Unfailing Love

Confession: It’s less than 30 minutes before this post is supposed to go “live,” and I’m still staring at a blank screen.

After Monday’s post, I’ve been, underwhelmed to say the least, to sit down and pour my heart out in an emotional and spiritually uplifting post.

The response, and rather – the backlash – from the post, brought out, some not-so-nice words, to put it lightly. My faith was questioned. I was told I was cursed by God – and that my singleness, infertility and history with anorexia were all signs of said curse. I was called names that would make a sailor blush. (All of said comments have been removed.)

And to be honest, I’m just not, really, feeling the whole emotional vulnerability thing tonight.

And I get that I put out a piece that garnered a lot of feelings from a lot of people, and I did expect that type of response. And frankly, negative feedback comes with the territory of putting yourself on the internet – I completely understand that and am ready to take a few hits. But I guess I wasn’t really expecting it to get that personal.

But: I’m sorry if the piece was offensive to you. Truly, my sincerest apology. I was seeking to merely start a healthy, respectful dialogue. Nothing more, and if my words hit a place of sensitivity, then please accept my apology.

So tonight, I thought I’d share my favorite excerpt from my book, Bloom: A Journal by BeautyBeyondBones.

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“May Your gracious Spirit lead me forward on a firm footing…Let me hear of Your unfailing love to me in the morning for I am trusting You.” Ps 143:10

Your unfailing love” That made me scoff. Unfailing love was for “Becky with the good hair.” It was for the choir singers. The do-gooders. Not me. Not the liar. Not the dirty anorexic. All I could see when I looked in the mirror was failure. How could a God with unfailing love, even consider loving a girl that she, herself, was an utter failure? It seemed out of the realm of possibility.

There’s a term I’ve come to lean on. It started in recovery, and since then, has expanded to other areas of my life: Radical Trust. It’s radical because it just doesn’ make any sense. It’s an extreme move.

God, I’m just going to go for it and trust You. Your love and graciousness is unfathomable, and I cannot comprehend how good You really are, so I’m going to be bold and trust You. Be radical and trust that You are going to help me through this incredibly hard and scary season of my life. Turst that You really will give me firm footing and that You really do love me.

Do you believe in His unfailing love to you? Hearing that, how does it make you feel? Can you trust Him? What could happen if you were to trust Him?

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398 thoughts on “Unfailing Love

  1. After reading countless posts from your site, I found that you are courageous for sharing yourself and your feelings openly. Your intentions were in the right place and know that you are not going to please everyone who reads your posts. I always get nothing but positivity after reading your topics and there are times when I learn something new or am provoked to look at my life from a different perspective. Stay strong Caralyn and know that I as a reader see that all your writings come from the heart.

  2. Beautiful post, as always. I’m sorry some have been cruel to you, but many more are inspired by your story, as am I. You help me remember who Jesus came for: the brokenhrarted who just need real love and lasting freedom from the heavy chains we all carry.

  3. Everything would happen if we trusted Him, just to answer that question. 🙂 I’m sorry you were attacked for having an opinion. I read last weeks post. I didn’t see anything that I thought would/should/could provoke such anger towards you. Prayers for all of us, and for all of us to love each other like we want to be loved :):)

    Thank you for the excerpt from your book. It is wonderful! Your book is on my Christmas list 😉 Who is excited ME!

    Your testimony in that excerpt has to resonate with almost everyone who reads it. God Bless you 🙂

  4. I’m so sorry to hear about all the negative backlash you received. I wonder if any of those who reacted so harshly and wrote things they’d never say to your face will ever apologize for the way they offended YOU. It goes both ways in this age we live in. And some people just need to grow thicker skin; there are far too many über-sensitive people in society. This is your blog, your opinions. If they don’t like those opinions, they can express as much in a respectful manner. But there are over six billion people in the world, thus there are over six billion opinions on everything from how to squeeze a toothpaste tube to who should be president. You’re not going to please everyone, nor should you. Even Jesus couldn’t do that, and He’s God. 😉

  5. It’s OK to hurt… To question… To doubt… To be “off”… To be exhausted… To wonder… It’s OK. It’s OK.
    Hugs & Love, xoxo

  6. I read a few of those items last night on your blog. The one about needing to atone for your sins by becoming a bride of Christ, well, I almost responded to that, but your reply was fairly light and I figured I would only stir things up. I let it go.

    I did have to read it twice, though. I couldn’t believe anyone would put that to you in writing! I always say you can think whatever you want, but watch what you let out of your head and where you point it!

    Listen, kiddo, I know you’re aware that being in a public forum incurs a certain amount of criticism and abuse. That doesn’t mean you should expect to not be affected by it.

    You know this is true, but let’s say it out loud just to make sure you don’t lose sight of it – a lot of people love you and what you stand for. I know I do! I truly wish I could give you a hug in person, kiss your head, and tell you it’s ok. If it helps, go back to Beauty and the (ED) Beast. I still stand behind every word of it!

    I’m looking forward to the time – whenever it might happen – for Julie and you to meet each other. It’ll be a grand occasion! In the meantime you just keep hanging in there, weather the storm, and continue being the wonderful, God-healed and healing person you are! Love and hugs!

    1. Aw, Jeff, thank you so much for this. You are so great. yeah sometimes it bewilders me, actually. and I know! I cannot wait for the time too! and it WILL happen! hopefully sooner rather than later 🙂 thanks for this dose of sunshine 🙂 hugs to you and Julie! xo

  7. There’s no need to apologize: those who are offended got that way by their own actions. You didn’t offend them: they actively took offense at something you said. Those people go through life looking for reasons to be upset; it’s like a drug for them — you just happened to provide their fix the other night. And like shooting up, it’s their actions that got them high, not yours.

    What defines us isn’t what happens to us; it’s how we react to what happens to us.

  8. I hadn’t read your previous blog post so had to go back and review it for context. Yes, this sort of tragedy pulls strong emotions out of pretty much everyone, and even slightly disagreeing with those folks who believe stronger gun control laws are the answer to all gun violence can get you snapped at.

    I commented about it at my “Robots” blog, which has an international readership, and one gentleman from the UK very politely said that Europeans absolutely don’t understand ‘Murica’s love affair with firearms. Unfortunately, he also, being an atheist, chided another of my readers for mentioning God and suggested that God had no place in a discussion of facts. My friend, a Jewish man living in Israel and one who is highly intelligent and self-expressive, had no problem rebutting the other person’s opinions.

    I’m glad that their conversation ended there. It could have gotten ugly.

    Today, I wrote about how important it is that we are free to disagree with each other openly and publically. This is in contrast to much of what I hear is happening on some university campuses where fear of “hate speech” is resulting in restricting free speech (even when that “hate speech” is merely “I disagree with you” rather than racist, sexist, etc… name calling).

    It’s terrifying to imagine that we may one day live in a world where we are forbidden to express dissenting opinions so that various groups can feel “safe”. It’s not a safe world sadly enough, and it won’t be until we are ruled by the King of Kings. Until then, we all need to behave like little Messiahs (Christs) repairing our little corner of the world as best we can.

  9. I can’t imagine anyone making anything but a positive and supportive comment on your last post. I thought it was touching and beautifully written. It made me look at my own mind and take stock of any negativity I might be projecting in the world

  10. You have nothing to apologize for. You have a right to your opinion. What other people think of you is none of your business. When you fully accept that you’ll never question yourself again. This comes from years of experience being on the Internet. Many blessings, Cherokee Billie

  11. Pastor, trust God loves you! God knew you before you were born and you were wonderfully made with God already knowing your purpose. Not one of us has gone through your experience which was both private and personal. God gave you the courage to share your story and to help and inspire others which you are doing now. Those who have cast judgement upon you are like the people with stones in their hands ready to kill that woman when Jesus appeared. With one question, one by one the stones fell to the ground. Only God knows our heart and our intentions. Only God will judge us. Those who have judged you may want to apologize now and drop their stones. Hi to your Mom. I pray for you and your family each day. Have your people contacted Tebows people yet? SEC network. Give him a call! I love you, many here love you but what matters is how much God loves you! You are His annointed child.

    1. oh Rick, thank you so much 🙂 this is such a beautiful comment. I really appreciate it. that is my favorite bible story – the woman at the well. it brings such comfort. thanks for your continued prayers. i’m so blessed to have you as a friend! Hugs and love xox

  12. I thinks it’s accept that we live in a Post-Modern Age of Relativism. And that affects many of the thought processes people carry. For instance, the ability to perceive a post as inflammatory and to respond as though you are being attacked. And it’s more prevalent in our connectedness with the internet. My prayer for you is to receive the mercy and grace from Jesus, the High Priest who stands as our mediator. For He knows our struggle, having experienced it. (Hebrews 4:14-16). And should you suffer scorn for your convictions, then you walk a path traveled by few. For that same scorn was thrown at Jesus, so you are in good company. (John 15:18-20.)

