Auditioning for The Bachelor?

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Well The Bachelor auditions were today.

And before you fall out of your chair, no I didn’t go.


However, I’m not gonna lie, I was thisclose. 

I even showered for the occasion…which…let’s just say, is a big deal 😉


hah JK JK #HygieneIsImportant

My two best friends in the world really wanted me to audition. And for a while, I had committed to the idea of doing it. Because I feel like, if I’m ever going to find love, I’m gonna have to throw myself into a situation where that’s the only option.

Maybe that’s a little pessimistic. But, that’s kinda how I’m feeling right now. A pathetic mix of desperation and hopeless surrender.

But yeah, after trying on a couple different outfits and Google Maps-ing the subway directions to the audition location, I decided that I don’t want to date a guy who could justify dating 30 other girls.

I’ve worked too hard on my self worth to go through that dumpster fire of depreciation.


Anywho. If you can’t tell from my…jubilant candor…I’m back in New York. First night actually. I just flew in this morning. And let’s just say, the four walls of my studio apartment seem closer than ever before. I’m going to be honest – my heart feels a bit caged in. And I don’t know if that’s a repercussion of denying myself the opportunity to meet a perfectly chiseled Ken doll on reality TV, or the fact that my heart is yearning for Ohio, but I’m gonna go out on a limb and say it’s the latter.

Since my mom’s stroke back in December, I have been in full-time “side-kick” mode. By her side, enjoying time together literally from eyes open in the morning to eyes closed at night.

It’s been a beautiful, strengthening, healing and challenging time where I’ve grown in admiration and love and friendship with my hero: my mom.

And my dad, too. He is our rock and the best man I know, I always feel badly I don’t talk more about him on here, but he’s a pretty private gentleman.

But going from 0 to 60, with literally zero free time to now living by myself in a studio apartment, let’s just say it’s a bit of a shock.

The silence is deafening. Thank goodness for Spotify, amIrite?


But if there’s one thing that has been illuminated from this, it’s that I love taking care of other people.

I love living the day-to-day with people I love.

And I realized just how much I cannot wait to take care of my future husband, whomever he may be.

I guess that’s why I thought about auditioning for The Bachelor – I’d like the abridged version of dating…let’s just zip through it and get married already.

*sigh*

I just have to trust in God’s timing.

Which, I know, is kind of a broken record on here. But it’s so true. And frankly, it’s what I’m clinging onto for dear life.

God has brought me through so much. He brought me out of the depths of anorexia. Healed me from a severe case of Ulcerative Colitis. And has carried me through this terrifying season during my mom’s stroke this year.

God is not finished with me.

He didn’t bring me through all of that to just abandon me.

I’ve got to trust that the best is yet to come. I’ve got to trust that all of this has been shaping my heart. Preparing my spirit to be ready to love, ready to open up to someone, ready to live.

What’s that saying? — If God leads you to it, He’ll see you through it??

Something like that.

Well, He’s proved that in my life. Not always the most comfortable or pleasant of times, but always worth it in the end.

Part of me wonders what part of my heart still needs transforming before God brings my future husband into my life. Hmm…sounds like I just found what I need to start praying for.

Lastly, I’ve received some really powerful questions about eating disorders and recovery. I’ll be taking questions up until Sunday, so send them in to beautybeyondbones@yahoo.com and I’ll answer them in next week’s post (as a non-professional, of course).

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357 thoughts on “Auditioning for The Bachelor?”

  1. You don’t need SMUT when you have smarts. You don’t need to prove anything to the world about Love. The love of God is vastly different from the love of the world. Read Galatians 5 and 1 Corinthians 13 along with Proverbs 31. My friend it is okay not to have all the answers to life’s important questions. If we did there would be no need to seek God. I have a thought. Allow some moments of your time. I believe you and I are in the same walk way just wearing different shoes. I too sometimes question when the Big L is going to happen. It is okay to have honest questions for God. I am not a scholar in any means nor do I pretend to be. I am made a dirt and you’re made of ribs. Remember this when pondering relationships don’t look to shows like the Young and The Restless. Seek God. I believe you will find the person God chooses for you in his time. Until that time be satisfied in serving Christ first. Even though you are very pretty God would not want his children exposed on a television show like that. Where is the Lord has created Love the enemy has craved for men and women to lust after one another. Love and Lust if you understand the different you are not only beautiful but also brilliant as well. I have had the pleasure of following your blog for the past 2 years. I have discovered something about you that not many have figured out. You’re pretty in pictures, kind in actions, sometimes gentle in word like we all are. However there is something more to you. The beauty of a woman’s heart outweighs personal image or how a camera sees you. The beauty of your heart is shown because you wish to seek and the serve the Lord.

