The Jig is Up!

I was literally thisclose to disabling my blog this morning.

Thisclose.

I mean, for the first time, I think ever, I could literally feel my heart pounding in my chest.

And I don’t mean “literally” like an overdramatic and slightly basic Millennial.

I mean, I could literally physically feel the actual beats of my heart pounding, as though they were millimeters from busting through my chest.

Allow me to set the stage.

Tuesday morning. alarm goes off. I roll over to find a message pertaining to my professional acting page.

Hmm, I haven’t checked that in a while, let’s mosey on over there to see if it’s been updated. 

For those that don’t know, there is a website on the internet that is a rolodex of every actor and crew member in the business. It is used by industry professionals, as well as professional Netflix bingers, curious about the past work and personal information about any actor, A-list to Z-list.

Well, clearly, they’re letting in the riffraff, because as an actor, I too have a page on this website. I promise you it is not impressive, but a it’s a page none the less.

Well here’s the thing…much like Wikipedia, random people can add to/edit your page.

Yep…thaaaaat’s right. Random people can go on there and submit trivia facts, biographical information, photos, and in my desperately unfortunate situation…quotes.

And you guys. The quotes that whoever this troll pulled from my blog, taken out of context, make me look like the absolute spawn of Satan.

A quote about my virginity. A quote about my past anorexia. A quote about my menstruation history/infertility (which praise God is now false!). A quote about being “anti” feminist. A quote about voting for Donald Trump.

I mean, the fact that someone would comb through my entire blog to find the most damning sentences possible when taken out of context, and then submit them anonymously to make me look like a monster?! On my professional acting page??

Talk about starting a Tuesday off with a zinger. It wasn’t even 9am and I had cried more than Ashley Iconetti from the Bachelor.

And the best part about this big fiasco, is that all this was brought to my attention by a cute. boy. 

I know.

I KNOW.

I am reeling inside too.

So anyway. I nearly disabled this site.

This blog is obviously anonymous for a reason. I share things on here that are incredibly personal, and not that I’m going to withhold that information from someone, but come on…sharing your past of anorexia, or your menstruation history!??!???…That’s at least 5th or 6th date material. Preferably over a bottle (or 2) of wine. Or in a noisy atmosphere where they can’t really make out what you’re saying.

Juuuust kidding.

But this whole situation did get me thinking.

Who am I, if I cannot own up to my past?

Really?

Am I ashamed of who I am?

It was a very rubber-meets-the-road moment for me.

And I will pause, to preface and say that there’s a huge difference between disclosing this personal information with someone in the proper setting, versus having it blast out on the internet without one’s consent. I stand by that, and have since emailed that website to have them take down those quotes submitted by a malicious troll that should go back underneath the bridge from which they crawled.

But look. I’ve got a past. For better or for worse, I’ve got a lot of baggage in my trunk. (Note that I didn’t use the word junk…get it…junk…in the…hehehe

But seriously. Yes, there are a lot of things that I’m not proud of. Yes, there are a lot of seasons filled with pain and regrettable behaviors and patterns. But all of those things have worked together to create the young woman you see today.

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And if I can’t own up to that, then who am I, really?

If I can’t accept my own past, how can I expect anyone else to?

The fact is, I’ve been forgiven. I’ve been healed. And I’ve been reborn.

Not from any of my doing. But from His.

And frankly, the young woman you see today is a living, breathing testimony of the glory, grace, mercy and power of God.

So you know what? Yeah. I do claim my past. 

Do I wish that some of the things I’ve said wouldn’t have been taken out of context? Yes. Do I have to shout out my past as the very first thing someone sees when they look at my professional bio? Absolutely not.

But I should never be ashamed of the journey God has taken me on. Because frankly, it has been one big process to destroy the persistent sin in my life: pride.

This morning, waking up I was mortified. Beside myself with shame and humiliation that such information would be the first thing that someone would read about me. As though my life could be deduced to a strategically biased soundbite.

And further, I was filled with rage at the malicious intent that someone would have to use my words against me, and manipulate them to tarnish my name and character by making me out to be a bigoted and abominable person.

This is my story. And I’ll be damned if I let some troll tell me that it’s something to be ashamed of.

Not today, Satan! Not today.

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352 thoughts on “The Jig is Up!

  1. What is wrong with people? Because you chose to share some of your past with your readers, that shouldn’t give people the right to turn into something disgusting . Your menstrual history?! What is that about?! Praise God for making you strong and not listening to the haters. Continue to be strong in your faith and let God continue to guide you.

    1. I know!! I was mortified. Thank you friend, I appreciate your support. It was a really crummy thing to do for sure. Amen. Hugs and love xox

  2. Thank you for being vulnerable enough to share your story — it is an incredible story! What an encouragement you are. Best to you!

    1. Thank you so much for your support Violet. It really means a lot. Hugs and love xox

  3. That sounds horrible. It definitely reflects more on the troll than on you. 🙁 So sad. No, please don’t disable your blog! I know what you mean about how stuff shouldn’t be shared until you know someone for a while, but we all mess up on that road–believe me. I’m a lot like you–I’m an open book, largely because I think that there’s too much shame associated with keeping stuff secret and letting it eat away at you, as if certain hideous truths shouldn’t see the light of day. I was raised in a family like that. If they knew about my blog… HA HA HA HA. Ahem. Hang tight!! Bad trolls. Please don’t let that define you, because it doesn’t!!

    1. Thank you Meg, I really appreciate your kindness. Haha yeah an open book is a. It of an understatement! Haha thanks again!! Hugs and love xox

  4. I thought you weren’t watching those shows anymore? 🙄🤓 That’s what cute boys do. *Cough* men don’t. *Cough* *cough*

  5. Good for you. But please be mindful of anger. We are all prone to it but not perhaps aware of what it can do as I found out to my cost how lethal anger is.
    I may have mentioned this before, so just to say that anger without immediate regret and immediate apology to God allows Satan to sneak back in and very cleverly he will slip in other sins which will hit you before they are even noticed.
    Always – always; be almost careful of anger.
    God bless you.

    1. Thank you friend that is truly a great and powerful reminder. Gotta keep that in check. Hugs and love xox

  6. “The fact is, I’ve been forgiven. I’ve been healed. And I’ve been reborn.
    Not from any of my doing. But from His.
    And frankly, the young woman you see today is a living, breathing testimony of the glory, grace, mercy and power of God.”
    Your words, not mine. There are just some people who will be evil and mean. For whatever it’s worth, the very things you say were brought up as if they were meant to make you look “bad” actually are what make you more attractive and real. They humanize you and make me and I am sure others who read your blog feel that we could sit down and talk to you. This is how your recovery has helped countless others and how your spiritual journey, even with its side-trips and hiccups makes life relatable. Don’t let this get you down.

    Love and Blessings,
    Jim

    1. Aw Jim, thank you so much. That’s very very true. We are responsible and accountable for our words. And gosh, thank you for such a beautiful encouragement. Really means a lot 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  7. “And frankly, the young woman you see today is a living, breathing testimony of the glory, grace, mercy and power of God.”
    Amen!!! “As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.” (Genesis 50:20)
    These trolls meant to hurt you, but praise Jesus that you have allowed Christ to turn it to something beautiful instead!!! The enemy is going to try to harm, disarm, and distract you from doing this incredibly important work, but keep seeking Jesus! Not today, satan, not today!
    Love you girly!
    You’re sister in Jesus,
    Annalee, ISAIAH 62 PRAYER MINISTRY

    1. Thank you so much Annalee. Amen – Christ can bring goodness out of any situation. Love you friend! Hugs and love xox

  8. That’s tough, no bueno! Hopefully you can report that to the site? I’m glad you didn’t, I gotta try some of those recipes! 🙂

    1. Thank you Peter. I did report it. I hope they take it down! And thanks 🙂 Hugs and love xox

      1. Awesome, no problem! .That mango salsa looks so aMAZing! I’ve never had Sea Bass, so I’m not too sure if I’ll take the plunge, I’m pretty picky when it comes to fish.

  9. Sad. Just sad. I hope they take it down soon. For one troll, there are a hundred out there who have been blessed by your testimony. So keep sharing. God is using it to lift lives from the pit of despair, and we will keep sharing, damning every shame, cos lives depend on it. You go girl!