    Looking forward to know you more through your posts.

    -Derek

      1. So far I do. You have a brilliant way of encapsulating struggle and the beauty that comes from its redemption. Plus your writing is quirky so it keeps me engaged. You’re spreading His Word, what more could I want? 🙂

      2. You’re welcome. I’m intrigued by you and your journey so I have to keep going on. So don’t be surprise if I drop comments on your posts from the past; little book marks of my journey of your story!

  13. BBB,

    #1. Don’t you EVER apologize for what you believe in! If what you believe in is love for yourself and others, and yes that includes the “right” we have as Americans to own guns. We have the right to defend ourselves against the mush noodle brains that get out here and kill others! Let me tell you something. Those who attacked you, if someone was trying to kill them or their family members they would be trying to grab any and every weapon they could to defend themselves. So don’t let them fool you!

    That is what makes this country one of the hardest countries to overtake is because people have weapons in their homes! People do not think about that kind of stuff. This is also one of the things which keeps our government out of our homes, as we have the right to defend our lives and what we own.

    I do not care who reads this, I am telling you now, “I do not apologize and if this offends you, then go to bed offended because I do not care!” Don’t push your beliefs on me because I promise you, you will not so much as move forward an inch with it. If this offends you, then “tolerate me,” because that is the theme of the day!!! You want me to tolerate you, then tolerate me!

    #2. BBB-The people who attacked you are doing nothing but typing on a computer screen, just like I am right now. The beauty of that is, you deleted it all!!!! All a mouth is, is a hole in a face with a tongue and some teeth held in by some cheeks. It chews, it spits, it swallows, and at times it throws it all back up! When it throws it up, it is then flushed down the toilet! So take that vomit and flush it down the toilet and be done with it.

    #3. It is okay not to go with the “flow of society.” It means you think for yourself! It means you do not have to have someone to think for you! What is wrong with that? Not one single, solitary thing!!!!

    #4. Many, many people love you. God loves you. You love us. Don’t let a few rotten apples ruin the whole bunch! That is what would be your mistake!

    #5. As far as you being “cursed.” Do you believe in Jesus? Which the answer is “yes.” There are no more curses. See the Cross kind of took care of all of that, for you. Took care of it for me, too!

    #6. When someone attacks me in my life you know what I say. I quote the Bible in fact Psalms. “I will not eat of your delicacies and your oil will not anoint my head.” It kind of just shuts them up. For one thing they have no clue as to what I am referring to?? They are just kind of left dumb-founded. A blank stare is what I get almost every single time.

    #7. You are beautiful inside and out! I love you! I love your heart! I will always be here to defend you! Love you and God Bless, SR

      1. Brittania,

        Glad it helped! 🙂 One cannot let another destroy the very essence of who one believes that they are. A mouth is just a mouth. Most of the people who attack others with it, could not fight their way out of a wet paper bag! I cannot stand it when someone attacks her, in this manner. I am from Texas and as they say, “A Texas woman is tougher than the toughest football player.” Most of us are. These kind of people just irritate me to death! 🙂 God Bless, SR

    1. oh my gosh SR, this is such a comforting and empowering note of encouragement. thank you so much. I love that – I will not eat of your delicacies! amen to that! just gotta brush it off and keep my eyes and ears on Him 🙂 big hugs to you xox

  14. Caralyn, your post last week was exactly what I wanted to hear. It sickens me when people use emotionally traumatizing events to manipulate people for the sake of politics. Your post was kind and loving as always, but absolutely called those people who are drawing attention away from the real issue (helping the victims) and towards helping their own agendas. And I love that about your posts: kind and loving, yet confident and honest. Lots of your opinions may not be popular, but you express them anyway, because it’s the right thing to do and absolutely has to be said. I’m so sorry that you were attacked for expressing your feelings. You are supported, and those who attack you are completely missing the point of your blog: acceptance and healing. Thank you for always being honest, real, and inspiring.

  15. So sorry you had to experience the backlash. You were one of my first followers when I started blogging. I remember thinking you seemed so real and open in your posts and, to be honest, it is what gave me the strength to start my blog being 100% open as well. You encourage me with your vulnerability. Don’t let harsh words from others put out your flame. You, my dear, are a treasure!

    1. thank you so much for your kind words 🙂 gosh, i am so touched by this beautiful response, and it has absolutely made my night. YOU are a treasure!! 🙂 big hugs to you xox

  16. It makes me so sad when a person as kind as you are is attacked for honestly sharing feelings. Well I guess we were told that some would hate us because of Him. I guess some people really do inhabit a different world from the one I try to stay in.
    But I definitely know that feeling that makes you want to walk away from the keyboard and go crawl under a blanket and watch an old movie. You always wish me love and hugs, this time I offer them back to you!

    1. Hey JP, thanks so much for this. I really means a lot. Yeah, it definitely is not a very great feeling. haha yes! hugs and love are my favorite things to give to people 🙂 i’ll definitely take it 🙂 hope you have a great weekend! xox

  17. I’m so sorry to hear of the negative and hurtful remarks people left you. I had not read any of the remarks from your last posting. You are truly special to let your guard down and share your story with the world. It is not easy to do. I know, since I’m attempting to do the same thing right now. But no one has YOUR story. Share it with everyone. Your details and your life. It will touch the ones it is meant to touch. God will use it and you. He already is. All my best to you.

  18. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences so openly. It takes courage to step out in faith and risk the heartbreak that comes with speaking to the hearts of others. Praying for God’s comfort and strength (1 John 4:4). Hugs!

  19. “I was told I was cursed by God – and that my singleness, infertility and history with anorexia were all signs of said curse.”

    Oh, good grief. What Biblical amateurism. Apologize for nothing, Caralyn. Your blog, your post, your heart. (And we just won’t tell the Apostle Paul that his singleness was a curse.)

    You asked a difficult question, Caralyn. I don’t find God all that loving, at least my instincts don’t. I find him…calculating. Concerned with the plan. I write AGAINST that sort of God all the time on my own blog because I’m preaching to myself. Thanks for drawing that out.

  20. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences so openly. It takes courage to step out in faith and risk the heartbreak that comes with speaking into the hearts of others. Praying for God’s comfort and strength (1 John 4:4). Hugs!

  21. Regardless of the “worse-than-negativity” hatred and vitriol that was spewed all over you for your position in the previous post, I for one, appreciate your honest opinion and thoughts on the topic. Thanks for speaking into a heated issue. I applaud your courage.

  22. I usually abstain from commenting, but I thought this post warrants one…

    My heart was made heavy after reading how people responded to your last post… To be honest and transparent, I’ll say that after reading it there were a lot of things I didn’t agree with. I’m one of those mainline liberal Protestants you hear about every now and then… And like yourself, my faith in Christ is what centers me.

    And that was the part that resonated with me, the fact that there was a common core with which we could both relate… And that was how our faith in God is what is central to how we navigate the world we live in. I may not agree with everything you do, and I’m assuming that you would not agree with everything that I believe in… But if the Spirit of God is present I believe that civil discourse, guided by our shared faith, can genuinely occur.

    If you are ever looking for that kind of conversation you are always free to reach out.

    Blessings,
    The Rev. Casey Carbone

    1. Hi Casey, wow, thank you so much for this thoughtful response. it seriously means so much. You’re right – we do have that common bond in Christ, and that is a beautiful thing. And it’s true – those respectful conversations foster healing and understanding. 🙂 big hugs to you xox

  23. I believe this post is referring to your post from the other day concerning the horrible tragedy that occurred in Vegas, I am sure that most people that have an opinion about something like that do not really fathom the scope of those events – thankfully. However, the reality is, that events like these always evoke strong emotions and those emotions are not quelled very easily. What happened in Vegas is the prime example of evil run amok. It cannot be explained, it cannot be removed from our society. Although, we should try to prevent it, it cannot be stopped…

    …at least not by human means…

    I do not consider myself a “believer” in the same sense that you might, but what I do know is that evil cannot exist, if there was not a God to call it evil. But although evil exists, it is not because of God, but because of free will – and free will is the only thing that we human beings have dominion.

    And there is no one, absolutely no one, that can honestly explain the individual tragedies we traverse in our individual lives. Your struggle with anorexia, your singleness (Trust me, sometimes that’s a total blessing), or your infertility has nothing to do with God loving you. Being Catholic, you already know that anything to do with human suffering has its roots in Adam & Eve’s original sin, and the Jesus’ saving act on the cross is what relieves your soul of human suffering; reconciliation is for the decisions YOU make…

    Ugh…people’s judgment piss me off and I don’t even consider myself anywhere near holy….ugh!