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  2. PS: I have not forgotten about the world of Blogging it is just at this time I have chosen to step away from blogging for a bit so I can spend some more time with the Lord. I am seeking to see the Lord’s will for my life and in the process I want to seek what is it to have the heart of God.

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  3. Girl! I love it! He is absolutely shaping you into the woman your husband will be blessed to have. God is at work in every area of our lives- even the parts we’d like to skip through! God bless you as he continues to mold you into who he has for you to be:)

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    1. oh my gosh, thank you so much for this beautiful comment! i think you’re right – God is in control, and has everything in place for us in the proper time. I just have to be patient! (which i am not good at! haha ) big hugs to you xox

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  4. Before you can be with someone, you have to learn how to be on your own. That includes happiness. A lot of people believe that, in order for them to be happy, they need to be married. But those may not be God’s plans for everybody. Once you have accepted that, then it may happen. I was not looking to get married when I met my husband. I was living my life in the knowledge that it was possible that God might have not had that in His plans for me. And I was perfectly fine with the idea if never getting married because I trusted that God had perhaps better plans for me up His sleeve than marriage. And that’s when I met my husband, when I was perfectly fine with the idea of a life without a husband. You already know a bit about my own story. It didn’t turn out the way I would have liked. But… Maybe this failed marriage it is in fact the path to a much better plan. After what has been happening in my life lately, I am coming to terms with that idea. I am starting to believe that God had a strange way of leading me to what I hope will be a much better plan. I thank you for having post this because it reminded me of how I used to feel about me and the possibility of not getting married. There are days when I would wish I never met my husband. But my daughter was born out of that failed relationship and she might have never existed if we hadn’t gotten married. Maybe that was the whole purpose: So my daughter would be born. Maybe I was His instrument to bring her to this world. And I think He’s acting through her. I truly do. I think He is bringing much-needed healing and growing in my life through this marriage and my daughter. Anyway, we can all have incredible lives with or without a partner. Sometimes we can even love more when we do not have that commitment because we are free to take on bigger commitments just for not having that one (marriage.) Either way, you are an extraordinary person and I have a feeling that the best is yet to come for you, with or without a partner. Just trust Him that He will take care of you and provide for you. I’m learning this in a very hard way. ♡

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    1. Thanks, Maria, for this thoughtful response. you’re so right about that – we have to learn how to be on our own. and what a beautiful way to look at your past – i think you’re right – that marriage brought you your daughter, and the gift of life is precisely that: a gift. That is such a beautiful perspective. thanks for sharing it with me. big hugs to you and your daughter 🙂 x

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  5. You know, I was in a position similar to yours about 5 years ago or so. I was praying so hard to find someone that I could trust and be myself with. All I was meeting were jerks and shallow men. Low and behold, I met a guy online in a game, we became friends and then we started texting, then facebooking. We talked every day. We video messaged a lot. Then he flew me down to Ga. where he was stationed in the Army and we spent the best 8 days ever together and now we are married and have 2 amazing kids! Love finds you in the most unexpected ways when you are the most unprepared and when you are least looking for it. God sure answered my prayers! Hang in there!!

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  6. Young lady, I am surprised that you are not married. I am old fashioned that way. But when the time comes you will know. Just remember, it’s that marriage, not the wedding, that is important.

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  7. C’mon, now girlfriend! Is that your re-FRIG-erator? You gotta take some of that down, lady, if you’re gonna make room for a photo of your hubby-to-be!

    That’s a little off-color, maybe, but: if the present is too full, how is the future ever going to find us? To become connected as deeply as a marriage requires, we have to first be empty. We have to stop thinking, stop interpreting, just feel what our bodies, hearts and souls are telling us.

    Do you trust them, Caralyn? In particular, do you trust your body?

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    1. hahah oh my gosh Brian, you’re so right! i’ve gotta find room for him on there! But then…maybe he’s already on there and I just don’t know? 🙂 🙂 🙂 hahah Seriously thought, thank you for this powerful perspective. big hugs to you xox

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  8. I am proud of you! You have morals and stick to them and you are patient. Good things come to those who wait! It’s so heart-warming that you are closer to your mother; my mother is my bestie 🙂

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  9. My advice would be to drop the whole god thing. Tough for any man to compete with or be approved by what is in my humble opinion a fictional father figure. But hey, I was recently called atheistically biased by some random on Facebook. So best of luck either way. Love is the rarest and most precious of things.