    1. Thanks Friend. I hope they do too. Thank you for such kind support. I am truly touched by your words. Hugs and love xox

  10. I’m sorry for what you went through. I and the people who reads and follows your blog are happy you did not deactivate this. Stay strong and smiling! Show them that their words or actions never got to you 😊
    Hugs and love 💓

    1. Aw thank you friend. That really means a lot. Amen! Gotta just brush it off! Hugs and love xox

  11. I do hope that you can stay around. It can be terrifying to have people take you out of context, but you have great posts that can inspire many.

  12. Matthew 5:11-12 “Blessed are you when people revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.” I know it’s difficult to rejoice at the moment, but believe it or not, somehow, God will turn this evil intention so that it benefits you in some way. God is good! I will add you to the decade on my rosary that I reserve for “emergencies,'” this week.

    1. This is such an encouragement. Thank you so much friend. And gosh, I am so touched that you would pray for me. Thank you! Hugs and love xox

  13. I recently had two individuals who obviously troll my blog attempt something similar. It caused me to have a major anxiety attack, didn’t sleep all night (I have a baby so the next day was awful), and made me almost delete my blog too.
    Then I prayed about it, spoke with some great friends and family, and thought long and hard about my life.
    Heck no I’m not quitting my blog, it’s MY LIFE story and experiences. I shouldn’t be ashamed or bullied about my life or what I choose to share.
    Keep up your positivity because karma is real.
    You are wonderful and I appreciate all you share❤️❤️

    1. Oh no, I’m so sorry that you know first hand how this feels. Gosh I’m sorry to here that. Amen!! Hugs and love xox

  14. You dear Girl!
    I am so sorry for this experience, on one level, but on another, I am grateful for how you came out of it saying “Wait! You cannot steal what God has accomplished.” As I read, I loved this comment of yours: “That’s at least 5th or 6th date material. Preferably over a bottle (or 2) of wine. Or in a noisy atmosphere where they can’t really make out what you’re saying.” I find that you are able to find laughter in the middle of this experience, amazing. You are a fighter. You stand.

    That’s such a powerful command from scripture to simply “stand” — “stand and see the Lord’s deliverance.” (Ex 14:13). “continue firmly in the faith…” (Col 1:23). “After having done all, stand.” (Eph 6:10-11). “Be on the alert, stand firm…” (1 Cor 16:13). “stand firm and hold to what you were taught…” (2 Thess 2:15). “Stand firm in the Lord,” (phil 4:1). Joshua “standing” in battle. Moses “standing” on the mount over the battle. The three hebrews standing and walking around in the firey furnace. The Lord standing on the boat to still the storm. So much imagery. So keep standing.

    You are making a difference. Keep telling your story.

    1. Thanks so much Brian. I really appreciate your encouragement. Haha yeah – laughter is always the best medicine 🙂 thanks for these great verses! Hugs and love xox

    1. Oh gosh thank you for saying that. I appreciate it 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  15. Pfft!!! Who do they think they are messing with?

    Your story will speak for yourself. God needs no one to speak for Him either. It’s all evident. I agree, this is all an opportunity. If people “try” to call you out for these loosely “said” things, it is an opportunity for them to close their mouth, hopefully, listen, and then understand the truth.

    1. Thanks TR! Hah yeah major bummer for sure. And thanks for the awesome encouragement. Seriously it means the world. Big hugs xox

  16. I am glad you didn’t disable your blog. That would let the darkness pull you down. God is greater than any false posting. Your future is in God’s hands not the hands of a troller online. Keep being the light Jesus has led you to be. 🙂

    1. Thank you friend. You’re so right – God is greater!! Thanks for the encouragement. Hugs and love xox

  17. There are a lot of idiots in the world we’ve seen this on previous occasions and you always bounce back up twice as much. Focus on those who like me care so much about you ❤️. If we ever lost this blog there would definitely be a big hole in our lives and hearts I’m sure there are loads of people like who need these posts as an encouragement during their week ❤️ x

    1. Thanks Benny. I appreciate he support. You’re right – gotta focus on the good!! And gosh what a kind thing to say 🙂 Hugs and love xox

      1. I am incredibly touched Benny. Thank you again ✨💛✨💛✨💛✨

      2. haha oh wow! the anniversary is coming up! 🙂 hehehe

  18. Thank goodness you didn’t delete your blog! We need people who are being authentic in this world! It’s people like you who are making a positive impact on the voiceless. Keep going! Thank you!

    1. Aw thank you Heather. Gosh what a seriously kind thing to say. Really means a lot! Hugs and love xox

    1. Haha aw thank you David. I know it is such a crummy and mean spirited thing to do! Hugs and love xox

  19. Omg!!!! I am shocked to read this. I’m so angry at them for doing that to you. You know what, it’s okay cause that person is ashame of their past and they pick out your flaws to belittle you. That was pathetic. I’m happy you did not shut down your blog. Don’t you ever let anyone belittle you because you’re successfully confident in yourself. Good job to you and God bless you!

    1. Thank you Melanie! Yeah it was really a crummy situation. Gosh what a kind thing to say. Means a lot!! Big hugs to you xox

  20. It would be so easy to say “Forget those no-life trolls. Who cares what those idiots say?” But when it’s about you, that’s no so easy to do. You are a personality in the media world. You have published a book. You act, which puts you out in front of people. You may not be Julia Roberts, but you’re way ahead of 99% of the rest of us in that regard (probably much more than 99%). People who derive their pleasure from hurting people will find you when you are visible; there’s just nothing that I know of that can be done about that. So I’m going to give you some advice which will show you what an intuitive counselor I am. Forget those no-life trolls!

    1. Yeah that’s definitely true. It’s hard to brush off. Haha you’re too kind – I’m definitely on the -Z list hahaha you’re right! Gotta forget the trolls!! Haha thank you for the support. Hugs and love xox

  21. I can’t believe someone did that to you, Carolyn. That’s just wrong on soooo many levels; especially to someone who continues to uplift and encourage others through her blog. On other news, it’s great to see that you will be doing a podcast on Patreon. I think that’s just another way for people to reach God through your daily devotionals from your podcast.

    1. Thank you friend. I know it was so mean spirited. And thank you for saying that!! I’m really excited about it!! 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  22. Oooooh, I’d be SO mad!! But you’re right, be proud of your past (as I am of mine). It’s what makes us who we are today. And you are a positive, compassionate, strong, and lovely woman! Your Patreon additions sound fun… Great ideas! Take care, Jenny xox

    1. Thank you Jenny, yeah i was LIVID that morning. Still cooling off if I’m honest. Thank you for your support! Hugs and love xox

  23. Very proud of you. The internet is full of ugly but we can find a little beauty in it if we try. keep climbing higher mountains and inspire others. You just inspired me 🙂

  24. You GO, sweet lady! That very frankness is precisely WHY your blog is so highly acclaimed as a resource for people dealing with eating disorders, amiright?? Of course I’m right.
    Besides, your past is what God used to bring you to the amazing place where you are now. Love you SO much, my Interwebs friend!

    1. Oh gosh Janice thank you so much. Haha of course you’re right!! Hahah jk jk seriously though, thank you. God has been so good to me and I have so much to thank Him for! Hugs and love xox

  25. Being a problem-solver type, my first thoughts were for a solution. How can you prevent that happening again? How can you protect yourself?

    Then I thought of 9/11. Huge non-sequitur, right? But I thought of a book I read about it. The Christian author pretty well said that America brought it on themselves. God is our hedge against disaster as a nation. The only protection is in Him.

    This isn’t to say you somehow invited this by abandoning God, but it is to say that God remains the answer. As opposed to all of the drivel that started running through my mind about how to solve this problem.

    Satan did this to you! Him and one of his servants. But God promises that all things work together for good for those that love Him and keep His commandments. Shutting down BBB is what Satan wanted, and you almost fell for it. But you are faithful. You’ve become a target, because you’re getting too dangerous. Too much of a threat to Satan.

    Not easy to do, but relax and wear a smile. God always turns things around. Let’s all of us here with you at BBB watch in positive anticipation at what God’s going to do with this!