    1. You asked questions at the end of your post, that I didn’t even answer:

      Do you believe in His unfailing love to you?
      Truthfully, I don’t know that I do…I find my life a struggle and my dealing with what some might consider “temptations” to be….hmmm…not evil

      Hearing that, how does it make you feel?
      Worse…lol

      Can you trust Him?
      Truthfully, I do not.

      What could happen if you were to trust Him?
      I don’t know how.

      1. thank you for answering those questions. My answers to those questions definitely took a long time to evolve. It always helped me to remember how patient He is with us 🙂 Hugs and love xox

    2. Thanks for this thoughtful response. Yeah, it really was such a tragic day. And you’re right, it brought up a lot of really strong emotion for everyone. Thanks for your kind words. Hugs and love xox

  24. I didn’t love your post… But, this is your blog… It should be your safe space…

    Besides, I think if we can’t hear out a different opinion… We will never learn or grow. On both sides of any disagreement…

    I’m sorry that that happened. But, I love your response here. Way to be the bigger person and live in love and faith ❤️❤️

    1. Thank you so much for this encouragement and kindness, Cinn. I love your outlook!! it’s so true – respectful dialogue, where everyone brings their perspectives and personal experiences brings healing and understanding. I love learning from others so much. Thank for your support and kindness. Hugs and love xox

  25. Unfortunately, the horrible violence that happened gave way to more verbal violence in the reactions of some. I appreciate more than you know that you have continued reading my now rare posts, and I know you can see I agree with what you wrote in Monday’s post about those reactions. I was reminded last night that some of the hard things we go through may be considered sharing in the suffering of Christ. 1 Peter 4:12-19 You might want to read a bit more of the chapter than just those. Reminding yourself of this truth may help you find the firm footing to keep moving forward. In the love of Christ, Melissa

    1. Thanks so much for this, Melissa, I really appreciate it. I’ll definitely check out that passage. I do love that verse. it brings such comfort and hope. Thanks for stopping by. Hugs and love xox

  26. Negative feedback from your last blog? I put it up on my facebook page and two people forwarded it from me and support you. God bless your vulnerability. With some of the horrible comments from people regatding the Las Vegas shooting, I am convinced evil looms large on the earth and it hit your blog.

  27. I needed this. Since anorexia, I can’t love myself. I can’t be emotional or vulnerable. It’s something I’m working towards in recovery. I need God’s unfailing love even though I feel like I don’t deserve it. Please pray for me on this journey! Xoxo

    1. Hi Caitlin, thank you so much for sharing your story. Yes, I will pray for you so hard, my friend. You do deserve it. You deserve His love more than anything. Sending such big hugs xox

  28. I am sorry you received so much negative feedback. It’s brave to put your thoughts out there, and people can agree or disagree without being mean about it. You are a great writer and I hope you don’t let it get you down. Also, God is not going to curse you or anyone. God loves you.

  29. I just read Monday’s post and I couldn’t agree more with everything you said. You are entitled to your opinion and you shouldn’t be shamed for having a difference of opinion. Pay no attention to the hateful words that were said.

    You are a remarkable young woman. Not only are you a survivor of anorexia, you shamelessly speak of God’s work in your life, daily. You are a beacon of hope and a witness of Christ’s transforming love.

    You are a ray of sunshine in a darkened world and have made beauty of your ashes, encouraging others to do the same.

    You are a woman after Gods own heart. I can’t imagine him being any prouder. 🙂

    1. Hi Penelope, thank you so much for your kind words. I really appreciate your support, and I’m glad the post resonated with you. Gosh, I am seriously so touched by your affirmation. You’ve absolutely brightened my day. big big super de duper hugs 🙂

  30. Christ died, willingly for my sins and the sins of the entire human race. So that we might, if we have the use for it, face God without fear of judgment. That is the greatest example I have for how I am to live, to give up my self will out of love. Those whom I might be the least comfortable with are most deserving of that compassion. Scatter Love and Light

  31. Caralyn, being open and honest about your viewpoint is welcome and refreshing. You are on this earth to please God not man. The negative and hurtful remarks say much more about the people making them than you. You are a beautiful loving person. Don’t let anyone steal you idenity by their own negativity. I am cheering you on. Go and continue to be yourself. Xoxox Hugs!!!

  32. When I write something and feel that the words have passed through the heart and that express true feelings; which distil images of my memory and things learned; that writing can be meaningful to someone, be useful, and to help you in your circumstances, then I feel a great pleasure, and it is a joy in my mind; when I can do it.

    In these moments there is a spiritual communion between what I feel, what words express, and with all those who can be fed by them; with those that only the words and the Spirit of the Lord may be; and my soul rejoice.

    As a principle, I always ask the Lord for permission, Light, and pertinence to express the good. It is an attitude of faith that emanates and converges towards the Centre which is Jesus the Lord.

    His whole history is alive, and all that He did, does and will do, is out of love, for His Father, and through His Church, His people.

    Knowing this, my faith is strengthened because it trusts, my Hope is animated because He Reigns, my soul is consoled and rests in Him because it finds shelter, like a river that meets the sea.

    Because He has risen and because we believe in a Living God, He encourages me to persist and to stand by His side.

    Knowing that to Him everything is possible, that all Power belongs to Him, “I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death.” (Revelation 1:18), and reserves His treasures and gifts to those who are faithful to Him.

    And to all who, in faith, believing, accepting and invoking Him, in Spirit and Truth, will be called to His Way, His Truth and His Life; with the hope of attaining His Kingdom and Eternal Life.

    But exhort one another daily, while it is called To day; lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin. Hebrews 3:13

  33. Those people that told you you were cursed by God – and that your singleness, infertility and history with anorexia were all signs of said curse – are just not true Christians. God is LOVE – you are loved by Christ. Ultra right Christians and the fundamentals and literalists are the greatest threat there is to Christianity in the U.S. today.

  34. Wow, so sorry people were so mean. There’s so much ugly out there right now. I’ll take a good debate, but personal attacks are never fun.

    1. Hey Jennifer, thank you so much for your kind words. Yes! I’m all for a healthy and respectful and spirited conversation! That’s where healing and understanding grows! But yeah – respect is the key word 🙂 thanks for stopping by! Hugs and love xox

  35. Hello sweet, beautiful amazing woman. Please always remember you are exactly what God made you, you are Gods child and He loves you. We all have our personal struggles and thats ok because every struggle is a step toward deeper faith.

    God is, has and always will be God and God will do what God does, in Gods time when the time is right. This is your time. God has sent His blessing of support to you through all of us that have been led to read this post, sit down and respond to your pain. He looked into your heart and saw your pain. Right this very moment He is working to give you everything you need to get through this.

    I know that people can be consumed with evil, say and do cruel things, be insensitive to others and judge everyone except themselves. When they are who they are, we have to look toward God and pray that one day they too find His grace.

    Let go of any doubts they created, be amazing, kind and the lovely, beautiful soul God intended … and then … pray for them.

    Be well, always my friend.

  36. Awesome stuff and very inspired. I read the other day that faith is closing your eyes and opening your heart. I ask for that faith every day and God never lets me down. ‘For thou art my lamp, Oh Lord: and the Lord will lighten my darkness.’
    Thanks for the great post and God bless and keep you.

  37. Be still and know that I am God. Psalm 46.10
    I have learned to believe Him when He says this to me when evil brushes past me, casting it’s dark shadow, and leaving me chilled to the bone and downcast within.

  38. Whoever said those things to you does not understand Christian love. Jesus loved us when we were wretched sinners….the Bible emphasizes this in Romans 5:8. This whole chapter emphasizes that some people might die for the righteous, but Jesus knew us for who we were, in need of his mercy and his forgiveness. I am so thankful for His mercy and his unconditional love today.

  39. So sorry you were subjected to that kind of ignorance after your post on Monday. I truly believe mental illness is a crisis in our country, but the greater crisis is that we’ve lost our ability as a society to constructively and respectfully disagree. Keep doing what you’re doing. God bless.

  40. “…sometimes we seal off our thoughts with our emotions, and that suffocates the healthy healing from understanding. You know, finding that way for making enough sense to stop the hurt”

  41. It is amazing how in all things, the negative outweighs the positive. You have so many beautiful characters and they show in your posts. As hard as it is, throw away the negatives and focus on the positives. Yours is a ministry that touches many. The poor we will always have among us Jesus taught, and that was not just referring to economic status. May God shine on your efforts, your future, and your heart.

  42. Don’t apologize for being real. It takes guts to be authentic than to sit behind a screen and tell people they are cursed. “Don’t judge others just because they sin differently than you.” People can go screw off. I admire your authenticity. <3

  43. Personally I think bravery exhibited by individuals who are sincere and bold and who stand for the right things is exhilarating and refreshing. The nuances of soft sentiment aren’t tailored to reality sometimes. The reality is you are a person. The reality is you’re going to have an opinion no matter how many lives you uplift. People who you truly uplift will appreciate you candor and individuality. You are one of my favorite writers. You are brave and an individual and I appreciate your literature.

