Unfailing Love

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Confession: It’s less than 30 minutes before this post is supposed to go “live,” and I’m still staring at a blank screen.

After Monday’s post, I’ve been, underwhelmed to say the least, to sit down and pour my heart out in an emotional and spiritually uplifting post.

The response, and rather – the backlash – from the post, brought out, some not-so-nice words, to put it lightly. My faith was questioned. I was told I was cursed by God – and that my singleness, infertility and history with anorexia were all signs of said curse. I was called names that would make a sailor blush. (All of said comments have been removed.)

And to be honest, I’m just not, really, feeling the whole emotional vulnerability thing tonight.

And I get that I put out a piece that garnered a lot of feelings from a lot of people, and I did expect that type of response. And frankly, negative feedback comes with the territory of putting yourself on the internet – I completely understand that and am ready to take a few hits. But I guess I wasn’t really expecting it to get that personal.

But: I’m sorry if the piece was offensive to you. Truly, my sincerest apology. I was seeking to merely start a healthy, respectful dialogue. Nothing more, and if my words hit a place of sensitivity, then please accept my apology.

So tonight, I thought I’d share my favorite excerpt from my book, Bloom: A Journal by BeautyBeyondBones.

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“May Your gracious Spirit lead me forward on a firm footing…Let me hear of Your unfailing love to me in the morning for I am trusting You.” Ps 143:10

“Your unfailing love” That made me scoff. Unfailing love was for “Becky with the good hair.” It was for the choir singers. The do-gooders. Not me. Not the liar. Not the dirty anorexic. All I could see when I looked in the mirror was failure. How could a God with unfailing love, even consider loving a girl that she, herself, was an utter failure? It seemed out of the realm of possibility.

There’s a term I’ve come to lean on. It started in recovery, and since then, has expanded to other areas of my life: Radical Trust. It’s radical because it just doesn’ make any sense. It’s an extreme move.

God, I’m just going to go for it and trust You. Your love and graciousness is unfathomable, and I cannot comprehend how good You really are, so I’m going to be bold and trust You. Be radical and trust that You are going to help me through this incredibly hard and scary season of my life. Turst that You really will give me firm footing and that You really do love me.

Do you believe in His unfailing love to you? Hearing that, how does it make you feel? Can you trust Him? What could happen if you were to trust Him?

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398 thoughts on “Unfailing Love”

  1. I was one who made harsh comments and I regret how harsh I was. I’m sorry. I got swept up in an emotional reaction and while I stand by the content of the statement I made, I wish I’d expressed it in a different, more gentle way.

    In your post you used the word heartless… That’s combative, extreme language. I appreciate the desire for healthy debate, but your language set a tone that was divisive and judgemental. I’m not excusing my response or anyone else’s – we are all responsible for our own reactions, no matter what anyone says. However, if you honestly meant to spur healthy debate, I’d advise a “healthier” tone next time, and not one so steeped in vitriol.

    Many advocates for gun policy reform are themselves victims of gun violence or have lost loved ones to gun violence. Action and compassion are inextricably linked.

    I will still unsubscribe, but I wish you well in your journey and once again offer my apology for the harsh comment on Tuesday.

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    1. Hi friend, it’s completely okay, and honestly I was not referring at all to our exchange. Disagreeing is okay, and honestly, having an honest and open and respectful dialogue is healthy and it can foster understanding and healing. So I am all for it, and knew that it was going to be met with a lot of differing opinions and beliefs. And I think a lot of it was an extreme emotional reaction by people. Our country was in a state of shock and fear, and that can lead people to do and say a lot of things they wouldn’t typically say – or at least express in such a way. And finding someone or something to blame is a way to alleviate that fear, so I get it. Thanks for offering this perspective for me to think and pray about. Again, I’ll be sad to see you go, but I hope to see you around the blogosphere 🙂 big hugs to you xo

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  2. I have learned that it is impossible to please everyone, so I stopped trying. I must please God and myself. Everyone else is just gravy. God is love, if you let him he will take you all the way home to Heaven, he has already done all of the work of salvation. If you want him, it is impossible to mess that up!
    Ignore the grumpy Gertrudes in your life that only want you to fail, so that they can feel better about themselves.
    Love ya

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  3. I don’t know what is happening Caralyn, three attempts at posting didn’t work. Here goes again.