    Silly talk? My double bypass ended up being a blessing. The bankruptcy that ended up moving me across the country to a new job was and still is a blessing. I doubt I’d be blogging and have met you without that huge disruption in my life. Sounds weird, but it’s true. You’ve been a blessing to me. My church here has been. I’m teaching a regular bible class here, using a lot of my blogging material for it. I’m teaching His Word in ways I never would have without moving here.

    So, my dear friend, relax. You’ve just crested the first big hill of a roller coaster and the drop has started. Throw your arms straight up and scream “Wheeeee!” and let your hair fly instead of shrieking in terror. God’s at the controls.

    You pray. I pray. Everyone who reads my comments – you pray too! THAT’S how this problem gets solved!

    1. Relax and wear a smile. Now there is some powerful advice. Thank you Jeff. But seriously I am humbled by such generous words. You’re so right – sometimes the biggest obstacles or challenges end up being the best things for us!! That’s a powerful truth to remember: God is in control. Thank you for the prayers my friend. As always, you are a blessing to me! Big hugs to you and Julie xox

      1. I just went over to Patreon. Nice morning contemplation! Forgive me if I don’t listen to The Bachelorette… 🙂 Good work, Caralyn!!

      2. Thank you!! Hahahha didnt expect you to 🙂 hehehe somehow I doubt that program is on at the King household hahaha 🙂 😁😁😁

      3. I just opened Biblegateway.com to pick up a verse or two to write a few more Quotes and look at the first verse to pop up. Thought of you immediately: The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills. To the Chief Musician. With my stringed instruments. Habakkuk 3:19 NKJV

      4. And here’s the second one – When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you. Isaiah 43:2 Unbelievable timing, no???

      5. ahh love it. God will always give us exactly what we need! ((and put the people in our lives to make it happen 🙂 ))

      6. Oh wow, that really is a beautiful comfort. thank you Jeff, you’re a great friend xox

  26. So sorry that happened. I’ve seen your page on that site and those quotes. Since I’d read them on your blog already, I didn’t think anything about them. Seems like nothing should be allowed to be posted without the consent of the person on the page, else the site just becomes a sad gossip post. Will pray they fix it for you soon and that this incident will spark some change in the way they do business.
    I know it’s aggravating, but here’s a thought. When I read those quotes, I get the impression of an intelligent, Godly woman who has a mind of her own and isn’t afraid to speak it. Not to mention you give good, solid reasons for your opinions. I’ll bet the troll didn’t realize they were including that. 😉 And our God is a great God. He can make something wonderful out of this, beyond our imagination. Will pray for that too.
    I’ll add my voice to all the others. Don’t stop sharing, your life or your thoughts and opinions. You are truly an inspiration. And I’m not just blowing sunshine at you. 😎 I’m reading your posts from the beginning as you suggested, and God has used things you’ve said to speak to me several times. I’m sure the other 38K folks can say the same. Hang in there, C. You and God got this. 🤗🤗🤗 xox

    1. Thank you so much Kenneth. Amen!! The person should AT LEAST be NOTIFIED that someone added to their page. I mean golly miss Molly WHO KNOWS how long those quotes have been there. It horrifies me to even think abut it. Thank you for your prayers and kindness. That is such a great perspective. He CAN and will make good out of this. Thank you again for such a beautiful affirmation. Means the absolute world. Big big hugs xox

  27. You go, woman. One of the scariest things about writing is telling your story and having it used and abused. But it’s also one of your most powerful tools and for every troll that’s out to blast you with it, there’s all the rest of us who appreciate knowing *Whispers* we’re not alone. Somebody else out there is struggling with this or that too. So congrats on being brave, standing up, and showing the world you don’t have to be ashamed of who you are, good and bad.

    1. Thank you so much L. That’s so true. We’re not alone!! Thank you for this beautiful encouragement. It was just what I needed to hear! Hugs and love xox

    1. Aw thank you Sharon. Amen! Not today!!! And gosh what an incredibly kind thing to say. We all are!! 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  28. We live in the age of manipulation. Every piece of information you put up on the internet is public knowledge even if you mark your sites as restricted and private. Criminals from all countries have learned to harvest your information from the internet, even from government and corporate sites who pride themselves in having safe sites to keep your private details. so we have to live with that fact. Sites like Apple and Facebook have been compromised. Banks and credit card processing centres have been compromised. So we have to be extremely careful about what we put up on the internet. I refuse to use the clouds for any vital information and am careful to protect information on my computer. Best to back up regularly too on a portable drive now that criminals have learned to seal your computer files and demand a ransom to get it back for you. I was surprised to type in my internet name and find sites that have researched my complete history and have it up for viewing. You can even buy your personal government files on the internet such as medical records etc. Ancestry invites you to pay for a DNA test to identify your racial roots. Goodness knows where that information ends up. This all allows for identify theft which is becoming a common thing now. Now for the good stuff. You are honest and put up your private information for free in order to encourage others who may be struggling with issues you’ve found a way to deal with. This has been of help to many people. You’re a knock out beautiful woman who has much to offer so don’t be discouraged and don’t get mixed up with this bachelor bachelorette stuff. They don’t deserve a person like you.

    1. That’s really important to remember. Thank you Ian. Scary digital world we live in, isn’t it? And gosh thank you for your kind words. Seriously means a lot. Hugs and love xox

  29. What a horrible wrong this person (or people) did to you. You are a clear example of a faith-filled role model, sharing your struggles and recovery in an honest and forthright way and to consider shutting it down would be a disservice to many. So wrong of someone to put that thought in your head.
    And God calls us to forgive even those who harm us. You show great courage in pressing forward, affirming your role with this blog.
    Thank you for pushing through and pointing toward God!

    1. Thank you so much Tim. Gosh I am touched by your kind words. Amen – I actually meant to put that in about forgiveness. I was taking a walk this afternoon and it was put on my heart that I need to forgive whoever put that on the site. Thanks for stopping by and your wonderful kindness. Hugs and love xox

  30. I don’t know what to say. What you experienced today is shocking and hurtful. Glad you are continuing your blog; I enjoy it. It is a privilege to reads it. You are in my prayers.

    1. Thank you friend for your prayers and kind words. Yeah it was a truly crummy situation. Big hugs xox

  31. There is not one penny of you that is not worthy and beautiful and completely loved by God and anyone that matters. Be blessed. Keep doing what you are doing. Chin up, beautiful. I love you, as always.😄❤

    1. Oh my gosh Tony, thank you so much for this beautiful affirmation. I am so completely touched. Much love to you too, my dear friend!! Xox

  32. I am very sorry to hear this news. It was a cowardly act that demonstrates the hollow emptiness of the anonymous perpetrator. I wish you well in your personal and professional life.

    1. thank you so much friend, yeah a cowardly act indeed. thanks for your support. Hugs and love xox

  33. Whenever the trolls crawl out of their holes that means you’ve made it. Sure, it’s annoying and a down right crummy thing for somebody to contort your statements out of context but you’ve arrived. Congratulations! Good luck with the podcast 🙂

    1. oh gosh you’re kind to say that. thank you for your encouragement. big hugs to you xo

  34. Awful, like a rival throwing in your face what went on, before you got where you are. It defies belief! You’re strong, and you’re a kind person, but what happened is outrageous.

    1. Thanks Odell. Yeah it was a crummy thing to wake up to for sure. Hugs and love xox

  35. The reality of life is that some people are just idiots. The culture has become so much more crass the last thirty years or so. The late Rodney King said it best ” Why can’t we all get along?”Sadly it will probably get worse. There’s no accountability anymore. When it comes to looking back at your life keep in mind the good things and the bad things have made you who you are today. The odds are that somewhere down the road you will face things that make things today look like child’s play. The thing is all of these bad things will prepare you to handle that moment at that second.

    1. hah there’s a lot of truth in that. thank you so much Duke. Amen – why can’t we all just get along in red!! thanks for your kind words! Hugs and love xox

  36. Haha, what a fool this troll is! This is the internet, where despicable behavior is its bread and butter, so can’t say I am surprised.
    Joke’s on the troll, as because of his/her pathetic actions your readers got yet another illuminating post!