  44. Nevel apologize for speaking the truth. Like George Orwell said, telling the truth in a world of deceit is a revolutionary act. The book of Galatians, am I therefore become your enemy because I tell you the truth.

  45. We can and will never control how someone else chooses to be offended, or for what reasons they choose to lash out at anyone. why should we be expected to be held responsible for someone else’s choosings? we aren’t. they choose what they want to be offended by. you choose to be a light anyway. Those who are offended when truth is placed before them may have unsettled issues that need resolving. and light helps expose those issues.

  46. When I read about the responses you got, I had to go back and reread your post to see if I missed something. Nope, didn’t miss anything. What the internet allows people to do is vomit without getting themselves dirty. Would these people dare say those hateful things to your face? I doubt it. And if they would, then it just shows what cloth they are made of and who their father is, the father of lies.

  47. Not that my opinion counts much. But, hey it’s the blogosphere. So, I will just say this. People filled with negativity are prone to crassness. They are metaphorically speaking much like buzzards flitting about looking for the next scrap to grind down. And that’s precisely the point awkwardly made. Don’t let the buzzards grind you down. If the words you speak are offered with love and meant only to engage in honest opinion and insight kindly put, then haven’t you done what the Lord has asked of us? Well, at least half. The other half is to listen. But nowhere in the Bible is there the admonition that “Thou shall be as a doormat”. Just forgiving and walking in truth and light. sighs quietly as he realizes once again that he’ll never get the idea of 25 words or less…. Be well, be still, and know that you are loved by God and fondly thought of by most who read your words.. I think that’s what I really meant.

    1. Thanks so much for your kind words. yeah, that’s so true – I can’t let it get me down. And yes – listening is half of conversing. Thanks for the encouragement. Hugs and love xox

  48. Apparently I AM CURSED TOO …not! But my illness is supposedly a curse.
    It is odd that I would write this comment but I am SO glad you shared the negative comments because I was worried it was just me that got the judgment and the harassment. Just knowing that you have had this too makes me fell less alone. We DO put ourselves out there and we DO know that God knows us and that those people truly do not matter. Still hurts some days though and is frustrating to hear it after everything we have been through overcoming. So thank you for sharing

    1. Hey Bethany, thanks so much for your encouragement. You’re right, God knows us. He knows our hearts and His is the opinion that matters. Not some internet troll, cowardly bullying people anonymously from behind a computer screen. Thanks for stopping by and for sharing your beautiful heart! Hugs and love xox

      1. I have had quite the relentless bully myself. All I know is that after everything I have been through in my life, I may get knocked down but God lifts me back up, reminds me how I have overcome and am a survivor. And so are you. Love and hugs back at you

  49. Good post – really challenging, and something that I need to hear and pray about!
    I appreciated your post earlier this week; because of your always unexpected and refreshing way of saying opinions that might not fit with what everyone wants to hear, but more because of what you really came to say: That we should all grieve with Las Vegas. Never mind politics, regrets, and blaming everyone else. It is time to grieve with those who grieve.
    So – hearts, prayers, tears, with Las Vegas!

    1. thanks so much 🙂 Yes – so so many prayers for Vegas, and for the world too! amen – we need to grieve with the grieving. Thanks for your encouraging words. big hugs to you friend xox

  50. I don’t believe in God,any god. But when I read your posts they make me THINK. Therein lies their value for me. Your last post’s main message for me was that the damaged people will find a way to commit harm. I am deeply sorry that you were personally vilified for your opinions. Those people are also damaged.
    Please keep sharing your thoughts on your own life and the world. Being in the UK they stimulate my waking few minutes of thoughtfulness.

  51. Caralyn, don’t worry about the naysayers. When Jesus spoke, He was no shrinking violet, Jesus challenged people’s thinking. He made enemies, the Pharisees hated him and all they wanted was to get rid of hIm. Some people are like the Pharisees. Jesus didn’t save everybody either, not because He didn’t want to, but because they were spiritually blind. One can be a fan of Jesus Christ but a follower takes risks and puts themselves in the spotlight even when they know it’s going to be hard, but God will reward those who follow Him and His Son Jesus Christ. Mathew 10 :14 If a nnyone will not welcome you or listen to your words, leave that home or town and shake the dust off your feet. Keep following the one who will raise you up no matter what. I’d rather be judged by God than by men. God bless you.

    1. Aw thank you for such kind words. It means the world. Yes. Shake the dust off – that’s one of my mom’s favorite tid bits of advice too. Powerful stuff. Hugs and love xox

  52. I had to go back and look at your last post again, because I don’t recall having read anything untoward or inflammatory. Quite the opposite.

    Not everyone wants to hear the truth. Remember that Jesus spoke the

    1. My comment got cut off! No matter. Keep hanging on and remember that opposition simply means that you are headed in tbe right direction! Let your light continue to shine!

      1. It was definitely user error on my part – I accidentally hit the enter key too soon! I hope you are feeling better – don’t let the naysayers get you down. Chances are they they are lacking peace themselves, and they try to steal the peace and joy from those who already seem to have it. After all, people often critique that which they do not understand.

  53. Sorry to hear about the backlash from your previous post. Keep writing what’s on your heart. True, you will always have a lot of people who won’t agree with your message but your words are ministering to a lot of other people who need hope.

    “Radical trust”
    I love that! It really ministered to me today!
    Bless you

    Rolain

  54. I’m really sorry to hear you had such awful things said to you. Sadly there are cowards out there who use the protection of their screens to say many things they wouldn’t dare to say in real life. These people clearly need to take a long, hard look at themselves and likely spend a good while in therapy sorting themselves out. I am a firm believer in that what others say and do to us reflects far more on their own issues and insecurities. So remember, what they said wasn’t actually about you. Sadly a lovely person like you got scapegoated. I am not a religious person but yet I still enjoy and get value from your posts, and if I disagree that’s fine. I take what I need from what you write and leave the rest. If I reply, I always try to be balanced and remember you are as human as I am. As some of us say over here in the UK, “chin up, chuck!”. Take care, look forward to reading more posts in the future xxx

    1. Thanks so much Natalie, I really appreciate your kind words of encouragement. I’m so glad you’ve been enjoying my posts – that makes me smile 🙂 chin up Chuck! Haha yes!! Love it! Thanks for stopping by. Hugs and love xox

  55. It’s 4:37 am in the morning and here trying to bring a smile to your face. Well lets break some brass tax shall we. As a person i dont always agree with your post. However at times i must speak. Today is one of those days. You are a beautiful young woman with amazing long brown hair that would make my sister mad. Sometimes your post are going to hit a nerve with some people. I know you hit a few nerves with me many a Time. You frustrate me sometimes. But that’s good because she made me pray more. Did you see the tribulation your face right now how to get closer to God. I forget to mention you have a nice smile too. I have enjoyed seeing it in photos for many years now. Buy it must stop right now because I can’t share all my secrets with you.

  56. On both your post and your except; what fantastic words to hear for me today.

    Putting yourself out there takes boldness – doing it openly and honestly takes God’s help. Doing it consistently in love is a gift.

    And see….how your armor develops. Because it is no longer yours.

    Shielded by God’s concern, and your unwavering push to do the best, write the best, be the best you can for yourself and others – you are touching lives around the globe.

    In this desperately strange time for America, I send you a huge, warm African simile, and the assurance that you are making a difference.

    Onward.

    1. Wow Kreemer, this seriously touched my heart so much. Thank you with all my heart. I love that image of the armor. That’s my favorite bible passage from Ephesians about putting on the armor of God. Thank you for this incredible affirmation. Hugs and love xox

  57. I am sorry you are sorry. You have survived genuine dangers and threats galore. How can you say anything of value without some people judging you? The anonymous, virtual, “ideasphere” seems to embolden dark vicious words for anyone who disagrees with them. Stay bold. You are valuable. You do not have to coddle those who huddle in cohorts of anger.

  58. I’m so sorry you’ve experienced such unkind interaction. You continue to inspire me with how you’ve persevered, grown your blog & published a book. And I love the little gifs you add in. All amazing. Don’t be dulled or distracted by naysayers.
    God’s abundant blessings to you. ❤

  59. I’m sorry to hear, of the thoughtless words spoken. You know, you’re such a leader, and you write with such care.
    … and you know what to do in such a situation

    A great Ps. quote. I hope you… are experiencing His love
    🙂

  60. Shake that off, don’t let that negativity affect you like that. With regards to the gun violence, I live in Canada and I am 40 years old and maybe saw a gun twice in my life. The process of getting a gun can here takes years and I know a lot of respectable decent people who were’t even successful in getting a permit for carrying a gun. I think there needs to be something done regarding gun reform in the states, it blows me away that this stuff keeps happening.
    All that said, we all have our opinions and we agree and disagree, that is what we do as human beings but never let any of that impact who you really are and how you really feel. Take care.