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  12. Caralyn I have a strong sense that God has led you through some challenging times to reach a point where you know and love yourself for who you are. So now you are more than ready to experience the bright and wonderful future God has planned for you with the man of your dreams. Exciting times!

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  13. Dating has to be more fun without television cameras following every moment. Unless you’re meant to marry a cameraman? 🙂

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  14. Beautiful post by a beautiful person. God will send the right person at the right time. God bless you and your post really encourage me x

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  17. I want to start off by saying how beautiful you are inside and outside. It shows from your writing and connection to so many people. I admire your desire to go on the Bachelor but I believe if it’s God’s desire for your life, he will send you someone even more special than the illusions they portray on television. Patience is a virtue and when his timing is right, things in your life will change overnight. Marriage is a beautiful thing if that’s what you want but it’s not everything. The jouuney you are on is exactly where you need to be right now. Don’t look to far into the future. Let today take care of today and tomorrows will certainly shine better your way. Keep building yourself up spiritually and things will progress in your life naturally. Believe and keep God close to your heart and he will continue to direct your path😊.

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    2. oh my gosh thank you so much Pat. What an incredibly generous and kind comment. I think you’re so right – God has the right man picked out for me. i don’t have to go on reality TV to find him. God will take care of me. Thanks for this beautiful perspective. Yes – God will direct it! big hugs to you xox

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  18. Best of luck back in New York. Glad to hear your mom is staying strong. Even happier to hear you chose not to give the Bachelor a try. You are so fabulous. Your perfect match can’t help but find you when the time is right. 🙂

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  19. What a wonderful post today! Thanks for your candor and courage. Very inspiring! And since I live in Ohio…a shout out to you for the positive statement about the state 🙂

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  20. I’m glad you didn’t audition. You were right to not want a man that would date 30 other women at the same time. Keep being patient. I had to go through a lot before I found Kim, my hubby. I knew my demands and I wasn’t going to let up on them. I made a conscious decision that I knew what I deserved. You should do the same. Keep fighting for yourself! ❤

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  21. Aw, someone like you shouldn’t need to demean herself on reality TV to get a date!

    Do you have matchmakers in the Catholic community? I know it sounds pretty Medieval, but they’re the norm in the Orthodox Jewish community, both Fiddler on the Roof type professional matchmakers and informal “I know someone who would be great for you!” ones. I admit I have never used the former, but I did go on a couple of blind dates with friends-of-friends(-of-friends). They didn’t work out, but they weren’t awful and I guess they were good experience for someone like me who has not dated very much. Maybe that would be a way of meeting someone? Ask those around you to keep an eye out for a suitable guy?

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    1. thanks so much friend 🙂 you know, i don’t know! i know in NYC there are matchmaking services….i know because I had an audition for one of them a while back. haha but i don’e know? i’ve always said that i want to set up by a friend 🙂 haha great advice! big hugs xox

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  22. Everything has its own season – yours will come and God will never abandon you that’s for sure. Not only is He preparing you but he may just as well be preparing your future husband too. 🙂

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  23. When we’re in a dry season, it’s hard to stay focused. A lot of times it’s not about the “why” but about the “what.” Sometimes we never get the answers to the “why,” but we need to look at the journey, the path, the “what.” But I wouldn’t judge you for going on the The Bachelor. At least you’d learn what you DON’T want! LOL Keep looking up!

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  25. You’ve done it yet again, thanks for sharing your stories and how God is working, and love the bits of humor laced in your blogs, just love it. In the words of DJ Khaled “YOU DA BEST!”
    And thanks for reading my blogs, not blowing up or as big as yours is but I do appreciate you taking the time to read my blogs, mine is boring lol! Anyways God bless my friend