    1. Aw Ricardo, thank you for your kind words. I appreciate the encouragement so much. Hugs and love xox

  37. Yo know the first time i read your blog, it really lifted up my spirits , it was real and vulnerable. It’s obvious that dad(father god) had and is working in you. The kind of real that only happens when people are hanging with Jesus. Anyway, this was a cool post, the overcoming part, first part mehhhhhhhh to those people

    1. Aw Nathan, thank you for saying that. I am seriously so touched. Thanks for your kindness. Mehhhhhhh indeed! Haha Hugs and love xox

  38. Satan will seek to attack those who stand for Christ. And you, my friend…stand…for…Christ! You share the truth about the difficulties you have faced and claim ownership for your past mistakes. Not many can do that. I thank God for your boldness for Him and your willingness to be vulnerable in public. Please continue on this path God is sending you down. I pray for you and cheer you on! God is so good (some people do/say bad things – God will deal with them). 🙂

    1. Thank you friend. Gosh what a kind thing to say. I really appreciate your prayers. Amen – God is so good! Hugs and love xox

  39. People are just so mean ! You are such a sweet lady .. why do people get pleasure in hurting others I will never understand that. Just stay the strong woman you are . Hugs to you ..❤️

    1. I know! Such a mean spirited thing to do! Thank you for your kind words. Hugs and love xox

      1. I do but i haven’t used it in a while. I should really get back into it. That’s kind of what my new devotional podcast is going to be over on Patreon – a daily prayer record.

      2. Oh nice !! I’ve heard of them and feel it would help me with so many things changing I feel like I’m constant praying so I thought this would be good

      3. Yes! Would definitely recommend it!! Get a nice leather bound one, or one with a pretty cover and a nice pen. That way you’ll really feel special when you write in it 🙂

  40. I have done something I have never done, I am actually following an upcoming artist. One of the things I notice is there always seems to be a few people that post negative comments about this artist. The fans, immediately jump in and defend the artist. In fact, the negative comment gets more people replying to it then the positive ones. My telling you this is, it seems there is a “type” of person who enjoys causing others pain and they may not even care about what they said, not even mean what they said, they are simply about drawing attention to their “work”.

    In a way, I would say, congratulations, you are awesome enough to draw out someone that wants to be negative towards you. I don’t get that, in fact I rarely get a comment on any of my blog posts. Unlike you, you get hundred’s.

    I respond the same way you do to negative comments, the demoralize me. In fact, negative comments have kept me from maybe posting thing as you have. Thoughts, ideas on my mind, things which I don’t agree with so I don’t have to put up with the riffraff.

    I understand you a bit more from your reaction and I can only say one thing, be bullet proof. All of this is preparing us for the next phase of our life, if forces us to be tougher, wiser, and develop even more wisdom. And you are and have. Those of us who “know” you won’t believe it, those of us who do want to know you better would investigate before believing and those who just are jealous, ignorant and/or hateful, well they will always be that way. Like Taylor Swift said, haters will hate, right. God Bless, I believe in you. God Bless

    1. Be bullet proof: that’s such great advice. Thank you friend. You’re right – everything prepares us. Thank you for this wonderful encouragement. It seriously means a lot. Sending you so much love and hugs xox

  41. My dear friend,

    I am feeling with you. The one who is able to do such a thing, is really unconscious, is the handwriting of an ill person we would say and in the grip of the negative power. Turn the whole thing into positivity – your first thoughts of closing your blog would have made that person successful in his obvious attempt to bring you down – as such persons aim at destruction not at construction. And I am happy you did not close your blog – remember: you are a living example and hope for many many people who maybe still suffer from the same disease, as you had to go through. Where there is positivity there is also negativity close to interfere in the life of those who successfully gave a positive direction in their lives, who have overcome dark nights. Our own developments are usually not linear but rather have the feature of a sine curve – we all surely have gone through things which we regretted – the point is that we learnt from it and that we admitted it in front of ourselves that we did something that was not ok – this is also the meaning of doing penance. Consciousness rises through unconsciousness and according to the saying of saints: “Every Saint has his past and every sinner his future”. We may be ashamed of our own past deeds, words and thoughts – but we have changed, we should see where we stand now and also have to forgive ourselves. Tears were shed enough…

    A direct word to this man who had diabolic intentions: “May light come into your heart that you can feel the hearts of others too that your own miserable deeds can find a stop – that you become aware what you are doing. Look into the mirror – stranger!” (in case he may read this)

    My friend, I wish you all the best on your positive path – never give up!
    Hugs and love
    Didi

    1. Aw Didi thank you for this beautiful encouragement! I like that perspective – to turn it into positivity! That’s such a great way to look at it. I am so touched by your generous words. And you’re so right – i need to pray for that man and ask for his heart to be changed. You’re so wise. Thank you friend. You are a blessing to me. Hugs and love xox

      1. With tears in my eyes – I am thankful for your words, my friend – and pass compliment forward to my Master Sant Kirpal Singh, this credit goes to Him.

        Thank you my dear friend
        From heart to heart
        Didi

  42. Well done. You have turned evil into good by overcoming what Satan inspired for your harm. Your obviously making a difference in peoples lives and he doesn’t like it!

  43. Forgive and move on. Life is good with its ups and downs. That makes life colorful. And bad people are there for purpose. They give us awareness. They keep us from falling if we correctly handle the situation. They sharpen our thoughts words and deeds. As for you cheer up keeps up the good work. Keep on blessing us with your hones from the heart thoughts. We love you.

    1. Thank you Abiy for this great advice. So true – forgive and move on! Thanks for the encouragement. Hugs and love xox

  44. Sending extra love your way today. Good thing God never sees us “out of context.” Our whole big beautiful messy life stories are present to Him always…He sees it all and loves us. Keep being brave, with the courage of a true daughter of God. Xxoo

    1. aw thank you Anna, amen – He never sees us out of context! Hugs and love xox

  45. I’m so sorry to hear what’s happened to you. I know I don’t comment here often but you truly don’t deserve that and I just wanted to say that. Hold your head up high beautiful woman. 🙂💕xx

  46. Gahhhh, that has to be tough.
    I’m sorry that happened to you. It’s so easy for people to be mean behind a screen. It never fails to amaze me how much some individuals love to break others down, especially to people who have been so open and honest

    1. Thank you so much for your support. You’re right – anonymity can make people do really mean spirited things. Hugs and love xox

  47. Your site… it’s your community, and valuable to you. And, so many people support you.
    You could take a vacation from posting, such as a scheduled week off.

    … let what is valuable to you, be, and… be more so

  48. So glad you didn’t stop blogging, but saw through it all for what it was and came back fighting (Rom. 8:28) The Devil (and cohorts) are really just weasy little whimps hidding away behind a big megaphone. Never be ashamed to admit your past your past because (as you said) it made you who you are.

    1. Thank you so much Claire, I’m very grateful for your encouragement. Hugs and love xox

  49. I got some mean spirited random messages on my blog too, which I then deleted. 🙁 I’m glad you were able to get passed it. Seems there are people out there who want nothing more than to drag us down. Best wishes, and I’m glad you didn’t delete your blog. I’ve been getting email notifications of your blog ever since I had my WordOfGOdWrite blog and followed you.

    1. Thank you for your kindness. I’m sorry you can relate so personally. Very grateful for your encouragement and readership! Hugs and love xox

  50. Oh my! So sorry that happened to you. Thanks for not removing your blog – I really look forward to reading it. And kudos to you for standing strong in the face of adversity.

    1. Thank you friend. I really appreciate you saying that 🙂 big hugs to you xoxo

  51. Never let that light inside dim because of the darkness of others, for they fear and hate the positive influence you’re bringing to the world. Never quit and never doubt who you are and what you can do. Remember, it doesn’t matter what anyone else does, for your success and/or failure is ultimately decided by you. When you never give up, failure becomes nothing more than a stepping stone to success. One more thing, I do respect your faith and thankfulness in God, but I think you also need to give yourself more credit. Remember, God only shows you the path and encourages you to follow it. You are the one that has the strength and the determination to actually walk it. God Bless.

    1. thank you so much for this beautiful encouragement. Seriously, it means so much. big hugs to you xox

  52. People who feel the need to attack someone else for no reason are unhappy. They try to “fix” it by bringing others down. Kuddos to you for not letting it bring you down. Rise above.