    1. Thank you so much Ash. I really appreciate this thoughtful response. You’re so right, respectful dialogue can be really enlightening and I appreciate hearing everyone’s different viewpoints and beliefs. Thanks for your encouragement 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  61. The Scriptures say something about the “armor of Light” that we must wear.
    Keep pressing on in your unique path. You’re never alone.
    Things will gradually become more intense. But we will continue to grow stronger in the Lord.

  62. Not that anybody can tell you what to say and do, but never apologize for being you! The way you are wired makes you a decent person. Actually one of the few that has their head on straight these days.Keep feeling and keep writing! God Bless You!

  63. I’m disgusted by the vile nature of human beings, you are perfectly entitled to voice your experience and for those who don’t like it they don’t have to read it. I can’t understand why anyone would negatively comment on your struggles, when personal struggle is part of the human experience and is something we often use to learn from or hopefully better us as people.

    Personally, I don’t think you owe anyone an apology, as the only way we can move forward as a people is by honest and open discussion. It’s okay for people to disagree but to intentionally attempt to attack you (especially without really experiencing your struggle) personally shows a lack of character, understanding or empathy and is more a reflection a very limited capacity of understanding.

    1. Hi Tyrone, thank you so much. I completely. I love respectful and open dialogue! It fosters understanding and enlightenment, but respect is the key word there 🙂 thanks for your kind words. Hugs and love xox

  64. I’m so sorry for your pain Caralyn! It is truly sad that people feel a need to attack so personally and I’m sorry that you were hurt! Differences of opinion and the ability to choose our own opinions are a beautiful thing and a blessing that we have in this country. We get to become better people when we can have honest, peaceful and kind dialogue, respecting one another. Thank you for sharing your heart and for trusting in God and His goodness as you continue to be vulnerable and let Him guide you. I pray you have a close circle of trusted friends and family that love and care for you just as you are…beautiful and worthy! Blessings to you!

    1. Hi Kristin, thank you so much. You’re so right – it’s a beautiful thing and that’s what makes the world an interesting and beautiful place! That’s our freedom at work! Thank you for your prayers and kindness. Hugs and love xox

  65. i’m sorry people had bad things to say about your last post. i enjoyed what you wrote. i will never understand why people feel the need to go so negative when they don’t agree with something. keep up the amazing posts!

  66. Haven’t read the post from Monday, going to check it out now. Still, no matter what someone’s opinion may be, there is no excuse for such vitriol. I’m sorry that happened to you. Praying God lifts you up today and every day after.

  67. Coming from Northern (over 3000 death during the 1969-1998 conflict) I will never understand American gun legislation. So, yes, I didn’t agree with everything you wrote in your post. But you are entitled to your opinion and you expressed it intelligently and eloquently. I would never disrespect a fellow blogger. I hope this hasn’t discouraged you and pray you keep inspiring others. ❤️🙏🏻😊

    1. Thank you so much for your kind words and thoughtful response. Absolutely not, I really do appreciate hearing everyone’s opinions and perspectives. I love learning from other people . It’s such a beautiful thing to have an open and respectful dialogue where people bring their different life experiences and beliefs to the table. So honestly, i really appreciate you sharing your thoughts. Big hugs to you xox

  68. I’m sorry people were so disgusting to you! It’s sad how people can’t just disagree, and they have to bring personal insults into it. I think you’ve handled it well. 🙂

    1. thanks so much, friend. You’re right – disagreeing is totally fine! it’s part of our freedom, actually, to hold our own beliefs, and i love hearing everyone’s opinions and learning from others’ perspectives. It’s when the disagreeing turns into personal attacks that it gets troublesome. Thank you for your encouragement. it means the world. Hugs and love xox

  69. Kid I didnt agree with all you put but I hope I wasn’t mean at all! If so I am so sorry. Your blog and your views. What I don’t agree with I scroll. So if it was me I am, again, so very sorry

    1. Hey Tony! Oh gosh, no not at all! Definitely not you. I love a good, healthy dialogue! Truly. I love learning from other people’s perspectives and opinions. that how we form understanding and mutual respect! and we’re allowed to disagree! it’s when the disagreeing turns into a personal attack that’s not cool. And that definitely was not you. I appreciate you sharing your thoughts and giving me some food for thought 🙂 big hugs to you friend xox

      1. Whew!! Ok I just wanted to be sure. And I know you are always open to respectful comments. And we can’t agree on everything. I mean sometimes you are just wrong, Mojitos??? EWWWW 🙂

        Take care kid, hugs back, and as always I am SO proud of you. You are truly amazing

    1. thanks so much for this affirmation. i think you’re absolutely right – disagreeing is totally fine! and healthy even, when people have a respectful and open dialogue. It’s when it becomes a personal attack that is troublesome. thanks for stopping by. big hugs ox

  70. I can say “pay no attention to them” but that’s really impossible. You put yourself out there, they jumped on your vulnerability.

    What I find helpful when I’m truly attacked (versus imaginarily attacked – a phenomenon I create all the time) is to develop a good filter on what my nemeses are saying. Here are some of the games being played:

    Transference – They call names because they are called names. They shame you because they are shamed.
    Hidden motives – That is, the motive exposed in the personal attack is different that the real root. And people don’t even know they’re doing it. Fear is the biggest one here. In this case, people put themselves in Las Vegas at the concert. That could be a great exercise in empathy but it turns into a frantically fleeing mob. So what do you do about that fear? Get with a tribe, blame something (anything) and attack it. Ban it, burn it, whatever.
    Tribal allegiance – both left and right have well developed by juvenile-ly hateful tribe-speak. They draft memes that cast completely inaccurate motives on their enemies and demand compliance to whatever communication or action specified. I want to get a puppet emoticon for this one.

    Anyway, you’re right, you ARE loved. Nothing anyone said, says, or will say can ever change that.

    Peace to you.

    1. thank you os much for this beautiful perspective. Gosh, so much to learn from here. I think you’re right – fear makes people say and do a lot of things that they wouldn’t normally. And especially right after such a horrifying event, people want someone or something to blame as a way to heal or to alleviate that fear. Anywho, thank you for your kind affirmation, here and on the post itself. big hugs to you xox

  71. For some unknown reason (unknown to me lol) I had unfollowed you. Didnt mean to. I’m sorry some people lashed out at you. I believe we all have a right to our own opinions. I think if we disagree, we can do that nicely. I have failed at that in the past. I hope I never do again.

    1. Hey friend! oh gosh, no worries. You’re so right – disagreeing is totally okay! It’s part of our freedom, actually! disagreeing doesn’t have to be attacking. that’s the long and short of it. thanks for your kind words of encouragement. big hugs xo

  72. Thank you for your last two posts. I was actually wondering about the backlash you might receive. Although I only scanned both of your last posts, I had some thoughts about describing the shooter in Las Vegas as mentally ill. I’m currently in graduate school for social work and I know that God has me in a season of “double-refinement” of being able to sift things of this world and filter it through a Biblical world view. It has been a rather challenging season, laden with God’s peace underneath, quite an interesting experience.

    With that said, I did take issue NOT with you, rather with your words calling the man mentally ill – though, not the same level as times in history such as the Rwandan genocide in 1994 or the Holocaust in the 1930s and 1940s, but so much of the research following atrocities such as this past weekend, seek to determine WHY people do what they do. What researchers found after the Holocaust is that if people could claim that an authority above them ordered them to commit something awful, then that person was “off the hook” and could use that as the reason they did what they did, “It was an order, and I follow orders.” Other current research in America reveals that in fact something like less than 10% of the people who commit mass manslaughter or massacres are actually indeed mentally ill. And that our label of mentally ill comes with so much behind it that is often offensive to people who do indeed struggle with mental illness.

    Now I realize, that you and me, we both see the spiritual undertones of what is happening, that true evil does indeed exist. That there is a very real enemy of our hearts, our communities, our nations and our world. Satan. He manipulates and his demons delude and deceive people here on earth. At the same time, God has given us FREE WILL. Probably one of the most radical gifts, third to Jesus and Holy Spirit, He could have ever given us. WE get to choose, WE decide whether or not to submit to a supreme and radically loving God.

    I hesitate, in times of grief and processing the atrocities that seem so common place now (or maybe we are just more aware of it because of instant communication) to explain what happened and why. Because —– I think that, even if it’s unintended, our explanations actually serve to justify and give excuses for why people do what they do and actually takes away their power of choice. “The devil made me do it.” Well God always gives us an out! ALWAYS and we can choose to hear that or not.

    In conclusion, the discussion you brought to light is layered and complex; there are so many different factors to take into consideration in sensitive times like these. And bottom line, this world is only going to get worse. Yet, as human beings, I hold firmly to the power of our choice and our ability to choose for ourselves our actions.