    Hi Caralyn. I am saddened to hear that you received a lot of backlash and criticism from your previous post. I thought something was up, because I never got a hug back from you after my comments. And your hugs are always so warm and loving, with Christ in the centre, I love them.
    I read some of the negativity thrown your way, particularly the one you mentioned in your post today, that was an attack against you from the enemy in his pit. When you are doing something good, talking about Jesus, and the Life He will give people, attacks do come.
    Honestly, I literally felt sick when I read that comment, as well as disgusted. If I did not know God personally, know His Word, know His Son as my Saviour, and know the work of the Holy Spirit in my life, ( and from your writing and sharing, I know that you know the same Triune God as I do, and worship Him), and if I thought the person who wrote those sickening, disgusting words of curse against you was a Christian, I would want no part of the god that person is following, because it certainly is not the GOD of the Bible.
    Caralyn, I continue to pray for you, particularly now, and asking Jesus to protect your mind, body, soul and spirit. I am praying for all curses spoken against you to be removed, in The Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, and that His Shed Blood would cleanse, and wipe every evil thought and word away that was sent towards you.
    You are a Light in the darkness Caralyn, with the Light of Christ shining forth from you to shine back to Him, through your words and life,

    God Bless you my Good Friend,
    Luv you a bunch. 😀🌹❤️
    George.

    P.s. your book arrived Tuesday, so I will be getting to reading it, and passing it on to a friend in need. Thank you,

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    1. Oh wow, George, this is such a lovely and encouraging comment. thank you so much. I am truly touched, and i’m just sitting here smiling, grateful for the friend I have in you. You always know just what to say to brighten my day. Yeah, it was a bit of a sobering dose of reality after publishing that. But you’re right – that is not the God of the bible, and praise Jesus that God is loving and compassionate and accepts us with all our flaws and has only good plans for us. He doesn’t promise that it will be pain free, but even in the pain, we have the opportunity to grow closer to the Father and cling to His goodness, and strengthen our faith. any who, thank you again for the beautiful and continued prayers for my family and I. I will keep you and your friend in need in my prayers. 🙂 Hugs and love xox

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  5. Unfortunately there are people who will attack you if you do not mirror their exact views. I follow Dr. Turley on Youtube and I think he said it well when he said it is NOT guns but a lack of morality and the presence of unbridled evil that is the heart of such events (I paraphrase). His point is that there are some, unfortunately, who wish to control everyone’s environment instead of teaching firm right and wrong, etc. I agree with you that gun control is not the answer. That does not mean I am a terrible person, nor are you. It means we are logical and critical thinkers. I’m sure my comment will be attacked by narrow minded control freaks bent on shutting down any free exchange of ideas that do not agree with their point of view. Stay strong. You are NOT under a curse. Life happens. We live in a fallen world. I’m glad to see you are not allowing anyone to put their broken crap on you, Sweet Caralyn.

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    1. Hi Melissa, thank you so much for this beautiful response. I’ll have to check out Dr. Turley’s videos. Sounds like a powerful speaker. And I love how you put that : a free exchange of ideas. That’s exactly right! we all are allowed to have our own opinions and perspectives, and when we can respectfully and openly have a dialogue about them, it really is a beautiful thing 🙂 thanks again, friend. Hugs and love xox

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  6. Yeah, i believe in the unfailing Love of God ❤ He breathed His breath into us..He continues to!He lifts us up. we fail, He continues to lift us up until He finishes His Art Work.. His Love, beyond comparison, beyond description.. Beyond ❤

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  7. Friend, I am so sorry to hear of the negative comments on your blog…that sounds so hurtful. Our political opinions about guns certainly do not relate to our relationship with God, with the health of our bodies, or our relationship status. I’m sorry you were wounded. It’s clear from your posts that you love the Lord, that He has healed your body from many things, and that you are gorgeous girl! I don’t see a curse ❤️.

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  8. Great post Carolyn. Negative comments I definitely can relate. I get them all the time from my blog & YouTube channel. Just continue to seek Christ for love, strength, and comfort. Also ignore the noise. Reminder: when people attack you like that including getting personal, they are led by demonic spirits. So keep the faith in Christ and have a blessed day.

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  9. People seem to get easily offended these days, there isn’t much of the ‘agree to disagree’ attitude. There’s no need to be that personal whatever your said. You’re awesome ok? ☺️

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  10. Your feelings were in your post, some words were stirring because of the pain you felt. Could it have been written in a different way, sure. I didn’t agree with everything, but I knew when you wrote it you FELT what you wrote. You were upset, and you were passionate. I know you didn’t mean any ill well, so I just answered you like I tend to do with talking about discussion stuff 🙂 and I’m glad we were able to talk about stuff more because of your post, cause I said, I always enjoy talking to you. 🙂

    And even if your words weren’t the best, cause no one is perfect, that DOES NOT give anyone else, the right to lash out at another person. Talking in a civil manner, sure. Talking with gentleness and kindness is better. Girl, you’re not perfect, and I’m sorry people lashed out the way they did. Cause, I firmly believe, if they had openly just said, “You know, what you said kinda hurt me. For…these reasons.” You would have talked. You would have furthered the discussion. No problems necessary. But we as believers just…struggle with that, for some reason I guess. It isn’t Christlike either.