  53. It sounds like some people are desperate for attention! While I believe more subjects are becoming more prevalent in societal discussions, I do not believe anyone has the right to discuss another person’s private life like it’s gossip. It’s not my place to tell my friends about what I read on your blog. I will encourage them to read it for themselves, as I publicly let them know about my blog. I find your writing interesting so please don’t close your blog.

    1. thank you so much Mia for your support. I think you’re so right about that — gossip has become the “norm,” sadly. thank you for your kindness. Hugs and love xox

  54. Please stay with it! Your voice is an encouraging and enlightening word to multiple generations who need to hear your message. God is working through you and there are enemies, both human and spiritual, who would like to see you quit. Don’t let them win!

    1. oh gosh thank you Beverly for such kind words. I am so touched 🙂 big hugs xox

  55. Everybody has something! You past is your past and is part of what makes you who you are today. Forgive and forget that person. It is not worth the energy. You keep shining your light!

    1. Thank you so much Avery, for your kind words. You’re right – gotta forgive and move on! Hugs and love xox

  56. I’m glad you have had so many messages of support – just goes to show that these mindless trolls are WAY outnumbered by nice folk who respect and value you and your contribution to the world.

    You may enjoy this quote I found the other day “I stopped explaining myself when I realized that people only understand from their level of perception.”

    You have nothing to explain, or apologize for, just keep on doing what you do!

    1. Thank you friend for your kind words. Yeah, i am feeling very blessed and encouraged. Oh wow i love that quote. thanks for sharing! Hugs and love xox

  57. Chiming in my support. I’m sorry that you were horrifically trolled. That’s so sad, and shows how manipulative people can be. However, you proved you are the stronger one. You didn’t give in and give this horrible person what they wanted. You won! And, I’m incredibly happy that you didn’t delete or deactivate – Your posts give me so much JOY!!

    1. Thank you so much Laura Beth for your kindness. Yeah, it was a really mean spirited thing for that person to do. Gosh, i so appreciate your encouraging words. have an awesome weekend! Hugs and love xox

  58. We are out there sharing our bumps, bruises – and crashes to help others, to bring hope to those in similar situations. That also makes us vulnerable. Be strong and the courageous woman you are knowing there are many out there who have your back. You are not alone. Love to you.

    1. Thank you so much Mary. You’re right – although vulnerable, our openness can point to God’s goodness! Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. it really means a lot 🙂 big hugs and have a great weekend! xox

  59. That’s awful. Sadly, it’s also predictable. Because with nowhere to go and forever to get there, certain people will show their true selves inside the blanket of anonymity. Because why? They’re frustrated, bitter, angry with their own lives? I mean, they CAN’T be happy with their plight in life if they have nothing better to do than troll other people.

    Show ’em Triple B. Not by going away but by kicking their proverbial butts with more of the good thing you shared on the regular. The haters will tire themselves out eventually.

    You’ll always be kicking.

    Peace and positive vibes

    1. Thank you so much for your encouraging words an support. You’re right, it is sadly predictable. Gotta keep on truckin! hah big hugs xox

  60. There’s a saying that, “It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters.” Despite the cruel and cowardly action of that troll, you owned your history, found a solution, and forgave the person. I can almost gurantee your current attitude is serving you better than wallowing in self-pity would have. 🙂
    On a side note, I was in a very similar position five years ago. I ended up permanently deleting a 4-year-old blog with 7k followers due to the harassment, but more specifically my personal interpretation of the unkind words. Point being: Stay strong and remember that you’re bigger than the bully!!! <3

    1. Wow what a powerful saying. Thank you for sharing that with me. I’m sorry that you could so personally relate. i appreciate your encouragement! Hugs and love xox

  61. There’s a saying that, “It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters.” Despite the cruel and cowardly action of that troll, you owned your history, found a solution, and forgave the person. I can almost gurantee your current attitude is serving you better than wallowing in self-pity would have. 🙂
    On a side note, I was in a very similar position five years ago. I ended up deleting a 4-year-old blog with 4k followers due to the harassment, but more specifically my personal interpretation of the unkind words. Point being: Stay strong and remember that you’re bigger than the bully!

  62. Keyboard courage…isn’t it wonderful?
    I am very new to your blog but from what I have read you seem to be an open/honest and kind person. Maybe that isn’t true in real life and you actually feed goldfish “Goldfish”…who knows. The point being that you will always have those that want to bring you down because they are not very content with their own life. It hurts but the wound is not fatal. Just keep being who you are and serving your King.

    1. Thank you so much for your encouragement. Keyboard courage – yep that’s exactly what it is. Thanks for your support! Hugs and love xox

  63. As far as your past or mine, whatever it was: “And some of you used to be like this. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God“ (1 Cor. 6:11). Be blessed & keep on blogging 🙂

    1. Amen!! What a powerful and comforting verse! thanks for sharing it with me! Hugs and love xox

  64. I’m so sorry this happened to you. I’m glad you’ve decided to keep the blog anyway. I’ve never had your struggles, but I’m sure you’re an inspiration to those who have, and it would have been a shame to lose your insights. It also makes one think…how many other people get a tarnished image from the exact same sort of trolling you experienced? Another reason not to make rash judgments about others. You never know how their story has been skewed by another’s venom and insecurities.

    1. Thank you so much for this wonderful encouragement. You’re so right – it really does give us a lot to consider and think about! Big hugs xox

    1. Thank you so much friend. i appreciate your support and encouragement. Hugs and love xox

  65. I am grateful that you didn’t unplug the blog. You really are an inspiration and give me hope. Thanks for persevering. Some people are cruel. Don’t let them decide your life. You are amazing. Keep going.

    1. Thank you so much Darlene. Gosh, what a kind thing to say. I’m very touched and grateful. Hugs and love xox

  66. There’s a saying that, “It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters.” Despite the cruel and cowardly action of that troll, you owned your history, found a solution, and forgave the person. I can almost gurantee your current attitude is serving you better than wallowing in self-pity would have. 🙂
    On a side note, I was in a very similar position five years ago. I ended up deleting a 4-year-old blog with 4k followers due to the harassment, but more specifically my personal interpretation of the unkind words. Point being: Stay strong and remember that you’re bigger than the bully!

  67. Don’t get rid of your blog! You have been an inspiration for me to come back and talk about my own struggles. I’m not being quite as anonymous as you, though. 😀 I hope that by my open and honest example of the shitty life I’ve lived so far, more people can open up to themselves about the problems they have. And hopefully, we can all learn to love one another a little bit more because we understand that everyone has issues, and we aren’t alone.

    Love your blog, gurl! Don’t quit!

    1. Thank you Neal, I really appreciate your wonderful encouragement and kindness. Yes! Thank you for sharing your story – it is doing powerful things, many of which you may never see, but it is at work! know that! Hugs and love xox

  68. Sorry about what they posted, I think your amazing, and don’t close the blog. Keep it up. – billycharlson.blog

  69. Thank God that you refrained from deleting your blog Caralyn. You are an inspiration to a lot of people. We all have a past that we are not proud of, but we had to go through that to help make us into the person we are today. We are better for doing so. Wear your past with a badge of honor. You faced it head on, persevered and inspired others to never give up. Don’t let the inappropriate actions of one derail what you set out to do. God allows our hearts to guide our passion in life so tread forward with positive thoughts, courageous intentions and love and understanding.

    1. Thank you so much Mar, I really appreciate such kind words and support. it really means a lot. You’re right – God will use all things for good, and has us in the palm of His hand always 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  70. I sympathize you. In the world there are not only good people, very many envious and embittered. The fact that someone is aiming for revenge on you is proof of your success. I think it’s someone from actors (maybe you got a role that someone wanted). You’re good person, there’s nothing in your blog that you can be ashamed of. Nobody is”perfect”, everybody have a mistaces in the past – it is important what lesson you learn. Your sincerity speaks of your courage and desire to help others.