    I think what you wrote is important. I think your feelings, your thoughts, your expression is valid AND needed! We NEED this dialogue and Yes, you experienced flack, you were met with hate, with misunderstanding, but the conversation shouldn’t stop there. It MUST continue, or else things will align back right to the sick way that they were instead of opening up a door for healing and reconciliation, if not forgiveness. Things are so easily swept under the rug and kept there and then eventually it leaks out, it has to, at some point.

    In full self-disclosure, I have been personally so hurt by other Christians, not only in label, but those who seek and follow Jesus to the best of their ability. That is a thorn in my side and I have to be careful not to let that jade me. It’s almost those we are supposed to be most unified with that hurt us the most. People calling you a heretic or blasphemous or insensitive or possessed of WHAT HAVE YOU. Those statements are loaded and there is always more to the story. Those people may be venting on you – they may have had a daughter die in the massacre, maybe the massacre triggered others unprocessed feelings, maybe there is an entire back story to their position – but what we see and hear and experience is the top of the iceberg, with all the rest just under the surface.

    Thank you for continuing to be bold. Even in your post showing Trump praying for our nation – I voted against him and believe he is the epitome of everything that is shitty in America, I believe that a narcissistic America has created a monster – that Trump is the sick fruit and product of a nation that is going downhill real fast. His election was a crisis in faith for me. And at the end of all of it, God placed people in power in Biblical times that were awful, he hardened Pharaoh’s heart, Pharaoh who was responsible for the enslavement of God’s people – God put HIM into power also – or allowed it rather. We might have differing political views, but in the end, God is sovereign and we NEED more dialogue and more people like you to be bold and continue to use your God-given platform to do the hard and radical things.

    So I honor you and thank you for continuing to be faithful in your walk with Jesus and sharing so vulnerably.

    1. Wow, Nathalie, I am so moved by this thoughtful response. thank you so much for sharing your heart and your thoughts. Wow, what an incredible position you’re in, going into social work, and also being a Christian. That “double refinement” is going to change a lot of lives, i just know it. And thank you for this powerful perspective. It’s true – it’s just the tip of the iceberg, but we need to continue these open, honest and respectful dialogues, because that’s where we can foster understanding and healing. thanks again. Hugs and love xox

  73. I was one who made harsh comments and I regret how harsh I was. I’m sorry. I got swept up in an emotional reaction and while I stand by the content of the statement I made, I wish I’d expressed it in a different, more gentle way.

    In your post you used the word heartless… That’s combative, extreme language. I appreciate the desire for healthy debate, but your language set a tone that was divisive and judgemental. I’m not excusing my response or anyone else’s – we are all responsible for our own reactions, no matter what anyone says. However, if you honestly meant to spur healthy debate, I’d advise a “healthier” tone next time, and not one so steeped in vitriol.

    Many advocates for gun policy reform are themselves victims of gun violence or have lost loved ones to gun violence. Action and compassion are inextricably linked.

    I will still unsubscribe, but I wish you well in your journey and once again offer my apology for the harsh comment on Tuesday.

    1. Hi friend, it’s completely okay, and honestly I was not referring at all to our exchange. Disagreeing is okay, and honestly, having an honest and open and respectful dialogue is healthy and it can foster understanding and healing. So I am all for it, and knew that it was going to be met with a lot of differing opinions and beliefs. And I think a lot of it was an extreme emotional reaction by people. Our country was in a state of shock and fear, and that can lead people to do and say a lot of things they wouldn’t typically say – or at least express in such a way. And finding someone or something to blame is a way to alleviate that fear, so I get it. Thanks for offering this perspective for me to think and pray about. Again, I’ll be sad to see you go, but I hope to see you around the blogosphere 🙂 big hugs to you xo

  74. I have learned that it is impossible to please everyone, so I stopped trying. I must please God and myself. Everyone else is just gravy. God is love, if you let him he will take you all the way home to Heaven, he has already done all of the work of salvation. If you want him, it is impossible to mess that up!
    Ignore the grumpy Gertrudes in your life that only want you to fail, so that they can feel better about themselves.
    Love ya

  75. I don’t know what is happening Caralyn, three attempts at posting didn’t work. Here goes again.

    Hi Caralyn. I am saddened to hear that you received a lot of backlash and criticism from your previous post. I thought something was up, because I never got a hug back from you after my comments. And your hugs are always so warm and loving, with Christ in the centre, I love them.
    I read some of the negativity thrown your way, particularly the one you mentioned in your post today, that was an attack against you from the enemy in his pit. When you are doing something good, talking about Jesus, and the Life He will give people, attacks do come.
    Honestly, I literally felt sick when I read that comment, as well as disgusted. If I did not know God personally, know His Word, know His Son as my Saviour, and know the work of the Holy Spirit in my life, ( and from your writing and sharing, I know that you know the same Triune God as I do, and worship Him), and if I thought the person who wrote those sickening, disgusting words of curse against you was a Christian, I would want no part of the god that person is following, because it certainly is not the GOD of the Bible.
    Caralyn, I continue to pray for you, particularly now, and asking Jesus to protect your mind, body, soul and spirit. I am praying for all curses spoken against you to be removed, in The Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, and that His Shed Blood would cleanse, and wipe every evil thought and word away that was sent towards you.
    You are a Light in the darkness Caralyn, with the Light of Christ shining forth from you to shine back to Him, through your words and life,

    God Bless you my Good Friend,
    Luv you a bunch. 😀🌹❤️
    George.

    P.s. your book arrived Tuesday, so I will be getting to reading it, and passing it on to a friend in need. Thank you,

    1. Oh wow, George, this is such a lovely and encouraging comment. thank you so much. I am truly touched, and i’m just sitting here smiling, grateful for the friend I have in you. You always know just what to say to brighten my day. Yeah, it was a bit of a sobering dose of reality after publishing that. But you’re right – that is not the God of the bible, and praise Jesus that God is loving and compassionate and accepts us with all our flaws and has only good plans for us. He doesn’t promise that it will be pain free, but even in the pain, we have the opportunity to grow closer to the Father and cling to His goodness, and strengthen our faith. any who, thank you again for the beautiful and continued prayers for my family and I. I will keep you and your friend in need in my prayers. 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  76. Unfortunately there are people who will attack you if you do not mirror their exact views. I follow Dr. Turley on Youtube and I think he said it well when he said it is NOT guns but a lack of morality and the presence of unbridled evil that is the heart of such events (I paraphrase). His point is that there are some, unfortunately, who wish to control everyone’s environment instead of teaching firm right and wrong, etc. I agree with you that gun control is not the answer. That does not mean I am a terrible person, nor are you. It means we are logical and critical thinkers. I’m sure my comment will be attacked by narrow minded control freaks bent on shutting down any free exchange of ideas that do not agree with their point of view. Stay strong. You are NOT under a curse. Life happens. We live in a fallen world. I’m glad to see you are not allowing anyone to put their broken crap on you, Sweet Caralyn.

    1. Hi Melissa, thank you so much for this beautiful response. I’ll have to check out Dr. Turley’s videos. Sounds like a powerful speaker. And I love how you put that : a free exchange of ideas. That’s exactly right! we all are allowed to have our own opinions and perspectives, and when we can respectfully and openly have a dialogue about them, it really is a beautiful thing 🙂 thanks again, friend. Hugs and love xox

  77. Yeah, i believe in the unfailing Love of God <3 He breathed His breath into us..He continues to!He lifts us up. we fail, He continues to lift us up until He finishes His Art Work.. His Love, beyond comparison, beyond description.. Beyond <3

  78. Friend, I am so sorry to hear of the negative comments on your blog…that sounds so hurtful. Our political opinions about guns certainly do not relate to our relationship with God, with the health of our bodies, or our relationship status. I’m sorry you were wounded. It’s clear from your posts that you love the Lord, that He has healed your body from many things, and that you are gorgeous girl! I don’t see a curse ❤️.

  79. Great post Carolyn. Negative comments I definitely can relate. I get them all the time from my blog & YouTube channel. Just continue to seek Christ for love, strength, and comfort. Also ignore the noise. Reminder: when people attack you like that including getting personal, they are led by demonic spirits. So keep the faith in Christ and have a blessed day.

  80. People seem to get easily offended these days, there isn’t much of the ‘agree to disagree’ attitude. There’s no need to be that personal whatever your said. You’re awesome ok? ☺️

  81. Your feelings were in your post, some words were stirring because of the pain you felt. Could it have been written in a different way, sure. I didn’t agree with everything, but I knew when you wrote it you FELT what you wrote. You were upset, and you were passionate. I know you didn’t mean any ill well, so I just answered you like I tend to do with talking about discussion stuff 🙂 and I’m glad we were able to talk about stuff more because of your post, cause I said, I always enjoy talking to you. 🙂

    And even if your words weren’t the best, cause no one is perfect, that DOES NOT give anyone else, the right to lash out at another person. Talking in a civil manner, sure. Talking with gentleness and kindness is better. Girl, you’re not perfect, and I’m sorry people lashed out the way they did. Cause, I firmly believe, if they had openly just said, “You know, what you said kinda hurt me. For…these reasons.” You would have talked. You would have furthered the discussion. No problems necessary. But we as believers just…struggle with that, for some reason I guess. It isn’t Christlike either.

