coming, for they are encouraging to all that read them. 🙂

    1. Thank you for this wonderful encouragement. It means so much. What a powerful scripture. You’re right-Peter took his eyes off of Jesus, and that’s where the trouble began. Thanks for sharing that. Sending hugs and love xox

  20. Thank you for putting back my perspective. It can get skewed so easily in this world. But your words remind us to keep Christ in our hearts. Many blessings, my friend.

  21. I am so moved by this! I have struggled with body image issues and this hits so close to home! I went the opposite direction from anorexia and binge ate my way through college. I needed this! Today and every day. Bless you for sharing your struggle!

    1. Thank you so much for this reflection. I’m so glad this resonated with you. I’m sorry that we share that past but I’m so glad that we both have found freedom! Sending hugs and love xox

  22. Hey thanks so much for this post. I can’t relate to the struggle with ED But I can relate to needing to find my beauty in God. I was really impacted by your point that our beauty is not our own. When I read that I know that’s something I need to hold on to. I’m so glad that you’ve found your freedom. God bless.

  23. Hair is beautiful but its WHERE we WEAR our hair that brings out that beauty.
    It will be beautiful once again if/when you grow it back but its all that makes up that head below it that is so beautiful; that brain, those eyes, the smile, the whole face that is in place; projecting beauty that this world is to embrace. Down from there, comes your heart, the source of the beauty and not just a part. You are beautiful from head to toe, and all that’s in between.

  24. Your story is so compelling and such a testimony for strength through Christ. Thank you for being willing to look at these old wounds and share your healing with us.

  25. You know as I was reading this, all I could think was, “What a wonderful Saint of God, you are.” This dear friend is what “Saints” do, by “word of their testimony.” God has blessed you in ways, which only you can share. I am so thankful that you do. Love and God Bless, SR

  26. Great post 🙂 I think every reader here is happy that your hair grew back when you fully recovered from anorexia. However, that is remarkable that you are able to sort of turn that negative on its head by realizing that your heart is the most beautiful part of yourself and hair is secondary. Some people do not see it that way so that is another big achievement on your part. Anyway, keep up the great work as always 🙂

  27. To quote one of your followers, RossChellis “Your words resonate with so many people – a far reach. I shared your story and your writing in my message this Sunday – it was a perfect illustration for the lectionary text!”

    I’m so glad that your voice / your vital message is emanating outward.

    You blog from your heart and to quote your words about Christ… “He dwells in my heart.” I can see the strong connection.

    1. Oh my gosh wow! Thank you so much. I’m absolutely honored that you would share my story! I’m glad that it resonated with you. God is good and to Him be the glory! Thanks for reading! Hugs and love xox

      1. I am deeply sorry that, in my quoting one of your followers, I have misled you. I would never want to do that! I wish those quotation marks were not so small. I could only wish to have RossChellis’ Sunday following.

        On some positive notes… I do have all the wonderful people I have met here at WordPress… and feel honored to have met you.

        And I am trying to raise awareness re eating disorders, have posted a blog on this subject and would love to get your input. You being a survivor, you have a perspective, which I don’t. Visit my webpage… this blog is just a short scroll down.

        Again… from the bottom of my heart… I apologize.

        PS ~ If you want to delete our conversation I won’t be offended in the least.

      2. Hi Tom! Oh gosh, I’m so sorry to have mixed that up! 🙈 ah I’m so embarrassed. I read the comment quickly when I was getting ready for a huge audition this morning, so I’m afraid I missed the end of the quotes! Eek! But thank you:) I’ll definitely check out your blog. What a noble thing to be doing. Awareness definitely is important! Hugs and love xox

  28. Gosh! Trust me, just reading that I could feel pain. You have won the battle having been through the turmoils of anorexia, but yet it is scary for a woman to even imagine her hair thinning. But the lessons of the battle are priceless. Thanks for sharing. This kind of a post will also help aging men and women to accept gracefully the ravagrs of time and illness.

  29. Love it! Too many of us run around worrying that God is going to move away from us if we don’t do it “right”. Who does it “right”? I, with you, have f’d up a lot…..and God remains there, my ever present presence when everyone else runs away. Glad your hair is back! I get it….cutting your hair too short sometimes can be devastating enough; but to lose it all…… There is a lesson in everything. You are so very beautiful……..with or without hair!!!

  30. Wow what a powerful testimony. You are so right your heart is you prized possession. And by not listening or taking to heart the lies you are releasing your heart to the love, mercy and compassion of God the Father. I want to give you such a huge hug my lovely lady. What a jewel you are in God’s crown.

    1. Thank you so much Margaret:) I do appreciate your encouraging words! You’ve absolutely brought a smile to my face this afternoon. Big hugs to you as well! Have a great day! Xox

  31. Spot on. Christ in you the hope of glory, there is nothing more beautiful than a heart fully alive and revelling in him! That reminds me of the song that goes something like:

    Beautiful, Beautiful, Jesus is Beautiful / And Jesus makes Beautiful / Things of my life / Carefully, touching me / Causing my eyes to see / That Jesus makes Beautiful / Things of my life

    He IS beautiful, and when you stand in the light of his beauty, made in the image of his beauty, heaven meets earth, and he lets you see what he did in your life and it’s just like BOOM he did that for me and he’s soooooo beautiful!!