    I like reading your posts, but please don’t use moving images so often, they terribly tire eyes of your readers (my eyes 100%), especially when jerking next to each other in a different tempos. You write very well and expressively, there is no need to add third-party means of help – they only distract from the good text by terrible jerking 😉

    1. Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. Yeah, it was a pretty mean spirited thing for that person to do. And i will definitely keep that in mind about the gifs! sorry about that! xox

  71. That’s someone’s ugly side… Someone is jealous that you made it through a struggle and have a wonderful life. Don’t let punks ever discourage you. Continue being a bright light, there are those out there that you help. 🙂 have a wonderful day.

    1. Thank you friend. I appreciate your kind words. Yeah, gotta just shake it off and move forward! big hugs xo

  72. I love your blog and would have been sad to see you go! Thank you for being so open and vulnerable here. It takes a lot of courage to open yourself up to the world. There will always be rotten people who hide behind their computer screens and find fault with what you write. But there are thousands of readers who find inspiration in your words. Just hang in there and keep writing!

    – Katie

    1. aw thank you so much Katie, I really appreciate your encouraging words. oh the power of anonymity. have a great weekend! Hugs and love xox

  73. Girl I’m so proud of you this post is what you call a victory post. I’ve been meaning to stop by your blog and came the perfect time. This post has so many messages deep inside . Thank you for truly being an inspiration. Also thank you so much for stopping by my page and showing me south Love it really means a lot to me

    1. oh my gosh thank you so much for this awesome encouragement. it seriously means so much. big hugs xox

  74. Gawd, you and I are so much alike!!! Bless you, my friend. Blogging really puts one’s “self” out there and risks a lot…even more so being a beautiful girl like you. And, somehow that is relevant though I don’t know how to explain. “Frailty, thy name is woman” once said Shakespeare C’est moi! I’m hetero but my feminine dimension is vibrating strongly, so I deeply appreciate what you offer here.

  75. Wow, that is absolutely crazy. There are bad people out there my friend and we have to stay aware of the trouble. Keep doing what you do because you have been an inspiration to many and if people like us quit, where does that really leave the world to? Stay encouraged and know that you are appreciated, Peace!!!

    1. Thank you friend. This was so encouraging. I appreciate it. Hugs and love xox.

  76. I would be proud to have you as a daughter, Caralyn, as I am sure you dad is proud. You will never, never, never — did I say NEVER enough? — please everyone. However, you obviously please a lot of people with your openness. At the end of the day there is only one to please, and you know who He is. Calm and courage. Be yourself! That’s who He wants you to be!

    1. Oh my gosh friend this warmed my heart. Thank you so much 🙂 Amen- audience of One! Hugs and love xox

  77. Darlene (Is this your name)? , I am glad you are still here! Please don’t leave! I almost disabled my blog, too, about two weeks ago. You know why? Because one of my links didn’t work, so one of my commenters called me a Sociopath! Having a link not work is not a sign of Sociopathy! In fact, not only did he call me a Sociopath, but he called me a Narcissist Sociopath Borderline. Unreal! Gosh, sorry my link didn’t work, but seriously???

    There will always be bullies out there 🙁 But, Big Hugs to You!!! <3 <3 <3

    Tamara

    1. oh Gosh I’m sorry ylurbwere called such cruel names! Aw Tamara I’m sorry you can so personally relate. Sending so much love xox

  78. This must have been hard to write. But well done. Would have been sad if you’d taken your site down! I’m glad you are working through this comment, as well as whatever it is reffering to(Or workED through). That’s big. And hard.

    Love how you reply to everybody!
    If ur too busy, I get it. But I published a post on my site that I think you would enjoy…and I could use a little help in the comments section. “See the baby, see the child”.

    Shalom! Keep it up!

    1. Thanks friend, yeah definitely hard to write. Thank you for your encouragement. Hugs and love xox

  79. Sometimes I forget how young you are cos or your maturity and outstanding presentation skills… visual and writing. Anyhow… I think God allows attacks for our betterment. They seem to happen when we’re ready for it (even the worst ones). Keep talking! Roll with the punches. God bless. 🙂

    1. Thank you for this powerful encouragement. I am humbled by your generous words. Hugs and love xox

  80. Hey Caralyn:
    I seem to continually be getting later each day in getting to your blog. A day late again, and I am sorry, because I look forward to reading your heart felt posts each Monday and Thursday. I am going to have to check and see what is eating my time.
    Anyway, I reckon that troll has no real life to be living, so he tries to upset someone else who is experiencing a good life, blessing many people, and sharing the Love of Christ, and His Gospel.

    As hard as it is, we really should be expecting these attacks, as you serve Jesus, you are invading the enemies territory. We know the enemy of our soul has many followers who will jump at the opportunity to serve him. They don’t even realize what they are doing, or who they are serving, and need our prayers.

    The Bible tells us all these things, and we see them coming to be more and more.
    Below are a few Scripture verses, where Jesus, Himself, tells us what to expect.

    Praying Protection of the Shed Blood of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus, the Christ, over you Caralyn, as well as a Hedge Of Protection around you.
    Also, there is a need to put the Armour of God on daily, since we do not fight against flesh and blood, but against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms, according to Ephesians 6:10-18.

    Starts with— Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
    —and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
    —take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
    —Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
    —And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

    John 16:33
    33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

    Mark 13:13
    13 Everyone will hate you because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved.

    Luke 6:22
    22 Blessed are you when people hate you,
    when they exclude you and insult you
    and reject your name as evil,
    because of the Son of Man.

    God Bless you Caralyn.
    Luv,
    😀❤️🌹😘

    1. Hi George! Oh gosh, what kind words you always have for me. I hope you know how much your friendship and encouragement mean to me. You’re truly a blessing in my life. That’s a great way to put it…invading enemy territory. Thank you for the prayers. Yes – We’ve got to put on the armor of God every morning before we start the day!! That’s one of my favorite and most empowering verses. So encouraged by your thoughtful and heartfelt words. Thank you George. Much love to you xoxo

  81. Good for you for claiming your past! Everyone has gone through things and made mistakes that have shaped them into who they are. It’s inspiring how accepting and proud you are of your current self! Trolls suck.

    1. Thank you friend. Yes they certainly do. But that’s so true – those things have shaped who we are! Big hugs xox

  82. I too, have a great amount of Pride to deal with. Jesus gave me mental illness for 10 years before I would surrender to Him. The people who reject me and you because of our past have greater problems than we do and we should pity them and pray for them.

    Jesus will turn this too, into your good.

    1. Thank you so much James! I’m sorry that you can so personally relate. Yes – we must pray for them. God is good 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  83. Scrolling a long way down to leave a comment I changed my words as ii noticed “sorry” a lot. I had a look at your front page as I do to all who leave a like on mine. I read to the end of “going to delete my blog” My instinct kicked in and I found myself wanting to know why and hoping you did not. Your story is funnily told, love that humour, and you come to the conclusion most apt, in my view. I also post the most personal items and had thought on your situation. Who are you, who am I, life is a beautiful thing, we live it and move on. Our truth is our truth, from the day we are born onwards, if we cannot own it, or some one else cannot live with it, so be it. To hide is not an option, I have been through so much and still learn about myself every day. Not every thing is as I would prefer but hey, Have a wonderful weekend and thank you for sharing. PEACE

    1. Haha thank you. I really appreciate that. Yeah I love humor and what’s life if it’s not a little funny 🙂 I love that – to hide is not an option. 🙂 thanks again. Hugs and love xox

  84. Dearest Beauty Beyond Bones, your name should actually be Beauty With Bravery.

    First of all, from a storytelling perspective, this post was top-notch. Who could resist the building tension? Haha

    Then there is the triumphant way that you end, and which you just reclaim who you are and remind us that you are redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ and He holds you and holds us all.

    Thank you. I also love that you are a writer in an actor. A hard road to walk, and I’m in the same boat 🙂

    Also, I’m in a non-cooking mode (a little too much Whole Foods hot bar and kombucha in my life right now), but I can’t wait to try some of these recipes 🙂

    1. Oh gosh what a kind thing to say! I am seriously so touched. Thank you for the encouragement. Haha oh sand the Whole Foods salad bar – shooooot I am there at least 3x a week! Hahaha Hugs and love xox

  85. You’ve moved outside of the box; that one where people are content in their sins & wickedness.
    The angry trolls are trying to pull you back into the box of sin.
    You’re fighting a spiritual battle being reflected in the real.
    Jesus nor the Apostles ever said the Christian life would be an easy one, Paul suffered beatings and stonings. In our day Christians are suffering death & dismemberment, humiliation and ridicule around the world.
    Your trolling incident could have profound implications, denying you work, a livelyhood, etc. You still have life though, and freedom, thousands of others lost both.

