The Jig is Up!

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I was literally thisclose to disabling my blog this morning.

Thisclose.

I mean, for the first time, I think ever, I could literally feel my heart pounding in my chest.

And I don’t mean “literally” like an overdramatic and slightly basic Millennial.

I mean, I could literally physically feel the actual beats of my heart pounding, as though they were millimeters from busting through my chest.

Allow me to set the stage.

Tuesday morning. alarm goes off. I roll over to find a message pertaining to my professional acting page.

Hmm, I haven’t checked that in a while, let’s mosey on over there to see if it’s been updated. 

For those that don’t know, there is a website on the internet that is a rolodex of every actor and crew member in the business. It is used by industry professionals, as well as professional Netflix bingers, curious about the past work and personal information about any actor, A-list to Z-list.

Well, clearly, they’re letting in the riffraff, because as an actor, I too have a page on this website. I promise you it is not impressive, but a it’s a page none the less.

Well here’s the thing…much like Wikipedia, random people can add to/edit your page.

Yep…thaaaaat’s right. Random people can go on there and submit trivia facts, biographical information, photos, and in my desperately unfortunate situation…quotes.

And you guys. The quotes that whoever this troll pulled from my blog, taken out of context, make me look like the absolute spawn of Satan.

A quote about my virginity. A quote about my past anorexia. A quote about my menstruation history/infertility (which praise God is now false!). A quote about being “anti” feminist. A quote about voting for Donald Trump.

I mean, the fact that someone would comb through my entire blog to find the most damning sentences possible when taken out of context, and then submit them anonymously to make me look like a monster?! On my professional acting page??

Talk about starting a Tuesday off with a zinger. It wasn’t even 9am and I had cried more than Ashley Iconetti from the Bachelor.

And the best part about this big fiasco, is that all this was brought to my attention by a cute. boy. 

I know.

I KNOW.

I am reeling inside too.

So anyway. I nearly disabled this site.

This blog is obviously anonymous for a reason. I share things on here that are incredibly personal, and not that I’m going to withhold that information from someone, but come on…sharing your past of anorexia, or your menstruation history!??!???…That’s at least 5th or 6th date material. Preferably over a bottle (or 2) of wine. Or in a noisy atmosphere where they can’t really make out what you’re saying.

Juuuust kidding.

But this whole situation did get me thinking.

Who am I, if I cannot own up to my past?

Really?

Am I ashamed of who I am?

It was a very rubber-meets-the-road moment for me.

And I will pause, to preface and say that there’s a huge difference between disclosing this personal information with someone in the proper setting, versus having it blast out on the internet without one’s consent. I stand by that, and have since emailed that website to have them take down those quotes submitted by a malicious troll that should go back underneath the bridge from which they crawled.

But look. I’ve got a past. For better or for worse, I’ve got a lot of baggage in my trunk. (Note that I didn’t use the word junk…get it…junk…in the…) hehehe

But seriously. Yes, there are a lot of things that I’m not proud of. Yes, there are a lot of seasons filled with pain and regrettable behaviors and patterns. But all of those things have worked together to create the young woman you see today.

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And if I can’t own up to that, then who am I, really?

If I can’t accept my own past, how can I expect anyone else to?

The fact is, I’ve been forgiven. I’ve been healed. And I’ve been reborn.

Not from any of my doing. But from His.

And frankly, the young woman you see today is a living, breathing testimony of the glory, grace, mercy and power of God.

So you know what? Yeah. I do claim my past. 

Do I wish that some of the things I’ve said wouldn’t have been taken out of context? Yes. Do I have to shout out my past as the very first thing someone sees when they look at my professional bio? Absolutely not.

But I should never be ashamed of the journey God has taken me on. Because frankly, it has been one big process to destroy the persistent sin in my life: pride.

This morning, waking up I was mortified. Beside myself with shame and humiliation that such information would be the first thing that someone would read about me. As though my life could be deduced to a strategically biased soundbite.

And further, I was filled with rage at the malicious intent that someone would have to use my words against me, and manipulate them to tarnish my name and character by making me out to be a bigoted and abominable person.

This is my story. And I’ll be damned if I let some troll tell me that it’s something to be ashamed of.

Not today, Satan! Not today.

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368 thoughts on “The Jig is Up!”