    And I love how you wrote the piece you shared for your book, I can see it really helping others, and give glory to God. Praise His unfailing love. 🙂 ❤ thanks for sharing!

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    1. thanks so much for this thoughtful response, TR. Yeah, there’s something beautiful about an open dialogue where everyone can share and come together and learn from each other. you gave me so much powerful food for thought, and for that I am very grateful. hugs to you friend xo

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  13. Your previous post was not offensive, I’m surprised to hear there was negative reaction to it. Anyone wishing others to suffer, regardless of what they have done, is engaging in evil behavior. I pray that God reveals himself to these people. And this post is actually more uplifting than you imagine, because there’s nothing more uplifting than trusting God with our lives. 🙂

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  15. Love you as always! I am proud of you for writing what is on your heart, you put yourself out there. You are a hero and so not cursed I cannot tell you how wrong they are. Some people are just idiots, love, just ignore them and do your thing. You totally rock, beautiful! Hugs!😄❤

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  17. I don’t wish for that level of criticism to be left for you and I think it is magnificent that you can forgive that, even if you are required to delete the words in question from your blog. It is crushing that something such as your post is interrupted by thoughtlessness, especially when you are writing for many people and it distracts from what needs to be done for all of us. Twitter sends me emails with my most major tweets that have been by my way and I see you there from time to time, meaning that you’re prominent, along with others some of who I know and some I don’t. I’m a Canadian but of course, I feel tragedy and while I can never feel your same patriotism and love I understand what it means. Your blog’s valuable. I want to get what I think you have, a self-published ebook I understand, too, sometime soon when the timing is opportune.

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  19. Now you know, reading this got my blood boiling, that I had to write a word document before responding.
    1. Faith is between you and God.
    2. Only God knows the nature of someone’s heart, faith, and intentions. Therefore, no one is in the position to give reason why you are going through what you’ve been going through.
    3. Going through hardships is purification (Islam). People of faith gain wisdom rather than bemoan their condition. Benefits for example, this blog of yours which is so helpful and inspiring to many (myself included).
    4. Those who use foul language have limited vocabulary, and as such, offer them a dictionary.
    5. When people behave badly, it is not a reflection of you, but rather them.
    6. Don’t allow unhappy people to diminish your light.
    7. Keep shining. Keep smiling.

    “Rising to the top. Give it all you got.” – Keni Burke

    I shall descend from my soapbox now. xoxo

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  22. I am saddened to hear you have had hateful comments. You write beautiful posts. They won’t be for everyone. Having the courage to say what you are truly thinking is brave. Keep going and moving forward.

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  24. As saddened and shocked as I was about the news in Las Vegas, I purposely chose not to listen to the news or follow social media that day. It’s just too upsetting to me to listen to people take such a horrifying event and turn it into yet another political argument. Our nation wants tolerance for so many worthy causes, yet they don’t tolerate views that are in opposition to their own. It’s a very sad situation that people are continually turning to such hurtful remarks, I think if we would just slow down and take a minute, we would realize we’re not as divided as it appears.
    I’m so sorry for the personal attacks. All the best to you.

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  25. Hey, just wanted to let you know that you and your story are an inspiration. From what I’ve seen in my life, God uses the darkest parts of our lives to bless the people around us – and us too, ultimately. Like the story of Joseph. Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.”

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  26. James 1: 13 ~ When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone;

    Revelation 21:4 ~ He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

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  27. Tonight I need Jesus. I am glad you posted this about trust. I need to trust that He is here with His children. Not “up there” far away.

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  28. Hey Caralyn,
    You have a beautiful spirit and you couldn’t hurt a fly, as the saying goes. So many people take one phrase or one word out of what you say and blow it up and don’t see what you’re trying to say. I’ve experienced this myself. Don’t shrink back but don’t become what their response is, angry and bitter. You are definitely not those things. Your life is a tremendous testimony to God’s life in you. Keep shining!
    KEEP THE LIGHT ON!

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  32. I am so truly sorry, but remember Jesus said you are Blessed when people speak evil of you. The enemy is always going to send his agents to try to tear God’s children down but like when the false Prophet had been hired to curse Israel, God would not allow it because NO ONE can curse what God has Blessed and you my friend, ARE BLESSED and as with all attacks, a greater blessing is always on the other side. Love and Prayers!