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  26. Good morning…As a 63 year old married lady (21 years and counting) Who just read your thoughts about finding The GUY…may I please say, You are perfectly lovely just the way you are. You are smart and pretty and loving and kind. Keep your eyes on your prize (which is you) I love my husband but marriage has been the hardest thing I have ever done. Harder than being single, harder than having cancer, harder than…..well truly hard. In the word Paul advises us to be single if we are able. I want you to understand that single is challenging and marriage is even more challenging. We are now expected to live in harmony with someone completely different than we are. It can be really lonely. I have felt trapped in a marriage at times and I am understanding that is pretty normal to feel that way. As a Christian it’s important to understand the truth of “Till death do we part” If you wanted honesty about marriage this is my take. Marriage can be sweet, and it can be rough. Marriage can be lovely and it can be horrible. Marriage can be calm and it can be rocky (much like life but doubled) Much like single life, marriage is about us. How are we with ourselves? Are we expecting someone else to fulfill us and our needs? How is our relationship with God, with our friends and with our dreams? Can we live our lives enjoying our days RIGHT NOW or are we living for the future when everything will be better? (That remains to be seen, it could actually be the same, just different) I do so hope you understand the spirit behind this comment to you. I was once you, hoping for that GUY to come and take me from my tiny world (Your metaphor of the apartment) I now live in A BIG place…and some days I miss the peace of tiny…. God Bless your precious heart

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    1. Hi Dr. Lynn, thank you so much for sharing your heart. This is such a powerful perspective, and I thank you for sharing the honesty of marriage with me. First of all, congrats on 21 years. you’re right – it’s not a fairy tale and it takes hard work. Sending you so much love. big hugs xo

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  27. For what it’s worth, here’s my thinking (lots coming from personal experience, haha!):
    1. Not a good idea to go public with love relationship, so when you do find that guy keep it private (definitely not talk about him on your blog). Great that you didn’t audition for that show, that’s a fake thing anyway.
    2. Don’t look for a man to take care of (big NO!) or you’ll get yourself a husband you will loathe in the long run. You are obviously a strong person, you don’t need a whimp. Guys that women take care of are quite easy to find (men are mostly helpless without women, I know, pretty hilarious but accurate) – a guy who is man enough to take care of his woman is much harder to find but so much more worth it. Or else you’ll try raise him, educate him, train him etc. Which might work though you’ll waste a lot of precious energy in the process. Save that energy for your kids and you’ll all be a fine happy family for real. Trust me on this one.
    3. The right man will show himself in due time. All you have to do is believe and let God lead you to him and/or him to you. Works like a clock. Trust me on this one, too.
    4. Every day when you say your prayers, say this: “Dear God, I entrust you to find me the man You think is best for me.” Then leave this at the feet of the Cross and go about doing your things for the day. Don’t give it another thought. If you obssess over it, it means you want to take things into your hands and that’s really tricky. Resist the temptation and you will be handsomely rewarded.
    I guess that’s about it for now. Talk to you later if you feel like it. Love you, God bless, relax.

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    1. thanks so much for this powerful perspective. this is some really really great advice. i especially love that daily prayer. you’re right – say it and then let God do the rest! big hugs x

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  28. Loved this! Before I started dating (now my soon to be husband), I had promised myself that I would never date. Not because I had a fear of rejection or of being hurt, but the fact that I loved having time to myself. I loved being alone and independent. Even after promising myself that I would never date, all of sudden this guy comes into my life. Totally unexpected, and the funny thing is, it wasn’t even love at first sight. We dated for 3yrs before he even asked for my hand in marriage. I guess what I’m trying to say is that it’s all in God’s timing. Like you said, we just have to trust in Him. What a great read! 🙂

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  31. You know, I look up to you. You’re larger than life to me, and someone very special. So I don’t believe your self doubt is justified. However, while I think you’re great, I’d hate to see you wind up with someone who failed to appreciate you for the wonderful, amazing young woman you are. Keep the faith that God has your back, that He loves you, and yes, I do believe there is a right man for you. Be careful where you look. He may not be found on shallow TV shows which basically debase their own contestants. You stand tall, so that’s what you should keep doing. And perhaps it is not you who are not yet ready for your future husband. It could be him. Have patience, pray, don’t forget to live. You’re awesome; never sell yourself short. That would be a true injustice.

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    1. oh my gosh Michael, what a kind thing to say! i am seriously so touched, thank you. you’re right – I have to trust that God really does have my back, and have patience! Something that I’ve never been particularly good at! haha 🙂 thanks again for this beautiful encouragement, Michael. big hugs xox

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  32. Needed to read this today. I have a wonderful husband, but even as a HAPPILY married woman, I still find myself in hard, HARD seasons of waiting when grief is sharp and I’ve no idea how to move forward. It’s beautiful to know I’ve got companions down this road and while we may be experiencing a different kind of waiting, the emotions are much the same and our God NEVER CHANGES. Keep writing, my dear. ❤

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  33. Yikes! Please don’t sell yourself short. You’re a beautiful person who deserves the best. You’ll never find love on a “reality” show. As many others have said, you’ll find it where you least expect it. I met my wife 48 years ago at a Catholic church picnic. (I was a Baptist.) I was also under 21 and my friend promised me beer if I would work in the CYC booth. Clearly a lifetime relationship was the farthest thing from my mind that Memorial Day. Don’t try so hard and you’ll find your Prince Charming where you least expect him and he’ll be a very lucky man.