    And I love how you wrote the piece you shared for your book, I can see it really helping others, and give glory to God. Praise His unfailing love. 🙂 <3 thanks for sharing!

    1. thanks so much for this thoughtful response, TR. Yeah, there’s something beautiful about an open dialogue where everyone can share and come together and learn from each other. you gave me so much powerful food for thought, and for that I am very grateful. hugs to you friend xo

  82. Your previous post was not offensive, I’m surprised to hear there was negative reaction to it. Anyone wishing others to suffer, regardless of what they have done, is engaging in evil behavior. I pray that God reveals himself to these people. And this post is actually more uplifting than you imagine, because there’s nothing more uplifting than trusting God with our lives. 🙂

  83. I know God’s loving arms are there for you to fall into. Give it all to Him and lean into His unconditional love and peace. You are a wonderful writer and I appreciate your vulnerability.

  84. Love you as always! I am proud of you for writing what is on your heart, you put yourself out there. You are a hero and so not cursed I cannot tell you how wrong they are. Some people are just idiots, love, just ignore them and do your thing. You totally rock, beautiful! Hugs!😄❤

  85. I don’t wish for that level of criticism to be left for you and I think it is magnificent that you can forgive that, even if you are required to delete the words in question from your blog. It is crushing that something such as your post is interrupted by thoughtlessness, especially when you are writing for many people and it distracts from what needs to be done for all of us. Twitter sends me emails with my most major tweets that have been by my way and I see you there from time to time, meaning that you’re prominent, along with others some of who I know and some I don’t. I’m a Canadian but of course, I feel tragedy and while I can never feel your same patriotism and love I understand what it means. Your blog’s valuable. I want to get what I think you have, a self-published ebook I understand, too, sometime soon when the timing is opportune.

  86. Now you know, reading this got my blood boiling, that I had to write a word document before responding.
    1. Faith is between you and God.
    2. Only God knows the nature of someone’s heart, faith, and intentions. Therefore, no one is in the position to give reason why you are going through what you’ve been going through.
    3. Going through hardships is purification (Islam). People of faith gain wisdom rather than bemoan their condition. Benefits for example, this blog of yours which is so helpful and inspiring to many (myself included).
    4. Those who use foul language have limited vocabulary, and as such, offer them a dictionary.
    5. When people behave badly, it is not a reflection of you, but rather them.
    6. Don’t allow unhappy people to diminish your light.
    7. Keep shining. Keep smiling.

    “Rising to the top. Give it all you got.” – Keni Burke

    I shall descend from my soapbox now. xoxo

  87. This is an amazing post. Those hateful things come out of the cowardly fingers of those who are bent and broken. People that need your encouragement are listening – keep talking!

  88. I am saddened to hear you have had hateful comments. You write beautiful posts. They won’t be for everyone. Having the courage to say what you are truly thinking is brave. Keep going and moving forward.

  89. As saddened and shocked as I was about the news in Las Vegas, I purposely chose not to listen to the news or follow social media that day. It’s just too upsetting to me to listen to people take such a horrifying event and turn it into yet another political argument. Our nation wants tolerance for so many worthy causes, yet they don’t tolerate views that are in opposition to their own. It’s a very sad situation that people are continually turning to such hurtful remarks, I think if we would just slow down and take a minute, we would realize we’re not as divided as it appears.
    I’m so sorry for the personal attacks. All the best to you.

    1. Thanks Gerri, yeah it was really sad that it wasn’t even 12 hours after it happened and people were turning it political. I just thought it was disrespectful. Thanks so much for your kindness. Hugs and love xox

  90. Hey, just wanted to let you know that you and your story are an inspiration. From what I’ve seen in my life, God uses the darkest parts of our lives to bless the people around us – and us too, ultimately. Like the story of Joseph. Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.”

  91. James 1: 13 ~ When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone;

    Revelation 21:4 ~ He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

  92. Hey Caralyn,
    You have a beautiful spirit and you couldn’t hurt a fly, as the saying goes. So many people take one phrase or one word out of what you say and blow it up and don’t see what you’re trying to say. I’ve experienced this myself. Don’t shrink back but don’t become what their response is, angry and bitter. You are definitely not those things. Your life is a tremendous testimony to God’s life in you. Keep shining!
    KEEP THE LIGHT ON!

  93. Keep it up, your words, your faith, your spirit. We all support you and learn from you. Remember, we never stop learning in life. That is what keeps my eyes open.

  94. I am so truly sorry, but remember Jesus said you are Blessed when people speak evil of you. The enemy is always going to send his agents to try to tear God’s children down but like when the false Prophet had been hired to curse Israel, God would not allow it because NO ONE can curse what God has Blessed and you my friend, ARE BLESSED and as with all attacks, a greater blessing is always on the other side. Love and Prayers!

  95. Wow, beautifully-written response by a woman with a beautiful soul. Keep writing. Keep glorifying God. Stay strong. Stay positive.

    Thank you for sharing this with us,
    God bless.

  96. Hi Carolyn, I was very glad to hear apologies come your way, and not just because I was cheering at what you wrote, but because we are all entitled to our opinion without verbal abuse. The Bible is the record of Jesus words and Jesus by His own admission is the light of the world. The light declares that the evil in the world is what proceeds from men’s hearts, therein lies the problem. Just continue to speak the truth girl and leave the response up to God.

  97. You are beautiful on both the inside and outside. When you are a high profile person as you are then there will be people who wish they could be like you but compensate for the fact that’s not possible by being hurtful to try and build up their own lack of self-worth. It’s a human trait that’s depressing but you have to realize these kind of people are to be pitied because they have issues they seem to be unable to cope with so lash out. The important thing is to have a clear understanding of your own worth. You are valued by so many, and specially by God. So put on your best smile, look in the mirror and tell yourself, “I have value and I’m loved!” You will walk away with a spring in your step. 🙂

    1. aw, Ian, thank you so much for your kind and affirming words. it seriously means the world. Yes! that is a great way to wake up in the morning 🙂 Going to start that little affirmation exercise tomorrow 🙂 Hugs and love xox

  98. I think we all sometimes over react to things we see and read. I also know from experience that not everyone agrees with what we put our there. However; we don’t really do it for their acceptance. We have to tell things the way we see them. I know that you are aware that we have all fallen short of what God would have preferred for us. I also know that we can have a restored relationship to our Heavenly Father through the sacrifice that Jesus made for us. It is so much more then just being saved from the fires of hell. He has given us ALL heavenly blessings in Christ, ALREADY! What a great privilege to be called a child of God and for him to know you as an individual. Not only that, he loved you from before you were born! He knew all the things that you would do, why you would do them, and how much it would mean to you. He loves you anyway. You are not cursed, but blessed. Enjoy your relationship with Jesus.

  99. I haven’t had a chance to read your other post yet, but I absolutely LOVED your term, “Radical Trust” in this post 🙂 My family is going through that right now with God, and it’s amazing how vast and deep and wide His love is for us! I’m sorry for the hurtful comments you received with your other post. Please keep on writing and sharing your heart. God is using you, and your writing is a blessing and inspiration to so many!

  100. When your identity is fully formed in Him, it will not matter what others think of you or say about you. Jesus was not moved from his intimacy with the Father by the attacks of the enemy and the slanderous minions. I used to want to make everyone happy, but then I got kicked out of a church for being pro-life, and I stopped caring what other people thought, because I knew I was being obedient to God. Also, if you learn to praise God when being attacked, it will cause the devil to stop inciting that behavior. The last thing he wants is to hear praise to God in the face of his actions 🙂

    1. Thank you so much Jefferis, for this thoughtful response. That’s really great advice. And that’s actually what tonight’s post is about! 🙂 thanks for sharing your story. Hugs and love xox

  101. It seems that you are a strong person after reading your post. We all have our stories and they truly are worth sharing, especially when they are as motivating as yours. Go girl! Thanks for the like ❤

  102. Thank you for your courage and for your willingness to be honest with us. While people can be ugly and hateful it take a person who is empowered by the Grace of God to stand in the shadow of uglyness and respond with grace to those who have treated us with contempt. Continue to share the Love of God through your blog and testimony.