    So from your past, to your present, to your future; the Lord is prepping you for Himself, from seeing Him reflected in your life to you reaching others with the message and hope of salvation in Christ.
    You’re a work in progress kiddo, so God Bless you and whether you see it or not, may He bless your ministry.

    1. Thank you friend for your encouraging words. You’re so right – I still have those important things. I appreciate that powerful perspective. hugs xo

  86. While I may not be as “public” or “popular” (figuratively speaking) I can completely relate to the conflict of putting my authentic self out there for people who find value in my words and the fear someone would want to do harm for no other reason than the sick pleasure of harming a fellow human. Even something as simple as admitting I struggle with mental health could potentially prevent me from getting or keeping a job. It is faith in God and belief sharing my thoughts with others that keeps me going and outweighs the fear my ego creates. I wish you all the best!

    1. Thank you Paul, I’m glad this resonates with you. Yeah, it was a crummy situation for sure. We’ve gotta keep on with the mission! 🙂 hugs

  87. I appreciate your honesty. Being willing to take off the masks or not wear masks as much as possible, is a great thing. The fact that you are being targeted is not a bad thing. I speaks volumes. I have things I’m not proud of everyday, I’m thankful God is so merciful and gracious to His children who fall so far short.

    1. Thank you Paul – you’re right – God is SO merciful!! hallelujah! hugs xo

  88. I met a gal that looks almost identical to you. It was weird. A doppelganger moment. I saw her, and then I didn’t. Must have been your long-lost twin. Or not. Vicious about her god. I thought about rattling her up a little bit, but then I saw her go to town on some guys at the counter (a restaurant hostess), and I opted out of it momentarily. About how “I AM SAVED BECAUSE MY MOTHER PRAYED FOR ME!!!” She mentioned, backed away, then came back for more. Backed away and came back for more! I thought to myself, is this what Caralyn is like in person? I didn’t know. Where gods…or whatever??! And she was vicious. But looked very identical to you, I gotta admit. Stranger things than fiction, I suppose. Maybe you two would get along really well, but probably not!!!

    1. How interesting! I definitely don’t think vicious is even in my vocabulary. weird. hugs x

  89. I’m so glad you didn’t take down your blog! There’s always going to be haters-please don’t allow them to take from you but also be happy that you aren’t like them. We all have a past and choices we aren’t proud of. whatever they are, they have helped form us.

    A couple of years ago, I was so bogged down by deep regrets and thinking on all the giant mistakes I’d made that there wasn’t room for any joy. None! I spoke with one of my brothers and what he told me changed my life. This is what he said: “Learn from them and let them go. You’ve already lived the story. Stop opening the book and re-reading it.”
    Keep writing, keep learning, and keep sharing what you want to. You never know when your words might impact someone else for the better.- Ashleigh

    1. aw thank you Ashleigh. I’m so sorry that you’ve been through something similar. Wowwwww what incredible advice your brother shared with you. Thank you for sharing that with me!! hugs x

  90. I love this – (and thanks for your “like”)… “The fact is, I’ve been forgiven. I’ve been healed. And I’ve been reborn.
    Not from any of my doing. But from His.” – couldn’t agree more, and more people need to know and believe it. Thanks for your post, excellent – and never let anyone steal your CROWN. 💗🌺🙏🏻 xo-e

  91. Wow, the enemy really wants to shut you down. First your video, now this. But don’t give in to the enemy. It’s obvious you are making a difference to a lot of people. I mean seriously, 37k followers?? That’s a huge impact. And it would be different if you were talking about random, non-specific stuff like dust bunnies or some nonsense like that but you’re sharing God’s love through your own experiences, being a witness and making a difference. Just remember, God knows your heart. He knows your intent and He will always bless those who honor Him. Not only that, He will always be for you so that no one can stand against. Keep fighting the Good Fight, sister! May God bless you and keep you!!

    1. Thanks Ronny, yeah a bit worrisome, But amen – God knows our hearts and will defend us! hugs xo

  92. Hey you! There’s nothing you’ve ever shared that has failed to heal, touch or make someone else more vulnerable, like you have been. You’ve done incredibly good things through your honesty and openness.

    Don’t let someone use his/her malice to make you forget your purpose, which is both from God and part of God’s plan for all who follow you. Trolls were around before the internet, they just never had a place to do their dirty work like they do now.

    But when you share your heart, you become a target; just part of the deal. I’m praying that you feel the raw admiration of so many who love you and all you do. Because in the balance, this troll is just a spec of dirt you sweep away.

    You’re awesome Caralyn. Your story (and ongoing stories) are being used powerfully, so celebrate with bubbly joy.

    1. Gosh John thank you so much. What an incredibly kind note of encouragement. It really means a lot. God is good 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  93. You didn’t deserve those comments Caralyn, unfortunately the platform from which they came, has no moral compass and from people who delight in using put downs to make themselves feel good. I say give them no power because you have a higher power living within you and when you are in God’s radar great things happen. Pay no attention to that smut because Jesus covers it all and heals it. God bless.

    1. Thank you for your kind words. Amen – Jesus covers it all!! Hugs and love xox

  94. Another fine post. It’s too bad that someone wants to malign you, but such is the nature of humankind without God. As you know, the only opinion that really counts is the one God has of you.

    1. Thank you so much Jay, I really appreciate your support. Amen! Audience of One! Hugs and love xox

    1. Thank you Jacob. That’s kind of you to say:) appreciate it. Hugs and love xox

  95. I am so glad you didn’t delete your site!! Don’t worry about trolls like that. I can’t believe people will waste time doing hateful stuff like that. Your authenticity is what makes your blog so great!

    1. Thank you so much JennyLynn. You’re kind to say that. Yeah gotta brush the trolls off! Hugs and love xox

  96. Thank you for sharing this. Vulnerability is so risky… but in there’s so much confidence to be found in Christ. We don’t have to fear when people bring up our past. Thank you for being vulnerable.

    1. Thank you Sheila. Amen – so much confidence to be found in Christ. Thank you for that beautiful reminder. Hugs and love xox

  97. It boggles the mind that some people can be so petty/malicious/foolish/silly. I enjoyed your post and applaud your honesty and confidence . . . and [inspiring] faith. God bless. 🙂

  98. Good for you. Keep being the you God intended and doing the good God intended. Don’t let this world silence you. You have a cloud of witnesses cheering you on. Hebrews 12ff

    1. Thank you TJ. I appreciate this wonderful encouragement. Amen – god doesn’t make mistakes 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  99. The physical heart pounding fear/shame feeling is the worst! I commend you for using this horrible circumstance to let God speak to you and deepen your character. I’m also glad you spoke out against this immature backlashing behavior. Keep vigilant and reminding yourself of who you are in Christ’s eyes to guard yourself from a resurgence of these feelings. I know from experience that extremely hurtful words aimed at the depth of who you are can leave you vulnerable to Satan’s attack. Because everyone’s worst fear is being perceived as the opposite kind of person that they are trying to be.
    As a bit of encouragement, I LOVE reading your blog. Every post shows me that you are a brave person because you aren’t afraid to share your story, faith, and convictions even if they conflict with current trends in our culture. Thank you for speak Gods truth in love without condemning others. I just wish others would give you the same treatment.

    1. Thank you so much! Oh my goodness I am so encouraged by this beautiful comment. I’m sorry you can relate on such a personal level. Big hugs to you xox

      1. I’m so glad you were encouraged. Stories are meant to be shared. You keep being your beautiful self and we’ll keep reading!

  100. Caralyn, you are doing such great work, getting people aware that eating disorders are real and can be so debilitating. Please don’t let someone that is obviously jealous of your accomplishments to get to you. It would be a shame if everyone loses because of one person’s actions. For this person to go through so much trouble there must be an underlying reason for their horrible actions that would make you feel sorry for them. I’m glad you have decided to hang in there and not let the turkeys get you down. If you did, that would be a sad day… 🙂 Hugs!