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  34. Caralyn, you’re still young yet. Enjoy life, savor the moments you spend with your family and do the things you’ve always wanted to do. Your soulmate is out there in the same predicament and when the time’s right, your paths will cross. God already has a storyboard of your life mapped out and you’re probably still in Act I. So don’t fret, you’ll meet your “Mr. Right” in due time, until then continue to make precious moments with your family and friends. Sending thoughts and prayers as always to a speedy recovery for your mother.

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  35. Love this post!! I thought I would never find my soul mate. I had a series of relationships that weren’t great and I was about to give up hope, but then I tried online dating (I swore I’d never do it). A bunch of my friends had met their husbands online, so I gave it a try. Sure enough the first day I signed up I met an amazing guy. We are now happily married with a two year old! He’s out there for you, he’ll just show up when you least expect it!

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  36. I”m glad you didn’t try out. You are far, far more real than that approach. Your value on marriage is far greater than to cast pearls before swine. IMHO.
    Try to remember how thankful you have been to have the opportunity, and the relationship, to spend all this time with your mom and dad. Both of those are huge….er, yuge… things!
    Keep walking the walk sister. You’re doing great and are amazing!
    xo

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  37. There is no part of your heart that needs transforming, it is perfect just the way it is, and you will find love, love will always find a way and God moves in mysterious ways, once you stop looking, your future husband will find you 🙂

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  38. Love you. Guys/husbands are SORELY overrated. Take your time. Lol Seriously, you can be lonelier married than single. But if your heart wishes, God will bring you to it in the right timing. So glad you didn’t go on that horrible show where the man cheats on you just before marrying you. Really? Lol Love you. XO

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  39. I’m glad you didn’t audition. As you say, you are worth more than that. A flaming dumpster is not the place to be!

    I’ve been married long enough now (11 years, sometimes it feels like a thousand, other times just a few months) that people are starting to look to me for advice and wisdom. Truth is, I haven’t got any. I’m learning every single day. I do know two things: your longing for a husband is completely normal and God will sustain you in the longing until the day comes when you begin life with a dude who will do things like leave his socks on the dining room table (yes, my husband does this).

    Keeping looking to Jesus, asking Him to fill your heart with His love and presence. Ask Him to give you wisdom and discernment in the guys you date. He won’t steer your wrong.

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  40. God really has great plans for our lives, plans that ate fat greater than our imagination
    Sometimes, it doesn’t go our way but God knows best.
    We can trust our unknown future in the Hands of a Known God
    Nice post

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  42. Philippians 1:6
    And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.

    Ephesians 2:10
    For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

    2 Corinthians 8:21
    for we aim at what is honorable not only in the Lord’s sight but also in the sight of man.

    Psalms 130:5
    I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
    and in his word I hope;

    Psalms 71:16
    With the mighty deeds of the Lord GOD I will come;
    I will remind them of your righteousness, yours alone.

    Hi Caralyn. I rested assured that you would not go on display on that TV production “The Bachelor”.

    The reasons for believing this are fairly straightforward, and all Scriptural. We know you do not want to put yourself on display, and be “chosen” by a winner in the world. You are a Precious child of God, and you are more worthy than even getting 2nd best offering. The KING of kings, and LORD of lords makes the best choices and pairings. You are worth the wait for God’s choice of a man, as the gentleman for you is worth the wait.

    We both know, along with your many followers, that our God has a definite plan for your life. He created you with intelligence, wisdom, and has given you gifts that are evident to many, and I believe there are gifts to come yet that you are not even aware of. All these gifts, along with the wisdom and intelligence are to be used to give God Glory, as you continually do on “Beauty Beyond Bones” and I am certain on your
    other stages as well.
    Many people, in various stages of life, have come to know you, and admire you greatly, and esteem you. This is because of who you are in Christ. People see Him in you, Caralyn, even if they don’t know it yet. We know your life is lived in a way that is honourable to man as well as to God.

    As you wait upon God, you can be certain He is still preparing the best for you. He is also giving you more time to know Jesus Christ better, growing stronger in your relationship with Him through reading the Bible, prayer, and good fellowship with other Born Again Christians.

