I love Drake.
And sometimes, a girl’s just gotta have a dance party like it’s 1999 to some Hotline Bling and bust out my grandpa dance 🙂
But I was listening to Spotify this afternoon, and Drake is all over the Top 40’s station.
And yes, I listen to Top 40’s….because I am *cool.*
But there’s a lyric in one of his songs that goes like this:
“I gotta talk to God even though he isn’t near me/Based on what I got it’s hard to think he don’t hear me”
And I literally stopped on the street, and made a note of it. And here’s why:
This little stanza illustrates what I personally believe is a big problem with how we view the Father.
I think a lot of people think God is some distant enigma that acts as a vending machine, and who makes bad things happen to bad people and good things happen to His “favorites.”
That could not be further from the truth.
I think a lot of times, we can take inventory of our lives and judge, based upon our circumstances, where we stand in God’s favor.
Things are going right, God is smiling on me. Things are going to pot, well, I must have done something to really piss off the Guy Upstairs.
Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.
Looking back at the course my life has taken thus far in my 20-something years on this earth, I have definitely “walked through the valley,” which is simply just “church speak” for I’ve done a lot of crapola.
But it’s true. I don’t need to rehash it, but with anorexia comes a lot of other baggage: lying, manipulation, deceit, vanity, rage, idolization of things other than God, jealousy and the biggie: pride.
Quite the laundry list.
It wasn’t when everything was peachy keen, going my way, rolling merrily along.
It was in the times of desperation where I had no where else to turn, no other lifeline to rely on, no other source of strength or hope.
That was when I learned of His love. Of His goodness. Of His mercy.
I learned that He is always with me, and hears my cries.
Here’s the thing I think we often forget about that verse: “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me. Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.” Psalm 23:4
Some translations say “the darkest valley.” Which I think is even more powerful.
Because think about when we were little: we’d play the trust game with our friends where we’d be blindfolded and our friends would lead us around the backyard or basement.
That’s what God is doing here. He is guiding us. With His rod and staff. That’s how close He is to us. We are literally under His arm, right next to His shepherd’s staff.
But sometimes, God allows us to go through things in order for us to realize just how much He loves us…and to rely on that love.
So Drake, I love ya, but you’re just flat out wrong on that one.
God is near. So near, we can feel His shepherd’s staff as He guides us through the dark valley. And His love isn’t shown by ‘what we got,’ but rather, the true gift ‘we got’ on the Cross.
Anywho. Just a little reflection. If you need me, I’ll be jammin’ to Hotline Bling *puts on sunglasses and drops mic*