  2. Hey Caralyn:
    I seem to continually be getting later each day in getting to your blog. A day late again, and I am sorry, because I look forward to reading your heart felt posts each Monday and Thursday. I am going to have to check and see what is eating my time.
    Anyway, I reckon that troll has no real life to be living, so he tries to upset someone else who is experiencing a good life, blessing many people, and sharing the Love of Christ, and His Gospel.

    As hard as it is, we really should be expecting these attacks, as you serve Jesus, you are invading the enemies territory. We know the enemy of our soul has many followers who will jump at the opportunity to serve him. They don’t even realize what they are doing, or who they are serving, and need our prayers.

    The Bible tells us all these things, and we see them coming to be more and more.
    Below are a few Scripture verses, where Jesus, Himself, tells us what to expect.

    Praying Protection of the Shed Blood of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus, the Christ, over you Caralyn, as well as a Hedge Of Protection around you.
    Also, there is a need to put the Armour of God on daily, since we do not fight against flesh and blood, but against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms, according to Ephesians 6:10-18.

    Starts with— Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
    —and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
    —take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
    —Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
    —And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

    John 16:33
    33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

    Mark 13:13
    13 Everyone will hate you because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved.

    Luke 6:22
    22 Blessed are you when people hate you,
    when they exclude you and insult you
    and reject your name as evil,
    because of the Son of Man.

    God Bless you Caralyn.
    Luv,
    😀❤️🌹😘

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    1. Hi George! Oh gosh, what kind words you always have for me. I hope you know how much your friendship and encouragement mean to me. You’re truly a blessing in my life. That’s a great way to put it…invading enemy territory. Thank you for the prayers. Yes – We’ve got to put on the armor of God every morning before we start the day!! That’s one of my favorite and most empowering verses. So encouraged by your thoughtful and heartfelt words. Thank you George. Much love to you xoxo

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  3. Good for you for claiming your past! Everyone has gone through things and made mistakes that have shaped them into who they are. It’s inspiring how accepting and proud you are of your current self! Trolls suck.

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    1. Thank you friend. Yes they certainly do. But that’s so true – those things have shaped who we are! Big hugs xox

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  4. I too, have a great amount of Pride to deal with. Jesus gave me mental illness for 10 years before I would surrender to Him. The people who reject me and you because of our past have greater problems than we do and we should pity them and pray for them.

    Jesus will turn this too, into your good.

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    1. Thank you so much James! I’m sorry that you can so personally relate. Yes – we must pray for them. God is good 🙂 Hugs and love xox

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  5. Scrolling a long way down to leave a comment I changed my words as ii noticed “sorry” a lot. I had a look at your front page as I do to all who leave a like on mine. I read to the end of “going to delete my blog” My instinct kicked in and I found myself wanting to know why and hoping you did not. Your story is funnily told, love that humour, and you come to the conclusion most apt, in my view. I also post the most personal items and had thought on your situation. Who are you, who am I, life is a beautiful thing, we live it and move on. Our truth is our truth, from the day we are born onwards, if we cannot own it, or some one else cannot live with it, so be it. To hide is not an option, I have been through so much and still learn about myself every day. Not every thing is as I would prefer but hey, Have a wonderful weekend and thank you for sharing. PEACE

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    1. Haha thank you. I really appreciate that. Yeah I love humor and what’s life if it’s not a little funny 🙂 I love that – to hide is not an option. 🙂 thanks again. Hugs and love xox

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  6. Dearest Beauty Beyond Bones, your name should actually be Beauty With Bravery.

    First of all, from a storytelling perspective, this post was top-notch. Who could resist the building tension? Haha

    Then there is the triumphant way that you end, and which you just reclaim who you are and remind us that you are redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ and He holds you and holds us all.

    Thank you. I also love that you are a writer in an actor. A hard road to walk, and I’m in the same boat 🙂

    Also, I’m in a non-cooking mode (a little too much Whole Foods hot bar and kombucha in my life right now), but I can’t wait to try some of these recipes 🙂

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    1. Oh gosh what a kind thing to say! I am seriously so touched. Thank you for the encouragement. Haha oh sand the Whole Foods salad bar – shooooot I am there at least 3x a week! Hahaha Hugs and love xox

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  7. You’ve moved outside of the box; that one where people are content in their sins & wickedness.
    The angry trolls are trying to pull you back into the box of sin.
    You’re fighting a spiritual battle being reflected in the real.
    Jesus nor the Apostles ever said the Christian life would be an easy one, Paul suffered beatings and stonings. In our day Christians are suffering death & dismemberment, humiliation and ridicule around the world.
    Your trolling incident could have profound implications, denying you work, a livelyhood, etc. You still have life though, and freedom, thousands of others lost both.