  103. From the start of this month I’ve been on a journey: rediscovering the truth of God’s love for me. I had gotten to the point where I had just some head knowledge that He loved me. Although in time past I have experienced His love in undeniable ways, it had been a while since such an experience moved me. So I was lead to go on this journey. So far, I’ve come across a lot of things that point me in the right direction and only shows me that I’m in good company. Your post couldn’t be more timely. I’ll share a song with you that has moved me, hope you enjoy it. Yes, He loves us!

    https://youtu.be/OjkshFIfz5g

  104. “Radical trust.” Yes! That’s exactly what we need to have! Radical trust – incomprehensible, un-looked-for, impossible-to-explain, trust. Because safe, explainable, understandable trust has gotten. us. nowhere.

    It is time for us to trust in God in a new way. Because the old way, simply said, is bupkis! It didn’t work. It is the reason we have the world we have right now!

    Radical trust. Thank you for pointing this out!

  105. KEEP BEING YOU! Your posts are inspiring, full of faith, but most of all full of love. The world needs this. The world needs more like you. To put yourself out on social media and admitting your weaknesses and celebrating your strengths is inspiring to many of us.

    Unfortunately there is so much hate in this world. There are many out there attempting to spread it as wide and far as possible. We are the defense of that.

    Don’t let anyone or anything rob you of your love and faith in God. We have are moments we question ourselves, but we know the truth and He is the truth.

    The haters will hate. The faithful will prevail. But light of hope, which you are to many, will shine forever.

    God Bless and keep up the GREAT work.

  106. I’m so sorry for what happened. I’m glad you haven’t stopped blogging.
    I used to do a “Saturday Silly” post where I would post a joke or story or some such that struck me as funny. I always weighed it through God’s eyes and tried to make it relevant to our Christian walk. I posted one innocuous, funny “Silly.” The vitriol generated was astounding and amazing. I deleted the post, and I stopped the series.
    Looking back on that experience, I realize, though I truly don’t know why, that I somehow touched a nerve and the anonymity of the internet allows, and through many mediums, encourages the responses. Sadly, your post did the same thing.
    I applaud your courage in opening yourself up to your readers. Your posts are real and honest. Your thoughts are YOURS, and YOU are allowed to have them, and even though others are allowed to have their thoughts too, they are not (and should not) be allowed to control or vilify you for your thoughts and feelings.
    I’m glad you are still here. I feel you are performing a much-needed enrichment to the lives of others, from those who have walked in your shoes, to those who have watched and tried to help others like yourself, to those who are hurting and lost and desperately need the Lord.
    Thank you for what you are doing, for what you will do and for who you are. May God richly bless you in your ministry and life.
    Blessings~

    1. Thanks so much for this, friend. Yeah especially with the written word, people can sometimes take things the wrong way since you came communicate tone of voice in HTML. Sorry that you also know that first hand. Thanks for your encouragement. Means a lot. Hugs and love xox

  107. HEYYYYYY CARALYN! Its okay. We love you. You are loved! You are…loved, love. Be you. Just be Yellow this week. Return to your first love – Jesus. Return to your closest friend -the Holy Spirit. Just return to the arms of big brother J.C (Jesus). Just return and rest. Look forward to friday night adoration where you let go of trying to become and just be. Just be Caralyn. Just be! No need to apologize as well. Hugs!

    1. HEYYYYYY ISH! haha thank you so much. I do feel that love, so thank you with all my heart! You’re so right! Jesus is our first love 🙂 have a great day! Hugs and love xox

  108. My dear friend… (: (pardon my lateness to the party, today is my ‘catch up with Caralyn’ day ;D)

    I hope that you do not believe any of those things said about you; the truth is, even deeper than anyone’s opinions ( your own included 🙂 ) you are a child of God. Absolutely there is a curse on your body – there is a curse on every human body since the fall (this is why there is one more restoration yet needed in which our bodies will be made new!) – but you are not your body. You are not cursed. You are loved and adored by Papa; it is not your faith that saved you and brought you here but Jesus’ faith and faithfulness to you and this leaves absolutely nothing in question. And back to the note of love let me just remind you Caralyn, the ‘unfailing’ part is not a pre-requisite condition for you to meet, it is the nature of his love, as in, his love will never fail you my friend, no matter where you do or don’t fail [= may Father’s peace surrounding you become so tangible today that your worries, doubts, and anger fade away in the depths of that unfailing love <3

    1. Hey Carson! Haha awww you’re kind to catch up with me! 🙂 this is such a powerful perspective – you’re absolutely: our identity is a child a God. First and foremost. Thanks for this wonderful response. Means the world. Hugs and love xox

  109. Oh my dear friend 💞💞. I’m so sorry to hear that people attacked you with such vitriol 💐💐. That kind of behavior is despicable and those who perpetrate it are *not* following Jesus. Personally, I thought the post you wrote was from nowhere if not a place of Love and common sense 💜💞💜. I simply don’t see the logic or compassion in horrid attacks like that. Praying for healing and peace! Sending you much love 😘😘❤️💗💓🌷🌟

  110. I have always found your posts to be written with a true Christian spirit. I admire your honesty and your integrity, and was truly distressed that anyone would attack you personally on account of your words. You have my prayers, little sister.

  111. Always remember not only do you have (32,000+) strongly supporting you, but there is really only ONE that matters and I am quite certain He is well pleased. May you continue to slay like David (for what is noble and true.) Hugs & Blessings, dear one.

    1. That is so true Dawn. my favorite quote growing up was “we play for an audience of one.” To Him be the glory. thanks for your encouragement. means the world. Hugs and love xox

  112. Dear BBB,

    I missed your post, but I am sure you spoke your heart. You can’t make everyone happy. That is the truth. Take the positive and negatives for what they are,

    Gary

    On Thu, Oct 5, 2017 at 4:01 PM BeautyBeyondBones wrote:

    > beautybeyondbones posted: “Confession: It’s less than 30 minutes before > this post is supposed to go “live,” and I’m still staring at a blank > screen. After Monday’s post, I’ve been, underwhelmed to say the least, to > sit down and pour my heart out in an emotional and spiritually upl” >

  113. This is beautiful and amazing. Sometimes my mind can’t comprehend God’s love… it’s mind blowing!

  114. When people respond to your honest, heartfelt words with hatred and name calling, they have a problem! Not you … your blog is thoughtful, thought-provoking, and inspiring. Keep on sharing … and thank you for visiting JanBeek’s “Love One Another.” I think we are kindred spirits! 👍🏽❤️

  115. I’m learning to believe and trust in God’s unfailing love for me…there are times I may question and even doubt things but I believe that’s a part of this journey. I also have to remind myself that if He’s gotten me through certain situations before, He can do it again. It was God’s love that restored my confidence and showed me that I am good enough (when I was younger, my self-esteem wasn’t good and caused me to get into toxic relationships).

    I encourage you to keep sharing your story because someone out there needs to hear it. Those that are offended/lash out wish that they had your strength and courage.

  116. God bless you. Thank you for stopping by my site; I thought I’d return the favor. You are such an inspiration about what our God Jesus Christ can do in a person. You are in my prayers.

  117. This is beautiful. My faith has been something I’ve found really hard to share through posts, as many people would just not “get it” and I feared being rejected. But really when I look back at my recovery from anorexia, and now where my heart and passion for unconditionally loving and supporting others has come from, it’s from his unfailing love and utter grace. Thank you for sharing this!! xx

  118. They say we aren’t supposed to question God as to why we are out through what we are going through. I can’t help but ask but I know one day it will all make sense. Sometimes I want to fall but someone higher spiritually wont allow me to do so. I truly believe that our blessings our coming in due time but we have to have faith and trust! God blesses the ones who fight to keep their faith and even at our darkest moments we are still being loved!

  119. I had to go back a read the post you are talking about. I may not agree 100% with what you said but there is no place for name calling or hatred toward you. I am sorry that happened to you. It hurts, I know. Keep being you and speaking in truth and love and let the rest go. It’s not your problem if others have an issue with your views. Not everyone will like what you write. And that’s okay. Continue to write for His glory. God bless.

  120. Being vulnerable is exceptionally difficult… but remembering one’s place before the Maker is worth it. The Maker who came in the most vulnerable form he could have come and gave his life to offer healing for humanity’s sicknesses. I pray that grace and peace will be yours as you continue to meander with the Great Shepherd. — ES

  121. Isn’t it strange and funny how so many people feel free to make judgments on others (you are cursed because you are ……….) as if they themselves are pure and sinless and have never done anything which is worthy of God’s anger themselves?

    How is it that we grow up in such an atmosphere in which God is presented as the constantly angry Deity rather than loving Father? I sense in your posts that you and I are terribly alike in our struggles to understand that Our Father loves us and is on our side.

    BTW – I say this without any hidden intent. You are a pretty girl and very intelligent. Love yourself – as our Father love you. Don’t let the negative people get to you.

  122. Really very nice to read your words.
    When the whole world unhands you the hands of God reach to hold your staggering steps.
    Every love can be the bed of thorns in the rose but the love of God is unfailing, can never do anything wrong with their children.

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