    As you will be sharing in the future of all God has done in your life, what He has brought you through, and brought you to, you will have many opportunities to give God Praise and Glory, telling others of His Righteousness, and Holiness.

    God’s Blessings Caralyn.
    Luv,
    George 🌹❤️

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  43. Okay don’t think to much on this, just something out there for thinking wise. Okay what say you are a male and got married real young with a older woman that can be your mother with a love child that can be a younger brother and got married again at 17 or 18 teen again to the same woman with an other love child with no memory on it with both times that it happen in your life time. Also you can’t call your wife on it because is a sprite personality strait? Just trowing that out there for thoughts. 🙂 😦 lol

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      1. Just stuff I was wondering on with myself but my mind had been playing tricks on me but I got some medication that is Aripiprazole that will help me on, that is my 2nd night on taking it.

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  44. Don’t trade your dignity and self worth for the commercial accolades promised by the Bachelor show. Shows like this try and sell us the fairy tale of Happy ever after. There is only one true happy ever after which is through Jesus Christ and the promise of eternal life. Christ has purchased believers with His blood and sacrifice on the cross that is sealed through His resurrection and the indwelling of the Holy Spirit

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  45. Yup. Thank God for Spotify.
    I’m not one to tell a person what she should and should not do with her life, but I do want to share that music soothes the soul and if you believe in fate (I know, cheesy, right?) then there is a soundtrack for your life. Keep safe and happy. Cheers!

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  46. You know C, when God made Eve, he didn’t just have Adam there and then just *poof*, there was Eve. He put Adam to sleep. He took from Adam’s side, he went to another place, and he formed Eve. Just the fact that he formed man instead of merely speaking him into existence tells me, he took his time, he probably enjoyed the process of pouring his love and likeness into that spirit immensely. And then he brought Eve to Adam and everything in Adam and everything in the Adam that was in Eve leapt and said ‘yes! This is a part of me, this is my ezer-kenegdo, my perfect match’

    More of the story? Maybe you should get an arranged marriage….?

    Just kidding ;D

    And you probably know what’s actually coming, the whole ‘God has the perfect man out there for you you just have to HURRY UP and BE PATIENT and WAIT’ speil, but I know you know all about that and thats not really where I was heading but it’s worth saying it’s okay to have that longing, and if we look a little deeper into it we’ll see part of the curse Eve got trying to be like God her own way, was that her desire would be for her husband and man I kinda gotta go like wait a minute, didn’t she already desire her husband? And you know what, that’s a whole slew of thought I haven’t even really thought about before and this is KINDA turning into rant now BUTTTT ……

    I guess where my train of thought is going is the more we look at Jesus, the less like first Adam and Eve-post-trying-tree we look like, the less that curse holds sway because that curse isn’t reality anymore, JESUS is reality, LIFE is reality where yee absolutely there is a part of you that belongs to your perfect match but both your part and his part are the image of Jesus and in the waiting and longing he is there bringing you to life out of the dust to your perfect match.

    So that sounded way more cliche than the thing that I was trying to put to words but that’s the best I can do right now. I guess what it comes down to is what I’ve always said – trust the process – and know you’re already made in the image of God, even though there’s a guy’s metaphorical rib in your side (not to make it creepy for ya ;D) you are complete, and he is complete, and you will be complete together. But after 900 years, I’ll bet you Adam wasn’t thinking anymore about how long that snooze was waiting for his Eve 😉

    Boy, and the ramble just keeps going, haha. I’ll end with that before I get on another bunny trail. Happy Saturday! 😀

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    1. Gosh thanks so much for this awesome response Carson. It wasn’t cliche at all! It really resonated with me. You’re right – trust the process. God is doing his masterful work! And you know me…bunny trails always welcome! 🙂 hehe have a great weekend! Hugs and love xox

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  48. Okay, 1, this post did not end in a way that that the title implied ahah. As much as I wish you every success, I just feel like The Bachelor is not the place for you. :*

    Anyway, thank you again for this post. I’ve been lurking for a while but I feel like at this moment in my life I’m going through such an incredible transformation. (Thanks, Jesus!) Your writing has been such an inspiration to me in the past few months and I’m making an effort to comment because I appreciate you so much. Thank you for sharing your story ❤

    (also thank you for liking the last few posts on my blog! Wow ahhh) xx

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  49. It is the waiting that is hard indeed. However, it is often said (and rather ironically) that one is blessed with the object of their desires when they have lost their craving for it.

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