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  34. Hi Carolyn, I was very glad to hear apologies come your way, and not just because I was cheering at what you wrote, but because we are all entitled to our opinion without verbal abuse. The Bible is the record of Jesus words and Jesus by His own admission is the light of the world. The light declares that the evil in the world is what proceeds from men’s hearts, therein lies the problem. Just continue to speak the truth girl and leave the response up to God.

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  35. You are beautiful on both the inside and outside. When you are a high profile person as you are then there will be people who wish they could be like you but compensate for the fact that’s not possible by being hurtful to try and build up their own lack of self-worth. It’s a human trait that’s depressing but you have to realize these kind of people are to be pitied because they have issues they seem to be unable to cope with so lash out. The important thing is to have a clear understanding of your own worth. You are valued by so many, and specially by God. So put on your best smile, look in the mirror and tell yourself, “I have value and I’m loved!” You will walk away with a spring in your step. 🙂

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    1. aw, Ian, thank you so much for your kind and affirming words. it seriously means the world. Yes! that is a great way to wake up in the morning 🙂 Going to start that little affirmation exercise tomorrow 🙂 Hugs and love xox

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  36. I think we all sometimes over react to things we see and read. I also know from experience that not everyone agrees with what we put our there. However; we don’t really do it for their acceptance. We have to tell things the way we see them. I know that you are aware that we have all fallen short of what God would have preferred for us. I also know that we can have a restored relationship to our Heavenly Father through the sacrifice that Jesus made for us. It is so much more then just being saved from the fires of hell. He has given us ALL heavenly blessings in Christ, ALREADY! What a great privilege to be called a child of God and for him to know you as an individual. Not only that, he loved you from before you were born! He knew all the things that you would do, why you would do them, and how much it would mean to you. He loves you anyway. You are not cursed, but blessed. Enjoy your relationship with Jesus.

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  37. I haven’t had a chance to read your other post yet, but I absolutely LOVED your term, “Radical Trust” in this post 🙂 My family is going through that right now with God, and it’s amazing how vast and deep and wide His love is for us! I’m sorry for the hurtful comments you received with your other post. Please keep on writing and sharing your heart. God is using you, and your writing is a blessing and inspiration to so many!

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  38. When your identity is fully formed in Him, it will not matter what others think of you or say about you. Jesus was not moved from his intimacy with the Father by the attacks of the enemy and the slanderous minions. I used to want to make everyone happy, but then I got kicked out of a church for being pro-life, and I stopped caring what other people thought, because I knew I was being obedient to God. Also, if you learn to praise God when being attacked, it will cause the devil to stop inciting that behavior. The last thing he wants is to hear praise to God in the face of his actions 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much Jefferis, for this thoughtful response. That’s really great advice. And that’s actually what tonight’s post is about! 🙂 thanks for sharing your story. Hugs and love xox

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  39. It seems that you are a strong person after reading your post. We all have our stories and they truly are worth sharing, especially when they are as motivating as yours. Go girl! Thanks for the like ❤

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  40. Thank you for your courage and for your willingness to be honest with us. While people can be ugly and hateful it take a person who is empowered by the Grace of God to stand in the shadow of uglyness and respond with grace to those who have treated us with contempt. Continue to share the Love of God through your blog and testimony.

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  41. From the start of this month I’ve been on a journey: rediscovering the truth of God’s love for me. I had gotten to the point where I had just some head knowledge that He loved me. Although in time past I have experienced His love in undeniable ways, it had been a while since such an experience moved me. So I was lead to go on this journey. So far, I’ve come across a lot of things that point me in the right direction and only shows me that I’m in good company. Your post couldn’t be more timely. I’ll share a song with you that has moved me, hope you enjoy it. Yes, He loves us!

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  42. “Radical trust.” Yes! That’s exactly what we need to have! Radical trust – incomprehensible, un-looked-for, impossible-to-explain, trust. Because safe, explainable, understandable trust has gotten. us. nowhere.

    It is time for us to trust in God in a new way. Because the old way, simply said, is bupkis! It didn’t work. It is the reason we have the world we have right now!

    Radical trust. Thank you for pointing this out!

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  43. KEEP BEING YOU! Your posts are inspiring, full of faith, but most of all full of love. The world needs this. The world needs more like you. To put yourself out on social media and admitting your weaknesses and celebrating your strengths is inspiring to many of us.

    Unfortunately there is so much hate in this world. There are many out there attempting to spread it as wide and far as possible. We are the defense of that.