    So from your past, to your present, to your future; the Lord is prepping you for Himself, from seeing Him reflected in your life to you reaching others with the message and hope of salvation in Christ.
    You’re a work in progress kiddo, so God Bless you and whether you see it or not, may He bless your ministry.

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    1. Thank you friend for your encouraging words. You’re so right – I still have those important things. I appreciate that powerful perspective. hugs xo

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  8. While I may not be as “public” or “popular” (figuratively speaking) I can completely relate to the conflict of putting my authentic self out there for people who find value in my words and the fear someone would want to do harm for no other reason than the sick pleasure of harming a fellow human. Even something as simple as admitting I struggle with mental health could potentially prevent me from getting or keeping a job. It is faith in God and belief sharing my thoughts with others that keeps me going and outweighs the fear my ego creates. I wish you all the best!

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    1. Thank you Paul, I’m glad this resonates with you. Yeah, it was a crummy situation for sure. We’ve gotta keep on with the mission! 🙂 hugs

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  9. I appreciate your honesty. Being willing to take off the masks or not wear masks as much as possible, is a great thing. The fact that you are being targeted is not a bad thing. I speaks volumes. I have things I’m not proud of everyday, I’m thankful God is so merciful and gracious to His children who fall so far short.

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  10. I met a gal that looks almost identical to you. It was weird. A doppelganger moment. I saw her, and then I didn’t. Must have been your long-lost twin. Or not. Vicious about her god. I thought about rattling her up a little bit, but then I saw her go to town on some guys at the counter (a restaurant hostess), and I opted out of it momentarily. About how “I AM SAVED BECAUSE MY MOTHER PRAYED FOR ME!!!” She mentioned, backed away, then came back for more. Backed away and came back for more! I thought to myself, is this what Caralyn is like in person? I didn’t know. Where gods…or whatever??! And she was vicious. But looked very identical to you, I gotta admit. Stranger things than fiction, I suppose. Maybe you two would get along really well, but probably not!!!

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  11. I’m so glad you didn’t take down your blog! There’s always going to be haters-please don’t allow them to take from you but also be happy that you aren’t like them. We all have a past and choices we aren’t proud of. whatever they are, they have helped form us.

    A couple of years ago, I was so bogged down by deep regrets and thinking on all the giant mistakes I’d made that there wasn’t room for any joy. None! I spoke with one of my brothers and what he told me changed my life. This is what he said: “Learn from them and let them go. You’ve already lived the story. Stop opening the book and re-reading it.”
    Keep writing, keep learning, and keep sharing what you want to. You never know when your words might impact someone else for the better.- Ashleigh

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    2. aw thank you Ashleigh. I’m so sorry that you’ve been through something similar. Wowwwww what incredible advice your brother shared with you. Thank you for sharing that with me!! hugs x

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  12. I love this – (and thanks for your “like”)… “The fact is, I’ve been forgiven. I’ve been healed. And I’ve been reborn.
    Not from any of my doing. But from His.” – couldn’t agree more, and more people need to know and believe it. Thanks for your post, excellent – and never let anyone steal your CROWN. 💗🌺🙏🏻 xo-e

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  13. Wow, the enemy really wants to shut you down. First your video, now this. But don’t give in to the enemy. It’s obvious you are making a difference to a lot of people. I mean seriously, 37k followers?? That’s a huge impact. And it would be different if you were talking about random, non-specific stuff like dust bunnies or some nonsense like that but you’re sharing God’s love through your own experiences, being a witness and making a difference. Just remember, God knows your heart. He knows your intent and He will always bless those who honor Him. Not only that, He will always be for you so that no one can stand against. Keep fighting the Good Fight, sister! May God bless you and keep you!!

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    1. Thanks Ronny, yeah a bit worrisome, But amen – God knows our hearts and will defend us! hugs xo

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  14. Hey you! There’s nothing you’ve ever shared that has failed to heal, touch or make someone else more vulnerable, like you have been. You’ve done incredibly good things through your honesty and openness.