    1. Thank you so much Joan, gosh what a kind thing to say. I appreciate it. Hugs and love xox

  101. Precious One, you do such a great job sharing your heart and your wisdom! You are such a wonderful role model for young and old alike. That does not and will never mean you are perfect (I know you know that). It means you are committed to living an authentic life in Christ and you have a desire to continue to grow and let others be a part of that journey. That is HUGE and so refreshing! I am sorry that this guy did this to you but try not to think about it another moment. God will take care of your reputation and NOTHING and NO ONE can hinder what His purposes are for you. Stay strong and stand firm! People are only threatened by those that are making a difference in this world! Keep writing and inspiring! (((HUGS))) “The Lord your God who goes before you will Himself fight on your behalf…” Deut. 1:30

    1. Oh gosh this touched my heart so much. Thank you so much for this amazing encouragement. Amen! He goes before us!! Hugs and love xox

  102. I am so sorry, same old devil trying his same tricks that he has been trying to hit you and your blog with for a long time, but every time this happens, I have noticed that God ALWAYS expands your ministry, he is just trying to destroy something that he doesn’t have to power to destroy. “If GOD be for you, WHO can be against you?” God also promises that he will never let us be ashamed when we are trusting him with something, He will never let you down and PLEASE do not give up your blog, you never know how many lives you touch!

    1. Thank you so much Nina. Amen – God will always have our backs. Thanks for the encouragement and your wonderful friendship! Hugs and love xox

  103. You didn’t do the one thing that some would – kill your blog. That’s a huge step, in my opinion. And one that you weren’t afraid to take. The one thing that Satan wants us to do is give up. When we do that, he wins. You didn’t give up so that’s another battle that he’s lost. Good for you! 🙂

  104. Sorry to hear that someone would use your openness about your personal struggles to try and tear you down, unfortunately, that is our fallen world. The reality is that nothing we post is anonymous and unless we are open to others knowing about something we should not post it. Your words, I am sure, have been a real inspiration for many that is why this blog is so successful. I would be one that would support you more because of this blog and because of your openness and if I knew you were in an upcoming movie or TV show, I would promote that others see it! So, don’t take those that disagree with you to heart! There will always be those that disagree and won’t like what you have to say, so what! Be true to the faith that you hold and the woman that God desires you to be. Prayers and peace!

    1. Thank you for your prayers and kind words. I’m very touched. Hugs and love xox

  105. I like the way you have evolved in your post. Keep it up! Having faith and focus on God let’s us do amazing things that we would have never dreamed of. Ignoring haters and cruel people is a by-product that happens naturally. Keep at it.

  106. Internet trolls have always been my fear, but I have to trust and believe that there is a God who sits high and will fight my battles as well as yours.

  107. Love this – and you’re right we all have a past and we are all saved only by His grace! Shame some people try and abuse your openness which has helped and will continue to help others! Glad you didn’t quit! Reminds me of Nehemiah – he had haters who constantly tried to undermine what he was building but they didn’t succeed! 🙂 xx

    1. Aw thank you so much! I really appreciate your encouragement. Yeah i love how God always gives ya examples of how to overcome! Hugs and love xox

  108. People are rediculous and obviously have way too much time on their hands. You’re amazing, your past screw ups are for you to judge, no-one else. That troll can get back under their bridge and stay there.
    😁
    This type of behaviour really angers me! I’m glad you’re continuing. Well done for rising above!

  109. Oh Caralyn, I’m so sorry you had to go through this online bullying. It breaks my heart that people could want to do such awful things to others. I can only imagine what they are going through in their hearts to want to make others suffer. You are a wonderful woman, and a great daughter of God. Don’t ever let someone stop you from telling your testimony. Your story is being used to bring other women out of shame and bondage. How amazing is that!?
    Xoxo

  110. Unbelievable! I don’t know which is worse, that he did this, or that the site set it up so he could do it. Anyone can change your profile? On a professional networking site? Gee, I can’t see any potential for abuse there. If LinkedIn did that, I don’t know what I’d do. I wouldn’t want to join under those terms. But if someone is considering hiring you, they always want to see your LI profile, so what do you do? I pray anyone who sees your profile will take that into account. Better yet, let them check out your blog to get the real picture.
    Now, there is one post I tried to comment on. Since my comments wouldn’t post, I posted on my blog. Don’t worry, I didn’t trash you. My goal was to speak the truth in love. If your comments on International Woman’s Day were the only thing I ever read of you, I would never have come back. And I would have believed everything this guy said or implied about you. Honesty has been a hallmark of your blog. You should keep being honest, but if it’s an angry post, maybe ask yourself, “What if this post was the only thing some people read of me? Is this how I would want to present myself? Will this be a good witness for Christ?”
    By the way, there IS an International Men’s Day. It’s November 19. AND every day other than IWD and Mother’s Day. I got the impression you didn’t know that.

    1. Thank you so much David. I really appreciate your encouragement and support. I know – it is just bonkers that they allow that. Yeah that’s a great point that i should consider every time before I post anything. Hugs and love xox

  111. Been there. Got. The. T-shirt. I have been a writer, artist, and “public figure” for 45-years. I have had experiences that would make a bishop kick out a stained glass window. Loved the line, “And frankly, the young woman you see today is a living, breathing testimony of the glory, grace, mercy and power of God.” Thank you for not abandoning your website. God did not bring you this far to drop you on your head. Everything happens for a reason. You are being tested for greater things.

    1. Thanks Kevin. I’m sorry that you can so personally relate. I appreciate the encouragement. Hugs and love xox

  112. OMG, what is wrong with people? Who does that?
    Sorry you had to go through that… It’s so inspiring and motivating to see how you overcome bad things in your life and even now and that is something that you really not be ashamed about. I also went through a very bad eating disorder in my teens and it’s a lifelong struggle, but this experience build us and made us stronger and this shitty person is just a weak and pathetic to do something like this.
    Sorry for the ramblings, lol.

    1. I know! It was such a mean spirited demonstration. Thanks for sharing your story. Way to persevere, warrior! 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  113. I must confess the last post of yours I’ve seen was the one about the online bullying… but to see what you make of the curve balls OUR FATHER lets the enemy throw right between your legs is very impressive and I am very proud of you!
    You are letting HIM prepare and train you for GREATNESS.
    I pray that you may always be capable of surrendering to HIS WILL in your life, to let HIM decide how much you are able to master at what times in your life and under HIS protection, guidance and with HIS help.
    You are SO going where and through what HE wants you to – it is clear to see from the outside, it is also clear to see that it is not pleasant at times, but you are a brave warrior and I am sure HE will reward you greatly for honoring and obeying HIM and for being a blessing and encouragement to many out there.
    GOD bless you!

    1. Thank you so much friend for your prayers and encouragement. I think you’re right about that – God’s got me right where he wants me! Hugs and love xox

  114. I can tell you this much, if you were not getting any flack from the “internet trolls” that is when I would be worried. Greatness and perseverance has always come with pushback. Victories over that pushback, make them that much sweeter. Keep doing what you are doing. You are beautiful inside and out! God Bless!

  115. Almost every bible story has a great reversal where God took something intended by humans to be bad and interjected Himself and made it good. Just look at Esther, Job, Joseph, Daniel, Ruth and I could go on. I love that you did that with your thoughts on this post. You are so on track here – quit listening to all of those wrong voices and keep following the One that matters. Together – you’ve got this!

    1. Thank you Gail. That’s so true – God works everything for Good and has shown us example after example in the Bible. Hugs and love xox

  116. Sounds like there is a bit of jealousy towards your journey and so to build themselves up they have to tear you down. Thankfully you have way too much gumption and courage to let some trolls take control. Keep on doing what you’re doing and keep on sharing your truth.

  117. I’m a comedian and have spelt a good 19 years in the public domain. I’ve never experienced anything quite like the incident you had here, but I can relate to how upsetting it would be. In more recent times I’ve chosen to be very open both in private and on stage about my acute mental health problems. What I’ve learned from that is the more open I am about such things the more control I have over it. So my advice would be to just keep going as you are. (John)

    1. Thank you John for this great advice 🙂 I really appreciate it. And congrats on your awesome career!! Hugs and love xox

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