    Wonderful post, B, and encouraging (: thanks as always for sharing another part of your journey with us (:

    1. Thanks so much Carson:) such a kind note of encouragement. Wow what a powerful song. Those lyrics really hit me in the heart! Hope you’re having s beautiful week. Sending massive hugs and love my friend xox

    1. hey again friend:) just wanted to tell you how much i appreciate you taking the time to read my stuff this afternoon:) you’re a great friend! have a great rest of your day! hugs and love xoxo

  32. Hi, BBB: My Mother used to call me “Medusa” because of my snake-like head of curls – which by the way I inherited from her. It was my trademark also. I now keep it short, still full of curls, but it wasn’t the hair that defined me, and it still doesn’t. That’s why I’m also keeping my “natural highlights.” Yes, the GRAY strands! I resonate from that which I hold dear within. I love your reflections. Cheers to you!

  33. Thank you for your beautiful writing. I can so relate to what you were talking about. My hair was my trademark too and it was taken away when I went through chemo. It was such a wake up call for me. You are so right – our beauty is in Christ! And He brings beautiful things from the ashes. My writing came as a result of my cancer journey. You and I are sisters who know how to appreciate having hair at all. 🙂 Blessings.

  34. Reblogged this on Joan Sanusi and commented:
    Absolutely comforting. My beauty and joy is not dependent on my physical attribute and the circumstances of my life but on the fact that Jesus Christ loves me.

  35. This was beautiful. And so absolutely true! After having my daughter my hair has been a hot mess and I have been so self conscious of it. But you are absolutely right, and for that I thank you for sharing it with us.

  36. This is the best recovery website I have ever had the pleasure of encountering. You speak from your heart and soul, and you have the most beautiful mindset of knowing that there are greater forces out there, and we have to put our trust in them. Somehow that gives us all the control and happiness in the world. Thank you for such a gorgeous and heartfelt post. and no- you did not sound conceited or like you were bragging when you spoke about your hair. You came across as proud, and that is one thing you definitely should be. What a hard journey you have taken! A rewarding one at that 🙂 Have a beautiful Saturday.

  37. I love your testimony! I struggled with an ED in high school and it’s amazing how God can teach you what true beauty is….it’s SO far from what I had believed it to be growing up. I’m so glad you have put hope out there for so many to read! Love your blog!

    1. Hi Jami! Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m sorry that we have that history in common, but praise God that we’ve both found freedom in Him! Amen to true beauty! Thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love my friend xox

  38. Your story is beautiful & compelling at the same time. The fact that Jesus is just waiting for us to say, “I need you, help me”, and then He’s right there in a nano second! God is SO good! Thank you for sharing your story. To me its obvious you were chosen to write this blog. I have a feeling many people with ED will heal because of your story. May The Lord continue to bless you!!

  39. A kindred spirit! Thank you for your honesty! Mostly thank you for shining your light! We have all struggled with different mountains to overcome, but if we have lived, we have struggled! However, the darkness and those who work in it, tremble when we come into the light and realize who we are in Christ!! Praising Jesus for and with you!! MORE than Conquerors!

    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my posts this evening! It means so much. 🙂 amen to that! God is so good and so powerful! I am forever grateful to Him for all the work he’s done in my life! Hugs and love to you friend! Xox

  40. Thank you for being so open and honest. Thank you for sharing your story with us. And thank you for spreading the news about the healing power found in the pure love of God/Jesus!!!!!

      1. You’re very welcome , and I am just saying the truth haha 😊 And I am glad I found out about your blog , I became your new reader !

  41. Thank you for this beautifully honest post. It’s so reassuring to know that I’m not alone and to hear such wise words; you’ve really helped me to put my hair loss into perspective. It does still bother me though… I have had anorexia for around 8 years but it’s only in the last 2 that my hair has really thinned out. I’m gradually restoring my weight now but my hair still isn’t regrowing. Did you find yours started to regrow only once you’d reached a healthy body weight? x

    1. Thanks Joanne, I’m so sorry that you can relate on such a personal level. It did…it began to grow back once I was stable and had been eating calorically sufficient meals consistently for several months. I know that is probably not the most encouraging, but that’s what my experience was. Hang in there, friend. I believe in you, and you’ve already done the most important thing — you’ve chosen freedom, and that is so inspiring. Know that I am cheering you on in your recovery. Big hugs to you friend xoxoxoxo

      1. Thank you for your reply – I really appreciate your honesty. Although it’s frustrating waiting for my body to heal itself, it’s another reminder that patience and persistence are so important in recovery. Anyway, I’ll take this opportunity to say a more general *thank you* for your wonderful blog. Words can’t describe how much it’s helped me over the past few months and I’m so glad I came across it. Much love x

  42. I love your post and story! I would love for you to check out my blog and new posts. Follow me to keep up on my journey as I will yours! 🙂

  43. “My hair is not my most prized possession: my heart is. ”

    Sure is swettie, Men can’t see the true beauty of you: your Heart is the most important part of you, beautiful women. But something called Rapture is coming and soon this blindness will stop. God bless you, thanks for sharing your hurt feelings. 🙂

  44. This was so beautiful! Your post and all the comments. You give hope to those of us who’s EDs were never of the right kind to be diagnosed or recognized. But I still remember the panic and terror. And I can identify with the hair struggles! I lost more than half of my hair and it was agony losing the one thing about myself that I always loved. Thank you for the encouragement!

    1. thank you so much Greta! what a kind thing to say. I’m sorry you can so personally relate, but I’m so glad we’re both living in freedom! Hugs and love xox

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