    Don’t let someone use his/her malice to make you forget your purpose, which is both from God and part of God’s plan for all who follow you. Trolls were around before the internet, they just never had a place to do their dirty work like they do now.

    But when you share your heart, you become a target; just part of the deal. I’m praying that you feel the raw admiration of so many who love you and all you do. Because in the balance, this troll is just a spec of dirt you sweep away.

    You’re awesome Caralyn. Your story (and ongoing stories) are being used powerfully, so celebrate with bubbly joy.

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    1. Gosh John thank you so much. What an incredibly kind note of encouragement. It really means a lot. God is good 🙂 Hugs and love xox

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  15. You didn’t deserve those comments Caralyn, unfortunately the platform from which they came, has no moral compass and from people who delight in using put downs to make themselves feel good. I say give them no power because you have a higher power living within you and when you are in God’s radar great things happen. Pay no attention to that smut because Jesus covers it all and heals it. God bless.

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  16. Another fine post. It’s too bad that someone wants to malign you, but such is the nature of humankind without God. As you know, the only opinion that really counts is the one God has of you.

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    1. Thank you so much Jay, I really appreciate your support. Amen! Audience of One! Hugs and love xox

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  18. I am so glad you didn’t delete your site!! Don’t worry about trolls like that. I can’t believe people will waste time doing hateful stuff like that. Your authenticity is what makes your blog so great!

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    1. Thank you so much JennyLynn. You’re kind to say that. Yeah gotta brush the trolls off! Hugs and love xox

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  20. Thank you for sharing this. Vulnerability is so risky… but in there’s so much confidence to be found in Christ. We don’t have to fear when people bring up our past. Thank you for being vulnerable.

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    1. Thank you Sheila. Amen – so much confidence to be found in Christ. Thank you for that beautiful reminder. Hugs and love xox

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  21. It boggles the mind that some people can be so petty/malicious/foolish/silly. I enjoyed your post and applaud your honesty and confidence . . . and [inspiring] faith. God bless. 🙂

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  22. Good for you. Keep being the you God intended and doing the good God intended. Don’t let this world silence you. You have a cloud of witnesses cheering you on. Hebrews 12ff

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    1. Thank you TJ. I appreciate this wonderful encouragement. Amen – god doesn’t make mistakes 🙂 Hugs and love xox

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  23. The physical heart pounding fear/shame feeling is the worst! I commend you for using this horrible circumstance to let God speak to you and deepen your character. I’m also glad you spoke out against this immature backlashing behavior. Keep vigilant and reminding yourself of who you are in Christ’s eyes to guard yourself from a resurgence of these feelings. I know from experience that extremely hurtful words aimed at the depth of who you are can leave you vulnerable to Satan’s attack. Because everyone’s worst fear is being perceived as the opposite kind of person that they are trying to be.
    As a bit of encouragement, I LOVE reading your blog. Every post shows me that you are a brave person because you aren’t afraid to share your story, faith, and convictions even if they conflict with current trends in our culture. Thank you for speak Gods truth in love without condemning others. I just wish others would give you the same treatment.

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    1. Thank you so much! Oh my goodness I am so encouraged by this beautiful comment. I’m sorry you can relate on such a personal level. Big hugs to you xox

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  24. Caralyn, you are doing such great work, getting people aware that eating disorders are real and can be so debilitating. Please don’t let someone that is obviously jealous of your accomplishments to get to you. It would be a shame if everyone loses because of one person’s actions. For this person to go through so much trouble there must be an underlying reason for their horrible actions that would make you feel sorry for them. I’m glad you have decided to hang in there and not let the turkeys get you down. If you did, that would be a sad day… 🙂 Hugs!

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  26. Precious One, you do such a great job sharing your heart and your wisdom! You are such a wonderful role model for young and old alike. That does not and will never mean you are perfect (I know you know that). It means you are committed to living an authentic life in Christ and you have a desire to continue to grow and let others be a part of that journey. That is HUGE and so refreshing! I am sorry that this guy did this to you but try not to think about it another moment. God will take care of your reputation and NOTHING and NO ONE can hinder what His purposes are for you. Stay strong and stand firm! People are only threatened by those that are making a difference in this world! Keep writing and inspiring! (((HUGS))) “The Lord your God who goes before you will Himself fight on your behalf…” Deut. 1:30

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    1. Oh gosh this touched my heart so much. Thank you so much for this amazing encouragement. Amen! He goes before us!! Hugs and love xox

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  27. I am so sorry, same old devil trying his same tricks that he has been trying to hit you and your blog with for a long time, but every time this happens, I have noticed that God ALWAYS expands your ministry, he is just trying to destroy something that he doesn’t have to power to destroy. “If GOD be for you, WHO can be against you?” God also promises that he will never let us be ashamed when we are trusting him with something, He will never let you down and PLEASE do not give up your blog, you never know how many lives you touch!