    Don’t let anyone or anything rob you of your love and faith in God. We have are moments we question ourselves, but we know the truth and He is the truth.

    The haters will hate. The faithful will prevail. But light of hope, which you are to many, will shine forever.

    God Bless and keep up the GREAT work.

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  44. I’m so sorry for what happened. I’m glad you haven’t stopped blogging.
    I used to do a “Saturday Silly” post where I would post a joke or story or some such that struck me as funny. I always weighed it through God’s eyes and tried to make it relevant to our Christian walk. I posted one innocuous, funny “Silly.” The vitriol generated was astounding and amazing. I deleted the post, and I stopped the series.
    Looking back on that experience, I realize, though I truly don’t know why, that I somehow touched a nerve and the anonymity of the internet allows, and through many mediums, encourages the responses. Sadly, your post did the same thing.
    I applaud your courage in opening yourself up to your readers. Your posts are real and honest. Your thoughts are YOURS, and YOU are allowed to have them, and even though others are allowed to have their thoughts too, they are not (and should not) be allowed to control or vilify you for your thoughts and feelings.
    I’m glad you are still here. I feel you are performing a much-needed enrichment to the lives of others, from those who have walked in your shoes, to those who have watched and tried to help others like yourself, to those who are hurting and lost and desperately need the Lord.
    Thank you for what you are doing, for what you will do and for who you are. May God richly bless you in your ministry and life.
    Blessings~

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    1. Thanks so much for this, friend. Yeah especially with the written word, people can sometimes take things the wrong way since you came communicate tone of voice in HTML. Sorry that you also know that first hand. Thanks for your encouragement. Means a lot. Hugs and love xox

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  45. HEYYYYYY CARALYN! Its okay. We love you. You are loved! You are…loved, love. Be you. Just be Yellow this week. Return to your first love – Jesus. Return to your closest friend -the Holy Spirit. Just return to the arms of big brother J.C (Jesus). Just return and rest. Look forward to friday night adoration where you let go of trying to become and just be. Just be Caralyn. Just be! No need to apologize as well. Hugs!

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  46. My dear friend… (: (pardon my lateness to the party, today is my ‘catch up with Caralyn’ day ;D)

    I hope that you do not believe any of those things said about you; the truth is, even deeper than anyone’s opinions ( your own included 🙂 ) you are a child of God. Absolutely there is a curse on your body – there is a curse on every human body since the fall (this is why there is one more restoration yet needed in which our bodies will be made new!) – but you are not your body. You are not cursed. You are loved and adored by Papa; it is not your faith that saved you and brought you here but Jesus’ faith and faithfulness to you and this leaves absolutely nothing in question. And back to the note of love let me just remind you Caralyn, the ‘unfailing’ part is not a pre-requisite condition for you to meet, it is the nature of his love, as in, his love will never fail you my friend, no matter where you do or don’t fail [= may Father’s peace surrounding you become so tangible today that your worries, doubts, and anger fade away in the depths of that unfailing love ❤

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    1. Hey Carson! Haha awww you’re kind to catch up with me! 🙂 this is such a powerful perspective – you’re absolutely: our identity is a child a God. First and foremost. Thanks for this wonderful response. Means the world. Hugs and love xox

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  47. Oh my dear friend 💞💞. I’m so sorry to hear that people attacked you with such vitriol 💐💐. That kind of behavior is despicable and those who perpetrate it are *not* following Jesus. Personally, I thought the post you wrote was from nowhere if not a place of Love and common sense 💜💞💜. I simply don’t see the logic or compassion in horrid attacks like that. Praying for healing and peace! Sending you much love 😘😘❤️💗💓🌷🌟

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  48. I have always found your posts to be written with a true Christian spirit. I admire your honesty and your integrity, and was truly distressed that anyone would attack you personally on account of your words. You have my prayers, little sister.

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  49. Always remember not only do you have (32,000+) strongly supporting you, but there is really only ONE that matters and I am quite certain He is well pleased. May you continue to slay like David (for what is noble and true.) Hugs & Blessings, dear one.

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  50. Dear BBB,

    I missed your post, but I am sure you spoke your heart. You can’t make everyone happy. That is the truth. Take the positive and negatives for what they are,

    Gary

    On Thu, Oct 5, 2017 at 4:01 PM BeautyBeyondBones wrote:

    > beautybeyondbones posted: “Confession: It’s less than 30 minutes before > this post is supposed to go “live,” and I’m still staring at a blank > screen. After Monday’s post, I’ve been, underwhelmed to say the least, to > sit down and pour my heart out in an emotional and spiritually upl” >

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