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    1. Thank you so much Nina. Amen – God will always have our backs. Thanks for the encouragement and your wonderful friendship! Hugs and love xox

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  28. You didn’t do the one thing that some would – kill your blog. That’s a huge step, in my opinion. And one that you weren’t afraid to take. The one thing that Satan wants us to do is give up. When we do that, he wins. You didn’t give up so that’s another battle that he’s lost. Good for you! 🙂

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  29. Sorry to hear that someone would use your openness about your personal struggles to try and tear you down, unfortunately, that is our fallen world. The reality is that nothing we post is anonymous and unless we are open to others knowing about something we should not post it. Your words, I am sure, have been a real inspiration for many that is why this blog is so successful. I would be one that would support you more because of this blog and because of your openness and if I knew you were in an upcoming movie or TV show, I would promote that others see it! So, don’t take those that disagree with you to heart! There will always be those that disagree and won’t like what you have to say, so what! Be true to the faith that you hold and the woman that God desires you to be. Prayers and peace!

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  30. I like the way you have evolved in your post. Keep it up! Having faith and focus on God let’s us do amazing things that we would have never dreamed of. Ignoring haters and cruel people is a by-product that happens naturally. Keep at it.

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  31. Internet trolls have always been my fear, but I have to trust and believe that there is a God who sits high and will fight my battles as well as yours.

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  32. Love this – and you’re right we all have a past and we are all saved only by His grace! Shame some people try and abuse your openness which has helped and will continue to help others! Glad you didn’t quit! Reminds me of Nehemiah – he had haters who constantly tried to undermine what he was building but they didn’t succeed! 🙂 xx

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    1. Aw thank you so much! I really appreciate your encouragement. Yeah i love how God always gives ya examples of how to overcome! Hugs and love xox

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  34. People are rediculous and obviously have way too much time on their hands. You’re amazing, your past screw ups are for you to judge, no-one else. That troll can get back under their bridge and stay there.
    😁
    This type of behaviour really angers me! I’m glad you’re continuing. Well done for rising above!

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  35. Oh Caralyn, I’m so sorry you had to go through this online bullying. It breaks my heart that people could want to do such awful things to others. I can only imagine what they are going through in their hearts to want to make others suffer. You are a wonderful woman, and a great daughter of God. Don’t ever let someone stop you from telling your testimony. Your story is being used to bring other women out of shame and bondage. How amazing is that!?
    Xoxo

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  36. Unbelievable! I don’t know which is worse, that he did this, or that the site set it up so he could do it. Anyone can change your profile? On a professional networking site? Gee, I can’t see any potential for abuse there. If LinkedIn did that, I don’t know what I’d do. I wouldn’t want to join under those terms. But if someone is considering hiring you, they always want to see your LI profile, so what do you do? I pray anyone who sees your profile will take that into account. Better yet, let them check out your blog to get the real picture.
    Now, there is one post I tried to comment on. Since my comments wouldn’t post, I posted on my blog. Don’t worry, I didn’t trash you. My goal was to speak the truth in love. If your comments on International Woman’s Day were the only thing I ever read of you, I would never have come back. And I would have believed everything this guy said or implied about you. Honesty has been a hallmark of your blog. You should keep being honest, but if it’s an angry post, maybe ask yourself, “What if this post was the only thing some people read of me? Is this how I would want to present myself? Will this be a good witness for Christ?”
    By the way, there IS an International Men’s Day. It’s November 19. AND every day other than IWD and Mother’s Day. I got the impression you didn’t know that.

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    1. Thank you so much David. I really appreciate your encouragement and support. I know – it is just bonkers that they allow that. Yeah that’s a great point that i should consider every time before I post anything. Hugs and love xox

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  37. Been there. Got. The. T-shirt. I have been a writer, artist, and “public figure” for 45-years. I have had experiences that would make a bishop kick out a stained glass window. Loved the line, “And frankly, the young woman you see today is a living, breathing testimony of the glory, grace, mercy and power of God.” Thank you for not abandoning your website. God did not bring you this far to drop you on your head. Everything happens for a reason. You are being tested for greater things.

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    1. Thanks Kevin. I’m sorry that you can so personally relate. I appreciate the encouragement. Hugs and love xox

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  38. OMG, what is wrong with people? Who does that?
    Sorry you had to go through that… It’s so inspiring and motivating to see how you overcome bad things in your life and even now and that is something that you really not be ashamed about. I also went through a very bad eating disorder in my teens and it’s a lifelong struggle, but this experience build us and made us stronger and this shitty person is just a weak and pathetic to do something like this.
    Sorry for the ramblings, lol.

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    2. I know! It was such a mean spirited demonstration. Thanks for sharing your story. Way to persevere, warrior! 🙂 Hugs and love xox

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  39. I must confess the last post of yours I’ve seen was the one about the online bullying… but to see what you make of the curve balls OUR FATHER lets the enemy throw right between your legs is very impressive and I am very proud of you!
    You are letting HIM prepare and train you for GREATNESS.
    I pray that you may always be capable of surrendering to HIS WILL in your life, to let HIM decide how much you are able to master at what times in your life and under HIS protection, guidance and with HIS help.
    You are SO going where and through what HE wants you to – it is clear to see from the outside, it is also clear to see that it is not pleasant at times, but you are a brave warrior and I am sure HE will reward you greatly for honoring and obeying HIM and for being a blessing and encouragement to many out there.
    GOD bless you!

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    1. Thank you so much friend for your prayers and encouragement. I think you’re right about that – God’s got me right where he wants me! Hugs and love xox

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  40. I can tell you this much, if you were not getting any flack from the “internet trolls” that is when I would be worried. Greatness and perseverance has always come with pushback. Victories over that pushback, make them that much sweeter. Keep doing what you are doing. You are beautiful inside and out! God Bless!

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  41. Almost every bible story has a great reversal where God took something intended by humans to be bad and interjected Himself and made it good. Just look at Esther, Job, Joseph, Daniel, Ruth and I could go on. I love that you did that with your thoughts on this post. You are so on track here – quit listening to all of those wrong voices and keep following the One that matters. Together – you’ve got this!

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    1. Thank you Gail. That’s so true – God works everything for Good and has shown us example after example in the Bible. Hugs and love xox

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  42. Sounds like there is a bit of jealousy towards your journey and so to build themselves up they have to tear you down. Thankfully you have way too much gumption and courage to let some trolls take control. Keep on doing what you’re doing and keep on sharing your truth.

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  43. I’m a comedian and have spelt a good 19 years in the public domain. I’ve never experienced anything quite like the incident you had here, but I can relate to how upsetting it would be. In more recent times I’ve chosen to be very open both in private and on stage about my acute mental health problems. What I’ve learned from that is the more open I am about such things the more control I have over it. So my advice would be to just keep going as you are. (John)

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    1. Thank you John for this great advice 🙂 I really appreciate it. And congrats on your awesome career!! Hugs and love xox

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  44. I am so glad you did not discontinue this blog it has been an encouragement to me & I think a lot of other people. Don’t let the hater’s get to you

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  45. It is a shame that people feel like they have to lash out and try to hurt others. I don’t understand that kind of thinking. I would assume they have a low self esteem and they try to build themselves up by cutting people down. But you are right, You are a new creature n Christ, the old is forgotten in Him and the new is perfect in His sight. So don’t worry about what others think, only what He thinks. Thinking of you and praying for blessings to pour out on you!

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  46. We cannot always help the evil others choose to do to us, but we can see God’s purpose in persecution. What was meant for evil, God means for good, so that many can be saved. You claim that past! Because like it or not, the history trolls like to take out of the context of redemption, is one so many of us identify with. I am encouraged by Christ through you!

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  47. Oh no! Don’t you ever! But in all seriousness, I am glad you didn’t. I don’t comment often, but I enjoy your posts. I’d hate to see you go.

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    1. Aw thanks Danielle 🙂 that seriously means so much!! I’m so glad you enjoy my blog! Big hugs friend xox

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